Heart Felt Lyrics and Schizophrenia Choices
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In my lyrics I reflected on the renewing of relationships. My relationships were stormy due to the nature of the illness but decided to let my wife know I had schizophrenia beforehand the last time creating trust where I needed it allowing her to put up with my paranoia. I have suffered as Job and regained much that I lost and I hope to share my success with the world thru my books and song lyrics which has become therapy to me.
Doug Pargeter
The Devil must have known I would be a disturber of his kingdom because of all the opposition I received in my life from nearly dying twenty two times to being stricken with two kinds of schizophrenia of which I have triumphed over due to my faith. My family was discouraged from being part of my life but I kept my self busy in spite of my illness writing books singing and song writing. Going back to my childhood I almost drowned when I was a toddler, when I was eight year old I was almost smothered to death when my underground fort caved in around me and my father saved me. After that there were twenty attempts on my life and God was there to save me he had just each time. I could feel his loving presence many times and hear his voice saying he had just saved my life. Sometime adversity can weaken a spiritual person if they do not have their heart set on the things of God and sometimes he tests us to see if we will prove ourselves if we will do all things he asks of us. Knowing he wanted me to write my experiences soon adversity arose. I had to go thru divorces and being put in a nursing home falsely because the medication was toxic to me. I spent twenty years on a medication which didn’t stop my symptoms and was covered up in favor of the manufacturer and bonuses at the VA because it was widely utilized. This led to divorces due to my paranoia. What Joy I felt as I was given the right medication and also healed from the paranoia thru my faith in Christ. I was born in Seattle WA in 1949 and grew up there in the same home my parents lived in for all their married life unlike myself who moved a lot of times. I was gifted with my hands and learned to build at an early age, I could build a motor bike and a boat and trailer or a house by the time I was in high school because of my creativity. My creativity allowed me to design and build several houses. I developed my education into a Bachelors of Science equivalent and became a Design Engineer and manager for Northrop, Los Angeles CA. My song writing ability took off later in my life and started to develop my own song over 20 years and still want to publish some for the 120 of them to marketable CD’s. I included them in my books though while living in our spacious country home in La Vernia TX. After becoming disabled in 1993 I spent a lot of time attending group at the South Texas VA Health Center for treatment not and found a doctor that finally believed in me and got me the right medication which was aided by the Lord and a miracle no longer suffering from paranoia due to my blessing from the Lord. There was thought to be no cure for schizophrenia and I was so happy that I had paranoia no more. I also contact prostate cancer which the prostate was removed completely with a 30% chance that it would return again. But after the surgery when I was in great pain so much that the morphine wasn’t enough the Lord came to me and touched me and healed me I knew he was there because of his greater overwhelming feeling of love which I felt at the time. The results I have been cancer free with no chance of it returning for 7 years. I had never felt such pure love as strong as I did that day which took away my pain and brought me peace and comfort but it made me feel weak when he was gone. I lost my mother at 91 years old a few years later and he had led a good life a righteous life and went to meat her God and friend I will publish her family History and genealogy work and give it to my children to bring them close to me. I have filled three missions for my church and served in the priesthood for most of my life and later in my life as a High Priest in the Church of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints. I have baptized my five children, many friends into the church giving me much Joy and happiness. Somehow thru my poor example of anger while my children were living with me caused them to be victims estranged to me later in life. Some things you just can’t take back and undue even with great faith because you can’t take their agency from them to choose for themselves and I repent and I’m greatly sorry and hope my book will reach their hearts some day and they will return to me. My life is full now and the Lord is with me in my decisions as an Author of four books singer and song writer as well as my marriage and being a disabled veteran I also serve in the priesthood.
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Heart Felt Lyrics and Schizophrenia Choices - Doug Pargeter
Heart Felt Lyrics
And Schizophrenia Choices
Doug Pargeter
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Contents
Chapter—1
There’s a poison going on—1
There’s a red moon a risen—2
Start the juke box—3
I love you too—4
Love and fear—5
Your beautiful—6
Now and forever—7
The tool box—8
Summer night—9
On the rooftops of life—10
You don’t know anything about me—11
I’m a romantic—12
The power of the night—13
I’ve been thru it—14
It’s not the same without you—15
Love on the rebound—16
The prophets aren’t crazy—17
Pure country girl—18
Someone else’s love—19
I’ve got a message—20
Take my mind of the pain—21
Love in motion—22
Green eyes-23
Bring your love around-24
Till then—25
Like a river—26
Keep smiling it’s your day—27
I’ve missed you—28
The sun may not rise—29
I’m dreaming—30
Light my way back—31
Living alone again—32
Your love is all I see—33
You’re sparkling at me—34
More than true—35
Hang gliding—36
Reflections o you—37
Seeing her over there—38
She’s country tonight—39
The rain is falling down—40
Guess whose singing—41
This love is forever—42
You’ll always be my son—43
This time—44
I’m feeling love say good by—45
My child—46
Love is our answer—47
Life’s greatest choice—48
I cherish the thought of you—49
She’s waiting patiently—50
PTSD blues—51
She’s watching real close—52
Yesterday’s child—53
I’m here to love you—54
Let the road be your friend—55
Fireman—56
Someone else’s love—57
She’s loving—58
Forgiveness is golden—59
Chapter—2: My Schizophrenic Mind
Chapter—3: Living with Schizophrenia
Chapter—4: Medical Affects
Chapter—5: Poor Treatment
Chapter—6: Hospital Fallout
Chapter—7: Nursing Home
Chapter—8: Paranoid Traits
Chapter—9: Relationships
Chapter—10: Hobbies Work and Love
Chapter—11: Looks Paranoid
Chapter—12: Recovery/Alcoholism and Psychosis
Chapter—13: Summary
Chapter—14: Be prepared for the last days
Chapter—1
There’s a poison going on—1
They say a man’s home is his castle
But darling you took that from me
Innocent minds
Have been changed for all time
For everyone to see
There’s a poison going on over me
(chorus)
There’s a poison
There’s a poison
Over my memory
Why don’t they leave it alone?
Not pick it to the bone
There’s a poison going on over me
They say a man’s home is his castle
I built it to make you happy
Instead I’m out of my mind
Haven’t got a dime, my back is broke
And I’m chocking on what I see
There’s a poison going on over me
They say a man’s home is his castle
But I lost it so long ago
What ever your alarm
Wasn’t worth the harm
To the children and my memory
There’s a poison going on over me
(repeat chorus)
They say a man’s home is his castle
My kids are all strangers to me
You fill them with a potion
That causes great emotion
They think it’s the truth
But there’s no proof
So they recall only what you see
They say a man’s home is his castle
But baby that dream didn’t come true
So I’m sitting right here
Holden back a tear
It will drown my memory of you
Watching the day my kids
Find a way back from you
They say a man’s home is his castle
My new life is far from you now
You can’t reach me here
It isn’t worth it my dear
The poison is only hurting you
There’s a red moon a risen—2
Growth will likely slow
The economy won’t grow
Wall Street in a fear
To heck with prosperity my dear
Just open your wallet and see
Most have 8 more credit cards than me
The cost to invest my son
Leaves us profitless
It affects the bottom line
Nearly all the time
Just because they can’t see
The true cost that credit can be
(chorus)
There’s a red moon arisen
He’s looking over the horizon
It’s a sign of what’s to be
The whole world can see
True its easy buying
But soon there left crying
Unable to find a way free
And when they go down
They have found
A blast to the economy
No help in sight
Money’s tight
Everyone’s credit buying you sees
It’s a burden to prosperity
A credit buying incompetency
A tragedy to marriage and industry
When you think of changing
Remember the margin
You’ll make history
Credit blasting the economy
Caused a million plus bankruptcies
First time in history
(repeat chorus)
You probably hate this song
Cause you’ve gone along
With a false economy
It’s not what it should be
Not how Benjamin, Tom and Patrick
Meant it should be
Start the juke box—3
Whenever I get down
Her memory comes around
And I’m as sad as I can be
Start the juke box
Sing a sad song with me
(chorus)
Whenever I see you smile
My mind paint’s a picture for a while
Of sweet ecstasy, oh baby
Just worm up to me
Start the juke box
Sing a sad song with me
Whenever you get mad
Because life’s sad
The kids have gone mad
And you have had all you can from me
Start the juke box
Sing a sad song with me
(repeat chorus)
Whenever you can’t find
Enough time, haven’t got a dime
Life’s unkind, just look at me
Start the juke box
Sing a sad song with me
Oh start the juke box
Sing a sad song with me
(repeat everything)
I love you too—4
I love you too
Is what she’d say each day
I love you too
Helped time to pass away
Those were the nicest words
I’d here her say
I love you too
Would bring a tear my way
One cold and rainy night
I love you too
Just didn’t seem right
It was in the fall I went away
A broken heart missing her each day
I love you too
She used to say
(chorus)
I love you too darling dear
Those were the nicest words I’d ever hear
Why won’t those words bring her back to me?
There’s no power in those words for me
Don’t be fouled when she’d say
I love you too and then not stay
Push your buttons take the money walk away
She didn’t love you any way
Even though she’d say
I love you too
(Instrumental pause 32 beats)
Next time you see me baby
Better walk on by
Don’t talk to me anyway
I said don’t cry
Those words meant nothing to you
When you said I love you too
(repeat chorus)
She’s gone from me
She’s gone from me
Love and fear—5
Hey I want you to know
I’m standing right here
With foot in mouth
I don’t know what
To think of my self
There’s one thing we both share
Love and fear from somewhere
There’s love at first sight
Then something reminds the fear
Brings us back to tears
(chorus)
If you want to know
Just what turns me on
Let the fear you have go
And those slight things I’ve done
Won’t make you come undone
Will not have a place
In this heart of yours
Will not rob your loving face
Of the smile you had before
Won’t taunt this love of mine
Just hold on to the love
Those feelings sent from above
Keep smiling about our chance
To share true romance
Without fear from somewhere
Make a place for insensitive ways
I’m just not up to it today
We’ve got this from someone before
Just who I’m not quite sure
But it’s evening the score
(repeat chorus)
There’s love at first
Then something reminds the fear
That hides deep inside your mind
To make an entrance my dear
And challenge my love for you here
Once it’s made a show
There’s no where for me to go
I can’t accept the rules
Of past drowning duals
So let go of the fear
And hold on to love my dear
Your beautiful—6
You’re a real lady
You’re my baby
On the street or mountain trails
Right down to the nails
I’m in love you see
You’re on my mind all the time
You’re beautiful to me
(chorus)
I get a funny feeling
When you where a certain dress
When you where blue jeans
I catch my breath
Look my way, I feel better each day
You’re on my mind all the