My Prayer now dedicate yours: I have come that you may have life -life in all its fullness(see John 10:10)

By Khonaye Joseph

Months ago i looked at myself as a saved person and i discovered that i was sinking not because i was doing things that were unGodly but i look at myself i saw that theres no growth and i needed God to help me so that i can move beyond the things i was going through .my journey drove from not knowing what was going on any more everything seemed dark , i couldnt pray anymore,i still had strongholds that i was dealing with and i didnt understand why there were still there i had a lot of questions and i needed answers, i was reminded  that God has always been there even thou I didn't feel him.

Know this

Remember what the lord has done in the past

Remember Gods role and let him do his thing

Learn to dedicate prayers in your situations to help you pray more

I REMEMBERED ,I PRAYED 

Now do the same bless you all

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookRix
• Release date: Oct 25, 2017
• ISBN: 9783743814967

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TABLE OF CONTENT

Content

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

1.1       Acknowledgement

1.2       Dedication

1.3       Purpose

1.4       Introduction

 1.5      Encouragement

God's work over my life

1.5       The story behind the name (UKhonanaye)

1.6       My testimony

1.8       Renewing

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1.9       Why  I am  saved?

Prayer

1.10  What is prayer?

1.11  Learning to speak positively 

1.13  Faith

1.14  Why Christians dont prosper?

My Prayers

1.18 Prayer dedication

Reading Plan

Tools for your  use

Message

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Khonaye Joseph is  a 30-year-old  Hospitality graduate at Walter Sisulu University,  she is a social entrepreneur, motivational speaker, Radio Speaker, RLCSA Alumni

Her heart is with young people, how she grew up has a lot of influence on her future aspirations and what she deemed as the purpose in life. She grew up in the rural areas and her surroundings always gave her a desire to help the needy, to her youth empowerment is a ministry and assignment from God because she says 

Their struggles and pain affects her

Their tears matters to her

Her passion is to protect them

To help them realize Gods purpose over their lives.

The youth program which she started has already changed the mindsets of young people. By engaging in motivational talks, helping them realize who they are through God and Hospitality  (redirecting and restoring), giving them a new lease on life and building their confidence. This program is not only giving them a skill in Hospitality but gives them hope, great attitude, self-love, understanding who Christ is and a different view of life.

This Devotional Prayer book called MY PRAYERS NOW DEDICATE YOURS  is her first book that she has wriiten as she was picking herself up,she saw herself sinking  in her struggles and she had to remind herself what Salvation is and Who God is ,what power she has with in because of accepting Christ and who God  has been in her life. 

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT

I want to give my acknowledgement to God first if it was not for him I wouldn’t be where I am today ,I wouldn’t have had the family that I have ,I wouldn’t have met the people that I know now to him be the glory I appreciate him for the knowledge I have today if he didn’t take me through the steps I wouldn’t have known what I know now praise him for his love.

A specail  thank you to him for my grandmother Nothobile Joseph, when my mother passed away she was left with the responsibility of raising me up and she did it with her whole heart , what a wise woman she is, she didn’t go to school yet she has a lot of wisdom her daughter Nomfundiso who is my aunt  calls her a teacher I fully agree with that, that's how powerful my grandmother is am thankful to her and to all of my family I love you all.

To Downtown Christian Center God put me there for a reason a church that is fearing God and that has leaders that are after Gods mission am blessed to have fellowship with you.

To people who have nurtured and mentored me and who are still mentoring me thank you thank you how I met you was through Gods plan and lastly  but not least  to friends I have met  I thank God for you in my life .may God bless you all in the name of our Saviour Jesus Christ may you be motivated as you read my book.Amen

Specail thank you to the family of Dweba,Mngomezulu and Nkonki how you came to my life was Gods plan ,his ways are his ways sometimes we cant even understand him  i praise him for you ,thank you to you all may God bless you abundantly may he continue being light in your lives Amen.

DEDICATION

This devotional book is dedicated to all  Christians ,i pray and i hope by sharing some of my journey you will also find encourage in your situations and in the Lord .as you dedicate prayers in your situations ,keep your faith up, keep your head up, keep your confidence up, keep your trust in him I tell you my fathers ,mothers , brothers and sisters in Christ that he knows what he is doing it may seem as if he doesn’t but he does the best decision you can do for yourself is to hold on till the finishing so that you see that everything that happened was intentional he was not making it up at all.

In my Journey the Lord dealt with me personally in silent he did not show the world .i could wake up put my makeup on and my smile on and no one could  see and know what I was going through  .i watched a lot of people complimenting me saying how smart and happy I look and I  always say to myself if only you knew what am g,oing through right now you wouldn’t like to be me . a lot of people didn't know what was going on in my life yet i was broken , yet I was losing my mind, yet I was limping Glory to him for his ways he allows things to happen so that at the end we find our true self and at end his Glory will be revealed .

A friend  once said to me the way you look outside reflects how you feel inside I laughed because I knew nothing about that yes I looked good outside but inside I was in tears, i know as you reading some of you can relate but i want to hold on and keep your faith whatever is going on is  for your own good crazy as that sounds but yes it is . If you can endure you will find out at the end , in the meantime be encouraged in prayer and reading of the word because it is  through those tools that we can remain calm even in our situation’s, we can find the help we need, we can overcome the situations that we are in , it has worked for me therefore I' encouraging you please don’t give up ,one thing that made me to hold on was that I wanted to know what was going to happen after all I was going through I was so curious to see and now I encourage you to  be curious in him for he knows best .i remember how the Prophetess of God Mrs Matwa said to me when we were talking about my struggles she said i qoute Praise God because he is building a boom in you ,you will see the tranformation i looked at her and my thoughts were saying -you must be loosing your mind for saying that because nothing felt like i was being built up at all .it was just a mess i didnt even know how to handle i think what made to survive everything is through the help of God because how i was dealing  with pain was amazing  i could be in pain and stress but to a person who see me he or she will never see that am in pain because am too relaxed not because i wanted to but it was my way of  dealing with things because i dont think it would have helped to be allover the place crying to everyone i meet .

 The struggles i faced  in my life  drove me away  from seeking advice from a lot of people to seeking the advice of the Holy spirit I had nothing against the people I was seeking advice from but I got to a stage where I wanted the Lord to talk to me and me learning to hear his voice because sometimes we go to the Pastors and our elders and still not be real with them I got tired of not being real I said to myself Lord you know it all you know the things am not saying , you  know the things am going to do in advance then whose the best person to talk to  if it's not you because with you even if I want to there’s no way I can lie . i looked in my life and I thought to myself girl you are saved yet you are sinking, God had to do what I call a spring cleaning I was calling myself saved yet I was not behaving like a saved person , why do I say this was because there were no fruits to show for it  when i talk about fruit i dont mean material things no i mean because i was go through a lot i find it hard to pray and reading of the word in such a way i didn't know what was going on anymore,i was so empty in terms of knowing the word ,my language was not of a saved person ,i was entertaining people who i didnt even know why am entertaining ,I still had peers who were are not saved and when am with them I had to compromise myself, finding myself to conversations that are not Godly at first I was lying to myself that it doesn’t matter who I hang with and who I chat with on my phone as long as am saved ,as long am safe with God atleast that’s what I thought : that I was right with him when he revealed that I was not I was so convicted  I said now Lord process me take away what's not of you in my life and replace it with the word .they way i was so wounded i need God to help me claim my position back in the Kingdom ,the enemy always bring confusions in our lives because he knows what the Lord is about to do in our lives do yourself a favour dont move even if things gets worse.

Sometimes we have this tendency of thinking we can fool God all my life as a saved person I use to think I can manipulate God with words  I don’t know how many times I'd pray to God telling him I have learnt and am ready while I know  nothing sometimes when you are in pain you pray crazy prayers because we do not want to be processed and am one of those who don’t take pain very well but my situations  have shown me that am stronger than i think , all along I have been praying for destination while he was working on me , i love God because even thou i was praying those crazy prayers he didn't listen to them he  continued processing me to make sure his purposes about my life comes through.which is to help me discover the things i didnt know about myself ,is in it funny how you get to discover the real you through the struggles of your life ?i dont know why  is that but God always uses the storms,trial and the struggle to help us give birth to our true-self ,where we get to discover what we are cabable of ,things we never knew we could do and be , i discovered all that and more through my breaking.

 During the process I had to learn the hard way ,I had to do without things that I wanted ,I had to walk in faith trusting that whenever I needed something he will make it available for me you have no idea how that was .i remember there was a day when I had to go Kumnkani FM(local Radio station) I had no money in me and all i had  was someone who was suppose to pay for services rendered,I prayed to God so that they pay me in the morning that day but at twelve o’clock still there was  no payment I panicked and I walked to the road I said these words God you are in control now be in control I stood there after few minutes a white woman stopped the car and asked where am i going she gave me a lift and on top of that she gave me 50 rand i said now Lord these are extrems a white woman doing all this for me and the spirit said to me watch me i will show the Church and he said the people who used to be your freinds ended up talking about you but now i will give you people who will help you by providing what you need and live you without you telling them about your struggles i dont know how God does it but that to me was the Highlight to everything .and i remember again there was a time where i needed to be in a meeting in Southernwood from Amalinda where i used to stay again this  day i had no money and the time of the meeting  was approached so i decided to put my make up on and be ready for the road and when i reached the road i stopped the car told the driver i dont have money but i need to be in Southernwood the driver looked at me and he said beatiful as you are but you dont have someone to give you money i was so emotional i couldnt even respond i just smiled when i got to my meeting i couldnt help myself i was too emotional i  broke down and cry now the meeting was about me i couldnt take it anymore i was tired of needing ,i was tired of enduring as i was crying the lady who  i was suppose to have a meeting with me prayed for me instead of having a meeting we spoke about my situations she encouraged me i picked up myself and i went out as i was walking out  a thought in my mind came that i dont have money to go back and with me i had a laptop i took that laptop i went to sell it for 100 rands you can imagine how i felt but because i needed the money i had to sell it ,holding that money felt like i was holding a thousand rand with me thats how great it felt when i held it ,i bought something to eat and i went home,to many things God did in my breaking  I was always so uncomfortable to not to have and to ask but I realized later on that he was training me how to hear, how to trust him and how to walk by faith .i didn’t like this at all but today I say am glad I went through what I went through because I wouldn’t  have found the things I found if it was not for the steps I went through.All am trying to say brethren's is that God knows what he is doing in our lives we just need to trust him and to rely on him. even as things keep on going wrong in our eyes ,things happened in my life but i learnt that God is a God of order and excellent and lastly God says regardless he want us to know that he is on our side and he wants us to know in him we can win so go ahead repeat that to yourself in him I WILL WIN. i know you might be asking yourself how do i say all this after all happened and you just had a half of a quarter to things that happened in my life but through it all i saw him move in my behalf that is why i can be able to say and to know that he is on our side no matter what.

Writing this book was after I realized that am not alone there’s a lot of Christians who are saved but yet are sinking in terms of not knowing how to pray when we are in situations but no one is talking about these things because  one one wants to sound as if they are not holy enough but the truth is if Christians do not know how to pray when they are in situations  the Kingdom of God will sink .again as a Christian I have learnt that the reason why we cannot grow and we cannot bear fruits as Christian’s is because we do not know what we are suppose to do after accepting Christ because it is not just about accepting him but it is the knowing what we have inside us and moving with it so that we  are indeed changed for better but we cant get to this stage because we dont even realise the power of accepting christ in our lives  hence we still see Christian’s who are broke, depressed, sick, not married ,failed marriages ,while God in his word says i have come to give you life not just life but life abundantly (see John10:10), but in all this i believe God now is doing something ,he is raising up people who will help the people of  Kingdom to arise and i know i want to be part of that . i know that in some cases God allowed things to happen for me to be tested,to be molded,to be changed thats what happened in my life i was not sinking because i was disobyeing him sometimes it was difficult for me to hear what he wants me to do because my mind and my focus was on my situations and that made me not to be active in his word and prayer they way i was suppose to be .and that part take me  back to the story of Job God allowed the enemy to test Job because at end he knew that he can restore him back sometimes that what he does in our lives his intentions is not to kill us .

May the Lord fill you with so much joy and hope as you start your journey in correcting your mistakes , praying in your situations , staying focus and dedicated even as you face trails