Authentic Autistic Living
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Authentic Autistic Living is the second in Michelle Swan's 'Living Autistically' series. In this collection of short essays Michelle continues to explore ideas about how to live well after discovering she is Autistic. Navigating a world that often encourages conformity, reckless business, and putting the comfort of others first at almost
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Authentic Autistic Living - Michelle Swan
contents
introduction
burnout
anxiety
fear
stress
scared
overwhelmed
meltdown
shutdown
trauma
wonky
rest
flow
interests
indistinguishability
crying
disabled
identity
authentic
introduction
This book is the second of three in my series, Living Autistically. In the first, Fierce Autistic Heart
, I shared with you how I came to understand myself as Autistic, and began to learn to like myself. In this book I am sharing thoughts on living authentically as an Autistic person.
Authenticity is a prized characteristic. Popular psychology talks about authenticity often, and encourages us to be authentic at all costs… even sometimes in what I would call ruthless and unconsidered ways. I am not interested in living without intent, or in ways that may sabotage my desire to live well. So I have done a lot thinking on what it means for me to live authentically.
The world is a very noisy place, and there are a lot of very strong opinions available to us that, if we choose to, we can use to inform our decisions about what authenticity is. If we aren't very careful we can accidentally find ourselves merely copying what we think other people expect of us rather than actually identifying what is right for us.
Authenticity is an individual thing, not a group state.
For a neurodivergent person attempting to find our own state of authenticity in this very noisy world requires us to separate ourselves from mainstream thought and practice for long enough to get in touch with our own bodies unique needs and to experiment with our own self care practice.
I've written, in this book, some of my own experience and process of discovering how I can live authentically. I'm sharing it with you in the hope that there will be something here that helps you realise what authenticity can look like for you personally.
Michelle
burnout
I thought I was depressed. I was told by medical professionals that I had depression. Looking back now, I can easily recognise that what I was experiencing was autistic burn out. When I look back over the years of my young adulthood I can see clearly that burn out and I have co existed for quite some time.
There are periods where, in retrospect, it is quite obvious that I was burnt out. It didn’t occur to me at the time that my fantasies of walking out the door away from my life and never returning were symptoms of my lack of coping strategies. It didn’t seem so odd to me back then to think how nice it wold be to fall asleep and never wake again. Fortunately the time I found myself counting tablets I had both the good friends to support me and the good sense to call them.
There were times I battled on, sleeping on the sofa in the day time while the children played and watched tv, then laying awake at night wondering what my problem was and why I couldn’t just snap out of it.
Years have passed, and burn out is often close. I was for a time using anti depressant medication to help manage it. It only sort of worked.There is a combination of numbness and brain fog that comes with burn out, that means it’s so difficult to make decisions, and do just the basics of every day living, even though I might want to.
These days I can recognise the signs in myself and I have a plan and strategies I use to make sure I do not allow myself to fall back into the foggy hole that sometimes calls.
It might sound strange, but there are days when the effort to take care of myself is great and the temptation to slide away for a while is strong. It’s not that I like the fog, it just sometimes seems easier to go there than to fight it. I am careful to not get too close to the edge. I am careful not to flirt with it too much.
When I notice the signs I am moving closer, I limit my social exposure, I don’t push myself to maintain a perfect house, I make sure to write down the things that are bothering me so my mind can shelve them instead of lugging them around all the time taking up all my emotional energy, I talk to my trusted support people.
Many years ago a doctor told me that when you live with a lot of stress reactive depression is a normal and understandable response, but that I have so much insight and I cope so well. She says it would be more unexpected if I didn’t feel overwhelmed sometimes. And that might all be true, but the years have taught me that I cannot just snap