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Margaritë Camaj
In her movements, you can feel the love in her heart. And, in her eyes, you can see the resistance in her mind. She has Albanian roots, but she is the product of the "unprivileged" parts of New York City. She may have innocent-looking eyes, but they grew up seeing everything but what was pretty. She is usually the opposite of anything they can all think of, a walking contradiction. She goes against any false depiction. Writing from a deep-rooted love was the only way that she knew how to destroy their predictions.
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Feel - Margaritë Camaj
2016 Cover By: Francesca Nicole Cardillo. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 12/02/2016
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Contents
Mama
Feel
I just want you to feel something.
The coming together of The Heart and The Mind is rare, but a beautiful phenomenon that not everyone allows themselves to experience.
The Mind
How Do You Survive?
Do You Belong Here?
How Do You Get Through Reality?
Where Do We Go From Here?
Should We Forgive?
What Do You See When You Look For Truth?
But, Is It Making You Happy?
Have We Become Robots?
How Do You Find Peace Of Mind?
Are You Free—I Mean, Really Free?
Does Time Control You?
Where Did Worrying Get You?
Can You Hold On To Who You Are?
Do You Love Your Mind?
Is This Real Life?
Shouldn’t Humans Feel Something?
How Far Is Your Vision?
What Have We Become? We Are Human—Or Are We?
What Will You Do With The Pain?
Are You Willing To Be Vulnerable?
Do You Ever Let Your Mind Be Still?
Do You Have The Strength To Stand Alone?
Do You Ever Wake Up With A New Mind State?
Are You Willing To Wait For Love?
What Two Gifts Would You Give Them?
Do You Have Eyes That See?
What Is Your Legacy?
Would Younger You Be Happy?
Do You Have What It Takes To Stay Focused Even When They Doubt You?
Do You Know The Power Of Your Own Mind?
Do You Ever Take A Look At Who You Have Around You?
Can You Defeat Fear?
Does Your Mind Feel?
How Can You Change The World?
How Powerful Are Your Memories?
Can You Keep Going?
How Beautiful Are Imperfections?
Do You Ever Feel Like You Find A Part Of Yourself In Everything?
Do You Know How You Love?
Do You Love Yourself Just As Much?
Do You Take The Time to Reflect and Reevaluate?
When Has Worrying Saved You?
Are You Your Worst Enemy?
Do You Believe That You Can Find Yourself Again?
Do You Ever Let Yourself Just Be Free—In Every Way?
How Much Do You Crave Human Emotion?
What Is Inside Of A Great Mind?
Is There Light In Darkness?
Have You Ever Watched A Human Move—I Mean, Really Move You?
What Level Is Your Awareness On?
Is Your Heart Or Mind Stronger?
When It Is Said And Done, What Can Save You?
Are You Awake To Everything Around You?
What Do You Choose—Love OR Hate?
Do You See Deeper Than The Surface?
Are They Worthy of Your Soul?
What Is In Your Subconscious?
Switch…
The Heart
Are You Willing To Wait For Love?
Only You
Almost
Irrational
Tired Soul
I Hope You Save Me
Greater Than Love
Think Twice
Weak Bonds
I Won’t Chase You
Is My Heart Too Heavy For Your Hands?
I Heard Your Heart
In Between The Lines
Just In Time
Protect Your Love
A Secret They Didn’t Know
Thirteen Words
I Thought You Would Know
Something Different
Her
Questions
Muse
Intentions
Please Stay
Choose
You Found Me
I Wonder
Let It Be
To You
Carry Your Heart
The Cleanse
Him
The Fall
The Answer
Don’t Remind Him
Silent Love
Selfless
Keep Out
Hard To Breathe
I Will Heal You
Where Are You?
Love Has Strong Roots
Before Hello
One
My Letter To Him
Yellow Leaf
Turned Cold
She Was Greater Than Light
Indestructible
What Do You Look For In Another?
Away From You
Still Searching
I’m Here Once Again
Different Love
Shaken
Godsent
Temporary Or Permanent Emotions?
Love, To Me
Healed
I Want Nothing Less Than Love
My Forever
All Of You
Reflections
The Heart Always Wins
Simple
Comparisons
Definite
Dear Society, Wake Up
Never Too Much
I Could Love You
They Couldn’t Break Him
Don’t Be Scared To Love
Hard To Find
Made For Him
Know My Soul
Mistake
Look Inside
Don’t Speak
Pick Your Choice
Collide
My Movements
Feel
Be Ready
You Never Know
Reciprocation
Pay Attention
You Are My Light
Your Soul
What Is Love?
Heavy Heart
He Will See You
Natural Connection
Our Downfall
Connected
Promise Me
All For Love
Balance
Infinite
My Truth
In Sync
Silent Storm
Love Gave Me Life
Guarded
Your Worth
Your Own Fault
Take A Look
Open
Select
Something Is Missing
The Same
Only If You Stay
Let Go
Hold On To Me
Different Kind Of Strength
It All Comes Together
Entirely
Not For You
Not The Same
You Are Safe Here
Figured It Out
It Is Here
Always Love
Tied Together
Looking For You
Illusions
Safe With You
Before I Healed
My Missing Piece
Same Souls
Cycle
No Words Needed
Once
He Is King
Love Did Not Hurt You
My Oxygen
Keeps Me Alive
Fulfillment
Unsure
In An Instant
Possibility
Doubts
Overflowing
One Fear
Have It All
Waves
The Greatest Gift
Short Promises
The Good In Me
Be Careful
Human Tragedy
Too Much Inside
Consuming You
Held Me Together
Unexpected
Whole Again
Hello
My Masterpiece
Nothing More Than You
Transformation
You Deserve It All
Resilience
Exchange of Energies
The Impact
In Tune
Different Kind Of Power
I Will Rise
Poetry Over Politics
Strong Enough
He Told Me
Greater Than The Universe
Not That Innocent
Be Gentle
My Person
I Won’t Stop Searching
Lullaby
In Your Power
A Home
I Don’t Know How He Did It
Eventually
New Direction
Made Up My Mind
Something More
Feel My Absence
I Blame Fear
Opposite Hearts
A Part Of Me
Out of Emotion
It Now Makes Sense
I Already Know
We Remain
Don’t Belong
His Thoughts
Always Myself
Read Me
All Of The Beautiful Parts
Until You Come
A Better Me
Love Lives In Me
Survivor
I Don’t Know
Perseverance
Thoughts
Without You
A Beautiful Tragedy
Going In Circles
More Of You
How I Feel
Can’t Show Just Anyone My Soul
Always Choose Love
Unmoved
Never Doubt My Love
Extremist
Forever Love
Failed Attempts
Here Is My Soul
No Good
Never
Foundations
Full Moon
I hope you felt something.
Mama
You have watched me feel—as you would say, a little too much.
There were nights when I could not sleep and I resulted to complete isolation—from everyone, even you— because of the intensity of the thoughts in my mind and the beats of my heart.
Though you couldn’t watch me destroy
myself, as you say, I needed this. You thought that I was hurting myself, but the truth is that I had no choice. I needed to rewire everything in my mind. I needed to clear my heart so that I could feel even more than I ever have before. This was the only way that I knew how to rebuild and learn who I am as, not a human being—but, a soul.
You gave me hope, Mom.
Thank you for proving to me that unconditional love exists.
You have shown me the strongest way to feel.
You have given me life and the beauty of it all is that you didn’t just do this at birth. Somehow, you knew how to breathe power into my soul in the moments when I felt dead inside.
I love you more than life itself.
Feel
I feel everything a little too much. I mean it. I look at the smallest things and find meaning in them. I look at my past and present and try to connect everything. I am an over-analytical thinker. Most of the people around me would think that I look at things too much—too deeply. But, is that true? Or, do I just believe in my mind too much? Do I believe in the human too much? Do I do every single thing with my whole heart?
Even when I thought I was numb, I felt the pain more than ever. I don’t believe anyone when they say that they are numb, emotionally, because even then, I believe that they feel something unless they have the power to somehow program their minds to not feel. But even in that, still—they might feel their emptiness a little too much. They feel something—some more than others.
What scares me, sometimes, is the world that we live in. Everyone around me tries to act so cold—to the point that they try to convince everyone around them that their hearts are not beating. But, you are alive, right? You are human, right? Do not tell me that your heart is not beating. I have eyes that can see past your lies. Do not tell me about your walls—and if you decide to, at least, do not brag about them. I know all about walls—really well. I have spent seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, and years building them up so high that they would be able to reach the skyscrapers of New York City.
However, I have found that I have dehumanized myself. I have done everything that they thought I would do. And, that—well—that wasn’t me. I was always a rebel—especially when it came to two things—the mind and the heart. Both held my love. I did what they all least expected. I was underestimated. I was doubted. My abilities were doubted and so was the love that I held inside of me. I was quiet, but my insides were louder than they were capable of even understanding or even imagining—or both.
I felt every single thing—not only what was inside of me, but I deeply felt what was inside of them, too. There were times when I knew that they were broken, because I too was once there. I could literally feel their pain inside of me, even when they weren’t willing to admit that they were feeling anything. I felt their pain even when they were trying to put a mask on to cover their faces so that they could convince themselves that they couldn’t feel a thing.
I knew that they could all feel. They were screaming that they do not trust a soul, but I think that those words could not be further from the truth. They were saying certain words, but I heard different ones. I think that their insecurities were louder. What they were really saying was that they couldn’t trust themselves. They couldn’t trust their own minds because they couldn’t think for themselves. Instead, they followed the rules and the norms of the society that they lived in. Also, they couldn’t trust their hearts. Somewhere deep down, they knew that they beat for anything that seemed to be love, but was the furthest thing from it. And, if they were being honest with themselves, they would have seen it too. But, unfortunately, they weren’t. They still aren’t.
I watch them as if they are all robots or playing a role in a film—except this film doesn’t have a happy ending. They are refusing to open their minds and use their hearts—yelling it as if it is something they are all proud of. They think that they are harming everyone around them—but truly, they are self-destructing by the seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, and years.
I have sat here and I have observed. I have isolated myself and I have watched all of their movements—very carefully—almost as if I was frozen in time. I fear for not