I was just looking at the notes for today's show, which I'm excited to talk about. And we're going to talk about crying and not crying, but crying as an analogy. What is that? What it is? Analogy. No, not an analogy. I, what's it called when you, make letters mean something. I forgot. but I'll remember, but I'm going to give you the word cry as an easy way to remember how to protect your energy and have an actual life as an entrepreneur and a business owner.So I thought cryI was a really, really good way to talk about it, but I'm sitting here looking at the notes of this and I'm looking at this being episode 45, I think. And I'm just kind of mind blown. Because I've wanted to have a podcast for nine years and the truth is I'm addicted to talking and I'm just addicted to talking because I've learned a lot lessons in my life.And I've had a lot of failures and successes. I've had way more failures than successes now that I think about it. And. You know, growing up and coming up in the world the way I, which I did. I know a lot of amazing people in my life that always swooped in at the right moment to kind of save me, but they were never family, you know, my, my core tribe of people, well, the people closest to me,  it wasn't really supportive.And so I kind of had to live life knowing that. There was a chance every day that I was going to end up in the ER or bumps and bruises and scrapes and bloody cuts. And there were times that I was okay with it. And there were times that I struggled with it. And there were so many moments.Situations that I can remember just thinking like, God, I wish somebody was here to help me, or I wish somebody told me this, or I wish I had a mentor or I wish I had somebody that shared this. This would have saved me this and I'm grateful. And so beyond grateful for the hardships. And I'm so beyond grateful for the lesson and truth is, is that I probably didn't learn the first time either because I repeated some of those mistakes, but I have a pretty high capacity for learning.So I tend to stack it in my favor, but you know, as I got older and I had a family and I got to, at this point in my life and I'm young, I'm 36 years old. I feel like I'm 80 given the life that I've lived. Something very important, you know, started ringing true to me, to where my life I was producing the same results.But I had mentors and I had people and friends and a tight knit family in my corner that could see me, see my greatness, see my potential and help me navigate, you know, pitfalls and help me navigate the things that I definitely couldn't see coming. And, you know, the analogy that I always use is from my dear friend, Jeff Spencer. And he's a absolute beast when it comes to coaching and mindset. He's an Olympian cyclists, he's responsible for over a hundred gold medals, with his coaching, like Olympic gold metals. And one thing that I always talk about all the time is that, you know, you can't name me one Olympian gold medalist that doesn't have a coach.And the truth is is that they don't need a coach. To perform it like to, to be that good, to have that skill, to have that drive. Right. They need it coach to help them navigate the things that they can't see. And coaches are there to be like, Hey, turn left, turn. Right. Don't hit that. Don't hit that pothole, just like navigators and rally car racing.And I think it's a really important concept because as entrepreneurs, what I've seen in just my short time as an entrepreneur , I mean, I've been in since I was 13, but we'll, we'll say since I was doing it and making a living be about 12, 13 years, I've learned a lot and I've seen a lot. And one of the things that I think is dangerous is like, it's this echo chamber, right? Where we share wins and we share our life and, and the way in which we want people to see it. But then when we're struggling, when things are hard, we're kind of in silence. And we're like, hoping that we can grind our way through the resistance or grind