A Distant Glimmer (the 6th Fountain): The Fountains

By Robert Koyich

A Distant Glimmer is the third part of the compilation The Sands of Yesterday. Through a course of time and developed thought, Robert navigates through text towards objectives that shift in the sand. His work is that of obsessive nature and committed resolve with points of wondering "Why do I even do this?" Answer: to provide. We move forward with the premise that each deserve a good life and discuss some theories about such. This book dredges up Robert's doubt about what he can do for the world while teetering on the boundaries of belief and understanding. 100% of the royalties of A Distant Glimmer go to the Dream Fund to provide things and experiences people dream of, though can't afford.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Robert Koyich
• Release date: Jan 25, 2021
• ISBN: 9781989180082

Robert Koyich

Robert is located in Chilliwack, B.C., Canada.  He began two charitable initiatives: Providing Point that supplies reloadable grocery cards, and Chilliwack Housing Providers aiming to house people by providing rent subsidies.  The Fountains are his primary project and are closely linked to both programs.  If you would like to sign up for the Introvesial newsletter, please visit https://mailchi.mp/robertkoyich/introversial.  By signing up for the newsletter, you gain access to the digital version of Rob's book Fragments of Intent, The First Three Fountains.  

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Dedication

To the hidden light and love.

The tears of Earth that fall from heaven above.

Is This Just a Game?

If it is, it sometimes seems like I'm back at Laser Quest; with unlimited shots, unlimited lives, and a solo mission.  The object of the game is different depending on which format it is and who the players are.  Some people are all about high scores, some assure we work together and support the team, and some players play just to play.  What if this isn't a game, though? 

Some dreams have been shared and proclaimed, yet there's a way that others have aimed at my own heart, and in a way, they refuse to let us start. 

Through the past year, I had passively gone all-in with the creative work.  I had written and released a few books, and I had also been sharing my music CDs.  I’ve not yet been able to source a full-time income from writing or recording, and I hold a concern that a real-world job is not a correct path for me. 

Many years ago, my Dad thought I should get a trade and have a vocation or profession to support myself.  I dug in my heals, my mind, and my heart and asserted that I'd be able to find a different path.  I still haven't been able to do that.

The book Fragments of Intent (The First Three Fountains) is a project I developed and honed, though even at the point of its second release (August 10th, 2017), I still hadn't found an audience who wants to read the book enough to buy a copy. 

I attribute such to poor marketing, as, in the one year that I was full in on creative work, I had only sold seven books online with royalties totalling $42.70.  $42.70 isn't a full-time income for a month, let alone the full year that it took to sell that many books.  My path of authorship has yet to be a monetary success.

I've started other books, and though my ability to write has improved, I've been less focused on audacious goals.  I've over-focused on what I want, and even if I do want to benefit others with what I sell, we've not yet profited.

The 3rd and 4th Fountains talked about the Seed Fund, though Providing Point, the charity, hasn't yet been successful.  Providing Point has not yet earned enough money to house the first person, let alone many others as the primary idea of the program holds. 

Other friends have told me that I should focus on helping other charities with my work.  $42.70 isn't going to make a massive difference to Earth, though is one-week of groceries.  I've learned a lot of lessons though. 

I still glean a lot of free advice from online mentors and guides, and I've also gained experience, knowledge, and wisdom from connections, contacts, and living life.  Though the actualization of my goals, hopes, and dreams haven't yet materialized, it's because I need to create, heed, and market effectively.  I’ve not yet, and that's a definite truth. 

I've also limited the process by being quite lax by not fueling my creative work with additional income from, even, a part-time job.  If I have any say in the matter (and probably should as I'm the one responsible for my life) I believe part-time work could be a helpful add-on for my life in ways beyond just money.

About a week or two ago I’d found that I've been shifting my goals to include family and improving my own home life.  The idea to adopt a cat again is one I like and love, and I'd like to keep up with my self-discovery and analysis.  Doing so will grant a clarified vision of how what I want that isn't resource based.  I've had enough money to have food, drink, and smokes, though I note I've not managed the abundance of time I have efficiently.  I must make some changes.

Although I've made some regressions and revisions, there have been some crucial changes to my mental and social actions and attitudes.  These changes have yet to be appreciated, though tonight, I chose to start the fields of this book's work.  Some negative choices also were made, and we know that often there are trade-offs for the things we do. 

In the past, I've seemed to think that staying up late and writing is beneficial for my own long-term life, and I'm not in agreement that it's not.  My level of faith in ‘the process’ (a word one online mentor dislikes) and the intrinsic gains I have for myself by writing and forming these books are also things that I value. 

It's clear I follow my intuition and inner guidance.  My own, sometimes, wavering belief is that these books benefit others, though I'm not clear on how yet.  It's just that a keen instinct tells me that we've linked positive distant futures to these books as formative works. 

When I wrote Fields of Formation, the 5th Fountain, I knew how I need to sort out my inner world and mind.  I wrote about how I need to cleanse myself of some actions and beliefs to allow the words to run clean and pure.  I'd like that when others drink from these books, that they may refresh themselves. 

I don’t know yet how these books are wholely valuable to another, though by letting the words, worlds, and text flow, adjustments to myself occur.  These adjustments allow me to be, in theory, be a better friend, family member, and member of society than I have been before writing them. 

Working from the inside out, I cleanse some faults while granting the chance to live, love, thrive.  This healing also allows me to share what we learn in future books. 

When I've found myself as the lowest or on the bottom of friend groups, it also shows me that I know I can't merely fight or crawl up to the top of the chain.  In many cases I know I don't want to.  Since, at this point, we're not playing a game of Survivor, I almost daftly find myself not to want to start making moves and pulling power plays or sneaky points.  If I know I'm on the bottom; then I can work on my things and seek to benefit much by doing so. 

Knowing how we are, or aren't, valued by other people should also remind us not to blame them.  I know I've not been rad and fantastic as a friend to many people, and that I may be a bit weird or overbearing sometimes.  I don't want to be someone who's to fall into others control dramas only to be likable, so there is a danger of not being a highly regarded friend of some.  There's also a great comfort knowing some friends have little to no expectations of me.

There's also comfort in releasing the wish or want to control or manipulate a situation for my benefit.  Knowing how and when not to hold power over others also allows lessons to be learned.  We grant real and genuine appreciation.  Love, trust, and faith are things that should be cultivated, not mooched or forced. 

If someone doesn't like us, we could invest a great deal of effort into trying to sway their opinion, or we can find out and learn who do appreciate us and honour those more thoroughly and often.  It's also interesting to know that some people that annoy and sometimes tick us off a bit by reaching out too much are genuine friends.  There's value in identifying who reach out to us because they want to be a part of our lives and not just because they want something from us. 

As the future evolves, some friends may wish to betray or try to sway us from connecting with others, yet our discernments strengthen that we shed the lies and deceits.  As a pivotal point to take into consideration; think of your self-awareness.  Are you an honourable person?  Are you trustworthy?  Do you have correct or proper intent? 

If yes, then these things also may be seen in you by other people.  The saying ‘like likes like' also guides how we find people gather together that hold similar values as us.  Some activities and engagements with people allow us to meet new or shared interest friends while the qualities of who we are as people factor in and become more evident.

In the two months before I wrote this, I'd gone through many changes.  I'd learned some vital lessons, I'd developed a different and unique understanding of my place in life, and I continue to gain insight into relationships between myself and other people.  I've done this by engaging with a more diverse network of people and also found substantial doubt in some claimed allies.  Some secured and deepened faith in some people being ‘safe' people is another lesson.  A friend named Courtney told me: "You don't have