Exiled from Zion: Confusion and Dim Wisdom Through the Non-Lit Day
By Bill Jacobks
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Bill Jacobks
Bill Jacobks was native of Chicago, then Austin, Tx where he went to graduate school at the University of Texas in history and political science. He and his wife moved to Muskegon, Mi. where he taught at Muskegon Community College and where his wife was Assistant Financial Aid Director. While at MCC he went to St. John’s Graduate Institute in Santa Fe, NM and received a degree, Master of Liberal Arts. He is retired. His wife died in 2017 and these poems and three other books of poems are the attempt to find a new life without her.
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Exiled from Zion - Bill Jacobks
Copyright © 2019 by Bill Jacobks.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019901006
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-7960-1435-8
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Table of Contents
A Sort of Preface
The True Self: Finding, Losing, and Discovering (?)
The Ego Speaks
True Self, true self, true…
Dialogue in a Diner at the End of the Universe
Not a Resolution
In the Dark: Losing the Self
Discovery?
Journey to Israel: Odyssey to the Sacred Past
4/10-22/2018.
Doubts….Always Doubts
Poems From An Unknown Source
Themes of a life without a green card
Poems about Mythic Women
Somewhere Between an End and a Beginning
Dedication
To my sister, Lillian, who made this project real;
To Beth, who stood by me in my deepest depression;
To Laura, who listened to my corny jokes;
To Laura, my niece, who suffered with me;
To Sherri who befriended me;
To Elsa, my priest, who let me be;
To the grief group, who bled tears with me;
To all who, grieve, what can I say.
A Sort of Preface
These poems stretch over two years of my life during which I struggled to understand who I am and what my purpose in my life as it is now close to end. These poems are full of angst and sometimes utter despair and sometimes just blind absurdity; but they always led me somewhere, to a place new within my consciousness that I did not know existed. They are a conversation with my self, whomever that is. The characters are the residents of my imagination to which I turned because my rational-empirically minded self could not give me the answers that I needed. I did not find my self; but neither in the end did I lose it. Between doubt, loss, and redoubled effort there the Self exists. No one can say s/he found it; but if one looks with care and willingness to face the ugliness and the beauty within in an honest and sincere fashion, one has found something new and sustaining. May be that’s the best we can do.
THE TRUE SELF: FINDING, LOSING, AND DISCOVERING (?)
A Precaution:
Trying to find one’s true self rests on the belief that such an ethereal thing exists. All the literature of psychology and philosophy and poetry tells one that such an interior dimension does in fact exist. Throughout life one senses its presence and certainly in dreams it appears. But, what really is it? Because the self is so bound to emotion, poetry seemed the best way to explore this question. So, then here is my adventure, or perhaps misadventure.
Prologue: A Distant Brother, Poe
I understand now
Edgar Allen Poe
His brooding
Darkness of soul
I understand now
Why he sought to
Blot it out
With drams and more drams
It is a terrible
Dripping on the soul
Of something oily
And fearful
To which one is
Bound without escape
A presence one
Cannot identify
But know it to be
Horrific and damaging
Only words defend
And they be poor protectors
For in the night
The dark, inky
Foggy night
When vision fails
They come unbidden
Grimly laughing
Yellowish red teeth
Flashing in the glow of the lamp
They are there
By your side
Waiting for your weakness
To manifest itself
And they will pounce
Upon you without
Mercy or shame
Devour you with glee
Tear your soul apart
Holding pieces of it up
To heaven
Laughing, always laughing
They laugh not at jokes
Their humor is not
The pleasant turn of phrase
Nor learned wisdom disguised
But defiance of all
That is holy and good
And you cannot
Resist them
Waves of Self
The turmoil within
Rolls around
Like an unquiet sea
Uncertain of its power
Father Poseidon
Stands watch
Over the sea
Ready to assist
Uncertain