All of Nothing: The Fight to Exist Among Them
By Queyes
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Queyes
I discovered the love for writing when I was just a young girl, void of a verbal voice. It was almost like a secret that became public when I wrote an entry for Minute-Maid soda one summer while attending the Boys and Girls Club of Broward County. Who would have thought that the encouragement to enter that contest would have set off such a love for the craft! While attending middle school, I fell into a deep love affair with music and decided to fuse it with my writing. I am currently involved in church and the community. I love spending quality time with my family.
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All of Nothing - Queyes
All of Nothing
The Fight to Exist Among Them
Queyes
Copyright © 2016 by Queyes.
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Rev. date: 02/05/2016
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Table of Contents
Dedication
Preface
Unsweetened Revelation : The Ruin In Reality
Mother
I Remember
In Visible
In The Mirror
Truth
Deyalpos
Death Afar
SMH
High Road
Old House
For Granted
Suicide
Emotionless
Split Reflection
First Born
Virgin Unveiled
Little Girl Blue : The Me
I Portrayed
Right After
On Queue
Free In Me
Day Dream
My Time is Now
Bull-Doz’n
All That Jazz
Spark It Up
Nothing Last Forever
Same Ole
Radical Freedom
A Drummers Soul
No Remorse in Death
Left to Search Alone
Forbidden Fruit
STeP OuT
Another Set of Blues
Sex In Whispers : Hiding Beneath The Sheets
Sex
She Loves Like Jazz
Sweet Heat
Searching Still
I Can Do It
Not Mine
Rewind Mind
Conventional Ain’t Essential
Star Gazing
Is It Love
But A Dream
Haikus N Love
Nasty Nigga
Fool’s Gold
WiSi
What I Need
Free To Be
Elevation for 1000
Goodbye Blues
Sweet Genesis : Finding What Was Missing
This Is Real
I Am We
Glass House
Today
My Season
Bless You
Restroom, Then Ready
Check-Up
Laundry
Scene Over
Sister
My God, I will trust
His Plan
My Desire To See
Prayer In War
Make It In
I Survived
Blind Belief
Purge Me
Acknowledgments
Dedication
This book is dedicated to all the little lost girls and boys that have never been found. It’s never too late.
Preface
Writing is life for me. It is an escape away from the brutality of reality. As a little girl I had three best friends; a book, a pencil, and a piece of paper. My vocal expression was shut down and the only way I knew how to scream was through written expression; written words. There was too much going on in the adult world for anyone to pay attention to my little girl. So everything I learned, I picked up through observation and the process of elimination. My tears and my fears were inaudible and all of my treasures hidden. I found comfort in my own thoughts and I’d find myself in different places. I found love in music and that became an addition and deeply rooted extension of me. The formation of words and thoughts eventually transformed into artistry. A word is everything and nothing at the same time. All of me; hate, love, playfulness, social consciousness, sexuality, curiosity, and spirituality emitted through my written words.
I watched as the life I knew and had grown accustomed to, as dysfunctional as it was, slowly start to change. I had lost sight of who I really was or who I thought I should be and my integrity had gone out the window. I was a sex addict and in relationships with women. I didn’t want to face the truth about me, the realness of who my parents were, and getting free from those generational curses. I was internally hurting because I didn’t have relationships with my parents. I didn’t know how to relate to men and I hadn’t realized the brick wall of resentment I built toward them because of my father’s deficit. I only dated older women because I was looking for them to fill the void my failed relationship with my mother left. Anger and hate fueled justification for everything negative I touched. Nobody could tell me anything and I was determined to do what I wanted.
Alcohol, weed, and sex was the self-medicated therapy I indulged in and I watched myself spin completely out of control. God wasn’t