Well, if you’ve been following me for a bit now, you know I’ve had some medical ‘things’ going on that I have mentioned a bit here and there. Well,  in this episode, I’m giving you the big update on it all and taking you along for the full journey.  As this episode is airing, I will be roughly 4 days post-op from a microdiscectomy on L-5-S1. A Lot of you know that I have had back problems for a LONG time and twice it has turned into big ass nerve pain starting from literally my ass to the bottom of my foot. Never in my life had I ever felt so much pain.  Surgery was NOT what I wasnted BUT it is what I needed. I had ehxausted all of my options and my body just wasn’t cooperating with me.  I had feared this moment would come and in my mind I knew recovering from back surgery at age 49 was probably going to be easier than recovering at 79.  Trust me whan I say ALL the feelings came out, especially over the last 5 months when it all started to go down hill. Anger, frustration, fear, anxiety, defeat, fear…did I say fear?!?! That was the one that held me back the most. And possibly pride. I didn’t want to give in to surgery, I wanted to heal without haiving to be opened up.  Well, in this podcast I give a little “pre-op” story that led me to the surgery and over the next few weeks and months, I will be taking you all on the journey of recovery. I have had many clients who have had set backs and, liek me, it IS the end of the world. It really isn’t but I was there and feeling sorry for myself and being severely pissed off because I was in a place in my fitness journey that I waskicking ass and taking names ( let me have my moment) THAT right there was a HUGE set back for me because I knew everything woul dhave to come to a dead stop and I’d be starting over AGAIN…but this time, my mindset is different and that is what I am sharing in this podcast.   I am human, just like you and I have had BIG feelings on all of this BUT I know I will make a kick ass come back and live to tell about it all.