Surviving Coronavirus: pandemics and illness

By Ross L Tokach and TBD

With MS each day can bring a new challenge, no matter who you are. Hidden pain and agony, to voice it may seem insane, but it helps. Sometimes I use analogies and deep metaphors, so keep on your toes when you read this. (Prepare to think deep. In 2020 we have a pandemic taking over and no one knows what to do. Living in fear of disease is simila

• Language: English
• Publisher: Ross L. Tokach
• Release date: Mar 14, 2020
• ISBN: 9781087871837

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The Hand

The hand of god presses me further toward the soil. I Sit and wonder what would have become, had normality ever been a choice?

Learning what's important

Having the realization that to be superficial, benefits no one.

I come to the realization that other people, are separate people, with their own lives.

The conclusion, is never the end, it is the spark that ignites the fire.

Everything is a lesson, empathy is found.

Love is the truth we all share.

Share life.

2.5 million people, the number of people in the world with multiple sclerosis.

In march of 2009 I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. Ever since that day, I have made it a goal to gain understanding in order to, maintain control. I would also like to live without explanation.

People watching and waiting for me to display symptoms before they help me. I am expected to be a dysfunctional individual before the world will relax. Everyone going crazy like rats in a race. The populous has forgotten what is important.

The connectivity of this energy web is fading. People codependent if life is not perfect. Quality of life is traded for cookie cutter models of existence.

All of this means, the imperfect generally not prosper.

I have been battling for years, yet no prosperity.

I will beat this before I'm done.

There is no such thing as normal!

Remember, you are more than MS.

Let people enjoy being around you, even during the worst times.

Learn from my example: Upon first onset,  my mood became very erratic over a short period of time. one minute I was happy and the next minute I was crying for no reason. The emotional issues came, followed by the sensations to match. These sensations are always unpredictable, you never know where they will strike next. Mine was first neuropathic pain in my face, called Trigeminal Neuralgia. It has been one of the more shocking pains that I have experienced, and after a couple weeks, it went away. So that has taught me to be hopeful, because any pain or sensation can resolve itself, just wait it out and be positive.

Learn to love pain

(numbness is worse )

The pain came before the numbness, this was bittersweet, the lost sensation happens to be worse. I think it's the over-reaction of the nerves from myelin damage.  You never know what that will bring. The sensations range from freezing, to burning, each of the worst possible kind, I've been known to compare it to, acid under the skin in a blizzard.

Depression combined with the, neuropathic pain, you never know what the day will bring, you are left to the fate of the universe. But, it is Important to remember, you are not alone. No matter how crazy you may sound, voice your pain.

Sometimes, the need to explain your condition, becomes very overwhelming. There are many people with a condition, no matter what it may be. Your sensations may seem unique, but the symptom itself, is not. You should never be too afraid to talk to someone.

Sometimes you can walk

I awaken every day and test my legs to see if they work. I never let my findings change the fact that it is great to be alive. Some-day's my legs work, rather perfectly, I spent many years building my strength snowboarding.

I use to complain and rage over this illness. I eventually shifted gears to one of acceptance and understanding.  Some things we can't control or fix. It is difficult to not feel singled out. I use to think, great,the one illness that's this devastating, let it go...

With Multiple Sclerosis

One minute walking around at work, perfect stride, the day is wonderful, the next minute is a totally different situation.  Stumbling and tripping around, the room spinning or I'll be weak and unable to hold up my body weight. The inability to equalize, and always being caught off guard, this is this real struggle.

It would be one thing, if I can plan for the situation, but it's simply impossible. One day my legs will be weak the next day everything will feel fine, until mid day all of a sudden out of nowhere, slammed with a new symptom.

I Live in Los Angeles which makes it hard to drive with, but I do. I put my life at risk every day, getting behind the wheel of a car, because something in my body may stop working.

But, the way I see it, it's normal. Life is not about being safe, and sound. Life is about feeling alive. Existence is always going to have it's chaotic moments, it's drama.

The key to life, is overcoming these moments, destroying the obstacles. I know it's difficult when you can't move, or see, or have a cold even, but there is something to live for. Finding what makes you happy, this is the most important thing, amplification of your energy.

Love Yourself

This is the most difficult part of life, because we are forever changing our point of view on things, oneself included. you constantly have to form views about yourself, based upon what you do. In a solid, sane mind, these things occur without thought, and generally without self-analysis. But once you've shattered the fourth wall, causing you to question every option, a form of compulsion begins to resolve.

Take the time to look within, but beware, you might not always like what you see. Life is a journey, sometimes there's tragedy. Do not allow the negatives to saturate your point of view.

Deal with this new situation, life isn't fair.

Be brave!

Feeling Alone

Some days, it seems as though, no one understands, or cares how I feel. I tell myself, I guarantee that is not the case., it doesn't always help. Everyone has something abnormal about their body, it is only a matter of time until it presents itself and affects them.

In this busy world, most people lack empathy, but we can't hold it against them.  Only you, can feel, what it is, you are feeling. Like emotions, your feelings can be controlled, through conscious effort and a well disciplined mind.

It took me forever to understand this, and everyone around me was getting sick of my attitude. When I worried and complained it did not do any good, all it did was make me alone, and sicker. My bed became my beginning, middle, and end, of each day.

Most of the time, our feelings, are due to expectations, which is like giving away control. Never lose control of your emotions, keep expectations away from society. We tend to standardize opinions, formulating people to act a certain way, or our bodies in this case, this must be avoided. Human beings are unpredictable in this way, it is what it is. You mustn't let emotions influence  your actions.

So, when it comes to your condition, you must not let it control you. Do not let the flaws affect your personality, or guide your motions. Make room for it when necessary, but do not feel inconvenienced, for it is part of who you are. Your goals, are your own, and they must be pursued regardless of limitations.

You cannot allow negative emotions to take control of your destiny and take from who you are. Your goals are rightfully yours, do what ever it takes to accomplish them.

Allow the situation to be, and you with it, for you are worth it. Be humble, the world is built for you.

Do not let the world leave you behind.

Negative emotions should be avoided.

You must not falter.

Alone is life, we are all adrift, with varied perception, in a world of wonder. The acknowledgment of one another is optional, not required, but it can prove to be very important. These reflections, disturbed and full of reckless result. The tide rises within without effort.

Stranded in a placid limbo, crawling webbed dreams, searching. Awaiting the fulfillment of dreams, this is not the right way to achieve. You must work for life and feel alive, to be alive. Depression is an angry, obtuse, creature. The monster that you avoid, is generally the one, you should not. Set down your weapon of hatred and walk away, revenge is best kept in cages of enlightenment. The time to work together is now! Coronavirus has turned us into a flawed world over night. Humanity is forever changed, we will soon be a world of carriers. But we need to keep our optimism and tap that positivism.

The hope and glory of pursuing oneself; directs the soul, this is life's meaning. Time does not exist, only your perception of it. The talk that we have, within our-self, is the only real conversation we ever have. The fraudulent world will do what is needed, your self preservation is key, to maintain your positive perception.

Do not feel trapped, do not feel alone, live your life and discover the journey as it

materializes.

Lonely

You are never alone, we are all connected. Just because you are the only one one within your space and time, does not make your energy separate. You mustn't classify, that which does not change.

Progress, never leads to a release of nature. We, walk beside ourselves, relying on external factors, that are forever changing. To place your fate, for others to hold,  most times the result is dissatisfaction. Expectations are the voices within, screaming dreams, they lack apprehension, they require suppression.

Impossible predictions, adding complexity to it all. The one within, the trust must start here. Healthy energy is in need of amplification, find someone and give them a hug (or an elbow bump)... Remember, negative energy, has the ability to destroy. To allow yourself to feel alive, that's the most important result we seek.

To be alone, can be a way to find  center of being, an equilibrium if you must. Unfortunately, it also allows the wave to go flat. To find the truth of life, the end can wait, do not dwell. The meaning of life is contemplation and our ability, is that. To be alone is to control who you are.

Stripped of the safety that is, companionship. So many people don't realize what it is to be solo in life. The world of isolation is not an easy one. Without another life to join us in, our own. The perceived, loneliness is always going to be present.

Humans, seem to naturally, seek a state of comfort. Perhaps it is a prenatal need to return to the womb.

We do not come onto this earth alone, to live alone is difficult. The world

of unwillingness is a choice, we all make the decisions we do, for a reason. The reason, though our own, is ours.

People are born, we all fight to survive!Relationships work

Not every conversation is going to be easy. Everyone has their own hang-ups, desires, fears, and inhibitions. The inhibition that we create, is why relationships are difficult. Love is all about trust and understanding.

Human Beings love to possess things. We go through life, accumulating as much as possible, never thinking about what it takes  or what it makes, we just want more.

This possessive nature, it's not healthy, but we let it take over lives. We get married, we buy real estate, we go to college. These are all things that say, you can't take this from me, this is who I am!, but is it?

We are what we tell ourselves we are.

Everyone is perfect, in a way that is unique. We all have issues, conflicts, problems, life is dangerous; life is a tragedy. Life is also the most beautiful thing imaginable.

When you can have a conversation with someone and they know what you mean, it's a beautiful thing. Human relationships are important, but must be navigated wisely.

Have empathy, no matter what statement is made, you must remember that everyone has their own conflicts. Often times people get into a relationship, to find someone that will listen.

Nobody likes to be alone in this world, remember you're not alone, just remember not to neglect cultivated relationships. Remember, nobody's perfect, people all make mistakes, but no problem is too big; like the purple dinosaur says, I love you, you love me, we're a happy family. After all, human beings are societal creatures.

Do not smother!

Expecting to function with out a singular feeling is too stressful. You must be free to make choices, nurture your spirit or you will be regretful of life's path. Regret is not a good way to prove yourself, to yourself.

Part of life is, finding out who you are and nurture that. Your life is choices, your choices, and