Bipolar Me and Myself
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Wayne Hadfield
My name is Wayne Hadfield, I’m 54 years old live in Ripley Derbyshire England with my partner Karen, I have three children and four grandchildren who are my world. I was diagnose with bipolar when I was 36 in 2002 though I was first hospitalized when I was 19.
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Bipolar Me and Myself - Wayne Hadfield
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Published by AuthorHouse 02/21/2020
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CONTENTS
The Game Goes On
Make A Fresh Start
Medication Revolution
Disallussioned Man
Black
Castaway
Survival
Tears
So Alone
How Long
Runnning Scared
Pain Etched On My Face
A Brave Face Can Hide So Much
Forever To Return
I Wish
No Place To Hide
Hurt Inside
My Special Friends
So Proud Of You
Keep Taking The Pills
On Your Way Back
Day In Day Out
Gee
A Place Ill Never Forget
Your Still Strong
What Lies Within
Mason
Harrison
Ruby
Chloe
Karen
William
Natalie
My Future
Winter
New Year{2007}
New Year {2007}Cont.
2007
Pleasure
Memorys Of Happy Times
Dealing With Set Backs
Why Bother
Power Struggle
Lost In A World Of Your Own
Memories In A Plastic Bag
Strandard Alone
The Year Gone 2006
The Year Gone 2006 Cont
Five Months On
When Panic Hits
John
Me
Full House
Lisa
Elevator
Scrambled Head
Live My Dreams Through You
Good News
At Last
Good News
Manipultive
New Beginning
Waiting Game
A New Beginning
A Time To Reflect
A Change For The Better
Hopes For The Future
Feeling Deflated
Special Treatment
Thank You
Moving Forward
Escape
Moving On
Tears Of Dispair
What Lies Ahead
Bipolar And Proud
Never Beaten
Change(I Hope)
Tired
Steps Forward
End Of Year Approches
A Get Well Plan
All Inclusive
Reflection
Mystery Man
Born Again
Emotions Roll Into One
Moving On
Moving On (Or Standing Still)
Flight Of Fantasy
Happiness
Tears Run Free
Rules To Suit Yourself
Compassionate Mind
Sky Of Snow
Sail Away
Twenty Years
Step By Step
Song For The End
Keep Fighting On
Future
Set In Your Ways
What Ive Become
Hope
Tired
Panic Strikes
Faces From The Past
Feeling Good
Natalie
William
Georgina
Chloe
Ruby
Harrison
Mason
Future
Standing Still
Karen
High
Broken Man
THE GAME GOES ON
Someone once told me treat this all as a game,
But games are fun, this fills me with shame,
I feel ashamed that I always feel ill,
Getting so annoyed,
But where theres a way theres a will,
Other people go through life with no worries at all,
As soon as ive found my feet im bound to fall,
Surely this has to end one day soon now
Things have to improve for me someway somehow,
People say i look well how I look is different to how I feel,
Its whats going on inside my head, which is oh so real,
A feeling of fear a feeling of mental pain,
Will the qualitiesi once had be something I regain,
Or is it the new real me, that I have to find,
Stop being cruel to myself, in fact start being kind,
Then maybe the tension will lift pressure relieved,
Bury the old me, finally being fully grieved
I know the real truth, is ifs buts and maybes
Lets hope my eyes clear so I start to see,
Get rid of all the guilt that I carry around,
At last the new me is someone I like, I am found.
MAKE A FRESH START
Draw a line under the past, time to move on,
Things happen to others im not the only one,
Time for me to make a fresh new start,
Look inside my head go from the heart,
No more dwelling on the past that’s easy to say,
But move away from it a bit more each day,
Memories will stay but in time they will fade,
But things will be easier plans have been made,
It’s a time for me to feel like im born again,
Finally rid myself of this mental pain,
The thought of it fills me with joy,
Makes me feel like a child with a new toy,
This is not a dream this is reality,
Something that really effects my family and me,
So watch this space as my dreams come true,
Not a single one day, ever feeling blue.
MEDICATION REVOLUTION
So many years now 5 1\2 years down the line,
Confused by everything, not knowing what is mine
Not believing that ive progressed at all,
One step forward and then another fall,
Taken every tablet that’s ever been prescribed,
Without the benefits which each pill discribed,
Shake me up and down hear the pills rattle,
Do I carry on being a sheep or do I battle,
I think ill choose the later start my own war,
Make some decisions so I can even up the score,
Time for a medicene revoultion a complete overhaul,
Ive given it much thought im really sure,
Its time for me to finally take control,
Start to repair the damage done on the whole,
I know it wont be easy but think the time is right,
For me to use strength call on all my might.
DISALLUSSIONED MAN
I feel beaten by this illness every single dasy,
So many obstacles and problems getting in my way,
Forever disallussined not able to see a way ahead,
Is it worth me ever gettting out of bed,
Why should I bother why not just give in,
I dig deep find somethingfrom within,
A force that drives me on helps me,
Somehow theres a positive future I can see,
You see things cant always stay bad they must improve,
Its worth the gamble after all what can I