The Child Inside
By Susan Lukin
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The ages of residents in detention ranges from ten years old to fifteen, and residents often turn sixteen and seventeen while waiting for a disposition on their cases. Very often former residents who are seventeen and even eighteen return to detention on old cases, which offers a wide range of experiences and stories to be shared. In addition, former residents often return to visit to let staff know they are doing well. Each resident comes into juvenile detention with a story, a unique personality, needs, experiences and hopes, offering a wide span of stories to be shared in The Child Inside.
Susan Lukin
Susan Lukin has been working in the Juvenile Justice arena as a Social Worker for a number of years and wants to share her experiences about the incarcerated teenagers with whom she has been working. Her experiences span a number of years working in the field of juvenile detention in New York City. In addition to writing, Susan's other interests include painting, reading, crocheting, Reike, fitness, making furniture, music and traveling. Her family is involved in education (her father, a former principal), business and the arts (both parents have written a total of thirty children's books, with Susan as the illustrator of her mother's books), her brother is an art teacher and accomplished painter, and her other brother is an investment lawyer.
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The Child Inside - Susan Lukin
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Contents
Introduction
Asthma
A New Start
Parents
Afterwards
A Cauldron
The Nursery
The Staff Of Life
Moss
Spoiled Baby
A Thousand Stars
Counseling
Credit Where Credit Is Due
Why Do Children Fight?
A Serious Business
Children Of Children
Growing Up
A Puzzlement
As Long As It’s Outside
Conversations
Feedback
A Test
We All Cry
Weekends
Talent
Jumpers, Pleats And Headphones
A Shuttle
The Girls
Belonging
Escape
Celebrities In Our Midst
Programs
Culture Shock
The Swat Team
A Great Figure Of Modern Times
Heavyweights
The Greatest
More Heavyweights
The Tone
The Rap Session
The Squeeze
Nicknames
Revenge
Bi-Products
Prom Night
Family Day
It’s All About Respect
Hair And Sneakers
The Cache
Scars, Tattoos And Other Markings
Security
A Cinnamon Bun
Holidays
Friendships
Dedicated to my mother, father and two brothers, my circle of love and encouragement.
I would like to acknowledge Rasheed Humphrey for creating the cover illustration.
Introduction
To start to write a book about the subject of juvenile jail or juvenile detention…the forgotten, unwanted, ignored segment of a society, is not too hard when it has been lived every day. It is not difficult to call back memories, a sense of humanity and funny stories…and there are so many memories and unforgettable situations. What is hard is to realize and accept is the fact that many people don’t really care about this segment of society. For many, it is just as well that it is not in view, put away, kept out of sight.
Life led me to take a path that has often been challenging, interesting and meandering along trails that have been overgrown with thorny brush…that have only been flattened and cleared with patience, tenacity and caring on the part of those staff members who work with the residents in detention. The life path was a walk into the juvenile detention system, which is usually thrown to the side by society. Society cannot really be blamed for not wanting to see its puzzling disappointments, its difficult children.
But, with a sigh of resignation, society knows that these children make up a segment of the whole, and this part of its own cannot be ignored and disowned. The children were created and nurtured by someone and now they have to be embraced by the rest of us. As much as we try to erase unpleasantness that we don’t want to address, as much as we try to delete something, it seems to pop up again. Society might say, ‘I got rid of that, I deleted it…I don’t want to see it anymore’…but it re-appears like the click of a mouse, and the whole scenario is there, right in front of us again.
I want the click of the mouse to illuminate this segment of society so that others can see that it is not as bad as everyone thinks it is. Accept it or not, it is a part of us all. One thing we can do is to look at it in a different way, with a different perspective…a shift in thinking, feeling and acceptance. Another thing we can do is to realize that behind the walls of detention, there is a tremendous amount of humanity, of potential, of feeling, remorse, thought, consideration, loneliness, laughter and caring.
I want to delete the misconceptions, the misperceptions about this segment of society. What I have experienced can be shared. Maybe my experiences can be utilized to begin to change the view of an area that is generally ignored. After all, everyone keeps saying that the children are our future. No one has specified which children, where they live, what they look like, where they come from….
Asthma
So many of our residents have asthma. When I ask my boys if they have had any attacks since they came into detention, the majority say they have not, that they are not taking any medication and feel OK. Is it that they have been removed from the clouded, dusty air, away from hanging in the street, not having to look over their shoulders, not having to run from adversaries, to slip by bullets meant or not meant for them? Is it that they are away from family stress and pressures, away from knowing that they should be listening to mom, auntie or gram, but being too strongly pulled into doing what they know they are not supposed to be doing, finding some kind of fulfillment and approval from their friends?
Are they young and uncaring, knowing that they are not really being fulfilled, knowing that they are not really feeling themselves, not feeling their own pulses and heartbeats? Anxiety is caused by these frustrations and conflicts, of acting and knowing that they shouldn’t really be acting that way, but doing it anyway….can it be that being removed from these stresses is allowing them to breathe a little freer? Their breath is no longer blocked as they are plunged against their will, into a new and different way of life.
When they come into detention, they come into a life and a system that is away from the car fumes of the urban way; away from dodging bullets; away from their being irresistibly drawn into a way of life they really know is not beneficial, but do it anyway; away from the love, but at times impatience with their mothers, knowing they should listen, but not listening; away from the taunting friends who often shame them into doing wrong things; away from the fast money; away from having to be the man of the house because their father is not and has not been there for a long time; very often away from an intact, caring family of wonderful people, who lost the fight against the lure of the streets; away from having to look and dress like everyone else, even though they don’t have the money; away from being bunched together, doing as everyone else is doing, and not caring.
That is not to say that detention is a whole lot better. It has its own issues and stresses, but it is different from what they know, and that in itself is often a new start.
A New Start
A new start in detention. That sounds contradictory, but it is not necessarily so. In fact, detention is often a second chance in the young lives of our residents. Many, many boys have told me that if they had not come into detention, they would have been dead, the way many of their friends in the neighborhood wind up. Very often, they just verbalize these thoughts, but the longer they remain in detention, the more meaning those words have for them. This thought is reinforced by staff. I often bring to the residents another thought that many of the residents reject in the beginning of their stay: that even though they are in detention for something they may not have done, I ask if they have done things for which they have never gotten caught. If their answer to me is no, only they know the truth, but if their answer is a reluctant yes, I suggest that perhaps they are in detention to pay for the other things they did out there, even though this is not their official charge on the court papers. It’s nice when they can begin to abstract and accept this reasoning.
I have always felt that the longer a resident remains with us in detention, the better off he is. As much as he wants to hit the streets again, as much as he misses his family, if he remains in detention, he will get a chance to grow while struggling with his frustrations, with the help of staff. Generally, his way of struggling with his frustration is to fight, to ‘flip,’ to ‘wild out,’ to be ‘tight,’ to resist his staff, to let fly whatever comes out of his mouth, to try to intimidate, to overturn furniture and to struggle against being restrained, cuffed and shackled. But the longer he stays, the more infrequent that behavior is manifested. He eventually finds it to be non-productive and he also finds himself on restriction. At last, the layers, as on an onion, begin to peel; the layers of the street, of the dusty, foul fumes, the survival, the running, dodging bullets, the needless waste, the life of not listening, not caring, callousness, guns, scars, not going to school, fast money, making babies, hanging out, getting high…begin to shrivel. Very slowly, they begin to curl back, unfolding, revealing the next layer of the street, the running, dodging, hanging…because this is learned for many years, in spite of the desires and hopes of his parents and relatives, of the school, of the more positive influences in his young life that attempt to counter his immersion in being bad. The aim is for us to drill down, discarding layer after layer, peeling back the call of the streets, to help him discover his own core, his own pulse and heartbeat.
Our residents are bombarded with all kinds of new spears of light in detention. They go to the Intake dormitory when they are admitted. Staff members speak to them from every Unit in the facility, including the Ombudsperson, the Chaplain, the school, the Medical and Mental Health staff, the Recreation staff and Case Management staff. For those new residents who are still quaking with rumors of detention that they heard when they were still ‘in the world,’ much of the information is probably lost, to be reabsorbed at a later time. For the repeaters, perhaps they will hear something they missed before or did not want to hear before, and realize that it was a truism that they should have heeded.
Each resident, new or old, goes through the routine of an admission physical, a mental health evaluation, an assessment to determine his school grades, and an Intake Interview by