Pearls Journey

By Rachmadani Dewi

A story about Pearls. Journey that she had experienced. How the way she deals with her deep trauma that haunts her. It was her feelings when she went through all that trauma caused her to be complicated and unable to explain why she reacted that way she did. The life journey that led her cross paths with people who gave meaning, lesson, regret. friendship, heartbreak and suffering in her life. All of that turned her into Pearls that people know now.

 

 

• Language: English
• Publisher: Pearl1903
• Release date: Nov 16, 2021
• ISBN: 9798201340704

Rachmadani Dewi

Pearl1903 is a simple person, loes to read books, listen to songs and is currently trying to write a book. She writes on Wattpad, Inkitt and has written several stories there.She voluntereed on one mental health app. She started writing two years ago.and now she trying to publish her book. Beside all that now she started to pursuing her studies after she delayed it for long time. She also taking various courses to improve her skills

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We are destined to meet, no matter the distance between us. We return to each other again and again. It’s that once in a lifetime connection, the ones that make you feel more alive just sitting next to them, even the silence is perfect because you feel whole in their presence. I don’t know what it is about him, only that, when I look into his eyes I see a reflection of my soul staring back at me.

i, thank you for being a part of my life, you never know how much you mean to me

a, thank you for always being my best friend, sister and I couldn't have done this without you

a and d, you two are my everything, life and my worlds

All these journeys prove that you will always be my true love

Our paths have crossed for a reason...and for that I am thankful...

1

This is my first time to create a book for my journey. To be honest I was nervous, anxious and a little scared. I'm completely inexperienced in this field and I think I did it out of curiosity and maybe the most important thing is that I just realized that I love writing and maybe creating a blog can help me express what's on my mind.

If I were asked what do I really want to achieve by doing this? Right now I still can't answer all of that. What I do know is that I want to do everything I can, do my best to try various opportunities.

All I know is that I'm not young anymore and I don't have as many opportunities as I did when I was younger. I just thought it might not be too late to do all these things.

Just trying to give myself one more chance to at least show that I'm still capable of producing work.

Even though I know maybe I'm far behind compared to other people. But there's no harm in trying right? Maybe by doing this I can find new opportunities, new changes or other opportunities for myself and my future.

I'm just someone who likes to try different things. Sometimes it can end happily and sometimes it can end badly. Whatever the result, I always get valuable lessons from whatever experience I get.

Throughout my life, I've been through a lot. I have had many valuable experiences in my life. I learned that from getting to know the various people who passed my way.

They all taught me many things ranging from happiness, suffering, sadness, struggle and the meaning of life itself.

I don't know what direction God will lead me or what I will become by doing this. All I know is I'm just trying to start something new.

It could be because there are too many thoughts going through my mind that I decided that doing this allowed me to express all that was on my mind and make me calmer.

Hopefully what I do now can give goodness to me or to others who read my writings. Who knows, through my writing, I will be able to help others or give them new hope for themselves and their lives. For sure... Never give up.

I have to thank many people for always supporting me and strengthening me. Thanks to you guys for always believing that I can do this. Without all of you, I am nothing.

Princess A, we have been friends for a year. We have been through many things together. Thank you for always being by my side. I always pray that this friendship will last forever.

We will make our dreams come true and thank you for always being patient with my madness. You are a sister that I never had, I have to thank God and I have considered them as my family too.

To you Shujah, thank you for showing all your beautiful works. Thank you for helping me design the cover for this book. All that snow, so beautiful. We should have shared the pack while enjoying our first snow.

Lil bro, Ankush Sharma, thanks for doing Rakhi with me. Having you by my side, I'm happy. I hope someday I can see your new home and set off some firecrackers with you.

Jul, thank you for giving me a lot of new knowledge and thanks for sharing with me about your experience. I really appreciate all of that. Thank you for understanding me.

Adam, our meeting was quite unique. Bridget and Paxton, thanks for introducing me to them. I didn't think our friendship would last this long. Thank you for sharing with me, accompanying me and supporting all my crazy dreams.

And to you Aladdin, Thank you for everything. I had to do that. I need to force her for lie to you. You don't need to know the truth. I just want you to be happy. I did it for your good.

To both of you, you are my world. I thank God for entrusting you both to me. You are everything to me and you are my happiness.

You two were a bright light when I couldn't stand it anymore and wanted to give up on the situation. God knows how much I love you both and I would give up anything for both of you, for your happiness.

Thank you all for crossing paths with me. I am grateful that God brought you all to me. Every day I always pray that you are protected and guarded by him.

I love you and I will never stop thanking you all for supporting and encouraging me not to give up. I never thought that an impossible dream could come true.

I'm sorry if as long as all of you know me, I hurt you a lot. It was never my intention to do that. I hope you can understand the reason. I never wanted to hurt you all.

I've been able to cross paths with you guys, I'm already happy. You give meaning to my life. You never know how important you are to my story. Whatever the reason, I grateful that God for bringing you all to me.

We judge our own character by our best intentions and our most noble acts, but others will judge us by our last worst act. – Michael Josephson

2

Everyone has different traits, characters and habits. Since I was a child, I used to hang out and get acquainted with many people.

Maybe this is because the genes passed on by my parents because they are also the type that is easy to get along with makes me also have the same characteristics as them.

Maybe also it's because since childhood I'm used to living moving from one place to another, making me have to learn quickly to get to know new places, make new friends and learn quickly to adapt myself to existing circumstances.

Because all of that in the end made it easy for me to read other people's characteristics or traits. Maybe just by having a short conversation or reading their gestures, I can easily read whether they are happy, comfortable or uncomfortable talking to me or being near me.

It's not an easy thing to do all that. When I first meet someone, I usually pay attention to how their mood is when they talk to me. Usually from the way they talk to me it can be seen whether they are an extrovert or an introvert type.

If they're extroverts like me then it's easy for us to find lots of topics to discuss and the conversations will be easy and long.

But if that person is an introvert then I have to look for more topics so we can have a good discussion.

Based on my experience, I've found a lot that sometimes introverts can be really fun to talk to. It's just that they need time to adjust to themselves and if they have found comfort with us then by themselves they will open up and often they can be fun chatting friends.

There are also who shy but once they start to feel comfortable, they also turn out to be fun people to chat with.

What is certain is that out of all that I have learned one thing and I think that is the most important, which is not to make judgments and not to guess until we get to know them better.

Sometimes first judgments can often be deceiving. It could be someone is good but it turns out over time, their true nature is not like that.

I also learned that friendship is needed. Even if you don't have many, only one or two people, it's more than enough if those people are sincere and friends with you unconditionally.

Someone once told me that in life there are good days, bad days and normal days. If we share happiness with friends, it is normal, but if we or our friends have a bad day, at that time our friendship is tested.

Are we able to maintain that friendship? Or is the friendship just because one party just wants to use the other party?

If asked if I had a bad experience with a friendship that ended badly? Who’s not? But I will not discuss it too long here. I will discuss it at another time.

All of that made me learn that friendship is not built overnight, but by being together day after day. Through shared problems, shared happiness.

The pattern is actually almost similar to marriage. When you get married, you will try to maintain a good relationship with your partner and that also applies to friendship, only with different ties and status.

I've also had experiences that made me learn that when I have no one to help me, not even my own family, a friend I didn't expect would be able to help me actually came to help me or a stranger I didn't know helped me without knowing the reason why a stranger it helped me.

All of that taught me a lesson so that I should never judge someone based on first impressions. In the end, time will tell whether that person is worthy of your friendship or not.

No one is more cherished in this world than someone who lightens the burden of another.

3

Become a volunteer?

It honestly never crossed my mind that one day I would be able to have this kind of experience.

Since childhood, in my country I enjoy