Selfish Apologies
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We planted the seed of life on Earth
And all they do is destroy
Since dinosaurs
We owned the land
We owned the planet
Earth
They continue to dismiss our existence with
the way they portray us as creatures. . . (Seezur, pg 218)
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Selfish Apologies - Kayla Ymani Edwards
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TABLE OF SELFISH APOLOGIES
2013
Earth
I Guess
Deliverance
Alone
Running
Dare Me
Dare Me to
Millionaire
Hand
Him
Deep
Told Me
Catch
Hoping
Whispering
Born Again
Promises
Speak Wit
Something Right
Disguised
Easy
Joke
Love
Bullets
Afraid of Love
Rapid Tyrant
Insecurity
Bloodbath
Tenth grade
Position
Focused
Nymphomania
Serve you up
Goal digger
Ms. Lady
Cheating
Stoogey
Lingerie
Virginity
Hope To
Lend Your hand
Save Me
Let go
The love I never had
Legs Closed
Great
Forward
Patronize
Violin
Embarrassed
Creator
Again
Brand New
Ambassadora
Bad
White Mandingo
Scary
Cognac
Feed you
Heathen
Around
Sorry
Harmless
No one
Innocent
The Castles
Amnesty
What Free World?
Home Away From Home
Where Can I Stand?
Mommy
Send Me Away
Terrorist
Gone
Can I be Your Queen?
Trapped
She Tore It Up
Lost in the Ocean
My Daughters
My Fault but Your Blessing
Under Mind Greatness
Romeo and Juliet
When I Speak
Tamed
20/20 Vision
Is This Class Too Advanced for You
Disown
Power
Lil Kim
Selfish Apology
Monster
Who?
Spoke
Spoiled
Smile for me
Jealous
The Battle
Speak
Me! Me! Me!
2014
Past
Loved You
Crazy
Sound
Words
Lion
Dreaming
World
Escape
Love
Destroy
Light
Blood
Alone
Nobody
Cost
What He Called Me
Movies
Painful
I Hated the Way He Talked
Cousin
Complacent
Any
Perfect
Clarendon Road
Human
Movie Theaters
Concession
Drive
Black Death
Beauty is Skin Deep
Hard
Enough
Infiltrate
2015
Hollywood Reporter
Intelligence
Basket
Rashes
The Earth
Sheepshead
2016
Loopholes
War of the Worlds
Pretty Ugly
Charlemagne tha God
Rapper’s Perspective
Dirty
Cock Pit
No Date
Law
Becky
Playground
Borax
An Alien and Woman
No Words
Explain
Ugly Boy
Watch
Not a Friend
Now
Men Hope
My Nigga
Bitch/Niggas
Product of Pain
Parents
Math
Do That
Everyday
Hell
Girlfriend
The Ram
Populated
Free
Judge Me
Bonds Beyond the Cell
I Will Not
Seezur
Illiterate Bitch
Came From
Olivia Bunny
Freeman
Faults
Conformity
Answers
Punishment
DEDICATION
I dedicate this collection of poems to Kayla Ymani Edwards and Honey Chuckles.
In other words, I dedicate these Selfish Apologies to myself because I did a lot of soul searching
throughout these poems.
January 26, 2013
Earth
Blasting into Earth
I came in on my head
My Mother close to death
My Father near by
Oh I’m destined for something great
They love me everywhere
I worked on it
I worked on me
So I could be broken into society
I’m on the deeper side of Earth
Where everything got to mean something
My word of mouth
Got to be for everyone to hear
All of these past years
I’ll flourish into a grown woman
Off the top of the head
That’s what makes us great
That’s what makes us real
I never knew me
Without understanding the way of the World
Knowing it
Showed me my likes and dislikes
What I shouldn’t do
So I won’t bruise a greater me
Who am I?
We’ll see
You can hate me
But you will love me for being just me
70524.pngFebruary 25, 2013
I Guess
I stressed a lot
So my headaches are more frequent than average
Leaves me with mind spasms
I pain for you
At least I think I do
I go days with thinking of the same thing
Wondering when my life might mean amusement for me
My broken heart
Carries this dead weight
Ups and Downs of emotions I never learned from
Or truly comprehend
I’m just your average girl out here out of her mind
Will there be a time where I could sit and whine
Cry because it has gotten hard out here
In this skin
I feel drained
And unappreciated
Something God created
But sometimes I forget my worth
And run wild and free from Earth
My desire has no real moral
The thoughts of the world has taken over me
I guess I knew one day it will come
I’ll give up on life and run
I’ll move far away from human existence
And reach way beyond the clouds
Into a galaxy
Surrounding itself around me
This is the way I am
I can’t believe me
If I change
Who will be me?
70518.pngJuly 18, 2013
Deliverance
Deliverance is key to a successful life
Everything you learn
Take with you and strive
Because a new beginning will arrive
Watch me stand tall when I face my defeat
With the thought in mind
Never make the same mistake twice
From now on I will win
Losing could create a world full of sin
Desperate is not the word to ever use
Optimistic feet is what feel my shoes
Soul in my hands
Never lose my heart on the path to riches
You might as well will your grave to the ditches
My name well just call me Misses
I’ve given up my name to a new creation
70512.pngJuly 19, 2013
Alone
No one talks to me
Peaceful
But quiet
I hear everyone else
Trapped in my own body
It’s deep and dark in here
I locked all the doors so no one could get in
It may seem miserable
But its better for me in here
I get the best of all worlds
I love it when we all dance
It’s like we’re as one
A place for us to bug out
But when I come to the light
All my fun is gone
I have to do things I don’t want to do
So even though its deep and dark in here
My sanity lies here
It’s where I sleep, eat, and shit
How I want
Without anyone telling me how to do it
I love my deep dark place where dreams come free
And wishes come true
When the light comes and all of it’s all over
I wish I was in the dark all alone again
70505.pngJuly 19, 2013
Running
I hear them coming
I go running
Cause I don’t want to be nothing
Even the ones close to me toast to my demise
They want to see me fall as they rise
I see it in their actions
I hear it when they speak
The negativity seeping through their teeth
Everyone chatting
Talking over the other
For their point to be seen a little better
I sit looking
Dreaming to breathe better air one day
Confused again
Walking my Earth
This is my World
No one is defeated by another
Only walking proud
So when I hear them coming
This time I won’t go running
70499.pngJuly 20, 2013
Dare Me
Shut up
You talk to me as if I am beneath you
I am the dirt on the bottom of your shoe
You don’t say it directly
I could hear it in the tone of your voice
The way you speak to me
You give things to me
In return you get to think of me as a scum
My heart is heavy because I never felt that low before
You put me down
So I can look up to you
You let me rot in my own flaws
Letting me create more pain
It’s something about me that I can see
I see worth
But to you I am worth nothing
Your actions speak loud
I could hear them loud and clear
They send me signs
To bow down and obey
My worth is worth trying
So I could become better than you
My soul is at its peek
Because I think someone is hating on me
You let me know what I do wrong
Only covering up the fact you so flawed
Boasting one things
Only a dog should be proud of
70494.pngJuly 20, 2013
Dare Me to
Make you the only man in my life
Share me your darkest secrets
Let me know your truth
Sprinkle the love all over me
Make living easy
When your strong arms are wrapped around me
Carrying me
Taking me through trials and tribulations
Bless me with your seed
The palm of your hand caressing my stomach
Your child
When walking Earth
I will carry
Your last name
Marry me
Let me drown in the words you tell me
Fall deep
Where no one will find me
Wash all the thought of being alone off me
Tell me I’m all you want
You don’t want to fuck anyone else
My pussy flavor is the only one you want to taste
My tears
The only female you ever really cared for
I don’t want to go in life without love
Without anyone to hold me
If you leave
Take the woman you once loved
with you
I will not go on with your scent still living inside me
70489.pngJuly 20, 2013
Millionaire
Money
Wipe