The Hell of My Mind

By Tammy Davis Murphy

Could the beauty of my spirit overshadow perceptions? Could people see past my physical feature and know who I am? Could they see the beauty of my spirit and know the real Tammy? Could my gifts and talents benefit others or ministry? Questions and thoughts fueled my journey of The Hell of My Mind. I pray that this book will explain the mental struggle that some people experience, and I pray this book helps in the deliverance of your thought life. Believe that no matter what issues you face or have faced- God is a Deliverer.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jun 7, 2022
• ISBN: 9781669822813

Tammy Davis Murphy

Tammy knows about battling the thought of life. Growing up, she faced mental challenges of self-doubt, depression, and fear. Divorce changed her life and deepened her mental challenges until God revealed to her how to control the thought of life with the word of God and determination. She is a retired middle school educator and the mother of three children and grandchildren. She has dedicated her life to helping those who struggle with mental health, self-esteem and helping women determine their worth. The Hell of My Mind is her first book to bring self-awareness that we are not alone in dealing with mental health, especially from a private and Christian standpoint. She hopes that this will especially help women, mothers, and wives determine that it is okay to not hide the struggle and get outside help.

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CONTENTS

Introduction

Part 1: The Seed of Rejection

Chapter 1: Planting the Seed of Rejection

• Framed Thoughts

• Low-Level Thinking

• How to Develop a Spiritual-Based Self-Esteem

Chapter 2: Masking the Hurt

• Thinking Only to Survive

• Spiritual Weariness

• Is It Possible to Change My Thinking?

Part 2: Understanding My Transition

Chapter 3: Diamond in the Rough

• The Potter’s Wheel

• Transforming My Heart

• Free from the Yoke of Bondage

Part 3: Living in a New Season

Chapter 4: It Is in the Bag

• A Renewed Mind

Epilogue/Conclusion

Bibliography

About the Author

Book Reviews

To my children TJ, Tiffany, and Tieshara. Thanks for teaching me how to have fun in life and for bringing me joy.

To my mother who, through her struggles, exemplified tenacity and strength.

To Pastor Rod and Lady Marie who continually prayed for me.

To Family Worship Center for supporting and encouraging me.

To Robin Carter, my best friend since third grade, who always had my back.

To Elizabeth Franco LCSW, Haymount Institute, who listened and walked me back to healthy thinking through therapy.

Introduction

I must share the beginnings of my life so that people can understand The Hell of My Mind. Thank God for deliverance and the boldness to share my story and His greatness. Most often people think because they are saved or have been saved for years, there is no battle of the mind. Well, I am here to tell you that salvation will not eliminate the thought life. Our past and the issues of life will capture a picture image that we often replay like a movie in everyday living. In the Bible, 2 Corinthians states, The weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty through God, through the pulling down of strongholds and everything that exalts itself against God.

In this book, you will read and prayerfully learn about the mental and spiritual battle of the thought life. I remember the first time that I was called ugly because my nose was not shaped in a normal size. It has flatness, which is like Sammy Davis, Jr. He was embraced by the world for his talent and not his physical features, so why could I not be embraced for being me? This left me wondering why God made me this way. Could people not see past my physical feature and know who I am? Could they see the beauty of my spirit? I wondered, Could people see past my physical features and know the real Tammy? Could my gifts and talents be needed based on the fact of benefiting others or ministry? Could the beauty of my spirit overshadow perceptions?

Questions with thoughts fueled my journey of the hell of my mind. I pray that this book will explain the mental struggle people experience. I pray that this book helps in the deliverance of your thought life. Believe that no matter what issues