Walking My Road Of Grief
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My son committed suicide, at the age of thirteen, on January 25, 1995. This was by far the hardest lick life has hit me with. Yet my son prepared me as best he could for his death. I missed the signs at the time.
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Matthew D Rucker
Reverend Matthew Rucker has an Engineering Degree from Georgia Tech and a Business Degree from the University of South Carolina. He has a Master of Divinity from Asbury Theological Seminary. He took a one year sabbatical to become certified as a Hospital Chaplin. He retired from the South Carolina Methodist Conference as a minister after 40 years of service. He now lives in Sandy Run, South Carolina with his wife, Angela and pug dog, Teddy. He attends his home church Beulah Methodist and raises cows. He is where he loves to be, back on the farm.
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Walking My Road Of Grief - Matthew D Rucker
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mulberrylogo_BW.pngACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Let me thank all of family, friends, and church members for being there for me. I particularly want to thank my friend and doctor, Doctor Michael Willmot, who was a Godsend. I would also like to thank my good friend, Billy Robinson, for the picture on the cover of the book. Each of you put your hand under me and lifted me up, but most of all I thank God for the mystery of these poems.
3129.jpg3130.jpg3131.jpg3132.jpgINTRODUCTION
My son committed suicide, at the age of thirteen, on January 25, 1995. This was by far the hardest lick life has hit me with. Yet my son prepared me as best he could for his death. I missed the signs at the time.
I remember after a young lady’s funeral, Brandon made the statement, Dad that was a cool funeral. I want you to promise me to do my funeral when I die
. I remarked, You will see me die first.
He insisted that I promise him if something happened, I would do his funeral and I agreed.
He also prepared me the day of his death. I took him to school and as he got out, he turned and said, Dad you know I love you?
I told him, I love you too.
He said, Dad, no matter what happens, know that I love you.
I said, Okay
. And he then replied, You’re a cool dad
. Those were the last words on this earth that I heard from my son. That afternoon he was dead.
I said all of this to come to the book. The book consists of the time frame following his death. Now the mystery is the poems. I have never written poems before, so all of this is a mystery to me.
The poems would come all at once. The title first, then the poem and most of them came during the night. I would be awakened with verses running wild in my brain. Grabbing a pen and paper I would write as fast as I could. When I was through, I was physically and emotionally exhausted. I never had a clue to when they would come.
Now this book is written within the arena of feelings. I know facts about his death, but I concentrated on the feelings. Knowing all the facts doesn’t ease the pain. I will not point the finger at anyone for each of us involved must take