Happiness Is No Charge 2: Target Your Emotions: Happiness Is No Charge, #2

By Stephen W. Barham

A person is out on a nice day but can't enjoy it because of all the negative emotions suppressing his Happiness. He feels out of sorts, not himself, like he is "unreal", a "pale version of himself", "lifeless"... then he has a thought, maybe there is help...

   If you are looking for help in stopping a negative emotion, or reducing the effects of an emotional state. Let someone with the problem teach you.

Emotion. The definition of the word is "energy in motion". E-motion. Emotion. The word came into use in 1579. This book is about this energy, and how to stop negative emotions, helping a person feel better sooner.

Everyone experiences negative emotions. This book is a summary of the author's 10 years of experience with, and research on, a technique that can reduce and even stop negative emotions and episodes, like fits and tantrums. It is based on 130 years of research and practice. Sigmund Freud ran into many cases where emotions were causing physical discomfort in many forms. Many of these concepts are presented.

What you should expect is to be able to take down, reduce, and even stop negative emotions and mitigate emotional states and even help with some physical things, even some psychological things. Many things are connected to emotions, some you may not realize.

In a short while, you can hold in your hands a technique that can help you reduce and even stop manifestations of Fits, and Tantrums, Anxiety and Panic Attacks, Hysteria, Depression and even Suicidal Episodes, and much more. The author has these conditions himself, many have stopped, or subsequent episodes have also been stopped.

It helps with past trauma, as well as present trauma.

Happiness is not lost, it is only covered with a type of "emotional mud". Now you can chip that mud away, and a level of Happiness can be restored.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Stephen W. Barham
• Release date: Jun 12, 2019
• ISBN: 9781393948865

Stephen W. Barham

With a 2 year study of Psychosomatic Phenomena in the 70's, Steve Barham has been an Emotional Researcher since 2009. After 7 years of illness, ending in PTSD symptoms, he discovered a technique that stops negative emotions. He teaches this helpful technique in his "Happiness Is No Charge" books. Let a person who has the problems teach you.

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Acknowledgments

I WOULD LIKE TO ACKNOWLEDGE the following people for the help in using the technique and sharing their results and feedback.

My friend Dorothy whose experience in the mid 90’s helped validate much of the concepts of Psychosomatic Phenomena, and used this particular technique on many things.

My friend Sharen, who uses the technique on many things.

My friend Tara, who has Borderline Personality Disorder and who reports good benefit.

My friend Vera in Germany who had depression for nearly two decades, who reported benefit in the first week of doing the technique.

My friend Barbara, who had early childhood trauma and had no memory of things before age 6. The technique helped her remember an age five memory, and reduced many things, helping to show how trauma blocks memory, but the memory is still there.

Their experience with the technique helped validate many of the concepts and the validity of such a process on emotions directly.

You have my solemn and heartfelt gratitude.

Introduction

EMOTION. THE DEFINITION of the word is energy in motion. E-motion. Emotion. The word came into use in 1579. This book is about this energy, and how to stop negative emotions, helping a person feel better sooner.

It has been 8 years since my first book on Emotional Charge. In that time, I have learned a great many more things about emotions and This Thing Called Charge. Emotional Charge is just one form of our Mental Energy, or Mental Charge, and this is a portion of our overall Charge or Energy Load as a person. You might not be familiar with those terms or even the concept, but we will cover them. The technique I teach has to do with the energy of emotions. These are just several of the terms used.

To date, Feb. 2, 2019, I have used the technique around 3,600 times or more, nearly every day since around January or February of 2009. I was mistaken in my first book placing it at April or May of that year; it was actually before tax time.

This work is based on close to 9 years of notes, observations, realizations, and work with many people including myself. It continues on the lines of work done by many other people such as Sigmund Freud and his mentor, Dr. Josef Breuer and many, many researchers and practitioners. There is over 130 years of research and practice behind much of this knowledge. I am just the discoverer of this particular technique.

As every day brings its situations into play, we are struck or affected by the emotions involved in the events. Most of us do not know what to do with emotions, other than to push them off to the side and ignore them. Nor have we really been taught what to do with them. This technique allows a person to stop negative emotions by realizing them, and processing them. This action discharges the emotional energy I mentioned.

It became apparent that there needed to be another book describing Charge as Charge, and not just Emotional Charge, what it is and what it does. How it affects us, etc. It became clear around November of 2016 that we are dealing with Shock and levels of Shock. Negative emotions come with a shock value, and can come out of a level of shock. So How to Deal with Shock and Trauma, became its own subject.

I will teach about it, and show how to use the technique on it in the second section of the book. The technique works very well on Shock, and relatively quickly. Shock is one of the things that are bothering us. As you will read, we target shock and negative emotions directly.

Generally, any time you see a statement like That is ___ Charge, that is a phrase you can do the technique with. Such as That is Shock Charge, would then be used with the technique. You will also see: That is _____ Charge, in quotes. This is meant to be a teaching concept, a realization about what a certain charge might be, so the reader gets the idea that this is something we know as a concept. That is Compulsive Pattern Charge for example.

As you will see, I capitalize the first letters of emotions, and in the phrase, and even the concept, as above. I debated and debated about capping or not capping for the longest time. It seemed more logical to use capitalization because this is labeling it. It is a name, not just a noun. I am still not sure as to whether it is proper or not. I did ask around at writing forums.

Well, as long as you know what I am doing with this, it should be fine. I have seen this done in other books. I also use shorter quotes as you can see. I often enclose terms in quotes, maybe for the first couple of times. This is to draw your attention to a term like Emotional Charge. Therefore, I will use caps in the phrase and the concepts, even a specific emotion, but might not if in a general discussion, just so you know.

When a person is in fear of their life, they might run. in a general statement.

When a person is in Fear, they might shake. This is an emotion as a state or label so I will use caps. I hope that makes sense. This is done in other books on emotions, thus I think it is a proper use.

When I talk about using a person’s name with the technique, and I give an example, I do not want to trigger people by using a real person’s name...let us use a fictitious alien name. Xox, I hope it is alien enough.

I tried to be neutral in my personalization with the work. Some people are sensitive to you, and may think I am trying to give people a suggestion, and so I use a person to talk about most things. When I use the word, you I mean to be speaking directly to you the reader, at least most of the time. For examples: A person may notice a sensation as opposed to When you have all of the elements, it can be rapid. I am talking to you as the reader there with information.

My original intention was to write two books in one, but it seemed broken up. It still does, however, two sections worked better, with subsections as centered headings; there are no chapters per se. These are topics within the sections. Some topics will pertain to both sections. I have done what I can to organize them, but they are not always in order of sequence, rather a separate topic within the framework.

They are from my notes. I have taken most of the dates out, and they are not necessarily in the order that they were written, as it would confuse people, though some recent topics have their dates. It made more sense to put related things together, not when I had a thought, or realization about something. I am giving you a summary of my research. This is not so much about the science of emotions, as it is about teaching you the technique and using it with conditions such as Anxiety and Depression.

In my work, in my descriptions, I sometimes backtrack and reiterate something as a lead into another piece of information or topic. It is a remnant from my note taking which was not always sequential. For instance, I might talk about green apples. Later I might lead into red apples, or some other green food, but reiterate about green apples as a lead in for the new topic. I hope it is not too redundant or boring. It was the only way to keep some things coherent. This gives you a reference point when I talk about a related topic, or return to an idea.

Why should you read this book from me? I have emotional problems and I use this technique to stop negative emotions. I have used the technique for 10 years now. I am a layperson, not a doctor. I did study for two years back in 1974. I got a certificate for completing a course, sort of a pop psychology course, as I explain later.

I am an emotional researcher who has stood at The Abyss a few times. The technique gave me a way to step away from it. I hope it can do the same for you. What you should expect is to be able to take down, reduce, and even stop negative emotions and mitigate emotional states and even help with some physical things, even some psychological things. Many things are connected to emotions, some you may not realize.

Taking down the emotion of Fear helps lessen a person’s Anxiety, for example. That is something you can expect. It may not get rid of Anxiety...but the associated emotions of Anxiety; the worries, fear, uncertainty, etc. those emotions can stop with the technique, which lessens the state. If you have another bout of worry, fear, or uncertainty, you can do the technique on that episode as well.

I know this is a very long book. Take it in chunks. Subtopics are usually closed at the end of their section. Not a bad place to take a rest.

I hope you get value and benefit from this work. I hope it helps you reduce trauma, and that you get betterment from using it.

If you have any problems, or questions with the technique, concepts, etc. just email me: [e-mail]. I will be happy to help you.

Sincerely,

Steve Barham

Section 1: This Thing Called Charge

An Introduction to My Work

THERE ARE MANY TYPES of Science. There are several ways to do Science. One is observe nature and experiment to mimic. One is; think, design, experiment, rethink, redesign, experiment, etc. One way of doing that is the Shotgun technique of many such experiments to find the most workable method to do something. Another is, discovery on the first try, then examine it, and explain how it works by observation, experimentation, experience, and tweaking.

That is what happened with this technique. I was having a problem, needed a solution, had a realization, and it worked the first time, a discovery as opposed to an invention. Meaning it must have already existed, and worked, it just needed finding. I did not come up with the technique. I did not take from several sources and put it together. (I had studied, so had some background.) I simply realized something about the emotional state I was in, and repeated my realization over and over again, and I noticed the results was the cessation of my negative emotional state, Irritation at the time.

Tons of data is already available on emotions. This is not a new science. I have simply tried to explain my technique within that observed data, with what I observe within myself. I tried to explain what I observed, and how I felt. I have discovered many things since, and added, or modified things as I went. The discovery of Shock along with Anger, and adding Shock to the phrase, and observing that it worked, which is all anyone really should care about: Results, is one such example.

There are many types of research, and researchers. There is experimental research. There is theoretical research. There is researching other research, for example. There is examination, and investigation, and testing... etc.

Science is not always 30 years of the Scientific Method. I should not have to reinvent the wheel or explain the total history of the wheel, and write volumes about each experiment, just because I discover a new aspect of wheel design. (You would drop off very fast). If we are to improve by thinking outside the box, then maybe we should accept that some research and science is, outside the box.

Keep an open mind. That does not mean my discovery is not within the field, or not connected, or does not validate previously published data. It does. It explains things very consistently, to my knowledge. Sigmund Freud and his mentor, Dr. Josef Breuer ran into this all the time. Carl Jung had these problems happen to himself. I only started to study things about them in the last two years or so.

On the surface, people may look at my work and think that this is all new and untried. They could not be more mistaken. My work is based on Dr. Sigmund Freud, and Dr. Breuer and research over the past 130 or so years. I simply discovered a new technique that directly targets, and reduces and stops negative emotions, and much of the shock and its effects on a person.

It was essentially an accident, because I personally had the problems. I had a realization one day about the fit of irritation I was in and I did this technique, and it worked, first time. It is a discovery, not an invention.

I did not read massive volumes of data for 30 years, testing out different ideas and paths, taking from this or that school of thought. While I do have a 2-year background in Psychosomatic Phenomena, I had forgotten much of it from 1976 to 2008, when I had one word came back to me from my studies from 1974-1976.

That one word was the word, Charge. I think it was December 4, 2008. I had a call from the place where I had studied Psychosomatic Phenomena. In the conversation, the person used the word Charge, I had not heard it used in this context for 32 years, and it hit me as important, and I commented on it, and had a realization about it, and it stuck in the back of my mind, but I did not discover the technique for about another month or so.

Everything we did was about getting at the Traumatic Charge of an episode. Getting at the Who, What, When, Where, How, and eventually the Why of it all with a targeted Talking Therapy. This was an extensive endeavor, and cost around 2000 dollars, and that was in 1974. What I studied was Freudian related methods of Traumatic Incident Reduction. You can look it up. There is a T.I.R.A. Traumatic Incident Reduction Association. They have a website. This is not where I studied, but they have much the same approach based on Freud’s Meta-psychology, Beyond Psychology. There is also an Applied Meta-psychology website. See the Bibliography.

I then had my realization around January or February of 2009. From that time, until I wrote Happiness Is No Charge, 2010, and did the DVD in 2011, I did not read anyone else’s works. I had the intention of doing this from scratch with only whatever I remembered coming back to me, to not taint the work, and relate it only to Charge, and the teaching of the technique, and only what was necessary to do that. Therefore, it is a short work.

The concepts are not new. It is written in my own words. I do not think I have plagiarized anyone. I am not a professional writer. I am not a professional practitioner of the mind. I was a Martial Arts Instructor. However, I had a background and an interest. I am a layman, in those terms.

Amateur astronomers find the most comets. The pros are doing Black Holes, and Dark Matter and Dark Energy studies. Nonprofessionals make discoveries too. I made a discovery, because I had the problem. Without emotional problems I probably would not have discovered the technique, certainly not if I had remained healthy.

I needed to learn a bit about the Limbic System of the brain, so did some research. To me, the physiology is reflecting what the mental is doing, like lighting up a switchboard. Which parts of the brain are active, does not tell you what the thoughts are exactly, only those areas that are used.

The Mind, and subconscious, is so much more than the physical structure would let on. You have a Speech Center, but for its size and shape, you can say so much more than that would indicate. My conclusion is, we are indeed more than the sum of our parts, and we do not always go in a straight line, or process, we can jump in leaps and bounds of insight and inspiration. We have epiphanies, where we just suddenly know, That will work. or, This is it!... That is how my discovery came about, it was an insight that it was not Irritation, but Irritation Charge, the Energy Load of the Irritation I was feeling. That was an epiphany... Aha! Eureka! I saw a connection, I then tried something out, and it worked: Thus, the technique. It is not the realization of the emotion, and naming it. It is the realization of the Emotional Charge, and labeling that.

I am not researching to discover a technique with science. I am researching a technique that already works that I discovered, and much science and previous research already supports. My job is to teach and explain the technique and concepts, and report my findings, theories, and observations and results.

If people that are more professional wish to experiment and verify, then that is their work. Einstein did not do all of his own experiments. He would theorize, and someone else did the science. An astronomer went out and did the actual experiment to verify his theory of gravity bends light.

Psychology already validates Step 1 of the technique: to name it. Look up: Why Saying Just One Word Can Calm Runaway Emotions, but that did not work for me. It took two other steps. It might work for a healthy person, but a person with some issues; it might take a couple of extra steps.

I discovered this technique first. I then started out to explain it in terms I understood. I would take walks. I would think about things. I would write down or do voice notes on my thoughts and realizations. Gradually, I built up a good explanation and examples of what it was, and what was going on with it, for my ability to do such a thing. I was still pretty out of it at times.

I purposely did not research other people’s works, especially in the beginning, over time I did run into articles. If I validated something, fine, if not, fine as well. If it did not validate something, maybe it can clarify an issue, or maybe it is a new contribution to the subject of emotions. There are many aspects to this type of work, and there are many approaches to science and research. One is that of the Independent Researcher, unbiased by traditions, schools of thought and authoritative edifices of education, not that I do not have respect for those, I just do not have access. I am an Independent Emotional Researcher, not connected to a university, college, or organization. That has advantages and disadvantages.

The book in your hand is pretty much an up to the minute volume of my 10 years of research and experience with the technique.

The Mathematics of Emotional Charge

THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO will never accept anything as a science or scientific, unless it contains Math. If it can be expressed mathematically then fine, it must be scientific, right? Fine.

A person is Happy. A person gets a load that gives him or her, a Positive Load. (Negative emotions are a positive load. There is a positive amount of mass there and is a positive number of units.) The technique dissipates said emotional load, and a rise back up in level is observed, a person feels better.

The technique works like this: Negativity is a weight, a burden. Let us say many of Life’s situations have put 1000 pounds on top of our fictitious alien friend, Xox. If Xox starts to remove 5 pounds here and five pounds there, soon he has only 900 pounds on him. Later, he has 800. In a little while, only 500, he is half way there. A while later, only 200 pounds are left, Xox feels much lighter, and better.

One day Xox notices it is mostly gone! Depression is like that 1000 pounds of weight. This technique takes that down. Now tomorrow Xox might get 20 pounds of weight put back on him...but at least it is not 1020 pounds total. Now it is only 20 pounds, and the technique can easily take care of that. I have a friend, who has used the technique. She said she felt lighter, after doing the technique on something that had been bothering her for some time. Feeling lighter is one of the eight ways we can tell the technique is working.

A person got a Charge added to them. We are subtracting that Charge, and the result is a rise in a person’s level of Happiness, a result. Pretty simple math, pretty simple logic: Elegant Science. Yes, this is a Science; there is math involved: Addition and Subtraction.

Science also measures... So, how do we measure this load? Answer: A device called a Skin Galvanometer. That is coming up.

It is Emotional

IF YOU WANT TO GET at the heart of, let us say, Anxiety symptoms, then target the main emotions of Anxiety. Anxiety is fear-based levels, mild to severe. Mild Concern and Worry to Stark Raving Terror... the thoughts come from the Emotions. The emotions are what are being triggered. A memory can also be triggered, reminded by a thought, or emotion.

We will be working a lot with Thought, Emotions and Memory, where thoughts and emotions, and much more, are stored. Anxiety is a good example of this process.

Uncertainty can be a big factor in Anxiety, as well as apprehension and anticipation of more stress. A person has a fear. A person would target the fear itself. It is not the situation. It is not the thoughts. It is the emotion behind them. An emotion has been triggered from memory. It is not an error in thinking as that is a symptom of the emotion. It is also not necessarily an error in emotion. That emotion may be dead on and correct, but still bother a person.

What kind of thoughts is a person who worries going to have? What kind of thoughts is a person who is angry going to have? What kind of thoughts is Terror going to give a person? Let alone Shame, Blame, Guilt, Grief, and Despondency. The thoughts stop when the emotion stops. This is because the thoughts come from the emotions concerning the situation. A person can observe this. As you may see when you try the technique on something.

The Purpose of Emotions

SOME PEOPLE SEE EMOTIONS as a weakness. They are not a weakness. They are an essential necessity. They are a big part of judgment and survival. They tell us in a visceral way what is good and bad, right and wrong, dark and light, and positive and negative, pleasant and unpleasant, beautiful and ugly, desirable and repugnant. They have a purpose, reason, goal, meaning, and value, and beyond mere survival, but the heights of enjoyment, friendship and caring: Love.

Some of the purposes of emotions are as follows:

1. Emotions are a gauge by which we can gauge a situation. Like a Tire Gauge, they tell us how much pressure we have on us.

2. Emotions provide a judgment in situations. Many choices and decisions are emotional. Some recent studies have shown that our decisions are actually made 10 seconds before we are conscious of them. This was a study, so one purpose of emotions is to help us in decision making. Which do you prefer? Preferences are often emotionally based, and driven.

3. Emotions give us expression in many different forms, including Art, and voice inflection for more expressions and meaning, as well as our facial expressions.

4. Emotions are a sensation, we not only feel them; we feel with them, a visceral sensation so we will notice them and act on them.

5. Emotions can be a symptom that something is wrong. Emotions can be a signal that there is something wrong. How do you tell if a child has a problem? Look at the expression. Look for the emotions. Freud ran into this. People had troubles and it was shown in their emotions. Many times the emotions were giving the problems.

6. Emotions are also a way of looking at the world, a point of view. They give us levels of perceiving things, but they are kind of a stuck way of seeing things, a Cynic for example. Cynicism as a way of looking at things all of the time would be a stuck viewpoint. Well, we actually have a much larger scale of emotions with which to view the world.

The Psychology question of the glass being half empty or half full, is to me a misnomer because to me it is a half a glass of water; a third way of looking at it, a fourth way would be to question it all together...Is it a glass of water, really? How do you know, prove it to me! the contrary way of looking at things by challenging it to begin with: the skeptic’s view so to speak, questioning every little thing.

Therefore, optimism and pessimism are not the only ways to be, or look at things. Realism is another way, I assume, Unrealistically is another way to look at things. Neutrally, might not be a bad way, but then there is Passionately and even Stoically, non-passionately...so there you go, and gee, that seems to be emotional.

We can look at things rationally, irrationally, emotionally, or non-emotionally, so called... logically, or illogically, also practical and impractical, I suppose as well. There are not just two ways to look at things. Just try not to be stuck in only one way, or mode of looking at things. Try to be more fluid and open minded and more open emotionally.

When you have negative emotions, use the technique. A person is having those emotions for a reason, and those emotions need to be understood and processed, or they get pushed down, and fester, and can manifest as a problem.

Each emotion is looking at something from its own point of view. A person in Anger comes from Anger. A person in Grief looks at things as loss. Apathy is a poor way to look at the world. Hate most certainly is. Always looking at the world in Fear is not a good way. Why? Negative emotions have been shown to have negative effects on the body as well as in the mind.

Looking at the world and things through Joy and Wonder would be a pretty good way, we think...but unrealistic, or inappropriate in other things. Always optimistic might have you always looking for the best solution, but the downside is it can be a fixation, be unrealistic, and lead to delusions. We always like to have Hope. Therefore, we want balance, and appropriate emotions, and responses to the situations, and not just a chronic way of feeling out of compulsion, or having our buttons pushed.

A chronic emotion or state sets up compulsive thinking. A stuck emotion fixates the point of view at that level. Mostly it appears to be any Anxiety on the issues. Everything will for the most part be seen through this emotional lens.

We break that cycle by processing the emotion, and things can become clearer. We do not do this by making a new pathway and rewriting a person’s programming. We do this by discharging the emotion that is in the way, which is creating this pattern of thought in the first place. A person is not reprogrammed, but can start with a cleaner slate at least, and make new decisions about things without the interference of negative emotions being in the way. This is just my thinking on this, but I observe this many times. Simply stopping the negative emotions can bring more clarity to the situation.

Timeline

A TIMELINE IS A DISPLAY of a list of events in chronological order. It is typically a graphic design showing a long bar labeled with dates alongside itself and usually events. – Definition from Wikipedia.

A person has a timeline from conception forward. This timeline contains all of the events that have happened to a person in their life. Birth is an event on a person’s timeline, for example. Moment by moment experiences are recorded. It just depends on how far back you can remember things. I remember moving into our first house. I remember arriving by car. I was bundled up for warmth. I remember the house, and its layout, and features. I may have been as young as two and a half, or three years old.

You can make a timeline for yourself. Draw a line, and cross marks where events occurred. If you do not remember a date, do not worry...just write down the events. Children do not always know dates. They remember events. That time when..., That time I..., That time my mother and I... for example. You might remember your age. I remember my mother teaching me to tie my shoes at around age 4: So, around 1957.

Well, this timeline is memory, and associations of events in your life. This is sequences...of sequences: Sequences that contain sequences of things. All the times you had breakfast. You might not remember them all. Around 5 years of age, I was the first in the house to get up, and I made the orange drink, Tang for breakfast. I got it ready, and I turned on the TV to start my day.

Your memories are on your timeline. How far back can you remember things? The reason I talk about this is, when a person does the technique on something sometimes a previous event comes up in memory. We are dealing with emotions and many times emotions that are in memory. When working with an emotion an earlier time we had that emotion can come to the surface. This is recall, and it is association. It is also re-stimulation, not only of the memory, but also of that emotion.

Make yourself a little timeline. Just as a small exercise, put down a few dates, and events you remember, say one event for every division: Toddler, Child, Teen, and Adult, just one event each to get the idea. Start with your current age group, and then work back.

My Illness: My Depression Story

MY STORY BEGINS PROBABLY in 1995 around December. I had suffered a small stroke. I was 42 at the time. So, some of my emotional centers in the brain were affected. I was more sensitive to things emotionally. More easily upset. It took me 10 years to stop stuttering. I had constant pressure above my right eye. I have a striation pattern in my right eye, in my vision that has gotten worse with time. I can still stutter when I get flustered, but in normal conversation, I do not any longer. That seemed to disappear in 2005.

I do not equate my later emotional problems to the stroke. Even at that time, I still had fairly good control over them, but was more susceptible. Sure, I could get angry, frustrated, and felt shyer, because I was not as confident as I would have been had I been healthy. Therefore, my confidence did suffer from the stroke. This was the beginning of my health problems. In my 30’s, I do not think I saw a doctor. The only things that bothered me were the occasional cold or flu.

I have been a martial arts instructor since 1973. I have meditated since 1981. Hence, it was not normal for me to be so upset, angry, and anxious, about things in general. I had learned pretty good discipline. What I think I noticed most was that I was very touchy. I did go to the doctors in 1997, I’d had a bad case of the flu, with a touch of bronchitis, for which I got some antibiotics. That fixed me right up, but I think this was the beginning of the problem.

In 2001, when something negative occurred, I began blowing up at things. That was not generally like me. I noticed that I was more and more touchy. I started exploding with anger, especially over computer problems. I think we are too attached to our computers, because they are an expensive piece of equipment. They are important to us, for work or play, and we just expect them and want them to work.

Well by 2002, I started having full-blown symptoms. I felt lousy physically. I had taken an excessive amount of over-the-counter pain reliever for many months because of working and back pain. This kills liver enzymes. So that was one problem that was bothering me physically and probably set me off emotionally.

Also in 2002, I was diagnosed with thyroid disease. I had a cyst. It was drained in January of 2003. So my thyroid was going out, and this was the beginning of my Graves' disease. Even after that, and even getting on thyroid medication, I still felt lousy. I still got flustered, angry, and upset and it was getting worse.

I won't go into the nightmare of Doctors, and the frustration that can result, but it was tremendous. I kept thinking there was something else wrong with me. I had back and neck pain. I had arthritic symptoms in my hands, and other joints. I figured I had nothing to lose by going to a chiropractor.

This chiropractor found two other underlying conditions that were hidden which no other doctor even suspected. Those two conditions were Candida Overgrowth, and Leaky Gut Syndrome. Candida Overgrowth is caused by antibiotic use. Antibiotics not only kill the bad bacteria but also good bacteria, and that can let the Candida Albacans bacteria overgrow. It is a yeast, and it is normal to have, it is in the air we all breathe, but when the good bacteria are killed off, it can grow wild. It becomes a fungus.

Over-the-counter painkillers can also contribute to that. The resultant fungus digs into the intestines, and leaves holes through which bowel matter can leak into the rest of the system, the bloodstream, and into the rest of the body, organs, the brain, etc. As a yeast, Candida can ferment, and make alcohol, and that goes directly to the liver, and to the brain.

This causes a state of confusion, commonly called Brain Fog. A person cannot think. I could not meditate under this condition of toxicity. So I could not relax using that method. Even listening to relaxation music, was difficult. I was in a state of extreme suffering. I did not just have brain fog; I had brain fire. You can imagine Cayenne Pepper in your brain. That is what it was like. That is also what it turned out to be.

When I ate spicy food, those spices went to the brain. So the Cayenne, or Tabasco Sauce, leaked into the bloodstream and went to the brain and irritated it. (A doctor will say the brain does not feel pain. Maybe not the brain itself, but the head sure can.) That is Leaky Gut Syndrome. There is a medical link between this, Thyroid Disease and Grave’s Disease.

My test for that was very positive. My test for Candida was very positive. My adrenal stress profile test was extremely positive, and off the chart, and all over the place, at different times of the day, and at the wrong times of the day. I had an extreme amount of Cortisol dumping into my system from the stress, the suffering, and this resulted in a great amount of anxiety, even panic. There was always an underlying tension, pressure, stress and anxiety level, as though you are anticipating Doomsday.

From 2002 until most likely January or February of 2009, as I mentioned earlier, I suffered with this. Many times, I was in a state of shock. The mental and physical trauma was great. The resultant overall depression, a feeling of helpless, hopelessness, was pervasive. Not much seemed to help, or work, even though I was over most of it by 2007, and even up to 2009, so seven years at that time.

I actually got the Candida back under control early on. After about 10 months of using Threelac, a probiotic made by a Japanese pharmaceutical company, in 2003-2004. It took another three years, until around 2007, to get the Leaky Gut Syndrome under control and my intestines re-thickened to the point where they would no longer leak.

I used Ultra Clear Plus and Intestinal Repair Complex. Pro Cortisol Balance, helped keep my Cortisol levels in check. It helped a bit. In 2007, my tests showed that my intestines were no longer leaking, and that the Candida was indeed under control. I took many, many supplements during those years, at one point 33 pills a day. This was all under the chiropractor. This was all supplements. There were no medical drugs used.

Those two conditions were stopped without any medical help. However, I am still living with the results. I have food sensitivities. Food additives still bother me a little, and oils bother my eyes mostly. I do not have soy, eggs, dairy, tomatoes, white potatoes, corn. I generally do not eat cookies, pies, cakes, pastries, candy, soda pop, and many other things. I generally only eat turkey meat, some fish, some vegetables, some berries, no fruits, mostly from sensitive teeth now, and some gluten-free cookies, which I like. I also have some different types of nuts. I used to eat everything.

This has changed over the years, recently I have had meals that are more normal at Potluck, but I make sure I have my digestive enzymes. I try to stay away from added Sugar, and do not use it at home much.

My emotional state during those times was one of raw sensitivity. Every little thing set me off. Every... little... thing. I would break down and cry after going to the doctor's office, not getting any help, and coming home, and calling them up for another appointment the following week. I would cry for 20 minutes nonstop. I would cry if I so much as dropped a slab of butter on the floor making toast, uncontrollably, inconsolably. I had many, many, and many, breakdowns like that over many different types of things.

My stress level and anxiety level were a 10+ and beyond, out there with Pluto. I could not teach my martial arts lessons. I would sit there, and watch my student go through his material, because I could not go through it with him as I normally would. We used to work out together. I was essentially incapable of doing that. If you have ever tried to work out when you have the flu, then you know what that is like.

It was the same with meditation. I could not do it. My mind would not focus, could not focus. I had absolutely no defense against any emotional state, so I went down further, and further, down the emotional stepladder. I went into a state of absolute raw sensitivity to a point where everything bothered me; everything disturbed me.

As most of you know, a person ends up in a state of hopelessness, because they are helpless, and there does not seem to be anybody out there who can help them, so there appears to be no hope, because there appears to be no help coming any time soon, no cavalry to the rescue.

So I was faced with it just continuing, and even the anti-depressants the doctor gave me were no help. I tried two of them... no help... I tried a $350 anti-anxiety course of 15 or so tapes. I sent them back, because they did not help me as much as a preacher on TV saying, Do not Poison Your Joy. However, even that little gem is not enough in the end. A person needs more help than just a little statement. We need a technique, one that will work on every negative emotion and negative mental state. It has to get at the source of the emotion, at the source of the mental state, at the source of the negativity. It turns out those are actually the same thing, believe it or not.

There are no atheists in foxholes was a saying in World War 2. I prayed for 7 years.

In January or February of 2009, I discovered such a technique. I have been doing this technique ever since, nearly every day on something. I have used this technique on many negative emotions. I have used it on general things, as well as specific things.

I have even had some small success with some physical things and some that have a psychological cause. Such as the pressure up behind my right eye from my stroke, which I still had in 2009. I did the technique on that and it went away, I no longer have that pressure, like a hardboiled egg, up behind my right eye. I believe it is because that perceived pressure was a psychological remnant from the stroke. An ‘overlay’, if you will.

I do not claim that this technique heals any medical condition. I do not claim that it cures cancer, diabetes, or will grow a lost limb. If you need a doctor, go to one. This is not a substitute for medical treatment. However, I have had some modest, small success, for some seemingly physical things. Not all things. Not my Graves' disease. Not my missing thyroid. However, this technique is really used for stopping negative emotions, which helps improve emotional states, and some other uses. That it does very well, and does it rather quickly. It is a simple, easy, quick, one, two, three step technique and a person can do it just about anywhere. It is a personal technique; a practitioner is not needed. No one can do this technique on you.

The first time I did the technique, it worked in less than a minute, on a fit of irritation. The second time I did the technique, it worked in about 2 1/2 minutes, on a fit of frustration. The third time, I lost my keys up at a park, and searched for 20 minutes, in a state of utter panic. I used the technique and it kept the negative emotions down enough so that I did not break down and just cry, cry, cry.

I did breakdown at one point, but the technique reduced it and I was able to continue, but was still distressed. When I finally found my keys, I was so relieved. However, I was still upset. I did the technique for about 5 to 7 minutes as I walked back home. By the time I got to the steps to unlock the door, I noticed that all of the upset had disappeared. I went inside and I did not think about it for the rest of the day. When I would normally have dwelt on it, and dwelt on it, for several hours at the very least. A person dwells on things; ruminates, over thinks, because something is still bothering them.

I have used this technique on many negative emotions, fear, shyness, hate, anger, distress, and other negative emotions. I have used it on negative states, Shock, Trauma, and Suffering. Tension is a state, it is a condition; it is a thing. Pressure is a state, it is a condition; it is something that is happening. Stress is a condition; it is something a person goes through. Anxiety is not just an irrational fear. It is a state of anxiousness, a type of nervousness, and has Fear as a basis. It can be a well-known fear, not just a fear that makes no sense. It is a state of apprehension at the very least, and a state of underlying desperation, close to panic, at a lower level. It is