Rejuvenation: I Too Am a Survivor

By Cecilia Hood

Children, children, are you listening to the story you ask me to read? Yes, yeah, aha yep! Grandfather what is the story about marshmallows, dolls yo-yos, and fishes? No. The story is about us people living, eating, churching, smiling, schooling, crying and working together. thank you-love-gracious merciboo, dunka hellow, grazie hola thank you grandfather. All are welcome.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Oct 11, 2022
• ISBN: 9781665572446

Cecilia Hood

I was created by the most high and magnificent one. This I know and have definitely matured & grown to understand and still praying. My mother was into their marriage 4 years upon my arrival, by another man his name was Carl Hood. Her husband Harold Bell Sr. was at sea or somewhere on duty during his 12 years in the navy, her and my father /daddy were childhood friends and both families were close.

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7/2021.

This book is dedicated to my parents’ biological and added parents, all mental health staff, universal and sort of personal.

Those that have either experienced personal mental or physical, symptoms or illness resulting in disability/disabilities, mental health, home on or off the job, whether self, family friend, neighbor associate last but certainly not least and definitely not ever again C19, ect… period. Most think or believe many are born with symptoms of or having down syndrome, cross eyed, cripple blind deaf mute, thank Christ for his many miracles such as those he has put in position constantly seeking medicines and cures, no one coming out the womb shouting I’m going to be a drug user or alcoholic addict. Noop none of us, wanting to be a substance user than maybe then abuse. Substance narcotics liquor and domestic abuse, 20 credit cards yet anxious for another, 10 houses yet not created a home, keep praying for that one that is not allowing their, our, them I, you they, to let disability stand in the way of love, compassion family friends dreams purposes talent and still willing to share with someone, other than self. Let’s keep praying for those that’s seriously trying to have a made up mind to come out of the homeless situation so that they too may enjoy and rejoice in new beginnings. All of us have or thought we had/have a reason for the Y’S. Why I did, why they did, why they could should, well hopefully some of us can agree it says in the words of our lord and savior king of king and still lord of lord’s. Jesus!

Paul is a genuine messenger of christ. Ephesians 3:1-13 so far Paul is the saint christ chose to show the mystery so therefore Paul let all know it is not he, but the lord in him that showed him who it was shielding even the one that was against him paul and that no of us shall know the mystery of christ till he bust through the clouds, let’s do our best in all forms fashions and way staying prayed for selves and many. (Saul converted to Paul)), Christ. Saul converted to paul soon learned everyone had a reason for who they were and how they became who they seemed to be.

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Dedicated to: All MHW Mental health Workers.

In office out in the field in the homes, clinics Hospitals and most of all those thats in some of these positions yet homeless themselves, and making time to assist someone with their problems, with their skills and information concerning not when they once were parent/s employer employee fellowships but where they are right now, out there in the world of homeless and someone having no idea help right there with them they us I me you, or without medical coverage, Jeeeeesus!. And still sharing. I may not ever understand it all concerning people and word of God but the fact I spent 4 and a half years out there in a homeless situation the more I read the word, I stopped saying homeless, it felt and sounded better in my spirit and ears I’m without a place I can call my own. And with or without mess is where I learned most of what I’ve expressed. All glory be to God Alleluia. Thank you: Dr. Solimon, Hy Cyient, Dr.Maranzano, Carmen, Dr. Brittany, Nicky, all Receptionist, all security we see what has become of the world now of us created.

The whole staff between three clinics, having more than likely their families and friends and still clock in to assist us with what still seem to be difficult times and moments sometimes. I am very grateful and pray and hope well for you all as I believe the same for me. Because of all the above I stayed and still in the race concerning mental situations, and becoming a writer and as of 2009 becoming an artist thank you lord, and having many to share it with, one giving back, again thank all.

Appreciated Appreciative, Gratitude And Much Love Peace, And Understanding, Still Learning Day By Day, Thankful.

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06/10/2021

2nd Timothy 2:15 Hebrews 11& 12.

Remember Cecilia none of the writings, and typing you’re blessed to have done, and doing is not in vain, the Lord gives only completion. Even Though it can take time, it will be only as the Lord can do, the best and great results. Thank you lord.

Therefore Cecilia do your best to always remember,

2nd Timothy Chapter 2 Verse 15

Study to shew (show) thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed rightly dividing the word of truth.

And when everything seems to be going uphill just know it is the Lord Jesus Christ himself. Let’s remember to just say thank you, or thank you Jesus.

Hebrews 11 Verse 11

Now Faith Is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

But without Faith it is impossible to please God.

Hebrews 12 Verse 2 Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame and is set at the right hand of the throne.

4/24/2021

X2-He’s got the whole world in his hands. He’s got the whole world in his hands,

He’s got Adam and Eve in his hands,

He’s got Abel and Cain in his hands,

He’s got Seth…. In his hands,

He’s got Noah and his family in his hands, He’s got the Ark and the Animals in his hands, He’s got the whole world in his hands.

He’s got Abraham and Sarah in his hands,

He’s got Hagar and Ishmael in his hands,

He’s got Lot and his Wife in his hands,

He’s got the Tower of Babel in his hands,

He’s got Joseph and his Brothers in his hands,

He’s got Mary Joseph and Jesus in his hands, He’s got Matthew Mark and Luke and John in his hands,

He’s got Acts in his hand, Amen and Halleluia!!!!!.

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7/16/21

He’s got the whole world in his hand.

x2-He’s got the Whole World in his hand

He’s got Moses and Zipporah in his hand,

He’s got Aaron…in his hand

He’s got Joshua and the israelites in his hand

He’s got the Plaques in his hand

He’s got Pharaoh and his Army in his hand

He’s got the Wealth of Israel in his hand

He’s got the Red Sea in his hand

He’s got the Whole World in his hand

He’s got the Manna and Quails in his hand

He’s got the Ten Commandments in his hand

He’s got Ruth Samuel Ester in his hand he’s got Job Daniel Jonah in his hand

He’s got Matthew Mark Luke in his hand

He’s got John... in his hand

He’s got the Holy Ghost Power in his hand

He’s got the Whole World in his hand, Hallelujah and All Glory be to God He’s got the Preacher and Teacher in his hand He’s got the Family and Fellowship in his hand.

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7/28/18

Good morning.

Psalms 24:18

Good morning my Jesus, good morning my Lord, good morning my Savior, King of it All.

For this is the day that the Lord has made I shall rejoice and be glad in it.

For I just can’t begin to tell you how good he’s been to me.

He’s been so good he sat my soul free

I know he didn’t bring me this far just to leave me.

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April 14 2021

All Glory Be To God!!.

X2 All glory be to God,

X1 All glory....all glory X1 All glory be to God,

John 3:16

For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son,

Whomever believeth on him shall not perish, but have everlasting life, And I’m soooooo…. glad he came all the way from heaven, just! To save a wretch like me.

That’s how the lord showed his love for me,

So if you ever… need a friend, that sticks closer than any brother, or sister,

I recommend Jesus, he’s... that kind of friend.

He’ll walk right... in front of you, to always... protect you so the devil can’t do you no harm, if it’s in your heart you take him in true love will begin.

He’s that kind of friend,

So if it’s in your heart, you take him in. He’s that kind of friend.

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And that’s why I praise him.

Psalms 46: 7 & 11 and Matthew 6: 9-14

It was 1980 and me and mamacita were faster than rice when it’s being strained through the sifter and the rushing water at Niagara falls. We were in love with two besties Eddie Money, and Wayne, her cousin Edward Eddie Money became my third child’s father in 1985 and in 1981 one of the greatest stepfathers known to only few and sometimes rare in all cultures, and his best friend Wayne that she had been in love with for years. Although me and Eddie Money tried hard to be in love, me 13 and him 14 it was best for us to separate and continue our education, and grow up and we did grow up. I had two children, 1 father, he had three and three mamas. We eddie money and I reunited in 1982, fell in love again and kicked it for about a year and mamasita and wayne caught up where they left off 3rd and 4th grade. And they loved our children, and we willingly foolishly loved them. It was the summer of 1980. We were fancy and not as free as we built ourselves up to be. Mamasita called me, hey girl you want to go visit Eddie Money and Wayne? yeah! I asked my parents if they would keep buddha? yes, and mamasita parents asked her why she was going to the West oakland post office when she was just there? and could have picked up her allotment check, whatever reason she gave them didn’t work cause as usual they gave her a hard time, she strapped her son into his car seat, and we were on our way. We went to the post office she received her check and told me the reason she couldn’t really answer her parents, is she intentionally pick up her allotment check late, and that she knew she could pick it up at the last postal stop without them sending it back to Rio Janeiro, and have to go through the process again, she got their check and we were on our way to see the guys we felled head over heels with. We stop at the nearest store and purchased some goodies dry salami cheese crackers pork rinds plenty goodies for her son, filled the ice chest with sodas and coolers and we already had some weed, as we pulled up to the house, where they were we notice few ladies walking away from the house, and we knew they were players from the beginning, we just build ourselves up to believe we were special, and that’s how they treated us special. The ladies were waving and truly letting us know whatever y’all driving up for we’ve already handle it, me and mamasita looked at each other with foolish expressions, and said girl we know whose #1 yeah we know, as we got out the car Wayne grabbed the baby and loved on him, and hugged on her like he was her husband, and babies daddy, she was mostly seeking others affections as she said because she married early 16, and to a merchant seamer and he was out to sea 85.44% of the time, and the newly wed grew lonely. And being besties from 10 -now 18 years old, and each of us having the love and care, and responsibility caring for our children was very important with or without a husband or men, and as usual we agreed, yeap, we were right, this is why we were cheating and skizing. And eddie money loved and hugged on me, as if he was the man I was deciding to leave or stay with, buddha and tina father, it was a seesaw relationship, I think our fifth breakup since becoming first time parents, we were in a spintail and in some ways it seem to be okay, me and eddie money were still catching up from 13 & 14, and the summer of 1975, so 6 years later here we go. We all were in love even if just for the moment. They invited us into the crowded house where the party was loud fast, faster and fun, and that was just stepping into the door and being introduced to everyone, not individual introduction but the hey everyone this is Mamasita baby boy, and Cee Wee, we looked at each other and said girl what kinda a shit is this uha, and we hugged on each other some more, and danced with the baby between us and had a ball. We smoked and talked mess and more mess and they asked us why we were trying to be players? and at the same time we answered and said we can be what we want we taking care, and paying our own bills, and they busted us out and said yeah y’all got it simple y’all back at your parents, and again at the same time we answered and said nah it aint as easy as it seem being back at our parents, and being parents we just about to ask y’all the same thing and they said y’all we were players when we reunited y’all just special. They wondered when they would see us again. I knowing my parents would keep buddha, I hurried up and spoke up I be back next week, on the way home mamasita started putting her lie together we were determined to be hussies and heifers that what our mothers called us after reminding us no good comes out of bullshit, and they had been where we thought we were, concerning her committing adultery, and me not having a made up mind stay with the child’s father, or take time for me and get my head together. As she got her lie together for the next weekend and I rooting that she have a lie so we can do what we do, and that’s party like it’s was our only chance of freedom, from some stuff we really had no idea about, all we knew we were very infatuated with them, and them with us. We rode along singing to every song on the radio and two of our favorites were rapper delight - hip hop ta the hip hop, and let’s stay together, we got right about to 35th and Macarthur and the car started smoking and the hood flew up, oil was splashing onto the windshield we went into shock panic, paranoia, checked on the baby as we exited the freeway the car picked up speed and it was already a downhill exit. while I was trying to unbuckle her son she had already jumped out of car trying to stop it from rolling so fast, and finally we were near flat ground I looked over and it was like the first up close mirage, I’d ever saw, her jacket was caught on the upper part of the car door and that added to pulling her downhill in a faster motion, and sparks were coming from her heels, and her screaming hollering and yelling, was a combination my nerves couldn’t handle, it all became so extreme I was in paranoia, and trying harder to stay focus getting her son out of the car seat, just as the car reach the bottom flat grounds. I finally got him out of the car seat and kicked the door open, and we landed on the ground, and I either tossed him to safety or he flew out of my arms, I’m still not sure as I share this with the world, very early morning of June 18th 2021, 2:39 am and enjoy the sweet sounds of MJB. I’m missing you like crazy, love you Mamacita. Once we were out of the car I lost focus of mamasita, and as I went to rollover and try to get up and get the baby, the car hit a telephone pole and made a u turn and ran over my right side, and the tires rolled over my foot so hard and heavy all I could do was squill, and moo, someone came running are yall okay? I think so, is the baby okay? was our biggest worry. He was sitting up smiling as if he had just got off the baby’s roller coaster, crying and saying mama, just to see him and being alright kept the pain I had endured from my mind. The man that assisted us said I saw the whole thing but by the time I was closer to y’all on the freeway, the car pick up speed and all I could do was pray, he waited with us till the ambulance and cops and our parents arrived, as we shook, and cried, and looked into each other eyes we already knew what each was thinking the lies we told ourselves, our parents and unknowingly endangering her son, and what could have easily been our lives. And our parents looked at us with complete disgust, and questioned where were y’all and where were y’all coming from? And this late and with the baby out this late, and mamasia it shouldn’t have taken you this long to pick up your check, you could have picked it up from the post office at the Eastmont Mall location. They interrogated us like the liars we were, the more they chastised us the more the pain rose up on my right foot. I attended a few medical follow ups. I hopped around and popped codeine for a few months and made sure to pack soft slippers or mary janes flats with me when using public transportation, and clubbing. My work shoes were basically flat which relieved me of pain at work . I was back at work and still seeing Eddie Money somehow, and taking care of me and Buddha and looking for another place I could call my own. The second time I felt the pain from the 1980 car accident was 1997 I had an interview in Woodland and after the interview while walking and at a fast pace hurrying for the bus, and the fact the buses operated every 2 hours round trip Sacramento to Woodland at that time I needed to hurry and needed to be home when Mouf and Meach dismiss from school I wore a knee length 1940’s style pink dress up in front and down in back long sleeves v neck and two tone snakeskin 3inch heels and black tights and a up swoop hair do and a rose. I was a block away and could see the bus coming and started to run and the right foot said no, no running today and you bouts go from looking good oh so wonderful, and you got the job, yahoo! Is how I felt dressed up and now here comes the pain that 17 year old pain started in my big toe, and worked it way across my right foot, my knee went limp, I wasn’t where I am as in Christ, and say thank you lord for not letting me fall, and having this tree here to lean on. I streamed, dam oh shit! as it looked like I was going to hit the ground, or take off shoes and relieve pain, and don’t let go of the tree branch, that was the first time the foot was bothered and felt good arriving home with shoes in purse, hair half flipped and tights completely ruined, hallelujah, I was on time for bus at home when the two spoiled, spoiled brats arrived home, and to still be enjoying the comfortability of footwear new and used nobody but the lord and thankful. The tire impact left two scars that are still quite alive, especially during the winter. And the fact it’s been 41 years since the accident I still remember hearing our parents say you can fool some of the people some of the time, but you’re only following yourselves, come on get in the car and until you get your own place no more babysitting. Eddie Money and Wayne said they heard what happened from one of the mamasita people our question was and what kept y’all from checking on us? they looked and seemed bout as dumb founded as we did the night of the whole situation. Mamasita’s stepdad checked the car thoroughly and said the oil and water somehow mixed with each other, and caused the gaskets to burst. He and my stepdad surely reminded us, where are those young bucks now? we don’t know, and they said, somewhere with their other girls and we looked at each other knowing they were right on time, with all they thought, felt and said, and that we would be better off getting ourselves right y’all are mothers now no more all that fancy free mess. 1988 I, my daughter, sister Dat and her daughter had just finished swimming, when I remembered I had to go to Woodland to pay furniture payment, hey! Dat wanna ride with me and Tina to Woodland to pay my bill? Yeah, lets dry off, and go like we are and that’s what we did, bathing suits and all our daughters were full of laughter, and finding it hard to believe we were going into town as we were, me and Dat laughed we knew I needed to get there didn’t want furniture being repossessed again, even though it was a television that was repossessed 1984 was enough. I rented a television from RTO and got behind on payment and the phone must have been off cause all I know the customer service representative showed up knocking pretty hard. I hid behind the door and he knocked harder and said Miss Hood I can see you behind the door, give me the tv or I need a payment!. I let him in of course I didn’t have a payment, only humiliation, back to listening to the radio. We gets to furniture store along the way to furniture store we checked out few other things that weren’t showcase at the sidewalk sale on main street, I paid the bill, and as I pulled away from the curve a 75 year old woman was making an illegal u turn from the opposite side of the street hit us, and the impact sent us into a strong swirl much screaming hollering, and oh my God!! I finally remembered to step on the brake, and we ended up maybe maybe 2 feet from the picture view window of the furniture store, completely hysterical, are our daughters alright? What happened!!, as people helped us out of our cars the cops and ambulance arrived we were okay, and they took the elder woman to hospital for reassurance, she was alright through and out of it all and very apologetic, we cried and dat praised the lord, we exchanged insurances the car was in good order and the officials said it was okay to drive the car. I got dat and our niece home and drove home through Woodland got myself back together, and with that being the second car accident but me being first time car owner and licensed driver, the insurance part confused me and we didn’t go through that in 1980 my sister help me understand because it was her fault her insurance would handle everything, so I got a lawyer, and I finally had patients and waited out the 7 months it took to receive the $5000, and I had bills and was nearly pinching off rent, it came in a nick of time. I paid bills and shopped at the kmart that was directly across the street from us, and checked in with the chiropractor for a few months. And just as the money was getting low I walked over to kmart that afternoon, and just as I got to the back entry there was a missionary waving and me waving back white clothing and hair net and bible and offering can in hand, again even though it was 1988 the year I was bless to be thought of and about in such a magnificent way reborn, saved and baptized in the same month and year June 1988, and accident months later I had no idea what she or they represented. I only understood it good to give than receive and even though I did not feel that way when it came to just naturally giving, I unknowingly had no idea Jesus was using me I gave to them with no second thoughts for years and way before being properly introduce to Christ, 1 Corinthian 13:13 Abideth in Faith, Love & Charity and out of the three Charity is what expected of us in the process of getting to know Christ. Love & Chastity goes hand and hand. So this where it got hilarious for me and that Christ was trying to show me, it is! good to share for worthy cause/s specially now all I saved you from, is how I was feeling, I got to the door and she ask for offering I said I had already given, lied went shopping started figuring out what spend last $1000 on and what did we really need or what did I want I shopped down to $800 stopped at the deli and purchased two slices pizza and drink chit chat with a neighbor and she said girl those people really dedicate their lives to Christ and they really uses the donations for great causes, really who are they their missionaries and they share the word of God, girl when we make time, oh okay yeah the money helps with the food giveaways and emergency rent and utilities payments, all I could say was oh oh alright, she said I’m glad I give to them, yeah we give to them buts it really going back to God, thanks for helping me understand. I gave $20 and thought I did something great and it was great, I learned down the years listening to sermons in fellowships, and in our upbringing and always remembering the many food banks closet and giveaway I attended, and we ate like kings queens prince and princesses and once I started reading the word for myself, I to came to understand it is better to give than receive. Once I read 2nd Corinthians 9:7-8 more and more and finally understood, than yes I did give the best I had, and more thankful today for the education of it all concerning Evangelist and Missionaries they are a humongous reason for many passed on blessings when it seem there’s no other financial way out, b4 enduring and long as the Lord is in it, long after C19 is no more the Evangelist and Missionaries will still be doing the work of the lord in person and online, his works don’t stop long as we’re willing. And yes I have visited many food giveaways since 1988, so why did it become hilarious to me? I visited two food giveaways that week even though I had money, and food stamps the lord still provided without complaint, or hesitation whether it