Shadows in the Twilight

By Kotra Siva Rama Krishna

When Sathapathi entered into his one hundredth year  hale and healthy without any problems that the age old people do have and can do all his works actively, he felt worried rather than feeling happy why his nature was not like all the other old people. The other worry he has was he might remain alive like that and never will die. He started writing his life as a book from the birthday of his one hundredth year till the day of his death on one hundred one birthday and he titled the book as 'Shadows in the Twilight'.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
• Release date: Dec 23, 2023
• ISBN: 9798223126898

Kotra Siva Rama Krishna

The twenty two romantic and suspense thrillers of this author ‘A Mansion Of Illusions (1,17,731 Words)’, ‘A village, a forest and an old mansion (1,13,049 Words)’, ‘Chasing butterflies (1,11,211 Words)’ ‘Across the river...under the bridge (1,02,739 Words)’, ‘Enna (1,03,119 Words)’ ‘Strawberry (1,11,700 Words)’ ‘Amaswitha (1,51,618 Words)’, ‘Sasikala (1,09,423 Words)’ ‘Just Relax! (1,15,793 Words)’, ‘ House of Delusions (1,18,530 Words)’ ‘Half Opened Doors (1,23,600 words)’ ‘Lovenest (50,565 Words)’, ‘Moonshine (51,427 Words)’ ‘Nirupama (51,675 Words)’, ‘Scarecrow (52,226 Words)’ ‘Rose Garden (62, 284 Words)’, ‘Dusk (53,856 Words)’, ‘Rain Flower (53,139 Words)’ ‘rustle In The leaves (3,52,000 words) and ‘Snow Flower’ (2,15,200 words), Wisps Of Smoke (3,20,500 words), Split Personality (3,30,000 words) along with a short stories book ‘Sand Dunes (24,973 Words) and two non-fiction books ‘Body, Mind And You (16,533 Words)’ and ‘English Grammar Simplifier (18,436 Words)’ are available as ebooks and paperbacks only on Amazon websites. The total word count of all these books is more than 29,00,000 (Twenty Nine Lakhs words). The same can be found by searching with author’s name ‘Kotra Siva Rama Krishna.’

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Chapter-1

The story starts from Chapter-2;

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The concept, plot, story, characters, names of the characters, names of the places and everything in this novel are only fiction and emerged only out of the imagination of this author. If anything in this novel even a small part of it resembles, similar or identical to any living or dead or to any literature, anywhere in the world even remotely it is only coincidental and this author has no knowledge whatsoever of it and cannot take any responsibility for the same.

About Me

I am an Indian English writer write mostly fiction books and so far I have written thirty nine books out of which thirty one books are romantic, psychological thrillers and the remaining two are non-fiction books, Body, Mind and You and English Grammar Simplifier. The word count of my books range from 15,000 to 3,50,000 and the total word count of all my books is more than 36,00,000 (Thirty Six Lakhs Words). I have a weakness, I don’t get the feeling that I wrote the book if someone else edits the same, so I am my own editor to all my books. As such there is a pretty chance that you may come across grammatical, verbal mistakes, incongruities and inconsistencies while going through my books, then please pardon me and go ahead. I am always open as much as possible when it comes to sexual narrations in my books as I think sex is very main and natural characteristic not just in human beings but in all other creatures also. So you can find sexual narrations in my books graphical, absolute and complete. My heart-felt thanks to all those who have been purchasing my books all along, encouraging me and supporting me.

The story briefly;

When Sathapathi entered into his one hundredth year  hale and healthy without any problems that the age old people do have and can do all his works actively, he felt worried rather than feeling happy why his nature was not like all the other old people. The other worry he has was he might remain alive like that and never will die. He started writing his life as a book from the birthday of his one hundredth year till the day of his death on one hundred one birthday and he titled the book as ‘Shadows in the Twilight’.

Chapter-2

The story starts from here:

How much time it takes to you to read that book? putting his right hand and right leg across her and kissing on her cheek Prathap asked Susmitha. I don’t want the time to be wasted like this for both of us.

It was just half an hour or so before they entered into the bedroom and from the moment she lied her back on the bed, she opened the book in her hands and started reading it

She turned her head and looking angrily into his face We are not newly wedded couple to you to feel like that. More than six months have passed after our marriage and almost every day we are having it. Even before our marriage also, we have it together occasionally.

For me you always appear as new. Even though I am having it everyday, it is just like I am having it for the first time. There came a mischievous smile onto his lips. "If you were in my place, you would have understood it better. 

Enough! I don’t want to do or contribute to anything until I complete this book on this day. Everyday you are disturbing me from doing that and today I am not going to allow it. Once again Susmitha put herself into the reading of the note book in her hands.

What that much in that notebook to read? Prathaphugged her even more and kissed once again perfunctorily on the same cheek.

If you do try something like this again..... Susmithareleased herself from him and got off from the bed. ...........just remember I never let you come near to me.

Oh, I just don’t know what to do! mocking a painful expression in his face Prathap said. Why cannot you try to understand?

I can understand that very well but you should understand one thing here. With a serious expression in her face Susmitha said looking into his face. Just because of gramps advice, I agreed to marry you and you must be grateful to him for that. He wanted me to read this book, he asked me to do that so let me do it. It is not going to be more than three or four hours to do that and once this book is completed I give you full freedom.

You give me full freedom to do everything I want? Prathap also mocked a serious expression in his face. Don’t be conservative like at most of the times?

Providing that you don’t disturb me while I am reading this book. The serious expression was just so in the face of Susmitha and she was still looking into the face of Prathap.

Okay then. Suddenly there came a small smile on the lips of Prathap. There is pleasure in waiting also. I promise that I don’t disturb you until you complete that book.

That’s a good boy. After saying so Susmitha slumped in the chair nearby to that bed and started reading the notebook in her hands.

It was the book written by a hundred years old man AnanthaSathapathiwho was one of the old person on whom she did research on the subject ‘psychology of old men’ to get her doctorate. He started writing this book on the first day after he entered into his hundredth year and continued writing it till the last day of his hundredth year on the night of which he died with heart attack. If he was alive on that night also, he would have entered into his one hundred one year.

That old man has written that book in present tense giving the reader the sense that the things were happening while the reader was reading this book. Susmitha read so many fiction books till that moment but it was the first book which had been written in such a way. She tried to read that book on some occasions before but she was disturbed by something or other and could not do that. That old man particular told her that he was writing a book about himself and his story and he wanted her to read that. He was the person contributed main for her research and who influenced her most than any other person. She developed special fascination, love and affection on him and at that time she decided to complete that book in all circumstances. That was why, even though she knew very well how she has to contribute with Prathap in that after reading of this book, she made such a promise to him only to keep him at bay and read this book without any disturbance.

While reading that book Susmitha has lost all the sense of time and completely involved in it. For the better understanding and enjoyment, she started reading that book from the very beginning once again.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT IS the time now but I woke up. I know it is the morning, morning of the day which I don’t want at all to come in my life but I know this also it certainly comes if I am alive! How much I wished not to alive to see this day! I have been wishing for the last ten years or so, every year not to see this day but seeing this. This day is more dreadful, more unwanted for me than any other day in the last ten years.

I am feeling the lukewarm touch of sunrays on my face through the window and it happens like this to me only when I sleep after eight also in the morning. The touch of sunrays like this to me is little irritating and in other times I would have opened my eyes and got off from the bed instantly but not on this day. I just don’t want to open my eyes and see the outside world now. I am with lot of irritation and depression and I am feeling surprise also thinking whether any other person would feel like me for a day like this in his life.

Happy birthday grandpa!

I just cannot remain closing my eyes like that once I felt heavy thump of my three years aged great granddaughter Sameera on my chest.

Please don’t say many more happy returns of this day also. I sighed heavily, hold my great granddaughter with both of my hands and shifted her weight to the left side of me. These hundred birthdays are more than enough for me.

I asked you not to disturb grandpa! my granddaughter in law Sukanya came into that room. Grandpa may want to sleep some more time.

I think it is already eight in the morning. I got off from the bed.

It is not yet eight, seven thirty. Sukanya came to me and put her both hands around my neck. If you want you may sleep some more time.

No, I don’t want to have this type of sleeping. I nodded my head in negation. I so much wish to have that deep forever sleep........

Oh, grandpa! Don’t talk like that. With gathered frowns looking into my face my Sukanyais saying. I can understand your feeling. But you very well know it is not in our hands.

I don’t want to say anything. Sukanya knows about my feeling and suffering and she is just trying to put my heart at ease.

You may better come downstairs grandpa. Still keeping her hold and breaking the silence that ensued Sukanyais saying. There is every reason that you can enjoy the whole of this day.

While we have been talking like that my granddaughter ran away from that place to downstairs again.

How do you forget that big reason which makes me always feel bad? I sighed heavily and am saying. Moreover you know the specialty of this birthday. I completed hundred years.

Why do you always think it as a negative factor? So many people do feel happy to live this long that too with this type of healthy body.

I am about to say something but before I say anything she is saying again. Moreover you have spent a very successful life! You have got that much success in your business and made your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren also to settle that beautifully in their lives. You are a pride to your parents, to your wife, to your children, in fact to all of us. I really wonder ever anyone can lead a life like you! You need to feel pride for yourself, for everything in your life and be grateful to god.

I don’t want to argue with her then. Yes, I really spent a wonderful life, quite successful in my life from the beginning to end and there were moments I felt pride and happy for that also. But for the last ten years, especially after I crossed my ninety years, my thinking and attitude regarding my life was changed. Why there came such a change in myself I cannot understand!

Alright, grandpa! If you want to spend some more time here itself, that is okay. But if you don’t come down in half an hour or so, I come here again and take you down with force.

I just remained staring at the retreating figure of Sukanya with a smile on my lips, slumped myself in the chair nearby to the bed, leaned back. 

I am trying not to remember, not to dwell on the past. I am trying to find something to think which would be pleasant to me at that time but just like a giant wave in the see forced a small boat into an unwanted direction, something is forcing my mind into my past to think about that and to dwell on that. It is not because anything bad and unfavorable in my past I don’t want to go into it. It is so sweet to me so good to me and just reminds me how much sweet and delicious times were passed in my life and that gives me a sort of pang! Even though my present life is not with difficulties and which is also enjoyable, it cannot give me that much enjoyment that much bliss as my past life did.

Your birth was accident and in an unexpected way! my mother quite often used to say. I was over the ninth month of course but doctor said that I can be admitted in the hospital after one week or so. But just in one day after his saying like that, suddenly I got pains and you took birth. Thank god! You took birth in the best way! If our servant maid has no experience in birthing babies, I don’t know what would have happened!

I always could see a twinkle in my mother’s eyes while saying that! There was a brother and sister before me and a brother me. Except me, all the other deliveries of my mother were in the hospital. In those days deliveries at homes were in fact quite usual, it was the midwives do the deliveries of the babies. But as our family was a rich family we could manage the deliveries in a hospital, that too in a best one. My birth also has been planned like that and unless it was sudden in an unexpected way like that, it would have been in a hospital probably in the one in which my other siblings took birth.

The first child of my parents, my elder brother was ten years or so old to me and his name was Yoganand. After leading life as a successful doctor, after making his both sons also doctors, he died at the age of his seventy five years. There was a gap of two years between my elder brother and my sister. My sister Thayaaru, just like all the other girls at that time was little educated and married at the age of twelve, gave three sons and two daughters to her family and died at the age of sixty leaving the responsibility of the marriages of her daughters to her husband. Anyhow all her children were settled in their lives. After eight years of my sister’s birth I born to my parents in the manner I above said. Chalapathi, my younger brother born after two years of my birth. In fact he took a sister also along with him as