Surviving with ADHD
By Jiyeon Lee
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Surviving with ADHD.
I felt like I had a problem and sought psychological counseling and psychoanalysis, but there was a point that couldn't be resolved despite my efforts. I couldn't understand what the problem was and couldn't grasp it, and people criticized me and misunderstood me, making it difficult for me to socialize. It was only when I knocked on the door of psychiatry that I received a diagnosis of depression and ADHD and have been receiving treatment for almost two years.
During that process, I changed my work, relationships, and lifestyle, and understood that there was a problem with my brain function, not my mental state. I was able to overcome my self-hatred and misunderstandings. The relief of realizing that I wasn't a bad person, but a sick person, gave me the freedom to forgive myself and an opportunity to live a more comfortable life. I hope that those who don't understand their own "developmental disabilities" can find help to live a better life.
Jiyeon Lee
Escritor y traductor coreano Trabajé en el mundo corporativo durante 13 años y encontré que el dinero era una carga. Temía que tener dinero me convirtiera en un blanco de explotación y robo, y de hecho, sucedió. Las emociones sobre el dinero impactan significativamente la relación entre uno mismo y el dinero, y a menudo tenemos fantasías vagas sobre el dinero. Como alguien que era ignorante sobre el dinero, lo estudié, cambié mi perspectiva y documenté el proceso de transformar mis pensamientos. Espero que esto pueda ser útil para aquellos que están lidiando con preocupaciones relacionadas con el dinero.
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Surviving with ADHD - Jiyeon Lee
Surviving with ADHD
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Jiyeon Lee
While every precaution has been taken in the preparation of this book, the publisher assumes no responsibility for errors or omissions, or for damages resulting from the use of the information contained herein.
SURVIVING WITH ADHD
First edition. May 4, 2023.
Copyright © 2023 Jiyeon Lee.
ISBN: 979-8223200444
Written by Jiyeon Lee.
Also by Jiyeon Lee
I Have Adult ADHD
Surviving with ADHD
ADHD and Giftedness
ADHD로 살아남기
ADHD와 회사 생활
나는 성인 ADHD입니다
ADHD와 영재성
Tengo TDAH Adulto
我是成人ADHD
엄마 없는 ADHD 여자아이
Childhood ADHD Girl, without Mom
ADHD and Jobs
El TDAH y los empleos
ADHD and Marriage
ADHD와 결혼
ADHD와 거절
ADHD and Refusal
ADHS und Weigerung
마흔에 읽는 히브리서
Reading Hebrews at Forty
ADHD and Money
ADHD와 돈
마흔에 읽는 잠언
마흔에 읽는 갈라디아서
마흔에 읽는 누가복음
마흔에 읽는 전도서
마흔에 읽는 시편 I
마흔에 읽는 야고보서
Making Dollars through Translation
마흔에 읽는 요한계시록
캐서린 맨스필드의 차 한 잔
ADHD를 치유하는 글쓰기
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
Also By Jiyeon Lee
ADHD and ego-syntonicity and psychological boundaries
ADHD and difficulty in communication
The first phase of treatment has ended
Professor Ji Nayoung Jones-Hopkins - Meditation instead of medication
ADHD와 Four Pillars of Destiny Theory
ADHD and the boundary between normal and abnormal.
ADHD and the Importance of Exercise
ADHD and Marriage
ADHD and everyday challenges
ADHD and the things you love
ADHD and Who He Likes
Misunderstandings arise from the impulsivity of speech
Safety issues, such as driving a car
Walking and my stats and digestive capacity
What should a gifted person with ADHD do
Gaze of the Highly Gifted
peculiar
?
Cautiousness and self-regulation
ADHD and Autism
It's not bad, it's sick.
Imbalances in brain development
[Book review] Adults who don't recognize developmental disorders) by Yoshihiko Hoshino
[Book review] Treating tics, ADHD and developmental disorders at home/Jee Yoon Chae
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ADHD and ego-syntonicity and psychological boundaries
All of the problems in my life stemmed from my inability to set boundaries due to a lack of psychological boundaries. I wondered why I had such difficulty establishing these boundaries, and I concluded that it was because I didn't have a suitable ego formation. Every time I tried to create an ego, my stepmother came and stomped on it, shattering it to pieces. My older brother added harmful elements to my ego by calling me crazy
at the end of every sentence. My father froze my ego with his sky-high demands and expectations. I came to the conclusion that the reason I lacked psychological boundaries was because I didn't have a suitable self-image.
The self-image is a psychological image of who I am. It involves appropriate judgments of my physical appearance and intellectual abilities, understanding how important I am to others, which situations require what attitudes, what level of treatment is appropriate for me, and maintaining consistency in my decision-making process.
If one's self-image is not appropriate, they will make wrong choices and find themselves in the wrong place. Having an overly high or low self-image can both be problematic. In a nuclear family, fathers often believe that their daughters are the prettiest in the world. Therefore, they raise their children calling them princess
or our beautiful princess.
Self-image is like a mirror that cannot escape the evaluation of others. This princess thinks that she is the most beautiful and the best, just like her father thinks, and she only has eyes for men who are as rich or even richer than her father and who love and care for her as much as he does. Fortunately, if the father who nurtured this delusion separated from her at the appropriate time, so she would realize that she is not the most beautiful princess in the world,
but just an ordinary person with a valuable and beautiful personality.
Oh Lord. However, I have seen too many princesses who are not like that. My first boss at work, who is now over 40, gets text messages from her father at lunchtime asking, Princess, have you had lunch?
She had a big head, three times the size of her face, and was very overweight. This princess wanted to marry into a chaebol family and coveted a colleague who worked at a law firm and her single boss, as well as a fellow subordinate who graduated from Seoul National University. At company dinners, other team leaders would caution her not to get drunk and to stay sober. This is the downside of having an overly high self-image, placing oneself too high.
It's because I've lived my life being belittled too much compared to my abilities, appearance, and personality, so I put myself down below my own level. Also, because I feel a lot of rejection due to different ways of thinking from others, I try to fit in with the organization by making myself look funny. Because of this, my self-esteem is very low. Additionally, people who have experienced abuse in their childhood cannot draw appropriate psychological boundaries, so I allow anyone to enter my life.
I remember a time when a younger member in my church described me as someone who seemed to always drop my own money. I had such low boundaries and was so easily swayed that I lived my life in a chaotic state. My parents and siblings treated me with disrespect, making unreasonable demands and becoming increasingly violent and threatening when I didn't meet their expectations. My stepmother and her children, along with my father, acted like a gang and when I didn't react, the entire household would curse at me like I was worthless.
All I could do was to live my life as if nothing was happening and avoid confrontation as much as possible, in order to live the way I wanted to. It was a misconception to think that things would be easier if I got older and had a husband. To them, I was just a target for exploitation, a pushover, and a victim of plundering, not even their daughter or sister.
When there was no barrier in my house, people, like a swarm of merchants, would come in and demand and take things from me, leaving me bewildered and unable to resist. This had been happening to me since I was very young. I had also encountered too many bad people in my life. Like how a cat can live happily by receiving love, good nutrition, and comfort from meeting good people, if it meets a bad person, even a kitten can be trained with a thick rope around its neck and used to catch mice, without being given food and left to starve. As someone who is highly intelligent and sensitive, I was trapped by those bad people, who saw me as a tool or a hostage for 25 years.
Drawing psychological boundaries, even at this point, feels like an impossible task for me. I can't handle the tense atmosphere. When someone is around me, I keep giving away my information and hoping that they will do everything better and better for me, while emotionally relying on them and becoming more and more incompetent. So being with people is not helpful for either of us. That's why I don't want anyone around me anymore. My desire to appear good to people and my tendency to be too dependent make it impossible to establish a healthy relationship.
Sometimes, I wish I had grown up with parents and siblings who respected me a little more. If I had, I might have learned the basics better and been better equipped to navigate society. I also wish I had been emotionally and physically stronger, and that I could have protected myself better. I have desperately wished for these things in the past. However, what's done is done, and if I want to heal from that psychological state, I feel like I need to spend about 10 years in isolation, building a foundation and developing myself.
In the past, I didn't know anything, but nowadays I realize that just by having normal parents and forming a healthy mindset where I value myself and know how to set boundaries, I can live a peaceful life. It disgusts me that my parents demanded that I achieve worldly success to prove my worth, while they themselves couldn't achieve what they wanted. I feel envious of those who were able to live their lives without such demands.
ADHD and difficulty in communication
I'm not sure if it's due to my ADHD traits or just my personal characteristics, but the most awkward thing for me during work or school was my tendency to skip the process or procedure because I just knew it without being able to explain the process. Also, I didn't learn how to communicate smoothly from an early age, so even a little bit of tension made me feel confused and mentally exhausted. I didn't know where to start or how to express myself.
Due to the lack of opportunities to receive training on expressing my emotions and thoughts appropriately, I tended to solve problems on my own and rarely expressed them to others. In fact, much of the suffering I experienced was not my fault, but rather caused by adults around me who had a lot of inferiority complex and projected their own issues onto me. It was the same when I was young, and even when I started working at a company. Most of the people around me were like that, and the environment I was in was filled with such individuals who comfortably settled in.
After receiving psychological therapy, I became aware that I had been misunderstanding that I need to do well for people to treat me well. I also realized that those who love and care for me will remain by my side regardless of how I am. I stopped excessively being kind and trying to please others, and stopped blaming myself for things that were not my fault. I couldn't find a connection with others because I had been giving too much and compromising too much without knowing where it started and how wrong it was. Instead of facing conflicts with people directly, I interpreted and tried to understand them, sometimes even requiring divine logic beyond human understanding. As a result, I read the Bible 50 times.
As a result, I have come to understand that there are almost no people whom I cannot understand. However, I could not understand