I Never Knew How You Hurt Until Your Pain Became Mine: A Journey Through Suffering and Healing
By Joan Knierim
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As a pastors wife, author Joan Knierim stood with those who had to say good-bye to a loved one for the last time, and she expressed her love and sympathy. However, not until God suddenly called her husband home to heaven did she realize the pain, grieving, and loneliness that was ahead for her.
In I Never Knew How You Hurt until Your Pain Became Mine, Knierim opens her heart about her pain and how God brought her through the most difficult time of her life. She shares her personal story of loss and offers both practical and spiritual advice and encouragement for those who are suffering and for those who are wanting to help others deal with their pain.
Grounded in scripture, I Never Knew How You Hurt until Your Pain Became Mine helps those grieving to find hope and peace in the midst of pain and suffering. Knierim invites those suffering to give their pain to the Lord and seek his eternal joywhere all will be reunited as a family once more.
Joan Knierim
Joan Knierim has traveled extensively as a ladies conference and motivational speaker and Bible teacher. Named Woman of the Year by her local Chamber of Commerce, she and her husband served in the ministry for forty-nine years. During her years as a pastors wife, she directed many ladies conferences and had a unique ministry with women and teenage girls. Knierim has three daughters and five grandchildren. This is her fourth book.
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I Never Knew How You Hurt Until Your Pain Became Mine - Joan Knierim
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Introduction
Often when someone is going through troubles or a heartache, we are quick to say, I know how you feel,
but not until we have personally been touched by the same pain do we fully understand. Unless you have felt the pain of another, you really do not know how someone else is hurting. That was me. When I would speak at conferences to women and to those going through pain that I had never experienced, I often would say to them, I know how hard this must be for you,
when I had no idea what they were going through in perhaps the worst pain of their life, but I do now!
As a pastor’s wife, I have stood with those who have had to say good-bye to a loved one for the last time, and I have expressed my love and sympathy; however, not until God suddenly called my husband home to heaven did I realize the pain, grieving, and loneliness that was ahead for me and how many widows, parents, and children are suffering with the pain of not having their loved one with them here on earth. When a loved one dies, it is not only an individual pain, but the whole family is affected. What was once a family unit has now changed. Each one will suffer differently because of what that person meant to them personally—father, mother, wife, husband, sister, brother, etc. I knew where my husband was and Who he was with, but the loss that was in my heart and the loneliness that came with that loss were like nothing I had ever gone through before. My husband and I had talked many times about what we would do if one of us should die before the other, but I realize now that is not something you can prepare for in advance.
Because of what I have gone through and am going through now, and because I know there are others who are walking through this same valley of pain, I asked God to show me how I could help those who are perhaps going through the worst pain of their life. Pain is no respecter of persons. We never know what the next moment or year may bring. One day we find we are in a place in life we have never been before, and we do not know what to do or how we will ever get through what has caused our pain. Our heart cries for someone to help us, and because of what I have gone through, I can say there is someone. We are not alone. There is one who is walking with us each moment and each step of the way. He has experienced every pain we may ever have.
In my pain, I began to do a complete study of what happens when someone we love dies. I wanted to know more of where my husband was. Was he alive? Was he aware of what was going on? I wanted to know for myself. I knew we had buried his body, but I also knew it was the spirit within me that was grieving. Do those who die go immediately to be with the Lord, and are they aware of all that is around them? The Bible has much to say about this, and we are not left without answers to our questions. I hope what I have found will help those who are suffering right now (whether it be through a death of a loved one or some other pain) to see that God has not left us oblivious but with complete assurance that there is help for the times when our hearts are breaking. We will get through our suffering because we have the promise of one who keeps His word—always!
I also realize that there are other pains and sufferings in the lives of many: divorce, sickness, the death of a child, having a child who is on drugs, loss of a job or a home you have worked for all your life, taking care of a loved one who no longer knows who you are, emotional and mental health issues, or pain so deep that you wonder if it will ever go away. I have seen and felt the pain others are going through when they hear the word cancer. Pain is all around us and is everywhere. I heard on the news recently that 13.3 suicides are committed every minute. Many people are suffering with a pain that just stays with them day and night.
All of us have times in our lives when we need to know that there is someone out there who knows what we are going through and understands and can put into words just what we need and what we are feeling. I no longer have just sympathy for others, but my pain has caused me to look into the hearts of others and feel their pain like never before.
If you are hurting … this book is for you!
Dedicated to the glory of God and in memory of my husband, Pastor Paul R. Knierim, the most dedicated man of God I ever knew, and to my three beloved daughters, Mary Renee’ Gamble, Deborah Lynn Kemp, and Rachel Joan Knierim, and to hurting hearts everywhere, whoever they may be.
Contents
Chapter 1: The Pain That Will Not Go Away
Chapter 2: The Beginning of a New Life
Chapter 3: Where Are They Now?
Chapter 4: How Do I Get Through My Pain?
Chapter 5: Love and Pain Go Together
Chapter 6: Pain Is All around Us
Chapter 7: Will My Pain Ever End?
Chapter 8: A Beautiful Picture of Death
Chapter 9: In Your Pain Reach Out to Others
Chapter 10: Helps to Healing
Chapter 11: You Will Come Through
Chapter 12: How to Help Those Who Are Hurting
Chapter 13: How We Live Affects Others
Chapter 14: Doctors Said Six Weeks; God Gave Him Fifteen Years
Chapter 15: We’re Here and It’s Now
Chapter 16: Getting through the Hard Days
Chapter 17: A Peaceful Heart
Chapter 18: Preparing to Die
Chapter 19: This World Is Not Our Home
Chapter 20: New Beginnings
Chapter 21: Unfulfilled Dreams—Making New Ones
Chapter 22: Learning from Our Pain
Chapter 23: Joy Is on the Way
Chapter 24: Scriptures—and My Response
Chapter 25: Will I Ever Be Me Again?
Chapter 26: Notes to Joan
Chapter 27: Looking to What You Can’t See
Chapter 28: A Life Changed
Chapter 29: Cherish the Moment
Chapter 30: Blessed Promises from God’s Word
1
The Pain That Will Not Go Away
If you are reading this book, you may be the very one who is right now hurting with a pain that seems like it will never go away. A pastor’s wife said to me just recently, This has been the hardest year of my life.
You may feel that no one understands or even cares. Perhaps it is a pain you cannot share with anyone, but you long for help. It may be a pain of having to say good-bye to one who was the dearest person on earth to you, or it may be loneliness, fear of what lies ahead, an illness, or a beloved parent or mate who lives in a world of their own, financial struggles, forgiveness to those you put your trust in and they failed you and hurt you deeply, or a pain that just stays there. People will tell you that time has a way of healing, but pain also leaves a hole in your heart and words do not take away that emptiness or fear you are feeling right now.
Often in an effort to help someone, we will say, God knows best,
which causes many to blame God and wonder why He would do this to us when it does not seem best. I am convinced God does not cause most of the things that hurt us; sin and life do! But God is with us in our pain, and He does help us through it. Perhaps a loved one was killed in an accident caused by a drunk driver. Alcohol caused the accident, not God. Or one of our loved ones was taken from us by someone who went on a shooting spree or was killed in an accident. Perhaps you have just heard the word cancer. Whatever has caused your pain, it hurts.
People do get sick and die from natural causes, accidents do happen, but no matter what the pain is, it seems like a part of your heart has been cut open, and it has! It is an individual and private pain, and as no two people on earth are the same, neither is suffering; but we are never alone in our worst heartache, and there is one who understands the hurt and emptiness we feel. I hope you will find what I have found; healing does come, and when it does, you realize how much God loves you and that He was caring for you in your darkest hour.
Life can be uncertain, and when sudden or lingering pain, sickness, and heartache bring us to the realization that our life or the life of someone we love will sooner or later come to an end, what then? What will we do? How will we ever get through the pain and loneliness? Some will turn to drugs, work, activity, or food or shut themselves up with their pain—anything that will help them forget for just a little while and find a peaceful place in their heart that assures them that they will be all right and will come through this. But I know for certain that those of us who turn to God will find that there was someone there all along who was helping us and was going through this with us and gave us a strength we did not know we had. Life happens and things can change in one moment (it did for me), but I believe (no, I know) God will take these heartaches and give us a renewed hope and peace.
I have been there, and I know there is a real God, the one and only true God who can do what we cannot do for ourselves. I am not saying that the trial will be easy, and it does not just go away overnight. The truth is that it is hard, and no matter who you are, pain hurts! But as we live moment by moment, hour by hour, day by day, and put our trust in God, call out to Him, and read and find peace in the Bible, we will come through! No riches can buy this, and no prescription can cure it or completely take the pain away. Pain pills may block out the pain for a time, but only Jesus can heal it completely. I hope this book will help you find the healing you so need right now.
Perhaps your pain is not one of death but of watching one you love slowly struggle with a serious illness or watching a loved one whose life has totally been destroyed by a disaster; maybe your pain is because a parent who loved and cared for you no longer knows you and has become a total stranger to you and you to them. Your pain may be because of unfulfilled dreams that you and a mate had planned to enjoy in later years of retirement together, but now their mind or body has been taken over by a disease. Maybe it is a son or daughter