I'll tell you this. And the truth, probably all bullshit. Probably all bullshit because here's the truth. I've been crying all morning. I have anger in my body. And so this is for me and I'm going to bring you along on the journey. And so before I do mindful Monday there's a couple things that I want to talk about. Number one, I'm going to come clean to all of you right now. So I post on Instagram. I talk about stories.And I tend to share the pretty version because when I share with you the full version it holds me accountable. It holds me accountable and I'm afraid to be seen. I'm afraid to post pictures of me working out without a hoodie on, because I'm not where I want to be. I'm afraid to show the aftermath of the breathwork because my soul felt like it was ripped open.The truth is as I've been afraid to be an influencer again, cause I had so many bad emotions and experiences back in the day. And so parts of me feel in congruent. And so I'm cleaning that up right now. And the other part of me that keeps coming up is this perfection mindset that I have that I can't show the world unless it's perfect.I can't give you the present unless every corner is taped, the bow is on and everything's there. And what I prevent myself from doing is growing. I prevent you from being on the journey and growing and seeing the process. And I keep holding myself stuck. And so I haven't been sharing about my breath work or my journaling or my stillness practices, because I keep saying I can't share them with you yet because who am I to teach them?I can't share them because I still have so much more ground to cover. Why would I share them when I still can't figure it out? And here's what I got to those thoughts and believing those thoughts are what make those thoughts. True. George. And so here I am today. Starting every Monday, going live with you for five to 10 to 15 minutes to talk about my mindfulness practices that we can do, because here's the thing.I don't care. If you're a coach, a consultant, a service provider, you work in a company, you own your own company, or you're an employee of somebody else's company. All of our success will come down to the internal game. And when I look at a scale. Zero to a hundred and a hundred percent. I'm meditating on top of a mountain with Beck, Tibet, and monks doing fire, breathing in the cold for 12 hours.I met like 1.1%, but I actually love my 1.1% and I'm going to be sharing more of all of the practices that. I'm pursuing to be on this journey with you, because here's the thing. I don't have all the fucking answers. I don't have your answers in any coach consultant program that says they have your answers is a red flag, like candy man in a van trying to kidnap you like run as far away as possible.Nobody has your answers. All of your answers are here, who you surround yourself with are people that hold space and see you or potential. And love you in your process for you to discover what it is that you want. And then when asked or prompted, give you tools or direction to help you run your best race.That's why I have coaches and teachers. Alex Charfen is one of my best friends, Stefano Stefanos, one of my best friends. Those are two human beings that I lean on immensely to help me navigate and vice versa. And so here I am coming clean. Today has been dog poop and I love it. I was sick last week.I had what would strep working out as my physical outlet to deal with stress. We're moving again today. I think for the seventh time in a couple of months, cause we're still trying to find permanent residents in Montana. We got business. I haven't two events next week back to back my mastermind for.Three days, a one day break, then a public event, the lighthouse business accelerated for three days. So I get anxiety flows, ticket sales expectation hangover for where I set myself up to fail. It's all coming up. And the biggest practice that I have right now. And the biggest thing I'm working on that I do not have