Stabilizing a Mentally Ill Poppy: A Poetic Autobiography
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Cheyenne Durfee
Cheyenne is a mental health advocate born and raised in Sacramento, California. She graduated from the University of California- Davis with a Bachelor's of Science in Human Development. As a young woman, she faced many struggles and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder at the age of 19. During her worst moments she found poetry to be her refuge.
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Stabilizing a Mentally Ill Poppy - Cheyenne Durfee
Slipping Away
When your mind is falling apart
You walk outside and realize that the trees are much greener than yesterday.
The birds are singing louder than usual.
The day is full of sunshine and happiness.
There isn’t a single bad thought in your mind.
Everything is perfect.
Picture perfect.
But it is all a lie.
Look out the window, what do you see?
Could it be a fantasy?
Where the grass is green but your leaves are purple.
Marshmallows grow from a tomato plant
And your hair is standing straight up.
Thinking you’re in wonderland
You twirl around feeling like the wind
No one could drag you down
You’re so high
Your feet can’t touch the ground
You’re dizzy with nothing around to stabilize you.
You drift away.
Your feet hit the sand.
You smell the fresh ocean air.
It’s salty but nostalgic,
You realize that your face is wet.
You can’t recall crying so you assume it’s the mist.
The waves sweep you under like they are playing jump rope
But you feel free
So enveloped by the water, it touches you everywhere,
Isolates your screams,
But you can’t tell if the ocean is real,
Or if it’s just you swimming in your tears.
Day 1
Everything is fuzzy,
I can’t tell if I am actually breathing
I feel like i should cry
But i am too numb to actually feel anything
It’s difficult to write about feelings when there is nothing to feel.
It’s hard to cry when there is nothing to cry about.
Day 2
Out of body
Out of mind
I feel like nothing is real
My life is a lie
I’m running through the motions
My mind is blank
I’m not in pain
But i think i feel okay
In an asylum
But not crazy
I’m just not sane
No one is ever really normal
And that’s okay
I feel like i’m floating
Like i’m on autopilot
I just can’t grasp reality
Maybe i’m in a simulation
But my body is numb
My brain feels overloaded
I can’t seem to feel my feet
But i can hear myself walk
I don’t know who is speaking
I just don’t sound the same
I can hear ringing in my ears
And voices are morphed into the same sound
Making this decision was hard
But i can’t leave my parents there
Thinking that i’m okay when i’m not
They should know what’s going on
I’m not a liar or a fake
But i feel like an imposter
Their daughter is drifting away
Asylum
Giving up control can be tricky
Trusting someone with your life
The life that you once wanted to take
The life you now cherish so much
Allow people to make decisions for you
So the weight of the world is easier to bear
Give up the option of freedom
So that maybe you’ll be free from your demons
The grasp that they had on you is loosened
Your body feels lighter
The lack of friction makes you feel like you might float away
Day 3
It’s interesting,
They say that dissociation is an awakening
You finally found balance
Between your mind and your soul
So your body is a bottle carrying them
When i dreamed of ending my life
I thought i was being suicidal
My tendencies coming back to haunt me
I thought that now that i’ve found happiness
My mind was trying to