So You Think You've Messed Up
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This book draws back the curtain on the authors life and lets in the light of God's grace which is always sufficient for us whatever we are facing.
When God gave Helen a vision, it was at one of the lowest points of her life. She was excited as the vision revealed something of the future God had planned for her. When she shared the vision with some friends they laughed at her. " Why would God give you a ministry and a house?" They asked. At that time her self esteem was very low, so Helen agreed with them. Why would the Lord give her a big house and a husband as well as a ministry? This only happened to special people and she wasn't one of those, were her thoughts. She was a nobody, with little or no future! They were right. So she laid the vision down believing it to be impossible, but Helen reckoned without God, a fatal mistake! When two months later the Lord spoke into her life, telling her to pick the vision up again. She was delighted. This time she took hold of it with both hands, and determined that she would not let go of it again, no matter what it cost her. Little did she know it would almost cost her, her life!
Helen Rylance
On first contact with Helen she appears to be a well integrated and confident woman and she is! However , as this honest book reveals, the path she has taken has been strewn with 'many dangers, toils and snares.' Christ warns us ,"In this world you will have trouble." Many believers who undergo severe life trials find themselves broken or hardened by the heat of the oven of affliction. Helen is a living example of someone who has been refined in the furnace of tribulation. Furthermore she is somebody who can sympathise with others facing similar things. She has a great gift of seeing the potential in those that more "comfortable" believers may reject as hopeless. For this Helen happily gives God all the glory for all that he has achieved in and through her in their long walk together.
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So You Think You've Messed Up - Helen Rylance
SO YOU THINK YOU'VE MESSED UP
Helen Rylance
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CONTENTS
CHAPTER 1
CHAPTER 2
CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
CHAPTER 5
CHAPTER 6
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9
CHAPTER 10
CHAPTER 11
CHAPTER 12
CHAPTER 13
CHAPTER 14
CHAPTER 15
CHAPTER 16
CHAPTER 17
CHAPTER 18
CHAPTER 19
CHAPTER 20
CHAPTER 21
CHAPTER 22
CHAPTER 23
CHAPTER 24
This book is dedicated to Robin and Vy who the Lord brought along side me for such a time as this. I am truly grateful to the Lord and to you both for being there for me. May He continue to use and bless you both.
We hope this book is a blessing to you. Those of us who have laboured together to produce it want to thank you for taking the time to read this story. So take a bow Sylvia, Ian, Ruth, Pam and Brenda. Not forgetting Maurice Barratt of Barratt Ministries. Without your help I would not have been able to produce this book. So a big thank you to you all. I am blessed to have had your support.
Helen
Our lives can be compared to a river as it meanders on, sometimes through the peace and tranquility of the wide shallow places, at other times hurtling and crashing along as it meets boulders in the river bed. It can twist and turn so often that we lose sight of its destination as we are tossed about in its torrent. Still the Lord says I know the plans and purpose I have for you. Trust me.
This is the story of how Almighty God made promises to me at one of the lowest points of my life.
Following a life filled with so many difficulties, culminating in divorce, I felt I had no future, I was without hope.
This book was written for all those who feel God could not possibly use them, to encourage you to believe that the Lord does have a plan and purpose that only you can fulfil. You have been uniquely equipped to fulfil His plan. Impossible! you say, then read on. For the Lord says, I know the plans and purposes I have for you. Plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29 v 11). When you read these words or see them as a text on calendars, fridge magnets or book marks have you ever wondered about the truth of these words? Do you really believe them? When your life has fallen apart and all your dreams are in ashes at your feet, can you still believe what the Lord says through the prophet Jeremiah?
There are times in our life when tragedy strikes and we lose our home, our family, someone we love dearly, our self esteem, our place in the church, the respect of others, our job. There are so many apparent tragedies just waiting to happen. How then can we be sure that God will be faithful to His promises?
How did Joseph feel when he was thrown into a pit, rejected by his brothers, wrongly accused by Potiphar’s wife, and then ended up in prison? Did he continue to believe the revelations that God had given him so many years before?
When Abraham and Sarah still didn’t have the child they had been promised ten years after the promise was given, did they hang on to the promises of God? When God promised to make Abraham the father of nations, and of a people more numerous than the stars, how did he feel all those years later, still waiting for God to fulfil his promise?
If you find it hard to accept those whose lives have not been run on the lines that you expect Christian lives to be run on, then this book is for you! The lives of many of Jesus’ descendants were frequently less than perfect. You and I are no different to these Biblical characters. Their lives are recorded to encourage us and to make us realise that we too can overcome by the grace of God and come into all that He has planned for us.
CHAPTER 1
Mine was a home birth; we lived in a house that had all mod cons even in 1940. Our home was in a Lancashire seaside town. Immediately after my birth my mother experienced a severe mental breakdown and had to be taken to hospital in a straight jacket. This was my welcome to the world. At my birth the placenta clung to my face and I nearly died. The midwife later declared it was thought to be lucky to be born in this way. To this day I can’t understand how it can be lucky to nearly die at birth!
After that auspicious start, Mum was taken to the mental ward of the hospital and I went to the baby unit.
Mum was pregnant with me when my parents got married. There had been a lot of ill feeling over my conception. To be pregnant before marriage in the 1940’s was considered to be a tremendous disgrace.
My Mum was the youngest of two sisters; her sister was married and gave birth to her daughter at the beginning of the same month that I was born. My conception spoilt everything for my aunt, uncle and grandparents and they never let me forget that. Many years later the Lord showed me why they didn’t like me and asked me to forgive them, which by His grace I was able to do.
The second world war was in full swing when I was born, Mum and I were in hospital for six weeks in all, only coming together when an air raid was taking place. Mum was very fearful of the Germans and their bombs and consequently I became a child full of fears who lacked bonding with her Mother and who was rejected by her Mother’s family. The women of the family, Grandmother, Mum and my aunt were hardworking but hard, cruel women. My cousin and I are the same age, she was an only child whilst I was the eldest of eight children. When my cousin’s mother died I was surprised when she told me how controlling and cruel her mother had been. Whilst I had experienced that side of her nature toward myself, I was surprised her only child had received the same treatment.
My parents were also hardworking people, particularly my dad who would do anything for my mother. To the extent it would lead him into a life of crime in order to supply her with the lifestyle she craved. A big house, cars, furs, antique furniture to name but a few things he provided from his criminal life style. When he was caught and imprisoned on two occasions, their marriage broke down and they divorced. He never committed a crime again. In later life he admitted he had been weak to give in to my mum’s desires.
CHANGES
When I was eleven years old we moved from our lovely big home in the country to a mill town in Lancashire and reduced to living in a back to back terraced house with an outside loo and no bathroom. What a comedown from the beautiful four bedroom detached home in its own grounds with a smallholding for pigs and poultry. The shock from the change of environment was immense. However, nothing to compare with the bullying I received from the pupils at the school I attended who knew of my father’s imprisonment. That had all now been left behind along with my childhood.
On my tenth birthday my mother had declared ‘ I was a big girl now, no more playing, I had to help clean the house and look after the then four other children with the fifth due any day.
Illness had plagued me all my young days; chickenpox, measles etc., and they always had some other problem attached to them, pnuemonia, mastoids etc would complicate these childhood illnesses, making them life threatening.
When I was nine years old we were having a family day out when I stood on a piece of glass hidden in the sand; I shrieked and jumped onto my dad’s back. He didn’t realise I was hurt and thought I was being silly. Looking around he realised how bad the situation was. My parents wrapped a towel around my foot as dad and I set off to find a doctor. No mean feat on a sunny Sunday afternoon in the summer, in an isolated coastal area and finally after driving around for more than an hour, he managed to find a doctor who put sixteen stitches in the wound. The tendon was severed but eventually, after several months of hobbling around, I learned to walk again, though it was many years before I could put full pressure on my injured foot.
Six months later I developed Rheumatic fever. I was paralysed for three months, unable to move any part of my body. I believe this was a result of a combination of circumstances I was unable to cope with.
Both my parents had been educated in the Grammar School system and they wanted the same type of education for me, but I wasn’t able to cope with the pressure of their expectations and fulfil their hopes. Furthermore, my schooling had been greatly disrupted by illness and I had become increasingly nervous by the bullying I was being subjected to. As a result, on the day my dad dropped me off at the school where the exam was taking place, I was in no fit state to take the exam. When the exam was over dad took me to see the film ‘Red Shoes’, which I loved. That night was the last time I would walk or move for more than three months. My life became one of fear and pain, loneliness and isolation. This was to become the pattern of my life for many years to come, through this illness, which would attack my body every time I felt under pressure and unable to cope.
RESPONSIBILITY
As my Mother became a lone parent with six children, my life became one of all work and little play. There was little time for playing between cleaning the house, washing and ironing as well as carrying out a part time job to help feed the family, and of course my schooling. However I did have one friend—Pam. She lived at the pub next door. One year when we were about twelve we had matching dresses, for me this was a great thrill as new clothes were a rarity. Another time we set up a pulley system between her house and ours, we used to send packets of chips from the shop mum had. The Fish and Chip shop mum had bought, was failing and soon closed. Mum started going out and met several men and soon child number seven was on the way. We six children lived in squalor in the bedrooms. Mum slept downstairs with her lover, who eventually became husband number two. Finally, we moved to better quality housing through having been allocated a council house which had a good sized garden. By this time I was fourteen years of age and I was able to give up my part time work. Now I had more time to make friends and enjoy a teenager’s life with friends and boyfriends.
When I left school I had wanted to go on to higher education. I had been offered a place to study Domestic Science. However, mum said they couldn’t afford for me to go to college so I would have to think of some other type of work. I really didn’t know what else I wanted to do. One day I was shopping in town and decided to pop into Boots Chemist, and see if they had any vacancies, and after an interview, I was offered a job as a sales assistant. A few weeks later I was promoted to an apprentice to study dispensing medicine.
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