1001 Ramblings of an Old Worn-Out Stripper

By Opal Dockery

1001 RAMBLINGS OF AN OLD WORN-OUT STRIPPER is a unique, interesting, funny, serious, informative, shocking, eye-opening and entertaining compilation of short stories, poems, quotes and thoughts of Opal Dockery's “one of a kind” life over a forty four year period.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Oct 27, 2014
• ISBN: 9781312632325

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1001 Ramblings of an Old Worn-Out Stripper

1001 Ramblings Of An Old Worn-Out Stripper

1001 RAMBLINGS OF AN OLD WORN-OUT STRIPPER

I am thankful for the things I take for granted

BY

OPAL DOCKERY

1001 Ramblings of an Old Worn-Out Stripper

By Opal Dockery

Copyright @ 2014 by Dixie Publishing

Ebook Edition 2014

Dixie Publishing Company

P.O. Box 364

Lamar, Missouri 64759

ISBN:  978-1-312-63232-5

Printed in the United States of America

All Rights Reserved

THE CORE OF EXISTENCE

We must get to the Core of Existence which is the very essence of life.  It is imperative that we seek out the Meat of Life, take a big bite out of it, digest it to benefit our life, and then eliminate it to the rest of humanity as a Spiritual gift to share.

INTENTION

It is my intention for this book to reflect the goodness of heart written by a person seeking goodness and fulfillment within herself while searching for the meaning of life. What is the meaning of life?

DEDICATION

I dedicate this book to my thoughts, feelings, and memories.  Such is expressed in the form of short stories, phrases, and poems from my past, present, and future.

A SPECIAL NOTE TO MY SON, JACK TRUMAN

I want to thank you for all the support I have received from you forever.  Thank you for your encouragement.  Thank you for standing by me when others have let me down.  Thank you for the many times you changed my smile from a frown.  Thank you for letting me be the symbol of your Dad.  Your are my Inspiration.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

1. EVOLVING FROM IGNORANCE

2. THE OBLIGATION OF HUMANITY

3. WHERE IS THE DESCRIPTION?

4. THOUGHTS

5. THE DIFFERENCE

6. THE SILENT ONES

7. MY GREATEST GIFT

8. SEARCHING FOR MY MIND

9. NEVER-ENDING IDEAS

10. UNSETTLING DESIRE

11. ECSTASY OF SELF-REALIZATION

12. SEEING REALITY

13. UTILIZATION OF ONE'S BODY TO GAIN EXPERIENCES

14. DO OUR BEST

15. A CRIME AGAINST MYSELF

16. A PLEA TO THE HUMAN RACE FROM THE ANIMALS

17. TRYING TO BE A GOOD EXAMPLE

18. NOT BEING SWAYED

19. POSITIVE WINNING OVER NEGATIVE

20. DIFFERENT ROADS TO FINDING YOUR SPIRIT

21. FEARING THE UNKNOWN

22. THE FLOW OF GENIUS

23. WHAT IS FEELING?

24. CLEAR SOUL

25. RADIATION OF ENERGY

26. BENEFITING THE WORLD WITH MY TALENTS

27. LOST TALENTS

28. GOODNESS BY EXAMPLE

29. BEST DECISION I EVER MADE TO BECOME A STRIPPER

30. AVOID STAGNATION

31. MERCY CRY

32. A PERFECTIONIST IS NOT PERFECT

33. EXPLORING THE CORRIDORS OF ONE'S MIND

34. GOALS

35. MY CONTRIBUTION TO THE WORLD

36. CHILDREN ARE MOST IMPORTANT – (SOMETIME IN THE 1970's)

37. MY LUCKY DAY

38. SMOOTH LIFE

39. ASHAMED OF THE NUT I MARRIED

40. KEEPING PROMISES

41. PAST YEARS

42. I REMEMBER AUNT VIRGINIA

43. HUMANITY AS A FAMILY

44. REVELATION

45. THE UNIVERSAL LANGUAGE

46. NEW AWAKENINGS

47. SHOWING THE GLOW

48. VISION OF BECOMING A STRIPPER

49. KEEPING ONE'S SPIRIT FREE

50. WASTED TIMES

51. THE THREE STOOGES IN BED

52. JUST A GLIMPSE

53. EMPATHY

54. IT IS WRONG TO KILL ANIMALS?

55. LET THE PIECES FALL - (MAY 27, 1978)

56. FLOWING WORDS

57. COVERINGS

58. WORKING THREE JOBS WITH NO CAR

59. IGNORING OTHERS' FEELINGS

60. MOVE AHEAD

61. BEING A FREE SPIRIT - (1978)

62. POSSIBLITY OF SELF-DISCIPLINE

63. BENEFICIAL POTENTIAL

64. MONETARY VALUE UNSURPASSED

65. BEING FORTUNATE

66. DEPLETED THOUGHTS?

67. BANNED FROM THE ESTELL HOTEL

68. STRENGTH

69. DESTINATIONS UNKNOWN

70. ATTAINING EXCELLENCE

71. WANTING TO CONTRIBUTE

72. A NATURAL FLOW

73. CATTLE AND HUMANS

74. CHURCHES AND MY KIDS

75. EXAMINE YOUR MIND

76. DECEIVING EYES

77. GETTING A JOB AS A BARTENDER AND FIRST TIME ON STAGE

78. SAVE OTHERS

79. BRINGING SERENITY

80. THE BEST AND THE WORST

81. RINGING THOUHTS

82. SURVIVING ON TORTURE AND PAIN

83. REBELLION IN MY CHILDHOOD

84. MEETING ONE'S DEMISE

85. GOOD AND EVIL

86. GO-GO  JOINTS AND STRIP CLUBS ON TWELFTH STREET

87. THE NECESSARY

88. RISING FROM STAGNATION TO RISE UP PEOPLE

89. A GIFT OF WORDS

90. EMEGING WORDS AND THOUGHTS

91. CONFUSION AND CLARITY

92. THE OUTCRY

93. WHAT DO THE EYES TELL?

94. PEOPLE CUSSING AROUND MY KIDS

95. LIFE'S LESSONS

96. ENDLESS DESTINATION

97. KANSAS  CITY KITTY SHOWING ME THE ROPES

98. WAKE – UP!!!

99. PROMOTING PROGRESS

100. DISCRIMINATION AGAINST BARE-BREASTED WOMEN

101. ON GUARD FOR ENEMIES

102. PLACING  BLAME

103. THE CAPABILITY TO HELP HUMANITY

104. WASTING TIME

105. ANGRINESS = NEGATIVITY

106. STARTING TO DANCE AT THE PARK PLAZA

107. WALLS

108. THANKFUL

109. THE AUTHOR'S OLD FAITHFUL FRIEND

110. MY OBLIGATION

111. UNDESIRABLE CAKES OF LIFE

112. UTILIZING MY ABILITIES

113. EXAMINE MY LIFE

114. "HELLO!'

115. SEEKING SELF-DISCIPLINE

116. THE VICE SQUAD BUSTING ME IN KANSAS CITY

117. A CRUMB

118. WANTING ONLY GOOD

119. AND I NAMED IT GOD

120. PEOPLE

121. A POSITIVE DIFFERENCE

122. THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

123. FINDING PEACE

124. ORCHESTRATION OF LIFE

125. JOYFUL NOISE

126. MEETING JOHN ORY AT THE FOLLIES

127. JOB DISSATISFACTION

128. TOLERATION

129. PERSONAL AND WORLDLY

130. OBLIGATION FULL-FILLED

131. ELEMENT OF DECISION

132. RISING ABOVE THE STAGNATION BY REMEMBERING EVOLUTION

133. NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

134. OVERDOING

135. HEART AND PAIN

136. SEXUAL HARASSMENT IN THE BURLESQUE BUSINESS

137. EXCITING AND INVITING

138, DIFFERENT FEELINGS ON HOLIDAYS

139. A DEDICATION TO AUNT MARGARET

140. MY PATIENT WORDS

141. ACTIONS AND WORDS

142. MY IMAGINARY FRIEND

143. LONELY PEOPLE

144. PRAYING

145. NOT TALKING AT THE BURLESQUE THEATERS

146. BEING NORMAL

147. ADHERENCE

148. CHILDHOOD REMEMBRANCES WITH SIBLINGS

149. BEING OLD

150. SHINING

151. RESPECT ME

152. KEEP  YOUR EYE ON SELF-SATISFACTION

153. HUMAN MEAT?

154. RIGHT OR WRONG?

155. AL BAKER'S BURLESQUE THEATER CIRCUIT

156. SEEKING

157. BRAIN POWER

158. THE HURT RUNS DEEP

159. KEEP TRYING

160. FLOATING DREAMS

161. THE IMPORTANTCE OF THOUGHT

162. BEING HUMAN

163. EXCEEDING THE LIMITS

164. BAD WEEK IN DETROIT

165. A LIGHT

166. LOWEST DEGREE

167. BARNEY EAGON

168. HISTORY

169. DIFFERENT FROM THE NORM

170. FREEDOM FOR EVERYONE

171. POSSESSED BY RESTLESSNESS

172. WRITINGS SEARCHING FOR MEANING

173. THE PURPOSE OF EXPERIENCE

174. AL BAKER'S MOTHER AND THE IRISH SWEEPSTAKES

175. GIVING OPINIONS

176. THE DOCKERY CLAN

177. A DOCKERY FAMILY REMEMBRANCE

178. THE GUIDING GLEAM

179. ACCOMPLISHMENTS - LITTLE BY LITTLE

180. IS THERE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MEN AND WOMEN – SEXUALLY?

181. WAITING

182. APPEARANCE OF THOUGHTS

183. PAYING FOR THE PRIVILEGE OF LIVING

184. THE ABILITY TO RISE ABOVE THE STAGNATION

185. USELESS THOUGHTS

186. A STOCK GIRL

187. DOING IT

188. NECESSARY GOALS

189. LOST STORIES

190. QUIETNESS AND WRITING

191. PAINLESS FOOD

192. THE BEST WAY FOR ME TO MAKE A POSITIVE DIFFERENCE

193. NO OBLIGATION TO PARENTS

194. FEARING THE TRUTH

195. SEEKING ENLIGHTENMENT

196. THE STRIPPER WHO ACCUSED ME

197. FULFILLMENT

198. MIND WILL SHINE

199. I WANTED TO BE A BOY

200. UNNECESSARY TO RUN

201. PAST REGRETS

202. OBLIGATION TO ONE'S BODY

203. SELF-ROBBERY

204. GOODNESS

205. DEALS ON ROOMS FOR THE STRIPPERS

206. CARS AND SMILES

207. OUR PERSONALITY

208. ATTAINING SELF DISCIPLINE - (MAY 24, 1978)

209. MINUTES

210. RATIFICATION

211. THE DAY OF TRUTH

212. ONE'S PASSION

213. BEING THANKFUL

214. EXPRESSION

215. BRADLEY APOLOGIZING TO KIDS

216. REASONS FOR SEASONS

217. AMOUNT VERSUS QUALITY

218. MY KIDS IN MY MIND

219. INCONSIDERATION

220. PETS AND MEAT

221. ENDURE AND BE SURE

222. DEVELOPMENT OF COMPASSION - SOMEWHERE ON THE ROAD

223. DEFEATS

224. TIME FOR RESPONSIBILITIES

225. KIDS IN DRESSING ROOMS

226. TAKE A STAND FOR GOODNESS

227. HAPPINESS

228. THE GOOD TIMES OUTWEIGH THE BAD

229. LESS STRESS?

230. LONGING FOR ENLIGHTENMENT

231. LEGALLY FREE

232. SPIRIT'S SURVIVAL

233. RICHNESS OF SOUL

234. KIDS UPSTAIRS AT THE STRIP CLUB

235. NONESSENTIAL WORDS

236. THE PLIGHT OF ANIMALS

237. ADULT CHILDREN

238. BEAUTY AND UGLINESS

239. TOMORROW

240. THRESHOLD OF PAIN

241. THE SKY

242. PROGRESSION

243. LAROCK - DADDY! DADDY! PLEASE COME HOME!

244. YEARS GONE BY

245. BLACK SHEEP, DO NOT WEEP

246. SOUL TIME

247. CONTROVERSY – ARE PEOPLE GOOD OR BAD?

248. THE BODY IS A VEHICLE

249. CHIMING

250. SEEKING SOLICE

251. THE PERVERT PROPOSITIONG ME IN THE PRESENCE OF MY KIDS

252. MY OPINION OF CHILD MOLESTERS

253. A POEM ABOUT MY KIDS

254. GLANCING

255. CONTAINED MIGHT

256. JACK'S LITTLE FRIEND

257. TIME FOR LIGHT?

258. STARTING THE DAY

259. WRITING AND SMILING

260. THOUGHTS DIRECTING EMOTIONS

261. SHARING OURSELVES

262. DATES HAD TO TAKE MY KIDS, TOO

263. DEAD IDEAS

264. THE PRICE

265. TOO MUCH PAIN IN THE WORLD

266. KIDS AT KENTUCKY DERBY

267. BELIEVING AND SEEING

268. FINDING SELF-IDENTITY

269. STAR, THE JAILBIRD

270. SEARCHING FOR SANITY

271. NECESSARY WORDS

272. WHAT IS IMPORTANT?

273. DESIGNATION OF PLACE

274. A TRUE FRIEND

275. TO MY CHILDREN

276. REALIZATION

277. THE MOMENT

278. THE COP WITH THE TOOTHACHE

279. WILLPOWER

280. OPINIONS

281. USELESS WORRY

282. SWEET VALUES OF LIFE

283. STARTING THE SOUL

284. ARE WE REALLY A CIVILIZED SOCIETY?

285. THOUGHTS – POSSESSIONS OF THE MIND

286. ENDURANCE OR ENJOYMENT?

287. STAND AGAINST STAGNATION

288. DETECTIVES TRYING TO TAKE ME TO BED

289. YOUR WAY

290. BREAK AWAY

291. FLYING

292. LINES

293. SEARCHING FOR IMPORTANCE

294. MY NEED TO HELP THE WORLD

295. NO BLAME

296. SOUL DENIAL

297. TEACHING MY SON TO PLAY POOL

298. THANKFUL WORDS

299. PURE DELIGHT

300. A WINNER TWO WAYS

301. SUCCESSFUL TIMES

302. REMEMBERING THE FRESHNESS

303. EQUAL AS FRIENDS

304. ROUTINE AND STRUCTURE

305. DO ONE GOOD THING

306. SEARCHING FOR DEPTH

307. FOOD FOR DESK CLERK

308. HEADLIGHTS OF ONE'S SOUL

309. FREE SPIRIT

310. PROUD TO BE ME – (MAY 25, 1978)

311. PLEASURE

312. DO NOT RUSH PERFECTION

313. SINGLE WOMEN IN BARS

314. SELF-WORTH

315. USE OF TIME

316. MEETING LORI AT THE PINK PUSSY CAT

317. NOT KNOWING MUCH

318. ENLIGHTENMENT AND EXCITEMENT

319. SEX IS THE BASIS OF EVERYTHING

320. INCIDENTS

321. FEAR

322. ALLOW ANIMALS TO GET BY

323. ENTERING THE CENTER OF ENLIGHTENMENT

324. TIME TO FIND

325. BOREDOM

326. DANNY AND THE SCABS

327. UNIQUENESS

328. THANKFUL DAY

329. A CHAIR

330. MY INSPIRATION

331. CLEAR FEELINGS

332. CHANGES FROM NEGATIVITY TO POSITIVE

333. TODAY INSTEAD OF TOMORROW

334. IMPROVEMENT

335. DOING MY HEADSTAND AT THE BAR

336. OUR EXISTENCE

337. TYPES OF NEIGHBORS

338. THE POOR IN SPIRIT

339. CLAIMING SELF-EXPRESSION

340. MAKING A FUSS

341. PEACEFUL MEETINGS WITH MURDER ON THEIR PLATES

342. ON YOUR OWN AT EIGHTEEN

343. THE SPREAD OF STAGNATION

344. TRUE SACRIFICE

345. AL BAKER TOLD ME I COULD NOT WORK ANOTHER THEATER

346. EXPENDITURE OF LIFE

347. HELP ALL AND DO NOT FALL

348. EXAMINE MY LIFE

349. IT IS DELIGHTFUL!

350. MARVELOUS GIFT

351. TRUTH

352. DIRECTION OF FUTURE

353. SITTIN' ON FEELINGS

354. LORI AND I GAVE NOTICE TO LEAVE AL BAKER

355. LIFE, HAPPINESS, AND PEACE

356. SURROUNDED BY PAIN

357. HOPES FOR MY CHILDREN

358. LIFE COMPARABLE TO A RUG

359. LACK OF DISCIPLINE

360. THE CENTER OF EVIL

361. WRITTEN BY ME - KNOWING NOTHING ABOUT LOVE RELATIONSHIPS

362. DESIRE TO DO BETTER

363. THE GIFT OF LIFE

364. MAINTAINING A FREE SPIRIT - (MAY 26, 1978)

365. TIME USE

366. DESTINATION

367. GETTING THINGS EVEN

368. REALIZATION OF IMPERFECTION

369. SHARE

370. SOMETIMES BAD BREAKS IN LIFE ARE GOOD

371. PREVAIL

372. THINKING UP STORIES

373. BRANCHING OUT FROM AL BAKER'S CIRCUIT

374. HEIGHTS OF STUPIDITY

375. EXPLORATION OF THE CREVICES OF MY MIND

376. MY PARENTS HAVE NEVER LOVED ME

377. LACK OF DESIRE TO IMPRESS

378. THE EXTENT OF HELPING

379. THE HYPOCRISY OF SOME ANIMAL RIGHTS PEOPLE

380. FREE IS BEST

381. PROJECTION OF SELF

382. IMPROVING

383. ME SAYING I WOULD NEVER TAKE OFF ALL OF MY CLOTHES

384. NEW ADVENTURES

385. NEGATIVITY

386. CONTENTMENT

387. EXERCISE COMPASSION

388. MY DESTINY

389. COMMITMENTS

390. GYPSY BLOOD

391. GRASP TOMORROW

392. THE SHELF OF LIFE

393. ACCUSED OF SEX WITH KIDS

394. WHO IS THE DIRECTOR?

395. SELF-DISCIPLINE PERFECTED

396. THE RIGHT WAY

397. PROJECTION

398. JUST WRITE

399. THE NEED FOR SOCIETY TO FEEL GUILTY

400. EXTEND YOUR CARE

401. FIGHT AGAINST STAGNATION

402. COMFORT

403. LORI AND ME HIDING OUR PAY IN OUR SUITCASES

404. LIVING WITH HAPPINESS

405. DISCOVERING CONCENTRATION

406. FUNERAL FOR DOLL

407. USELESS EMOTION

408. TROUBLES AND PLEASURES

409. FACING REALITY AND TRUTH

410. THOUGHTS AND THINKING

411. SELF-WORTH

412. HUSTLING THE YOUNG MAN AND THE OLD MAN

413. TRAIL OF DREAMS

414. ADVANCEMENT

415. RADIATION OF LIGHT

416. CRYING

417. DEAL WITH A CLEAR MND

418. ANIMALS – OUR FRIENDS

419. SUPREME GUIDANCE – (MAY 24, 1978)

420. THE WAY OF THE WIND

421. NEED AND SEED

422. THE DRUNKEN JACK-OFF

423. FINDING REALITY

424. SOOTHING MY BRAIN

425. THE DANGEROUS AGE OF SIXTY SIX

426. MONEY = SURVIVAL

427. HATE

428. THANKS TO MY TEACHERS

429. THE WORLD OF ALCOHOL AND DRUGS

430. REST

431. MY COMMISSION AT THE TWO O'CLOCK CLUB

432. FUEL FOR LIFE

433. COUNT OUR BLESSINGS

434. LEAVING MY MARK

435. COMPLETE COMPASSION

436. SIN OR DESIRE?

437. TAKING A STAND FOR ANIMALS

438. FIGHT AGAINST NORMALCY

439. MEMORIES

440. ENCAPTURED

441. LORI WAS THE BEST HUSTLER FOR DRINKS

442. GLOWING SOULS

443. BUILD ON POSITIVE ACTIONS

444. ENDLESS CHEER

445. RELEASE NEGATIVITY

446. BEING FREE

447. FEELING HIGHER LEVELS OF CONSCIOUSNESS

448. FIGHT AGAINST OBSESSION

449. NEGLECTING TO RESPECT

450. GETTING IN TROUBLE WITH A PIMP

451. HIDDEN IN MY MIND

452. TIME TO PLAY

453. MY BROTHERAND ME

454. ONE'S MIND

455. NO HURRY FOR RESULTS

456. ELEVATION TO A HIGHER LEVEL

457. FEELINGS OF LONELINESS

458. FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS

459. HELPING THOUGHTS

460. THE PROSTITUTES AND THEIR CORNERS

461. TO DO MY BEST

462. TO LOVE ONE SPECIAL PERSON

463. BEFORE I COULD WRITE

464. POSITIVE ACTION DISPLAYED

465. SOUL REFRESHED

466. IGNORANCE DISPLAYED THROUGH B-B GUN FIGHTS

467. BODY AND SPIRIT

468. FLUSHING YOUR DREAMS

469. TELLING THE DRIVER TO GO FUCK HIS MOTHER

470. TRANSFERENCE

471. A QUESTION REGARDING EXISTENCE

472. RESPONSIBILITY TO MY INNER-SELF

473. BEING KIND

474. SATURATION IN THE POSITIVE

475. RESPECT -  MEANING OF LIFE

476. WHAT WE LEAVE BEHIND

477. FORTUNE TELLERS

478. STAYING FIT

479. MEN CALLING GIRLS LESBIANS

480. THE BEST

481. SURVIVING

482. SHE'S THE PRETTY ONE

483. A SMALL FRACTION

484. CARE FOR EMERGENCE

485. GOOD HEALTH OR FINANCIAL STABILITY?

486. SEARCHING

487. PRAYING AND ENERGY

488. PERIOD ON STAGE

489. STRONG STRENGTH

490. FATE

491. KIDS FIGHTING

492. GLOWING GOODNESS

493. PERSONAL FEELINGS

494. AN ANIMAL'S EYES

495. JACK'S DECLAMATION

496. BEING RUSHED

497. LIFE OR DEPTHS?

498. DANGEROUS CHANCES TAKEN

499. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SON – (AUGUST 14, 2011 - SUNDAY)

500. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

501. MY OBLIGATION TO MANKIND

502. THE DEPTH OF YOUR SOUL

503. ATTAIN SELF-IMPROVEMENT

504. EMOTIONAL PAIN

505. GIVING UP MY KIDS TO A REGULAR FAMILY

506. BURNING EMOTIONS

507. NO RACE

508. GLAD NO ONE CALLED THE LAW ON ME

509. DEPICTION

510. HAVING FUN

511. ABUNDANT IGNORANCE

512. PAY ATTENTION

513. SLAVE TO YOUR BELLY

514. DOUBT

515. OTHERS FINDING THEMSELVES

516. NEED TO KNOW

517. FASTING AND THE DANCER TELLING ME IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL THING

518. SECURE HAPPINESS

519. THANKFUL FOR THE MOMENT

520. WINDOWS - THE TRAPPED SOUL

521. CHEER

522. A POSITIVE DIRECTION

523. WHY DO I CRY?

524. NEW AND OLD DAYS

525. FILLING THE PAGE OF MY LIFE

526. JACK-OFFS TAKING US GIRLS OUT TO EAT

527. GOOD OR BAD

528. BEING A FARCE

529. ONE MUST RISE ABOVE THE ATROCITIES INFLICTED UPON HIM

530. SHOWING RESPECT

531. HARD TIMES WITH FAITH

532. FEELINGS, THOUGHTS, AND THE BODY

533. GOOD OR BAD?

534. ENJOY LIFE

535. THINKING OF THOUGHTS

536. GUY TOLD STRIPPER, NO STEAKS IF NO BED!

537. HAPPY FOR LIFE

538. BE NICE

539. SMALL THINGS ARE IMPORTANT

540. PERSONAL SOUL

541. THE TOOL OF GOODNESS

542. DESIRE TO DO GOOD

543. EMPTINESS OF MY SOUL

544. STAY CURRENT

545. STRIPPER FELL ASLEEP WHILE HAVING SEX

546. SHINING TIME

547. ONE'S OBLIGATION

548. CONCENTRATE ON THE PRESENT

549. SEARCHING FOR HUMAN COMPASSION

550. ANXIOUSNESS

551. A GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT IN MY LIFE

552. TRUST IN MY SON

553. FORCED TO RUN

554. HUMAN SIDE

555. WADE JOHNSON, THE BANKER, GAVE ME A LOAN

556. RELIEF FROM STRESS

557. RIGHT NIGHT

558. THE ROPES OF LIFE

559. WEAKNESSES

560. LEGAL PROSTITUES

561. PEOPLE ONLY WANT WHAT THEY CAN GET OUT OF YOU

562. UNIVERSAL HUMAN DEFECT

563. PURSUE

564. FUN THINGS SHOULD COME FIRST

565. WASTED EMOTION

566. SAMPLE OF EFFORTS

567. ME NOT KNOWING WHICH WAY TO GO

568. REACH FORWARD

569. REACHING SELF-ACTUALIZATION

570. RESPECTING DIFFERENT CULTURES

571. LESSONS FROM MY PARENTS AND BARNEY

572. COMPOSITION

573. DISGUISED GOALS

574. SCHOOLS, STREET SMARTS, AND LIVING WITH MY MOTHER

575. BEING DIFFERENT

576. FEAR OF TEARS

577. MY DEFINITION OF IGNORANCE

578. BLANK SHEET

579. WORTH IT?

580. MAINTAINING SELF-CONTROL

581. TIME INFINITY

582. FINDING CALM

583. CROSSING OVER THE LINE

584. LIFE'S SCORE

585. HOLD TIGHT AND FIGHT

586. MY LIFE - LONG FRIEND

587. ENOUGH!

588. BEING USEFUL

589. MY DESIRE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE

590. READING STEINBECK

591. NO SLAVERY

592. POURING THOUGHTS

593. MY DAD TELLING ME I AM THE SCUM OF THE EARTH

594. ORGANIZE

595. MEAN PEOPLE AND HAPPINESS

596. PATTERNS

597. AIR AND LIFE

598. PEN AND PENCIL - MY FRIENDS

599. AUNT LILY - (JULY 2, 1993)

600. EMERGING STRONGER

601. IF I STAY

602. BLACK STRIPPER AT THE FRUIT AND VEGETABLE STORE

603. LASTING ACTIONS

604. BREATHING AND SEEING

605. CURE THAT CONDITION

606. SUBTRACTIONS FROM THOUGHT

607. TRUE INTENTIONS

608. COMPARISON OF ANIMALS AND HUMANS

609. REINCARNATION OF ME?

610. TIRING FROM EXPRESSION

611. SOLACE AND REGRETS

612 MON CHERIE AND CHICKEN SOUP – SOMEWHERE ON THE ROAD

613. BELIEVING IN BEAUTY

614. RELAXED MIND

615. BE YOURSELF

616. MEDIOCRITY

617. A COMMON DESIRE

618. FEELINGS AND POSITIVE ACTION

619. ENLIGHTENMENT AND DIRECTION

620. FUTURE AND SAND

621. LORI RAN OFF WITH VINCE – AND GARBAGE

622. TEARS AND FEARS

623. RESPONSIBILITY

624. ATTEMPTS AT UNDERSTANDING - (MAY 23, 1978)

625. CHANCE MEETINGS

626. SOUL COMPOSITION

627. MINDS, HEARTS, AND SOULS

628. TIME

629. REMOVAL FROM NEGATIVITY

630. BE AT PEACE

631. GEORGE FEEDING CHICO

632. DOING DILIGENCE

633. ELIMINATE STAGNATION

634. MY MIND WAS A BLANK

635. WHERE IS THE FEELING?

636. THE THUMB

637. PURSUING ONE'S GOAL

638. WILL MY WORDS BE HEARD?

639. CRUEL WORLD?

640. FIGHTING OVER PETE

641. YOUR HOUSE

642. SPIRIT AND SKY

643. PEOPLE EATING GARBAGE

644. TRY, BUT DO NOT CRY

645. ULTIMATE ACCOMPLISHMENT

646. SHOWING LOVE

647. OLD WOMEN ON STAGE

648. WRITER'S BLOCK

649. THANKFUL FOR LIFE

650. PLAYING THE MICKEY MOUSE SONG FOR THE STAR

651. WE

652. FACING RESPONSIBILITIES

653. DEDICATED TO THE FRIENDSHIP OF ARLENE AND OPAL

654. ACCEPTING FATE

655. SUNNY DAYS

656. HUNGER

657. AMBITION

658. DO NOT FEAR

659. LESBIAN ATTACKING ME

660. STARS IN MY HEART

661. EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS

662. THE VALUE OF BEING POSITIVE

663. THANKFUL WORDS

664. PLEASURE AND MEASURE

665. ANIMAL – CHILD

666. BEING MISLED BY IGNORANT PEOPLE IN MY YOUNG LIFE

667. REVEALING MY GENIUS

668. SCORING POINTS

669. STAGE NAMES

670. ABSENT MIND

671. EMBRACEMENT

672. WHO IS THE POSSESSOR?

673. WHY ARE WE HERE?

674. WIDE SPAN OF THE MIND

675. MY IDEAS

676. STRAYING FROM TWO OLD FRIENDS

677. FINDING PEACE

678. GOOD REPUTATION I BUILT UP AS A STRIPPER

679. DOING OUR BEST

680. THE PRICE OF DEDICATION

681. DOUBTS ABOUT ANIMAL RIGHTS ACTIVISTS

682. ONE AND ALL

683. SELFISHNESS CAUSES PAIN

684. CELEBRATION

685. STABLE SPIRIT

686. HOPE WITH A BABY

687. FINDING YOUR TRUE SELF

688. BUSTED IN PHILADELPHIA

689. IMAGINATION

690. YOUR REAL SELF

691. DECISION TO LEAVE SPRINT

692. THE EXTRA MILE

693. FIGHT AGAINST LAZINESS

694. TWO SETS OF PRINCIPLES

695. CAPTURED THOUGHTS

696. CLEARNESS

697. POLICE WILL BUST YOU FOR ANYTHING THEY DECIDE

698. TOO MANY

699. DOING THE IMPOSSIBLE

700. DEFECT OF MY MINE

701. PEACE OF MIND

702. REFLECTIONS FOR A LIFETIME

703. HELPING

704. UNDESCRIBABLE EMOTION

705. MY HIDDEN BODY

706. RESTRAINT

707. UNLIMITED PROPORTIONS

708. JEALOUSY

709. SAFE SOUL

710. SHINING SOULS

711. GIVING SOMETHING BACK

712. WHAT HAPPENED?

713. THINGS AND THOUGHTS

714. JOY

715. MOON ERASED

716. THE TALLY

717. LORI AND ME FIGHTING OVER BUSTER

718. STURDY CHARACTER

719. CONTROLLING AND KNOWING

720. ENDLESS LOVE

721. MENDING THE HURTS

722. SHOW THE GOOD SIDE

723. ABUSIVE SIN

724. SPIRITUAL VERSUS MATERIALISTIC

725. BATTLE FOR LIFE

726. BONDS OF IGNORANCE

727. LORI ASKING WAITRESS IF SHE WANTS TO SEE HER SORES

728. DIRECT YOUR SENSES

729. DRIFT OF THINGS TO COME

730. WEIGHTS OF IGNORANCE

731. MY UNIQUE DIFFERENCE

732. FINE WORDS

733. JOINING THE FIGHT

734. MODIFICATION

735. MIND CLARITY

736. JACK-OFFS BACKSTAGE

737. IN A BLINK

738. TRUTHFUL SEEING

739. LIVING WITHOUT MODERN PLUMBING

740. THEY WILL PULL YOU DOWN

741. SPIRIT AND GOOD TIMES

742. SHOW EMOTIONS

743. FREEDOM FOR REALITY

744. BEING OVEREXTENDED

745. LINKING AND THINKING

746. HE SAID, I WANT TO EAT YOUR PUSSY!

747. MASKING THOUGHTS

748. SOURCE OF MY THOUGHTS

749. DRIVING OLD CARS ACROSS COUNTRY

750. BEST TO REST?

751. LED AND FED

752. SPIRIT, BODY, SOUL - WHICH IS IN CONTROL?

753. MORE EFFORT

754. SOUL JUSTICE

755. TIJUANA SHOWING HER MONKEY

756. BELLS OF MY SOUL

757. POSSIBILITIES

758. DO KIDS REALLY NEED TO CLEAN-UP THEIR PLATES?

759. FINDING TRUTH

760. SHARING THOUGHTS

761. RECHARGE THROUGH SOLITUDE

762. SHAME

763. THE HURT NEVER STOPS

764. SMILING

765. LIGHT IS BETTER

766. STREAKING A FORMAL AFFAIR

767. LOVE FITS

768. A PEN PLEASE?

769. HURRY TO WORRY

770. ORDINARY THINGS

771. BE GOOD

772. SOLITUDE WITHIN ONE'S SELF

773. PASSION TO WRITE

774. NO FLATTER NEEDED

775. CARS FOLLOWING ME

776. RELIEF

777. SACRIFICING

778. USING PEOPLE

779. NO PLAN

780. YOUNG SPIRIT

781. A WORLD OF SUFFERING

782. STRICT AND SPOILED

783. SERVING AND DIRECTING

784. FINANCIAL RESPECT

785. PARKING LOTS IN KANSAS CITY

786. NEW THINGS

787. GATE OF SUCCESS

788. CAT HOUSE

789. FOLLOWING THROUGH

790. HOLDING ON TO MEMORIES

791. THE FIRST OBLIGATION

792. SEEING TRUTH

793. PRINCIPLES AND CHARACTER

794. PEEING IN A CUP

795. PREVENTION

796. RELEASING MY MIND

797. TRAFFIC LAWS IN KANSAS CITY

798. HATRED, STAGNATION, AND THE FUTURE

799. POSSESSION OF FREEDOM

800. SON LOOKING LIKE A DRUNKEN SAILOR

801. GOOD THOUGHTS COMING TRUE

802. DESIRE TO TRAVEL

803. SENDING THOUGHTS

804. ACCOMPLISHMENTS

805. BEND OVER IN CHICAGO

806. REMNANTS

807. AVOIDING STRESS

808. HIGHER POWER AND MY DRINKING

809. STRONGER FOUNDATION

810. LONGING

811. EMBARRASSMENT ABOUT MEN

812. SELF-ASSUREDNESS

813. FINDING TIME

814. STEPPING STONES FOR IMPROVEMENT

815. CARING

816. UNTOLD STORIES

817. THE THRILL OF SHOCKING PEOPLE

818. EMBRACE AND SHARE

819. POSITIVE VIBRATIONS

820. A TOUCH

821. SEE THE LIGHT

822. TASTING THE FRUIT

823. ANIMALS – THE SAME AS ME

824. THE IMPORTANCE OF AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY

825. LONGING FOR FINALIZAION

826. PEELING SADNESS

827. GEORGE BELCHING AND OTHER BAD HABITS

828. CARING WORDS

829. THE TRACE OF YOUR SOUL

830. A DEDICATION TO AUNT VIRGINIA

831. DISCIPLINE YOUR MIND

832. GLORIOUS LIFE

833. ACCEPTANCE

834. POSITIVE VERSUS NEGATIVE

835. OUR POWER AND ENERGY

836. WALKING BY MYSELF ALONE AT NIGHT IN DETROIT

837. DIRECTION

838. GLAD AND MAD

839. DIMINISHED SPIRITUAL BEING

840. AGE

841. DREAMS, REALITY, AND SUCCESS

842. OPENING OF ARMS

843. THE DAY

844. STRIVING FOR BALANCE

845. HAVING MY PURSE STOLEN IN CHICAGO AND DETROIT

846. RELEASE TO BE FREE

847. FINDING THE VALUE

848. CHARITABILITY VERSUS GREED

849. CONCENTRATION AND MEDITATION

850. JOINING INFINITY

851. THE BARE ESSENTIALS

852. TODAY IS IMPORTANT

853. BEING A PART OF SPECTATOR VIOLENCE

854. FINDING YOUR SPARK

855. EXPRESS AND IMPRESS

856. ALL BY MYSELF

857. DOING RIGHT

858. CHASING MY SPIRIT

859. DEFEATING THE TEMPLE

860. SMELLS AT TRUCKSTOPS

861. DISTRACTIONS

862. CHANNEL OF THOUGHTS

863. HOTEL FOR WHORES

864. PAST DAYS

865. CONSTANT GOOD FEELINGS

866. A SEAMSTRESS AND LIFE

867. INDIVIDUALITY

868. TAKE TIME FOR PEACE OF MIND

869. HAPPY TO BE FREE

870. WE ARE NOT SO SMART

871. THE PIMP AND THE REVEREND

872. NATURAL OCCURRENCES

873. PAST NEGATIVITY

874. AESTHETIC FEELINGS SURPASSED

875. RADIATING LOVE

876. HAPPY VERSUS SAD

877. BEING SICK AND WELL

878. SELF-DISCOVERY VERSUS RICHES

879. REQUESTED SOUND

880. SELLING MY PANTIES

881. GREED

882. DISPLAY OF KNOWLEDGE

883. BUDDHISM SOUNDS GOOD

884. FREE FEELINGS

885. GUT FEELINGS

886. LIVE LIFE

887. SEEKING DIRECTION

888. LIVE SEX ON STAGE

889. NEW CHALLENGES

890. WHYS AND WHY NOTS

891. LITTLE TOWN WITH A FROWN

892. SOUNDS IN TOWN

893. USELESS BODIES – USELESS THOUGHTS

894. BEING VEGAN = HAPPINESS

895. I DID NOT WANT TO WEAR CLOTHES

896. HIDDEN AND FORBIDDEN

897. HOUSE FOR SALE

898. MANY HEARTS

899. RESPECT FOR MONEY

900. TROUBLE

901. UNEXPLAINED INCIDENTS THAT I WONDER ABOUT

902. TOLERATE DISTRACTIONS

903. SHORTCOMINGS

904. I LOOKED COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ON THE STAGE

905. PILLAR

906. UTILIZING THOUGHTS

907. RESEARCH OF LIFE

908. SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE

909. DESIRE OF POSITIVE ACTION

910. MEMORIES OF YOUTH

911. MY BRAIN'S BIRTHRIGHT

912. SHOWING FEELINGS

913. MANAGER THOUGHT I WAS TOO UGLY TO STRIP

914. TODAY AND TOMORROW

915. MY FAMILY'S NEGATIVE ATTITUDES

916. TIME WELL SPENT

917. LOST WORDS AND THOUGHTS

918. MEAT SIGNS

919. ABE AND MY BIRTHDAY

920. MY DUTY TO THE WORLD

921. GIVING RESPECT

922. UTILIZING POTENTIALS

923. OUR SHELLS – OUR BODIES

924. REMOVE DOUBT

925. RESPONSIBILITIES

926. SHORT LITTLE FAT GUY WANTING TO MAKE HER CUM

927. LACK OF CONSIDERATION

928. TRUTH AND LIES

929. ORIGIN IN MY SOUL

930. HEARING SOUNDS

931. SOME PEACE OF MIND

932. DESIRE TO WRITE

933. HOLDING ON

934. STRIPPER GOT RAPED AT THE LAUNDROMAT

935. JUST BE

936. ILLUSION

937. BE AN EXAMPLE OF DESIRED POSITIIVE CHANGE

938. APPEARANCE OF WORDS

939. FREEDOM FROM OBSESSIONS

940. SCOPE OF PAIN

941. OFFERING HELP WITHOUT MONEY

942. UNDER THE COVER

943. RELEASING LOVE

944. GINGERBREAD MAN

945. DOUBTING MYSELF

946. SPIRIT LIGHT

947. FILLING AN EMPTY SOUL

948. THE FRUIT OF LIFE

949. KINDNESS

950. MY WORTH AS A WRITER

951. RETURNING BREATH

952. FOREVER HIDDEN

953. HARD TIMES RAISING MY KIDS – SLEEPING IN THE CAR

954. BE TRUE

955. SINKING TO INCOMPASSION

956. MY DEBT TO THE WORLD

957. SEEKING FOREVER

958. BUILDING GOOD THINGS

959. SONG OF SADNESS

960. THANKS TO GOD – MY SPIRIT

961. PAIN OR PLEASURE?

962. THE GOAL OF WORLD PEACE

963. CHURCH PEOPLE IN FRONT OF THE THEATER

964. GOOD AND BAD THINGS THAT REMAIN

965. LONGING FOR OLD TIMES

966. SEARCHING FOR COMMONALITY - (MAY 28, 1978)

967. LIFE'S JOURNEY

968. WINNERS AT DINNER

969. THE NON-IMPORTANCE OF MATERIAL THINGS

970. CERTAINTY

971. THE MESSENGER

972. DISCOVERY FROM ANIMALS

973. YOGA ON STAGE

974. A PHASE

975. THE PURSUIT

976. JUST A SLIVER OF SEMEN

977. TIME FOR REFLECTION

978. FINDING RICHNESS

979. WASTED TEARS

980. EXPECTATIONS

981. NEWFOUNDLAND

982. A YARD AND A HEART

983. PUSHING FORWARD

984. NATURAL WORDS

985. FORGIVENESS OF UNFULFILLED POTENTIAL

986. FEELINGS AND COURAGE

987. SURVIVING ON THE ROAD WITH NO MONEY

988. FREEDOM FOR ANIMALS

989. COMPASSION

990. CHURCH REFUSED KIDS

991. SEEING

992. CONFUSION OF LIFE?

993. WAS OUR BIRTH REALLY THAT SPECIAL?

994. NEAR TO PERFECTION

995. CONTRIBUTE SERVICE

996. THE DAYS OF STRIPPING WERE INSANE

997. CLIMBING HEIGHTS UNKNOWN

998. TRUE TO YOURSELF

999. BECOMING A STRIPPER LED ME TO BECOME VEGAN

1000. MY OBLIGATION AND ACCOMPLISHMENT

1001. DID I MISS ANYTHING?

A SPECIAL QUOTE

I looked inside my mind;

So I could find

Inspiration.

INTRODUCTION

The following 1001 short stories, poems, and deep personal thoughts provide an insight to the exciting and unique life I have led.  This includes, but is not limited to, just a slight glimpse of various incidents that have occurred in my life such as the, approximate, twenty two years of my being a stripper, my being a single parent, my children, my childhood, living in a big city after being raised in a small hick town, health issues, and animal rights.  Some of these incidents are serious while others are comical.  It is not a boring book, but is very interesting and unusual.  It should not be read by people who are easily offended as well as ones seeking enlightenment.  My hope is that you enjoy reading my book and gain positive feelings from it.

A SPECIAL QUOTE

Why weep? Why cry?

Just work – just try

As we jump with joy

And accept life as a toy.

1. EVOLVING FROM IGNORANCE

There are many instances which have occurred in my life that I feel would be helpful to other people if they knew of them.  Even though