Happy Grandparents Day

By Cecilia Hood Ceewee

Again and again! And again I thank everyone and all that have made time out of their busy schedules, to work together on a new book.
I thank everyone! That may or may not have the money to purchase the book, And still enjoy each and every word especially if in your bones you just know it has something you can relate too. Especially the word of our Lord. Enjoy every piece of art. And then some humor, I did not know was still in me, thankfully 2 share it also. The book is about our Lord and how only his grace and most mercies have yet again woke me up, and being a part of attributing his word, from his! Word the KJV= King James version of the bible, and then in my blessed words by way of his daily experience in one salvation and life, good bad happy, happier and sad, and light stress mmm…. back to happiness, nobody but Jesus. “ The book is also dedicated to all grandparents, past present & and future. '' I am merely clay, and thank God!! He is still the potter, all glory be to God and his son Jesus. The book is also about how in these ever changing years it is ok to have a personal relationship with our Lord, when for whatever reason one is not able to get to the santuary. He is right there in heart. It is how four growing children and now adults MIED still call this somewhat loving wretch, mother and mama, maybe even friend and I would not trade them for anything, other than them all over again. I love you four and 11 dearly and Jesus will always love each of you more.

P. S. With as much truth and honesty from one person to others. Love ya! And let's keep praying for ourselves, and as many as our hearts and hands can handle.

Thankful 2 be an author, Cecilia Hood Ceewwe.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Feb 1, 2023
• ISBN: 9781728378428

Cecilia Hood Ceewee

First uno and foremost thank -U- all glory be to God/His magnificent son Jesus. About the author. With an 11th once grade education this is what they have brought through me. —----You guessed it right, other than being above ground, and what you are reading. And then cumulation of over 9-10 voluntary & mandatory continued education programs led to, two dos computer certificates 1999, & 2010 during the addiction, over 15 quince years retired experience from the medical field, other than being the best nurse and f/back office medical office assistant no credentials. Some of you know what I mean. Certificate opens doors less than more credentials open, Jesus is a door opener regardless of, two dos school districts Oakland & Sacramento, plenty of fun and enjoyment. A few jobs in between to get past some really whatever, I knew I could use basically some positive in me, when it became me our Lord and sneaky spirit of satan and in the addiction still and really..use a check. Hallelujah!!. What more will they do for you?. Get busy. I am still thankful for God/Jesus who placed me in the family he knew was for me, and & me for them. Mother Father added parents, I am very much thankful for each one of the children & grandchildrens he has blessed me with, and believe and wish and pray for each of their fathers/daddies well. Siblings, relatives, friends or two dos. I am very much thankful and appreciative for those that the Lord used to help me understand during my special ed. Teaching position grades K - 12th, me speaking what I sometimes hear from those that taught me, hey…bilingual will be needed one way or another, in these ever changing times, no matter race creed mainly due to the diversity, and changes concerning many and new languages for many local & international. A wall won't do it, a fence won't do it, yet the hands of Christ. (Genesis chapter 11) Christ already predestined it, different languages then and now. And definitely not last or least thanks to the special educated children, I thought I was teaching and they taught me. Yes oh….. yes there is a need to repeat, they taught me! These Spanish words. I do my best to hold on….remember and use especially at home. And thanks to all of the staff that has made time to assist with the manuscript, now our book, thank ya! Dear Lord for us all doing our best to be helpers of one another. Thankful and grateful.

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Contents

This book is dedicated to all Grand™parents

Her name was Nan.

Good ole soul food grandaddy style.

A Letter from Grandmother Sookie Wookie.

I will start with me.

The Great Egg Hunt

Oh Happy Day.

Oh Happy Day.

Sisters The Drink and The Gambler

Sisters The Drink and The Gambler

Sweet sweet sweet sweet, sweet inspirations.

When I rose this morning I had no doubt.

(Broken Wings).

Oh Happy Day.

Many parts of medleys.

Thank You Jesus Bottomline, cause you are the Topline.

All Glory Be To Our Lord and Savior. The Most Magnificent 1 One Uno, Due, Ein, Un.

About the Author

Good morning, good afternoon, good evening, and peace, and peaceful good night.

And may we all continuously enjoy the peace that surpasses all understanding. And the renewed joy of restoration as we fall, into yet another night, call at the end of the day, sleep 💤.

This book is dedicated to all Grand™parents

1st generation, 2nd generation, 3rd generation and so on.

Let’s all do our best to believe someone has taken out time, and loved us somehow. Especially when and if our parents just couldn’t or can’t do it, or be there. Someone has loved us 🥰💯, and it’s usually the grandparents that rises to the occasion, to be of help for the one that has fallen short on self. Thank you grandparents maternal & paternal. All over the universe. 🌎

Therefore no names have been changed to protect the love that is us, sooner than later. You know who you are, go on, give yourselves a huge hug, then turn and give your better half a huge hug 🤗. Married or not, Saint Sinner or not, we are angels in his eyes. And only because we have all fallen short of his glory, and saved by his amazing grace, hug it out and let’s just know the one that died for all of us, is still hugging us humongous. Nothing to lose, all to gain, and if you are reading this including me, then we have another day to get right, be right, and other than ourselves, family and or friend or two dos treat someone right as we all move toward righteouness.

I have come to understand that If our Lord and Savior, the only most magnificent one took time to creat me, then hello and & hello soon as he wake me up, I am up if I sat I’m up, if I stand I’m up, if I move walk talk, and decide to just say F It all Than I should or might as well just watch others move, and grove in their abundance 🤸, don’t think so. Tried, Silly Silly Person. I once copied a few gamblers as I watched here, and there as they won, hey I won! Oh my God I won! Sippidi do dah zippity day, my oh my what wonderful day, I just won $25,000, naw naw, yes I did. I’m just waiting for the attendant to bring me my money, and tax forms. I followed them and upped my bet to $3-$10 knowing full well, I learned in the many years gambling I am a low bet gambler, and that was after losing much money oh I’m gonna win small, or large cause I was betting high not so. I won more regularly with low bets. So I copied and lost without looking at time 🕛, I lost the $200 within 15 minutes and drove all the way home feeling and looking like a lemon 🍋, with a pickle waiting to say foolish woman you were 🥒. Better to be oneself at all times. And because the word tells us we are saved upon birth, well yes!! Do it girl all you think you can do in a 24 hours day, you woke up, let’s get busy. All Glory be to God and his most Glorified Magnificent Son Jesus. In whom are the same, yet one created it all, us, and everything. God created the heavens infirmities sun 💐 moon, clouds stars, and every garden 🍅🥕🪴 we now call our own and so on. You have been reading your words in the bible, 1 verse and or chapter. He loves it just by making that bit of time, and as a 1000,000 of us have also come to learn and understand daily, the word will grow on you, like that pinch for one to grow on, you know the birthday pinch. And even though 85.44% of us have not met yet, I am still proud of you for trying, doing as he has led your heart to do and getting to know him.

Let’s get into God for a moment. Is that okay? Please forgive me for I am learning which spelling to use correctly, o.k. I got it, or okay I got it, yeah people I need him everyday even in that, o.k. Or okay. I want to check google or dictionary but right now as of this morning September 21st 2022 I am hoping the poli grip lasts long enough for me to really feel and believe alright till they tighten professionally, make do, and my stomach growling, should I take dentures out and keep enjoying foods, or keep them in and risk dentures and food getting mixed in together. I’ve been enjoying delicious chicken strips, delicious!! And many salads and plenty of bbq and point is I will just keep learning day to day, and finally google the correct usage for, o.k. or okay, and what content to use the word in. These are some of my pet peas early this morning.

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Alright let’s get back into God shall we? God is the everlasting spirit that is with us, in the form of a ram such as he was with Abraham and Isaac. Genesis 22: 1-3 (1) And it came to pass after these things, that God did tempt Abraham and said unto him, Abraham: and he said, Behold, here I am. (2) And he said take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell of thee. (3) And Abraham rose early in the morning, and saddled his ass, donkey, and took two of his young men with him, and Issac his son, and clave the wood for the burnt offering, and rose up and went onto the place God told him. Verses (4-11) Abraham followed the request and as he stretched his hand, to bring down on his son the Lord let Abraham know you have been obedient yet you do not have to sacrifice your son Isaac. And there right there Abraham a ram in the bush. Study Bible= God will provide. Children including all mine nieces and nephews cousins, get a study bible it is a help when the preachers, teachers and deacons, and mothers of the board and all other positions, concerning the staff at any given service that has use the tithes, and offering which also helps to afford a staff. And food giveaways and some rents, maybe even mortgages paid by the heads of the services one attends. And after the bull cone that just didn’t give a damn about none of us, regardless of race, creed, and color, covid 19 showed up, we all on the same jet flying quickly not as high, not to low yet just right so therefore the father knows I have gotten their attention, check it out for self. Job 1:12= (1) There was a man in the land of Uz, whose name was job; and that man was perfect and upright, and one that feareth God, and eschewed evil. And there were born unto him 7 seven siete sons, and three 3 tres daughters. And the Lord said unto Satan, behold all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand. So Satan went forth from the presence of the Lord’’. This is also why it is good to have to study from the study bible, like hand and glove frog and lily pad, tiger lions and bears, for some reason go hand and hand. Most information in the bible has a need to need details, especially for some that can really use much understanding, very helpful. (This 85.44% how it is I have been blessed and fortunate) To write what we’re reading, Nobody Nobody but Jesus and yes I am rebuking Satan right now, we are not by ourselves. And this is what the study bible breaks it down too. = God permits but does not order Satan to test Job. Satan’s power is always exercised under the control of God. Satan is limited by the unlimited power of God. In other words children young and old the Lord is letting us know, He!! Has all the Power and Control and upon kicking Mr. ugly out of heaven, he was granted some power. We must be tested somehow. Ah Jesus. Yet just like the flood he the good Lord our Father which are in heave refused to just take us all out, not all have been just fucked up! Including me, and for those of you that may accept it, will you please forgive some of my language thank you. What about Moses?. Exodus 3: Mr. Moses. Now Moses kept the flock of Jethro, his father and law, the priest of Midian: and he led the flock to the backside of the desert and came to the mountain of God, even to Horeb. And the Angel appeared unto him in the form of flame of fire out of the midst of a bush: and he looked, and behold, the bush burned with fire, and the bush was not consumed. The bush did not burn up or down. God cannot be seen as a choice he chose for the sake of us, that we may not be turned to stone. Hey! Lot was probably glad his wife was only turned to a pillar of salt instead of stone it would not have been as easy to let go of his hard head wife hands after she went against the Lords direct instructions, more than likely if they were holding hands, the thought of what God instructions were to them don’t look back on the ill will mess, sins at sodom and gomorrah, I have once again saved you Lot and your wife from, or you both will be turned to a pillar of salt, and being lot’s wife was considered a disobedient woman because she looked back proved she was more interested in what the world was still offering, than her salvation and to flee from yet another rescue from God salt helped it to be easier to let go, we may never know what might have happened if she was turned to stone. Aye I am not just saying aye Cecilia’s is happy just to be in the one step, one day, one moment at a time. Although I have read Genesis a couple of times I am thankful the pillar of salt situation was over two thousands years ago, only the same Lord knows I have looked back numerous times just to say look what and where the Lord brought me from. Thank you Lord for not such wrath but some grace and mercy. And most definitely has everything to do with the Lord, aging, arthritis and some other stuff thankful…. aging about as gracefully as possible, hello and hello. Right on Ceewee. God truly only wants us to live in love, peace and his harmonies daily not yesterday, not tomorrow, today that is he the today God. Yesterday, today and faithfully hopefully all tomorrows, will always belong to the Lord. He loves us so much he decided to create himself, through the magnificent conception, through Mary and here came Jesus➕, born in a manger, grew as all children do yet the only child to emancipate from his parents, in a spiritual manner that would also be used for us, not as Katt W. Completely different situation. But in a more instructional way from God. Again we will never understand and as it says in Ephesian, God has allowed his son Jesus to share 5% of their mystery, knowledge and up to us to hold on to that sooner than later. Jesus is so magnificently blessed and highly favored he was about his father’s business concerning the word. Lil different for us at an early age, including me for those of us, that started working early me I was 10 years old, and worked for my paternal grandfather and his second wife Dee and the chores were alright, I learned they partied daily, when I arrived my first day to work and listen to them remind how much they loved me, and me returning love and hugs. Saturday when I showed up for work I could see an awesome mess, never dirty man. They really party regardless of what day, pretty sure that’s when I started trying some profanity shit, dam. And for $10.00 weekly mmm. Even though our mother had already shipped me to their parties. Preparation. So Jesus went from mommy and daddy being a baby, to teaching the word of God in the synagogue at an early age. Then turned right around and taught those the Disciples and or Apostles the truth, the way and the light, so yes we have all learned hopefully sooner than later something about the word of God. For our own salvation which is of the Lord. In order to get to know ourselves, not so much in the world yet once he knows dad he or she, so tired they sit at the curve, they lay on and in the streets, go get em Son let them or the person know it’s not too late. We are still on the throne looking at them, all who are ready for difference in their lives. Read for self in that you can be the judge of the difference made in one’s life. Your life. Please feel free to quote me. I can back it up. At 85.44% of it the other 100% is with our Lord. I too am still learning and already understand, I will still be lacking some of his words, when it is my time to leave this old earth, and oh how happy! I am testing the very waters and thankful. And his precious son Jesus will be here through all eternity. As Jesus walked, talked looking like most men, walking and talking teaching the Disciples and or Apostles for 3 tres three years while he was on earth that it confuse the Pharisees, and Sadducees simply because they wanted the people to believe in them and their way and did not want the people to believe it was some greater than them not in appearance clothing footwear and best coat no they dressed well but was very knowledgeable to the true Messiah in their face the way the truth and light. They wanted him to perform like a circus employee thank god he followed his dads instruction and stay the way the truth the light are exactly would we be frankly and very honestly i did not want to yet and but I, I wondered the thoughts could not complete themselves thank you i am where I am suppose to be. Can we all do our best to read and remember that all Apostles were disciples, but not every disciple was an apostle. Every person that believes in Jesus is called his disciple. Matthew 28:19-20 records Jesus saying, Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I will be with you till the very end of time. (Till the very end of time) Including me children young, middle age and older let’s not get frighten with the part about the command yes it is his God’s, commands for all and everything he spoke into existence yet thats is why he converted, transformed, transitions himself into his son, that he may be seen and, and over 2000 two thousands years ago many lived for the Lord and pass on the word. And the word has and will continue to travel generations, to generations the Lord is alive, and he has it all under control, yet by the power of the one who also created him, and in his own image that we may live. The message be written rather with a stick, or put together with grass the word of God will be somewhere on the earth. No not so much comparing to Eli, and still, and the original version of the movie the Ten commandment produced directed by Cecil DeMille, release date 12/04/1923, and to think my name was Cecil for five 5 cinco minutes but our maternal grandmother thought I would be teased, as her sister was her name was Cecil, so our mother added ia to my name. At that time the 60’s supposedly that name was fitted for male children, wow.

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Her name was Nan.

We met at the casino 2022, and as I played and clickety-clack on the slot machine, I noticed her just kinda sitting and looking around, not as in lost look but should I ask her is everything alright and is she okay?. I continued to mine my own business, and as I was mining my own business she turned around sat up straight, straighten her clothing up and watched her green money enter the slot dispenser, I kept hoping come on machine you know I been good to you, last week this week and many other times, I can use some of the money back, come on come on give it to me!! I have paid your smud and some of your pg &e and I know I can definitely use some of the money back. Meanwhile, the person next to me was constantly thanking the slot they were playing, every other 2-3 minutes it was paying something, 50cents $2 - $5 some of the orbs were $25 - $50 oh yeah… I lean lil to see how much they were betting, and they were betting $4.50 and I decided to wait a few minutes, and hopefully the slot would blow its fire on the screen, and that would surely allow me to break even, or over and win some of the money back. And just start over, especially if the amount was less than what I’d already lost. Oh I am a very silly gambler, and like 85.44% of the time, the other 14.56% of the time, I used either openly or quietly praying to the Lord to have the machine to act right. Just as I started to click the play button I heard ding ding ding, of course it was the slot Nan was playing. She was smiling and profiling and turning back, and forth on the swivel chair. She spoke and when she said something, It was similar to something I thought about on the way to the casino, just as Matthew, Mark and Luke, they had the same ministry, the Lord shared with them for three years, yet each one has shared a different story turned testimonies. She said hi, how are you? I’m alright, my name is Nan and I just won, pointing at the machine and the $875.50 she won. I said hi my name is Ceewee and laughed hard inside, but hoping she didn’t ask me about the ridiculous smile on my face? The ridiculous smile was how I watched her, watching the amount on the marqui constantly saying she didn’t do anything to the machine, and that she just sat down at the slot machine and put her money in, and clicked the button and won. Right right we know you haven’t done anything to the slot. And if you had you wouldn’t have to worry, why are they packing you out of the casino. I and a few others got back to playing the slots. Nan kept talking and it was then I realized she must want, or need someone to talk to and yeap she needed someone to talk with. And I do believe the Lord wanted it to be me. Regardless of how many other people she may or may not have passed, or stood near or by that day. She started talking again, I hope I am not bothering you, no you’re not bothering me, and try and trust in my spirit I am sure I have bothered many of us both grinning. but I am waiting for my daughter. We agreed we would meet here, right here, uha right, my daughter likes to gamble and she plays the card games here, right, yeah she plays the card games and she wins most of the time. A week ago she won $10,000 chasing the dragon, and the week before that she won $5,700 on 7777777’s so I came here hoping to win. Look, I won, right right, keep taking care Nan. Are you about to leave the casino? Not right now, alright I like talking with you. What is your name? Ceewee as many have done, as she smiled, and added something a tad bit different concerning my nickname, she asked me what were your parents thinking of when they named you? I’m not sure I was the only infant, we both cracked up. I did as usual listened, heard all she was speaking of and got back to playing the game. Come on, come you you raggerley machine! At least give me back a quarter?. As I sat again waiting.. hoping.. the dragon would blow its fire on the screen, as I stood up to loosen the back of my pants from my butt, and straighten the rest of me up, ring - a - ding ding ding baby! It hit and the bonus reel followed up behind the orbs hitting. And this is also where me, and the Lord comes to agreement, Lord help me understand have I won both on the house money, and eight ocho free games. I also learned that day behind some of the game symbols, that are so finely created and crafted, it is almost easy to click the play button, not realizing one has hit the, six seis or more money orbs, that is house money, you playing on the casino if it is, six seis or more money orbs it’s our money, rather we, I they you, them win, the three tres red and white and blue temples, that allow us to play eight 8 ocho free games. And oh yeah! There were three red white and blue temples. One of the temples was behind the dragon’s tail. I counted at least $500.00 in money orbs and started shaking, mainly because that was when I knew alrighty do I try for more, or collect my ticket and skip to the money dispenser, and go home like I talked about to me, and God on the way here? Mmmm And remember you also convinced yourself yeah girl, you got a parking space near the door of the casino, yeah that’s letting you know you gon win, and if it is at least over what you brought to play, you can get right to the car. Go home. Just as I clicked the play button again, the dragon blew its fire on the screen, oh man and woman mmm!! It happened at the right time. It lit up the whole screen meaning all I had to do was chill, and wait for the bonus reel for the big money win. Usually after someone has won the big money, the machine resets the dragon game starts at major grand = $8,775.50 major jackpot = $2,776.75 minor = $50 min = $10, and I was desperately in need of a few new outfits, and did not want to just hold on to the money, and for me it had also become the thing called, its is answered prayers, and it is more than what I had, and and you can! Contribute some tithes and offerings without waiting for payday and you know how good the Lord is to you girl just go home. I click the bonus button for bonus spin and watched it spin round and round and finally stopped right on what I was hoping for the X3, so once the spin came to stop I collected over $700 the X3 showed up totaling over $275.00 and just as I click the button again an again of course the machine started deducting minusing, subtracting taken money back loses. Lady, get up, get out of here it is you the machine not making you stay. I stopped and collected the money voucher. I really did not mind who heard not at that point, over anxious about winning, finally sweating and trembling, cause " I wanted to stay the bells `` ringing a ding ding ‘’ whistling in my ears you bouts to win more the excitement of it all. > Please feel free to quote that right there> Those of you over 18, and under 25 years of age if you are even considering oh I can’t wait to do this and that, once I am grown somethings are worth the wait, keep getting some word bible, and the next best thing Education, School, you are not missing anything special, if you are fresh to college and or universities and getting by on parents funding, and financial aide or loans it is not worth losing specially if mother and or father have paid out of hard hard earned money for your success. Those that have contributed to your Education, are not only proud of you, yet think about it as something they may have squeezed out, of the finances coming into the home after paying rent, mortgages utilities and clothing, footwear, and snack money, and that’s more than likely by the time we, they you, me them, I am in Jr. High. assuring, you! Yeah you, get a great Education. Don’t think or worry. I suggested all of the above concerning the do’s and don’ts about Education, and much life trials and tribulations, some of the gambling my three tres sons had already started at young ages. I strongly said and suggested to my children, as soon as they turned to understanding age. MIED will you please stay in School it’s y’all future at hand. My children had no idea about me as a person, they were too busy believing this single parent will fight a gorilla for us. She stopped the bus at a speeding light, and flew from one side of the room, to another to whoop on us once we showed our asses. She worked and hustles harder, to make sure they did not want for not much, and with plenty of family, and us being helpers of one another really simplified many duties, and tasks at hand. And the same from me to my family helped. If I had waited for their father’s/daddies, well it is almost difficult to say as great as each of my children’s fathers were, and could have easily been better as fathers /daddies, it was best not to hold my breath. Or mention less and less to our children sho nuff no promises please. I did not know the Lord 12% of what I know now about the Lord at the time raising my four cuatro 4 children. And more than happy to hurry and accept some help, thank you family and a friend or two. And even more thanks right now September 22, 2022 that I did instill some good in them, way… b4 before mother started her own bull cone and journeyed into the abyss euphoria and utopia that was crack cocaine, I did what was best for the four within me and many concerns for their future. I too was told these things by those that loved love, those who cared for my future, I decided to go for it and dropped out of the twelfth grade, in the first three months of the beginning of High School. And still the Goodness of the Lord has made sure I have had enough common sense and brains, and intellect and intelligence, and some wisdom, to even!!!! Come as far as I think I am, we know who it is. Yet I was already 40 for whatever other reason other than major reasons, to let go and he showed hold on. No time to over think, and felt I did not have anything to lose, you getting it now? I moved at the speed of lightning and some thunder, and much lost, yet so much gained, only because of perseverance toward the man we call Jesus. Right on keep up your good works, be sure to do what’s best for you, and those you can literally see rooting for you. Spiritually, Academically, and Fellowship rather at home in personal relationship with Jesus or attend church service, they both the best of all Educations. And I am back concerning me and Ms. Nan, so as I finally listened to me as I got ready to leave Nan asked me? Miss what’s your again Cee Wee my real name is Cecilia. What’s going on, are you.. alright? Yes I am alright. I won and I am sitting here still, waiting for my daughter. She should have been here by now. Miss Cecilia, the reason I am happy I won and this amount, I have been telling my five cinco grandchildren I don’t have it, have what? Money for shopping for them, but I do, and I’ve been thinking about it more and more. I come here to the casino and sometimes lose more than winning, and when I do win most of the time I just give it back. I know that machine is so full of my money, and still I say to my grandchildren I don’t have money to shop retail, and we go to sales and clearance racks, and I come to the casino. They are very well mannered and respectful people, they are my grandchildren. Today I will stop saying no I don’t have money. I will take my five cinco grandchildren shopping for what their hearts want. This money will buy me and my grandchildren something nice, and! Who are too young to want houses and cars, both laughing.

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Me and my family came to this country when I was ten diaz. My children don’t understand how blessed, and fortunate they are to be born here, right? I am listening and please try and excuse me if I burst out laughing. I am overgrown and it took you to remind me how blessed we are, and don’t know what the adult may have come out of just to get us a pair of socks. You really are correct. I was ten diaz when we got here, and once we got here me and my family did not have time to lollygag, our parents got whatever job they could, and me and my siblings cooked cleaned from sunup, to sundown that’s how our parents were very clean here and back in China. Back in China, my sisters and brothers had to go outside no matter what season it was, chop wood and sometimes we don’t know if it was snow all over the house and very very very freezing outside but we had to do it if we wanted a hot meal and my children will never understand I tell them they would have not made if they were born in China we cooked food on the wood and concrete 1922 no quick nothing, no stove half working icebox, no microwaves no electricity to see outdoor for potty toilet bathroom. Sometimes we had to go to the bathroom late at night. What else can we do? Wow Wee. We had to do it. I tell my children that’s what has gotten me through time, after time and our heavenly father. Please excuse me Ms. Nan is dad somewhere in the picture, sometimes, he hasn’t been the same since we arrived here in the USA 🇺🇸. I stopped him too. He wanted to blame many things on other things, and it was not what he liked it to be, and another woman, I made the choice to finish raising our children by myself. I am going to call my daughter right now if she doesn’t answer. I am going to the cafe and eat! Right on Nan and please enjoy. She repeated herself again. I am going to the cafe and eat! Right on lady and enjoy every bite, chew and swallow, and low and behold she laughed and laughed, she is the only one that got it, she didn’t respond with ugh what do you mean by that!? Or you nasty, she got it. Once we put whatever it is we will eat, chew crunch has to also go through the process, mouth, Mmmm Taste, chew if needed or such as a slurpee process in mouth taste and swallow. Neckbone mouth tastes sort of rumble in the mouth, and that is after I or some of us are done licking our fingers depending who broils baked the meat then in the mouth it’s all good. Ms. Nan continued to communicate more than me, I tru;y was really happy and satisfied. I was actually listening to someone, who will never know as we talked. I wanted to burst out and say, Ms. Nan!! Our family loves chinese foods, and share with her how it all began with our grandfather being a gambler, tight eyes and lover of chinese food. And that if I was not and that if I wasn’t as in love with soul food, and not be upset at me I would exchange meals for a week, and I! Admire oriental fashion. Yeah I loved it and Ms. Nan she was and is a grandparent to be loved. So I am very thankful I listened, heard and learned. What I finally left with yeah as she talked I kept clicking the play button, and thinking once the money decreased down by’ $50 stop I won $100 more $$"s. And sho nuff before Ms. Nan left to hopefully go eat and enjoy, she reminded me what it is I said to her before we started communicating, and only because she said out loud she had lost half as much money earlier, of what she brought to play. before. playing the slot she had just won, I suggested Miss and before knowing she was widowed, Miss why don’t you take all or most of your winnings home, you seem to like nice things, and as much as I have lost this month I wish someone would have suggested I leave the casino. We laughed so hard she she sat back because she remembered she hadn’t taken her medications, I laughed so hard I did not realized i sat my purse on top of the bet screen and as I clicked few more times She asked me Cecilia you changed your bet uh uh, I looked and my purse was weight changed the bet from my faithful $1.50 - $3 bet to $7.50 Awe shit time for me to go!, I’m unknowingly losing $$’s, love ya! Ms. Nan…..I love you too lady… I nearly did a 180 degree turn and this is why, only about 65% of orientals are out right affectionate, and that is speaking of family, unsure about friends. So for that 88 year old Chinses woman to say very naturally I love you too, to me a Negro period, woman or man is golden and only because I and her talked laughed and giggled and personally she so comical I almost peed on myself. The moment of winning, losing, and the many losses on this earth concerning hopefully not ever again covid 19, never return. We shared real love, and it added to our humanity, our very real humanitarian spirit right there, at the slot machine where life can easily become a gamble. Most will always win, some are just hoping to win, unknowing it is already all won and yet here comes Jesus showing up for me and Ms. Nan. I wasn’t wearing my dentures and didn’t give a darn once she and I started talking. She helped me feel comfortable. Aye I’m gone and say it she helped me be reminded I am still loved, a lot was going on with family, I too needed someone just say girl or Cecilia it is alright, there was Ms. Nan and I…. I hugged me once I got in my car. She said with me constantly communicating back with her, is what reminded her to take her medication. Inspiration is over the earth, It is a universal thing. Once I got home I believe the only reason I remembered to add the accepting change, poem to book came from talking to another woman grandmother, a genuinely loving person.

Accepting change

I am a negro child product of my fathers nutsack, product of my mother’s fertile womb, I am not a twin. There was only enough room for one, uno, plenty of room to grow, stretch, roll around and around like what what? A merry go round. No problems.

I was born a black girl not so much in a very mixed up and around world, no not Christopher Columbus. But the round ground beef which is now me a burger lady for real um. Don’t always have to cheese yet pleases please do not! Remove all the from from this good ole earth. Hello and hello.

I am supposedly an African Queen. Yet we didn’t need confirmation of African breed residents or not, we were shown the queen side of things way… b4 before leaving home. And also told if you are seen wearing makeup, then how are you even an African and queen?. Ah man and woman, moment thank goodness for validation and confirmation b4 and upon leaving the nest (Home).

I am an African American, How many more names must I be before b4 you recognize me? May not have the same skin color, yet the blood in my veins runs red and deep as the next human being. Red Red. Red Red Red Red.=Human.

My children are Negro Cherokee and Hispanic. And still because they are a product of their father’s nutsack, and mother’s fertile womb, it doesn’t matter how they cum or came here they are here. And they don’t have twins. There was only enough room for one, legs, arms feets and many other things, plenty of room to roam, roll and kick like never before. Hey you! I am ready for the world. Let me out…!, And still they are here.

However each one of mine knows who and where they are from, and it is only called love. Another breed creed and it’s good. Good ole so good to hear someone say mother, mama, momma, Mama!!.

I am a Negro Woman all those other names I don’t adhere too. I do answer to my name especially knowing deep down inside we all feel the same way, let us turn around and give someone five not on the Black, White Indian Oriental and all other cultural sides, yet five on the love side. And just know we all are called by a name we just need to hopefully figure it out. There I myself have nothing else to do but give a hallelujah shout!. Until then, let’s remain in love even if it’s just a friend.

I found the answer.

I found the answer I learned to pray, with faith to guide I found a way.

The sun is shining on me everyday, I found the answer and I learned how to pray.

I was weak and weary. I had gone astray walking in the darkness. I could not find my way then the sun was shining, to help me along the way I found the answer I found the answer I learned to pray.

Let me tell you you a story of a woman who had leaned on many walls and agains., Brick by brick things got thinner and thinner, not as thick trying to constantly tear down the spirit wasn’t sure who to trust least alone then she went down to her knees asking the Lord for forgiveness and including herself.

Then the sun came shining to lead her from despair, all their sins forgiven. And free at last.

I found the answer and learned to pray.

Keep your bible with you and read it everyday even if it is only a scripture.

Always count your blessings and always stop to pray.

Learn to keep believing and you know faith will see you through, seem to know contentment and it will come to you.

I found the answer and I learned to pray, with faith to guide me. I found a way.

I am who I am and that’s fine by me, because oh let me check it out. I am who I am, oh let me checkmate. And refused to change and guess what? I tried to change and guess what? Still wasn’t good enough for others. She is still the same. I am who I am. It is fine by me. It’s Christ that walks and talks with me at that very moment.

Emmanuel which Interprets God within us. And he’s the only one who holds no faults in me.

Marvelous, Magnificent, (John 3:16).

For God so Loved the world that he gave his only begotten son. Whoever shall believeth on him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. Marvelous magnificent God sent his son earth to redeem our sins, so that we may live. Marvelously magnificent, he sent his son to earth so we may be worthy, to accept our sins and still become our best friend, lifting burdens too heavy for us to carry, long life highways and byways, giving us the best he has to offer. Including decorative trees, not necessarily the Christmas season, only the one who creates such a thing. Seed soil water and much care is what we get beautiful things from the gardens he created, yet now we say we own the anthem in our gardens. Sounds of music, words of wisdom and many other lyrics. Marvelous and magnificent.

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Good ole soul food grandaddy style.

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Hi granddaddy, hey there, where’s y’all mama and grandmama? They’re in the backyard. As me and red walked with grand daddy to the backyard, we heard our grandfather say in a low voice, (Psalms 23) God is good we shall not want, look where he brought us from. All the way from West Oakland, to reside in our family home, and! To East Oakland God is good. A five bedroom house, baby where’s mama and grandmama? They’re not in the backyard, No, oh! Yeah they went to the housewives market, and I think mama said they were going to swans after housewise market. Grand daddy are you leaving? No, what gave y’all that idea? You still have your coat on, well granddaddy didn’t have time to change after work. I really wanted to bring these sweet potato pom pom, woo…grand daddy brought us some sweet potato pom pom, where! Where is it? It’s in the refrigerator, granddaddy can we have some sweet potato pom pom now? No you cannot, that dessert is going with the rest of the foods, I brought my grandbabies. Yeah!!.. Granddaddy brought us some more food. Do y’all like the five bedroom house your mother got for y’all? All eight of us answered him at one time, Yes yes we do!! We can slide down the banister when we want to. No you can’t, this house isn’t for y’all to slide up, and down the banister when you want to. Do you children have any idea what your mother, and auntie had to go through to get this house? Lost for words and really did not have an answer. Well that broke the happy banister game. No granddaddy what she went through? Well first she had to come up with the $2,500, and no one had it, not at the time she needed it, I wished I had it, but I didn’t and so… what happened? Do any of you remember the linen family? We used to buy linen from the family. What is linen? The sheets and blanket y’all sleep on and the blanket y’all sleep under come on now, some of you know this, nah we just heard that word linen. Alright, that’s enough chit chat, and I don’t think my daughter wants me telling her business. Granddaddy can we help set the table? Soon as y’all wash your hands, I’ll beat you to the bathroom, get on your march, get set, go! Stop running in the house! You hard headed children evidently didn’t understand a word I said your mother and auntie work hard to get y’all out of West Oakland. Now stop running in the house, take care of it, that’s what you do. Okay granddaddy we will, you will what? Say it that way I know y’all mean it, we will take care of our house. And that some good grandchildren can granddaddy have another hug?. All of us ran to him, with our arms wide open meeting his arms wide open. We love you granddaddy. I love all of you greater than you will ever know. We know we know y’all been watching that show what’s happening, yeah, how you know? Sometimes when I’m off work granddaddy watches it. Mama and grandmama back granddaddy, hello girls how are ya? We alright daddy, how have you been and what brings you to our new neck of the woods? Baby I was thinking and wondered how my family is doing, and if all of you were getting alone especially with the move, and new house.

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Daddy stop worrying yourself, we are just fine. I know you are, and the fact you opened the door for your mother to move in, of course couldn’t let her stay in West Oakland drinking her life away, and all the love we have for you two it was! It was a must. I love you baby. Daddy now I know other than being happy for us, and the house, you did not come here right after work, just for the house you brought… Can’t fool my girls, you brought us some food. Is that China boy? And who are you calling your girls? Are you still up to some of your shanangins? No Miss Quincy, or is it still ok to call you Miss Margie? Them laughing, and us smiling and hoping they stop talking long enough, to cut into the sweet potato pom pom. You know I still love you lady, yeah right and you know I still love you too, yeah right. Our mother and auntie, cut through both their chase (Bullcone) That could have easily lead to granddaddy putting his coat and hat back on, and bidding us and mama a farewell, and basically leaving grandmama to cuss him out, right then and then some even though he might have been at bus stop, by the time she’d usually realize he was gone, oh what love and sweet sweet bittersweet memories. Us sixteen shared some of the best times. Thank goodness we all got along even if it mint granddaddy, and grandmama staying in their own corners, seriously she sat in the corner of the dining room area, with her gin or vodka, and he in the corner of the living room, so that he could watch all footballs games that used to come on Monday and Saturdays nights, way way.. Back then 1960’s-early 70’s. Yeap love love. Our grandfather stayed and the oldest children who were now ages 17-20 years old, visited that day and we all re-washed and washed hands, and we enjoyed every bite, crunch and chew of the barbeque neckbones, chicken thighs and legs once called drumsticks, have no idea why, and still good. Black eyed peas cabbage, macaroni and cheese cornbread, and some hog head cheese just for us children, us the six or seven that were still at home, and some of the older siblings and relatives really didn’t like hog head cheese anymore, us younguns was happy they didn’t like hog head cheese no more no more, and more for us. Grand Daddy did his usual shouting at the television go yaiders go! And those so and those so and so, not gonna win they haven’t practiced like the yaiders, go go, yes, and touchdown!. Meanwhile we the yougons ask granddaddy, why do you still like the yaiders? He looked at us as if we asked him to throw up the delicious foods, he labored so dearly for us, and did not go right home from work. And that he asked his boss if it was ok to store the dinner in the company’s refrigerator, until he clock out?. What the hell are y’all talking about? Are y’all talking about the strike? As always we answered together, yeah the strike! And they could not stand it when we did that they granddaddy, grandma and mama and auntie, would ask why do y’all do that? And most of the time before cutting us off, they would nearly be nsync with one another, they would respond with birds of a feather sticking together, sometimes we would indirectly answer with right on, nah that was not the moment or time. We nudged Alfonzo closer and he did the speaking, as we chewed and licked our fingers and who will get most of the ice cream with the pom pom, and back and forth to the kitchen checking, the sweet potato pom pom, Yeah!. The strike grandaddy, what about it? We stood still and let the older sibling Alfonzo share with him what our children’s problem was, with the raiders, as hard as it was for him to listen, thank goodness the game was in the second quarter, and the other team was in the lead. So as granddaddy stated the team he was rooting for won’t just lay down and lose, watch just watch, they’re gonna win and it’s going to pick in the third quarter. Granddaddy listened, you got ten minutes, grandaddy looked at his watch and said go!. Granddaddy, we’ve been getting up early bathing, washing up, getting dressed. Sometimes we hang our clothes on top of the stove, and open the stove door a little bit so our clothes can dry, that’s not granddaddies business youngman. And trying to beat each other to the table, for leftovers and who gon get the most can milk, so that it will make the corn flakes taste like real milk in the cereal. Erma what the hell is he talking about?. I know since your mother moved in y’all keeps plenty food, daddy he was talking about how one of them kept taking the laundry out of the wash machine, before it completed the wash, and now I’m not sure if it’s the motor, or the part that does the spinning, and now they have to dry some of their clothes on the top of the stove. Oh okay baby sounds like something they deserved to do. I thought he was talking about walking to the wash house, or store. They fuss over who got to the can milk first and poured half the can of milk on their cereal, I have broke up some fights over the can of milk, man, baby we gon have to something about that, send the boys to my house next weekend, it’s plenty work waiting for them to do, and someone can by the homogenized milk, just make sure y’all share it. Now what were you saying about the yaiders?. Grandaddy, we went to the Arroyo community center for a month and made signs saying no yaiders please don’t go! Please don’t leave the bay area and go to L.A. And they went to L. A. And some of us was just learning some of their moves, you know the way some of the players can make the field goal, and still be standing, laughing, and some of the players the yaiders and some other teams and player kicked the ball for the field goal, and fall down, laughing and getting serious, grandson that’s part of the job stand fall, and not giving up because everything did not go the way expected, Even after all the practicing granddaddy not even then, son, it is… game and sometimes some lose and some win, and still all are winners for the simple facts they stay the course. Granddaddy granddaddy, can we have some dessert now? Not right now as soon as the food digests, in your bellies you can eat all the dessert you can handle. I’m still listening. We went to Lake Merrit and posted signs so people working in the business area could see the signs and route for the team to stay in the bay area. And we played on the lime green bone. You children are still calling that sculpture a lime green bone, I love it, mama and grandma chipping in, yes we do. I don’t think anyone other than the person who created such magnificent work, (Sculpture), knows who created it. I haven’t seen a sign of an artist/sculpture anywhere and I have been going to Lake Merrit for years. I haven’t heard of any yet have you all. Grandson you got about two minutes to finish your debate, where is he? He’s in the kitchen waiting for mama to fix the dessert. Remember, the baby won’t be able to work, she’s only two, all giggling send the boys to the house next weekend, so we can work and finish the football talk. Daddy and make sure they work, and don’t get too intune with the games. They’re gonna work till they are tired, and don’t worry, I already know what they might want for breakfast: grits bacon and eggs, and french toast, two like over easy and the other four grandsons like scrambled, and hard crusted eggs, daddy you have a good memory, for lunch… daddy no! You don’t have to spend the weekend slaving for those boys, sweetie it’s ok, those my grandson not to many can say they have twelve grandchildren, and an even stack six boys and six girls, daddies alright and I really won’t be slaving as much, as they gon think granddaddy helping, let granddaddy do it and act like we don’t understand. Oh no they also have the attic and basement to clean, you get it now? They’ll do the cleaning and I’m the chef. Daddy does have a pretty good memory, does the oldest grandson still go to the YMCA and the Synanon sweetie? Yes, and do the two middle grandchildren still get together, at the hoodlums home in North