Abuse and the Deadly Foe

By Alex Jefferies

ABUSE AND THE DEADLY FOE is comprised of a definition of what Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) is and how it is formed. It is a disorder that many in the medical field feel is hogwash. Yet others in the same field feel it is very much real. See how this little boy who has Multiple Personality Disorder identifies himself through many different personalities. See how, as a grown man, he fights its ugly onslaught of memories.

As a senior adult, he finds joy in writing this book, which brings back funny and happy memories. Sadly, it also brings on the onslaught of memories that clarify his biographical history. Share with him in the happy times and the sad times in Abuse and the Deadly Foe.

• Language: English
• Publisher: iUniverse
• Release date: Jul 15, 2019
• ISBN: 9781532076183

Alex Jefferies

Alex Jefferies was born in eastern Oregon in 1946. Born to parents lost to a nefarious underground world of satanic cults, sexual rituals and child sacrifices. Struggling through the scars of his upbringing, Alex uses the power of written word to shine a light into the darkest places of the human mind, to embolden and inform others and to educate on the complexities of the power of human resilience.

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Contents

Abuse And The Deadly Foe

30 Day Self-Esteem Builder

Satanic Cult Ritual Abuse

TO THE READER

The material that is presented in this book is designed to help those who have been abused, and to give suggestions to those who wish to be of support to them. It has been my experience as an abuse victim, that most people who confront an abuse victim are unable to accept abuse for what is, an ugly violation of a child’s privacy and his or her right to have this privacy. I don’t know how many times I have heard people say. You are an adult. That happened when you were a child. You should be able to handle it as an adult. It shouldn’t bother you any more! Oh just forget about it and it will go away.

When one is molested during childhood, the scars caused from the abuse may never leave. Although not all victims may show outside distress, Proverbs 14:14 helps us to appreciate Even in laughter the heart may be in pain. Many of us who are adult victims do have deep scars, caused from the deep emotional upset from the abuse when children. Why can’t time always heal the wounds of abuse and why are some effected more adversely than others?

It is through this manuscript, that I am going to try to help you to understand some of the complexities of abuse. When I speak of abuse, I include all types of abuse: verbal, incest, satanic ritual abuse, physical, sexual and emotional. Abuse is abuse and is destructive all the time; never is abuse up building and encouraging!

Due to the differences in the emotional make up of children, differences in personality and abilities to cope with difficult problems, the damage that is done can be overwhelming and disruptive to the child’s mind, his very soul. Remember abuse invades the body like a deadly, ugly, destructive disease. The age of the child at the time of the abuse is also critical, (respecting the amount of destruction the abuse actually causes). The relationship of the child to the abuser also plays a major part in how the child copes with the abuse then, and how he copes with it as he grows older and during adulthood. If it is found early enough in the child’s life and the abuse exposed and the child can get loving care and support from a loving and caring adult, often times the abuse can be halted. More often than not the damage of the abuse is carried over into adulthood.

For so many adults, like myself, there were no adults to intervene. Therefore without any choice on my part, the problems stemming from the abuse was carried into my adulthood. I had the knowledge something was wrong, but was unable to determine what it was. Because of this, I have fought suicidal depression all my life.

Proverbs 22:6 clearly states Train up a boy according to the way for him, even when he grows old he will not turn aside from it. This training whether good or bad can often last a lifetime. Many adults still function, but do not function as a whole person. One of the major problems that affect the abuse victim is depression. Most victims are unable to run away from the feelings of guilt, shame and rage (these feelings are often overwhelming and very difficult to control). There is great difficulty in feeling emotion, because of low self-esteem and the tremendous feeling of powerlessness (the lack of ability to handle a situation). I can’t help but feel the worst effect of childhood abuse is the insidious damage that it does to our ability to grow spiritually. In fact Paul at 2 Corinthians 7:1 re-affirms this feeling by stating Therefore, since we have the promises, beloved ones, let us cleanse ourselves of every defilement of flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in God’s fear. When a child is abused it is a defilement of his flesh and spirit. By these acts of defiling the child’s spirit (the dominate mental inclinations), impedes the child’s ability to grow morally and spiritually. Although this does happen (when one becomes an adult) it does not mean the victim is spiritually weak or is lacking in faith.

I’ll try to explain in this book how the abuse that I underwent, effected my life. It is my hope what I have experienced will be helpful to you. Medical facts show that often you will not recognize anything is wrong. All you will feel is the depression, or ugliness, low self-esteem etc. In my case, I felt my whole life that something was wrong, feeling the depression, feeling of ugliness, low self-esteem etc. It wasn’t until after the death of my stepfather, that all of the memories I now have started flooding back. I was 44 years old when the memories started.

Have things changed? Not really. I have learned to cope with these memories and try to remember that this all happened in the past. Even now at age 72 the memories feel very real. Sadly because of my Multiple Personality Disorder or Dissociative Identity Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Major Depression I have to suffer the reality of the memories, all the pain, feelings of dead bodies, the intrusion of the erect penis into my rectum so many times in one session that I still feel the warm fluid running down the inside of my legs. The odors, sounds, the screaming and crying of the dying, haunts me 24 hours a day, never leaving but taunting forever taunting, not to be removed but ever remaining.

How do you forget something as destructive as abuse? Simply put, YOU DON’T! An abusive adult is very powerful. As children we are not able to control what they do to us, so we find ways to hide the abuse not only because of the shame it causes but often times if we tell, we were told we would be harmed even killed or someone we loved would be harmed, therefore if we know what is good for us we don’t tell anyone what is going on. Humans were created with the ability to escape from the abuse mentally. That is just what I did as many others have done over the centuries. A child’s brain can handle only so much trauma before it starts to fracture and as it does can go into many pieces, much like a fine peace of china when it brakes.

It is my desire that this material will be of help to you the abuse victim, and to you who are caring and loving enough to become involved in our recovery. I use the masculine gender throughout this manuscript, but it is meant for male and female victims. As you read this material, please deeply consider it; don’t take it at face value. Study it out. Become acquainted with abuse.

It is my sincere hope this research will be helpful. My you be enriched for your efforts as you learn to work with abuse, as victim survivors and victim supporters.

Respectfully,

Alex Jefferies

ABUSE AND THE DEADLY FOE

ABUSE has finally raised its ugly head up and made itself known. Although we may not be affected by it directly, how can we help those who are affected, to cope with its effects on their soul, body, heart and mind?

Many articles have been written about Abuse, its effects on a person, his family and his friends. However, it has been my experience, as an abuse victim, that the majority of people are unable to handle our abuse when they become aware of it, therefore leaving us with the feeling of being unwanted, unloved, dejected or to ugly to be cared about. But in reality, people just do not understand how to handle our trauma, especially when it comes to physical, sexual, verbal, emotional and satanic ritual abuse.

The fact that they are unwilling to help (at least, that is the way we as abuse victims perceive it) does not mean they hate us or wish us ill will. If they knew how to help, we would find some at our side, ready and very willing to give their earnest support when it becomes necessary.

It is due to this confusion and the helpless feelings of both the abuse victim and the non-abused, that I feel it is necessary to write material that deals specifically with ABUSE. How can abused victims help themselves? How can we help others to learn and understand the cause of abuse, its trauma on a person, why the victims react the way they do, and to give guidelines that will be helpful to each, in the recovery process of abuse?

CLEARLY REMEMBER:

1. THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSE!

2. THE VICTIM IS NEVER AT FAULT!

3. ABUSE IS A VERY DIFFICULT AND PRIVATE SUBJECT!

4. THE MEMORIES ARE GRAPHIC AND UGLY!

To get an understanding of what caused abuse, we must go back some 6,000 years to the year 4026 B. C.E. the time of Adam’s Creation. It was at this time that SATANIC ABUSE began. The record of this is found in Genesis 2:7-9: 7 And Jehovah God proceeded to form the man out of dust from the ground and to blow into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man came to be a living soul. 8 Further, Jehovah God planted a garden in E’den, toward the east, and there he put the man whom he had formed. 9 Thus Jehovah God made to grow out of the ground every tree desirable to one’s sight and good for food and also the tree of life in the middle of the garden and the tree of the knowledge of good and bad.

Genesis 2:15-17:

15 And Jehovah God proceeded to take the man and settle him in the garden of E’den to cultivate it and to take care of it. 16 And Jehovah God also laid this command upon the man: From every tree of the garden you may eat to satisfaction. 17 But as for the tree of the knowledge of good and bad you must not eat from it, for in the day you eat from it you will positively die.

Adam was created perfect and was given a beautiful place to live. There were restrictions placed upon him, but these restrictions were not burdensome. Jehovah had supplied sufficient food in abundance to sustain his life, and had given him many forms of creation to enjoy. There would be no need for Adam to disobey, unless he chose to do so on his own accord. In verses 20-25, woman was created as a complement to Adam, a companion who would help him keep the earth in a paradise state, as well as reproduce and populate the earth.

Up until this point in time, things were going very well. Adam was happy; he had a beautiful mate, a fine place to live with plenty of food to eat and the hope of living forever. He was going to be able to produce children who could also live forever on a paradise earth, UNTIL……

The first abuse of power. Genesis 3:1:

Now the SERPENT proved to be the