The Boy Who Cried Man

By Dominique Gough

When you think of a love story, you usually think of the romance, the passion and the connections the people have but you would never believe a story of pain, lies and love lost. You think of steamy nights and hot dates. You think of flowers, chocolates and butterflies on the inside. But not for Sydney.

Sydney Rose has the perfect relationship, at least she thought. Until Sydney becomes entangled in the ultimate journey of love, torture and obsession. On the way to hell, Sydney is accompanied by Roscoe Payne also known as the love of her life. Roscoe shows up as the knight in shining armor but will the love she has for him, cost her everything?

Someone has attempted to harm her and her baby but it's the last person you would expect. In this novel of love, hate, vengeance and downright corruption, Sydney will come face to face with the devil himself. The man who set out to be different from all the rest has turned out to be her worst nightmare. Someone has played the role of a man for a very long time but on the inside; he's just a boy. He will stop at nothing until he gets what he wants so badly: Sydney's life and her baby. Sydney Rose was always a fighter but now she's in for the fight of her life. Will he sink claws into her soul and take her for a ride or will she break free from his grip?

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lighting Source
• Release date: Nov 4, 2021
• ISBN: 9780578316307

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THE BOY WHO CRIED MAN

Dominique Gough

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Dedicated to all women who chose to stand back up after being knocked down by life

ACKNOWLEDGEDMENTS

I first acknowledge my support system who kept me straight mentally through all the hell: My parents. Melissa Gough and Gene Gough Sr. You two will never know of the strength and hope that you both gave me. I came close to breaking down and losing my sanity. As my parents, you too made every effort to make sure I held it together. For that, I am forever grateful.

To my best friend, Shelyne Smith. You made me get up when I hit rock bottom. You made me keep pushing and believing that eventually things would work out in my favor. You motivated and pushed me to be a better worker, mother and friend in my darkest times. You never let me give up, even when I wanted to. You are a true friend, and I can never think you enough for having my back through this storm.

To my grandmother Polly Wise, you never let me give up on my dreams. You gave me tough love and strong words of advice. Even when I wanted to give up on pursuing my dreams of a better life, education wise; you told me to chase that degree. I’m humbled by you and all the advice you’ve given me.

To my Aunt Crissy Wise and my Uncle Joseph Wise, you both gave me all the advice, love and protection I needed in this storm. I’m forever grateful for both of you and all that you do for my baby.

To my family and friends that watched the series of events unfold in front of you and called/texted or offered words of comfort, I’m forever grateful.

To my mini heartbeat, Na’Talia Gough, I want you to know that everything I’ve ever done has been for you. If I had the choice to go back in time and do it all again; I would do it better. Without you, I would’ve given up hope. I wouldn’t have a reason to keep fighting. I couldn’t have done it without you Tinkpot. I love you more than you’ll ever know, and I will never stop fighting for you.

THE BOY WHO CRIED MAN

Table of Contents

Introduction

Introduction:

Originally when I started writing this particular chapter of my life, I thought it would just one book. Interestingly, it turned out to be (3); with this book being the beginning. I wrote this book because I was so angry for so long and I felt like I had a story to tell. I felt like my character was being attacked on a daily basis because no one knew the real truth. Every day I had to face the world and defend the lies and secrets that were being spread. I wrote this book because the truth shall set you free. I wrote this book not to prove that I’m a good person but for you to know how far any person will go when it comes to their child. I wrote this book, not for you to feel sorry or pity me but to really see and feel the struggle I went through. Instead of constant falsities being heard, you get to hear it firsthand in my memoir. I wrote this book to empower women. Empower women to leave toxic relationships. To help them understand that just because our parents/grandparents taught us about a two-parent household and staying together for the sake of the kids; doesn’t mean you have to. There is no reason for you to stay and suffer through abuse, neglect and anything that messes with your mental well-being. For years, I was tortured and drained mentally i0n the name of love. I was so deep in love, that I allowed myself to be blind to all the red flags that were going up around me. I overlooked the fresh wounds that were being etched in my skin and I overlooked all those painful insecurities he called normal. I suffered so much mental abuse that after there was no more relationship; I could not allow myself to be in another relationship. It took me (3) years to even think about being in a relationship with anyone. I was so battered, so damaged and I didn’t think anybody would want something like me. The reality of the situation was I had to heal and love myself first. I had to come to the reality that I was enough. The reality that I didn’t have to hide my beauty in public just because the fear of what somebody might think. I had to retrain my mind to understand that constant accusations on the daily meant the person accusing was really insecure in themselves. I had to allow myself to spend more time with my family and friends without fear of isolation or time constraint. I had to allow myself time to linger in the grocery store without a time constraint or accusation. I denied myself the basic right every woman should have: the right to feel beautiful. I was denied the basic right as a woman during pregnancy: the right to enjoy your pregnancy. The moments where you get to celebrate a new life coming into the world were stolen from me. The majority of my pregnancy I spent alone and uncertain that I would be able to carry full term because of all the stress I was under. All the constant trips to the hospital, all the arguing every day; would drive a normal person crazy. I couldn’t even enjoy what was supposed to be the happiest time of my life due to an insecurity. I felt like Keyshia in I should’ve cheated. I denied my own happiness for the love of another. I promised myself I would always put my happiness first.

Preface

This book was created not just to give everyday people a good laugh but also to inform women of everything you don’t want in a man. Not only will this book give you a direct look into the life of Sydney Rose, but it will touch so many bases with so many different women. Once you read this book, most of you will be like damn how did Sydney stay strong through all of this stuff being done to her?? The answer is simple: her daughter. This book will focus on everything from a woman who had a plan for her life, to a man that just couldn’t get his momma’s titty out his mouth and have a life of his own. In the end you’ll realize all of the signs and symptoms of a boy who is trapped in a man’s body. This book will show you how a boy can dress up every day, put on a suit and still run home and cry to his momma. I wrote this book as a lesson, not just for women but for people in general. I believe that before you get into a relationship with anybody, you need to know their goods and bad plus ups and downs. You must see them at their worst to fully understand the lows that a person will go; especially when you two are no longer together. As a person, I want to see the good in all people but as this book will show you: looks can be very deceiving even after a 6-year relationship and a baby. This book will make some women run away from the person they’re with, while it will make others hug their boyfriends, husbands and fiancé’s tighter; and thank God they’re not like that.

If you open this book and it strikes home for you, don’t feel alone because there are many of other women just like you. We as women go through hell and back for some of these men and they turn around and treat us like the bottom of the barrel. If this book doesn’t teach you anything, learn this lesson from it: never settle for any less than you know you’re worth and never let any man manipulate your mind and heart into believing that domestic violence is ok. I don’t care what color woman you may be; it hurts the same. The way a man treats you while you’re carrying his baby, says a lot about him. If he treats you like shit, talks to you any kind of way or treats you like you’re not pregnant; leave that man be. He doesn’t care anything about you or that life growing inside you. When I say run, I mean don’t pass go and don’t collect $200 dollars; just run. He will drag you to hell and when it’s all over he’ll say, what did I do wrong? Guys, this book does not cover ALL men. It is just one woman’s experience of this particular type of so-called man. Men if this book makes you feel any type of way, maybe you do have a problem that you should seek counseling for. Women if he does it once, he’ll do it again. Don’t make excuses for him and don’t blame yourself for why he does what he does. It’s not your fault and that isn’t love. As women we are known for our beautiful bodies and even greater minds. Artist don’t deface their work; they stand back and admire it. Men, I don’t care who raised you or how many times you saw daddy punch mommy around; nobody is your punching bag. Nobody is your property, and you don’t own us. We were brought on this earth for a purpose: to be your equal; not the ground you walk on. It may sound like a story that should’ve been a Tyler Perry movie, but Sydney actually lived this. To all who read, don’t judge the story; it very well maybe you or someone you know one day.

Enjoy…

Chapter One:

The Beginning always start off Great

You want to hear a real love story; well, you’re reading the wrong book. This is the love story of Roscoe and Sydney gone wrong.

Roscoe Payne was this handsome, brown skin yet nerdy guy with thick trifocal glasses. Roscoe was a local guy who everyone knew because of his family name and who they were in the community. Roscoe was in his mid-20’s while Sydney was in her prime. Sydney Rose was this gorgeous, light skinned tall woman with hair of golden-brown tones. Sydney was also a local girl, but she was known for her outgoing personality and her smarts. They both had saw each other in passing in school but neither had even attempted to date each other. Roscoe was dating a close friend of Sydney’s family who thought he was a wacko, while Sydney was dating this guy who ended up cheating on her. And the crazy thing about it was, they were each other’s high school crush. Sydney never said anything because when Roscoe passed her in the hallway, it was just a glance. She didn’t think he was interested in her like that; meanwhile Roscoe never said anything because Sydney had a boyfriend. After Roscoe graduated, he moved away from New Day and relocated to the city. The reality of things was there was no work there, and nothing to do or make a career out of. New Day literally was a small town with a bunch of gossiping, kissing cousins. Sydney wanted to get away too.  While Roscoe lived in the city, he and Sydney began to communicate over Facebook.  Anyone that read the messages between these would think they were a match made in heaven, but it was all part of Roscoe’s plan: to ruin Sydney’s life. Roscoe would send sweet messages like I hope your day is going well Queen, keep your head up youngin. Even though Roscoe was only 4 years older than Sydney; he still called her young. They talked everyday up until 2 months before Sydney was set to graduate. A couple weeks before Sydney’s birthday, Roscoe showed up at her job. Not only did he surprise her, but he was back living in New Day. When he walked in her job, it was like the whole world stopped and all Sydney saw was him. She saw his sincere eyes; she saw his crooked smile and she saw the way he carried himself. To her, he was one of a kind and she had to have him. Roscoe approached Sydney and he just stared at her. He said, "you are beautiful, and Sydney lapped