Love Me Anyway

By Marquita Johnson

This book is about a woman who had to overcome many struggles in her life. In this book, you will see through the eyes of this woman as she tried to overcome being the woman that everybody else thought she should be. A woman who lived on autopilot, telling people she was fine but inside, her world was crashing down.

The reality is, this woman had many walls that blocked her heart. As this woman struggled daily to accept unconditional love and learn to trust women, she was in a constant battle with self-love and acceptance.

In this book, you will see through the eyes of this woman. You will read how this woman tried to shed the old person and become a new, improved person. The truth is, this woman had to find her own truth through discovery, pain, suffering, and revival.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: May 12, 2022
• ISBN: 9781685178659

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Love Me Anyway

Marquita Johnson

Copyright © 2022 by Marquita Johnson

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Table of Contents

Friendship

Emotional Blockage

Suppressed Anger

Forgiveness

Healing Process

Unconditional Love

People Pleaser

I Am in Control

I Survived

End the Cycle

Here and Now

This book is dedicated to women who have let their past hinder their future because they don’t know how to let go, to women who bring their past into their future relationships and aren’t able to grow in their future.

I want to thank all my readers for buying Life as We Know It and Love Me Anyway. I would like to thank Christian Faith Publishing. I want to thank God for giving me the words to begin my healing process to better me. I want to thank my husband, Marvin Johnson, for all his love and support, late night writing sessions, and rainchecks. He’s my biggest fan.

Preface

I woke up one morning and decided I didn’t want to go through the emotions anymore. I didn’t want to wake up repeating the same feeling over and over. I got married to be loved and freed from pain, favoritism, and low self-esteem. But I had one problem. I was facing childhood trauma as well as adulthood drama. I didn’t know how to deal with it or even how to heal from it.

My first book is Life As We Know It. The title came to me as I was thinking about the wonderful memories that I had with my father before he passed on as well as the memories before my grandma passed on. God had opened my eyes to allow me to see clearly what was going on around me spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically. I decided that I wanted to be happy. I was surrounded by supportive, loving people. I wanted to wake up smiling at myself because I was beautiful. I deserve to be loved. I deserve happiness. I deserve to be free of suppressed pain. I deserve to be loved unconditionally without having to pay for it, work for it, or to be used, let alone abused. This is how I came up with the title for my second book, Love Me Anyway. No matter what happens in your life, love your children equally. Yes, I am still healing from my past. Yes, my marriage is flourishing. Yes, I am full of joy and peace. God gave me a second chance to have a loving family. When I find myself thinking about all I lost, I can’t help but smile at all I’ve gained. I realized that I can love my family from a distance. I realized that it was okay for me to grow mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I’m not ashamed of my truth. In no way shape or form am I saying that my family was horrible. Maybe they didn’t know how to love me unconditionally, or maybe hurting me is their way of showing love. However, in order for me to heal from my past, I had to deal with my past head-on. I found out that writing was the only way that God could heal me. So I could no longer hinder my future and gain my faith back in God as well as continue to be prosperous in life’s journeys.

Introduction

Have you ever wondered how someone could make a big mistake, and their family still supports them? How someone has broken the law, knowing and unknowing, but their family is at every court hearing? Have you ever wondered that no matter what bad decision you make, your parents are always there with open arms? Have you ever sat and looked across the table at the restaurant, and seen a family laughing, thinking, Wow, looks like there’s a lot of love in their family? Have you ever thought that your innermost, deepest feeling could be hindering you from reaching your full potential?

I’ve wondered if my lack of relationships has to do with why I don’t have friends. I wondered if not being loved has to