Waves, Seagulls, and Other Heart Sounds

By Xlibris US

Poetry is the beginning of all feeling. It celebrates you, cries for you, needs, pleads, bleeds, and wants for you. Poetry explains for you, loves for you, and it wishes and hopes for you. It can move mountains or lock doors. Poetry is fascination, liberation, annihilation, consolation, elation, aggravation, jubilation, communication, and humiliation. It can be the dance that never ends. It feels for you out loud. Poetry is you exclamation point! Poetry can be the beginning or the ending, and everything in between.
Cynthia Forcey

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 22, 2014
• ISBN: 9781493171644

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Copyright © 2014 by Cynthia Anne Forcey.

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Rev. date: 04/15/2014

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Contents

Dedication

The Heart Sounds

The Sad Heart Sounds

Definitions

Sun Mistress

Spoken Words

Enough for Everyone and More

Saints and Sinners

The Sounds of the Beach

Before You Changed Me

Penance and Forgiveness

The Ocean’s Memory

The Complete Truth

Soul Surfing

We Will Go to the Water Then

A Hole in My Heart

The Question

Desire

Crippled

Fairness

Wishes

Unison

Junk

Want

Letting Go

Beyond this Existence

I Always Believed You

Remembering

Take My Hand

Mask

Occupations

Please Explain

Water

Standing Alone

Far Away

Absence

The Other Side

False Bravado

The Crash of the Waves

You

I am Dark

Weather or Not

Just Look

This Love Affair is Done

Requirements and Needs

Master of Disguise

You and I

Under the Covers of Darkness

Tears to Wear

Preparations

The Physical Pain

Answered Prayers

Still

Wounds

Earthquakes

Looking Backward

Rules

Never Let You Go

Tell Me

Come Back

Stars

Half-empty or Half-Full

The Demon Doubt

Shadows

The Dreamer (Part Two)

The Dreamer (Part Three)

The Dreamer (Part Four)

Pressure

Thank You

Faces

Stuck

Let it Be

Sightless

I am Suffocating

Never Really Apart

Damage

Promises and Truth

Many Mile Away

Superiority

The Trespasser

Loss

Falsity

Silence

Never Stop

Heat

Me without You

Putting love Out of My Life

Answers

Evaporate me

I am Here

That is How Much I Love You

Silent Symbols of Love

Here are the Tears

Rain

Fault Lines

The Answer

Love Never Dies

Night

Sit Still

Come and Save Me

I believe in You

Holding onto the Past

Don’t Make Me Try to Survive You Again

To Infinity

The Best Gift

Everyday Lives and the Falsehoods

My Eyes

Mapping

So Alone without You

Depression

No Debating this

Mary

My Forever

A Thousand Years

I cannot Live Without

How

Darkness

Heart Beat

Too Much

Teachings

Soul-Mate

To Win

Forgive and Forget?

Replacements

Your Memory

Hard to Forget

Hiding Behind a Telephone

Importance

Concepts

Jealousy

Without You—Without Me

Rules of the Game

The Past Versus the Future

You are Late in Coming

You Needed Me

The Mask that I Wear

Sink or Swim

Strangers

So Alone

Pieces

You Opened My Heart

Needed Knowledge

Fences

Dreams

The Sound of this Lady who Loves You

The Hour

Anxiety

Heart and Soul

I can’t Believe You Left Me All Alone

Meditation

I Honestly Believed in You

I Don’t Need You

Pillows

Can’t We Start Again Please

Contradiction

Love Lessons

What He Planned

The Reason

Missed Opportunities

Corners

Counting On

Anguish

A Magnet and a Reason

Come Back to Stay

No Vacany

You have Evolved without Me

Despair

You Quit

How did it Happen?

Memories don’t Leave like People Do

Christmas Stars

Final Desperation

I Expect a Different Outcome

The Last Time

As Long As

How Do I Keep Going?

Please Tell Me

Beautiful baby, Noir

Did It?

Memories of You and I

Not Today

Find Me

Pace

The Memory

Oblivion

Everything that You Could Do

I Guess I’ll Talk to God

Ashes

The Only Thing

Today

I want to Dream with You

Choosing

Mindful Thoughts

I’ve Changed My Mind

Part of History

August Monsoons

Not too Proud to Beg

I knew You when

She Never Made a Sound

Fire

Tonight

Distance

Moments

Bandaids

Follow Your Heart

I Have to Know the Truth

She is everything

Battles and Sacrifices

Choices

Feelings

More than Anything

For Life

I Love You isn’t Good Enough

Because You Said Goodbye

Dreams and Fantasies

Mothers

Forever Scarred

Before the Rain

To Be Loved

Commitments

Forget You

Being Sorry

Angels aren’t Supposed to Cry

Then and Now

Freezing

If You had only Told Me

Bindings

Things You Said

Dreams and Nightmares

Time Not Wasted

Bits and Pieces

If You Never Call

A Moment

Compensation

Into the Darkness

Dripping Memories

My Heart, My Soul

Bring me Hope

The Years I have Lived

Dry Cleaning

Into the Wind

Believing

My Love

Overwhelmed

A Nobody

It’s Monday

The Will

My Secret Sea (part one)

My Secret Sea (part two)

During Sleep

My Eyes

Broken Heart

Containers

Dust

You Left Me Falling Again

The Wall

Murder

Broken Promises

Candy Canes

Our Moments

My Sick Head

What have You left Me with?

There is Only Time

One Day

The Truth as we Know It

Mourning Memories

Casualties

Where would I be without You?

The Tear

You are Worth Fighting for

My special Kind of Clown

Certainty

These Days

Once

Cries

Youth

You Left Me Alone

You have to go with Your Gut

Crossing Lines

What is the Sound of a Feeling?

The Surest Thing about Truth

You Make it Hard

Whoever Told You

Where I bleed

What Did I Do?

Those Men You Hated

What Happens

Say it Out loud Again

Old Dreams

You are the One

Mistakes

I Will be here Waiting

I would do Anything for Your Love

If I had Known

Remember

You said You couldn’t Bare a World without Me in It

Dedication

This is for all those

who by one person

has been loved completely,

then left…

And loved again

and left…

And loved still again,

and left.

To those of you who waited by the phone,

for a call that never came…

And those of you who were asked to promise your love forever

and were promised love forever

and a lifetime hand-in-hand…

And those promises were not kept,

except by you.

I want you to know,

it is okay to still leave the porch light on

and the key under the mat,

just in case…

This book is for all of you

who never learned the lesson

that people who promise not to leave

                                                            do leave…

                                Except for people

                                                    like you

                                                                                    and me.

The Heart Sounds

The heart sounds

come from those

that love found

in tandem with

the waves’ pound

and the seagulls

flying, and dipping, and diving

and playing ’round.

The Sad Heart Sounds

Heart sounds are not always happy.

They can be sad or

filled to the innermost depths of the heart

with long lingering, anguish.

Sad heart sounds come from

a person

walking the beach alone,

not certain where her heart sound

will finally find its home.

The waves then beat out a lonely sound,

all day and all night long.

The seagulls fly far from the lonely ones…

They prefer not to fly in a lonely man’s shadow

that blocks the sun.

And as the waves sing out their call,

people make the loneliest

heart sounds of all.

They cry for love gone wrong,

and over that last love song.

They cry for a lover’s death,

as their love draws his one last breath.

They cry for children lost,

and through their tears, they swear

they will find the child at any cost.

They cry for those who have left,

and though they waited,

never returned.

Then they cry for the lesson that will

never be learned.

They cry for a chance not taken,

or a love not awakened.

They cry for a moment forgotten,

and for a love not begotten.

They cry for promises broken,

and the words left unspoken.

They cry for told lies

and every sort of goodbye.

They will cry for their true love

not yet met,

or they will cry for their regrets.

And they will often cry the deepest

for a mistake

they never, no never

meant to make.

Definitions

A heart sound is

a living, breathing, feeling

of love.

The waves can make them,

as they pound onto the shore.

The seagulls can make them

because they are the ocean’s birds

and they fly and sound out.

Certainly people can and do

make heart sounds,

because they love

and they love so deeply.

Sun Mistress

I walk the beach,

the waves flow over my feet,

the seagulls fly and soar.

I wonder, do you love me anymore?

I am now the sun’s mistress-

he watched over me

as I walked the beach

all day long.

Waves, seagulls,

and searching for heart sounds…

At a point in time,

for a few years and more,

you watched me carefully,

sometimes holding me close,

just to be certain that

no one else could have me,

but you,

so I would be no one else’s mistress,

even the sun’s,

and so no one could sing heart sounds

to me,

but you.

Spoken Words

One night when we were together,

I wiped a tear from your eye,

as you were lying in my lap.

Your mouth spoke words,

never spoken to me before,

"In the candlelight, you are very beautiful,

you look like an angel."

These were your heart sounds.

Enough for Everyone and More

Remember the times we were there?

The heart sounds were pounding,

rhythmically with the waves.

The waves contain the heart sounds,

even if you don’t want them to do so.

The waves never forget the curve of a body,

the length of a leg,

or bodies connecting.

The white seagulls play

and dig for dinner, both at once.

The gulls hold the heart sounds.

They don’t forget the sunbather,

who throws them food,

nor the bodies holding hands,

running into the waves,

passing them by.

As the gulls watch,

they take flight above the heads

of these bodies.

The ocean waves remember the bodies,

they cool them and make promises to

the bodies from the beach,

heart sound promises of a

comfortable day ahead.

You can find heart sounds everywhere…

in the waves,

through the gulls,

in the sand or in the wind.

You can find them in one another,

But go to the beach

and there

heart sounds

will be overflowing,

enough for everyone and

more.

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Saints and Sinners

The ocean will solve your crimes,

absolve you sins,

with God’s help.

The ocean rings out

its heart sounds

and you can believe again.

Everything is real and true again.

Every saint has a past,

believe it or not.

We were not made so perfectly that

anyone of us

would be without some sin.

Sit on the sand,

and let God help.

Every sinner has a future,

let the ocean help you.

Saints and sinners,

should all be swimmers.

We are all a little bit