Expressions of a Man: Expressions of Faith, Family, Love & Life

By Theodore R. Goyins III

In his first collection of poetry, Theodore Goyins puts into words the expressions of one man and what many men may feel but don't say. This anthology gives you a glimpse into the heart, mind, and soul of what men may be feeling. Theodore expresses himself freely in the areas of Faith, Family, Love, and Life, which are all areas of life men encounter while taking this journey. His life experiences have allowed him to gain a better understanding of his emotions and how they can be expressed in a positive way. Theodore believes that every man can find an outlet to express what it is that is on their heart and mind. He has chosen to use a pen as his form of expression to write these personal poems that give the reader a glimpse into the life of one man.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Aug 30, 2011
• ISBN: 9781463420369

Theodore R. Goyins III

Theodore R. Goyins, III, is a young aspiring writer, raised in Willingboro, New Jersey. Theodore received his Bachelors and Masters degree in Business Administration from Florida Agricultural & Mechanical University in Tallahassee, Florida. After many years in corporate America, he decided to fulfill his dreams and work at his passion. The Written Word. This passion for writing has always been a part of him but he became more fervent at pursuing his writing when he was diagnosed with kidney failure in 2005. He has transformed years of life experiences and obstacles into words. Theodore currently serves as an academic advisor and adjunct professor at Camden County College in Camden, NJ.

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© 2011 Theodore R. Goyins, III. All rights reserved.

No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author.

First published by AuthorHouse 8/24/2011

ISBN: 978-1-4634-2037-6 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4634-2036-9 (e)

Printed in the United States of America

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Contents

Foreword

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

Preface

Introduction

FAITH

Faith: My Foundation

Good-bye, Good-bye, Hello, Hello

It’s Me

Morning Glory

Have Faith in Me

Battle Wounds

Where is Your Faith?

Confused

Am I Forgiven?

Hell is Afraid of Me

Divert Your Energy

By Grace

Inspired By

Re-freshing

Evolved

Perfect World

Freedom

Haiti

Hope in the Harvest

Lead Me Not Into Temptation

Transplant

The Creation

Closer

In Your Hands

Recovered

Serenity

Thanks Again

Family

Family

In Love with a Memory

Hero

Daddy’s Hope for Me

Standing Ovation

Brother

You Are………

Mommy’s Love – My Inspiration

Granddad

Matriarch

Family Affair

Letter To My Future Children……

Daddy Left

Hurting Little Girl

I Just

Divorce

Single Mother

Daddy’s Girl

One Last Wish

Reunion

Love

Love

One Day……Love

Earth Love

Heartbreak

Crying Out

What Else Matters?

Rush

Women Living to Trust a Man

Coming Soon……

Let Go, Release

I Really Missed Her Today

Art of Love

Destination Love

Relax in my Love

In A Crowded Room

Because If You Don’t..You Might Lose Her

I Forgot to Tell You

Smile

Beautiful

Bliss

Here, Now, and Forever

Simply Amazing

Visa, MasterCard and Then Discover

A Song for You

Mate to My Soul

City Love

Love Come from Me

Anywhere Else

Mind Blowing

Heard Nothing I Said To You

Emotionally Unavailable

The Night

Love Hangover

Staring at your picture

You Make Me

If I Never Told You

Far Away

Trust me, I’m a lover

Life

Life….

Death Knocking

Second Chance

The Present is My Past

Live Backwards

I Struggle

Escape

Speak

Life Changing

Western Shell

Somewhere

Behind the Smile

Change from Me

Talk Is Cheap

Georgia

Mediocrity

Stress

When Men Cry

Greatest Fear

Sing Your Music Loud

Labor Pains

Limits

Once Upon a Time

Awkward

Man Expressions

Passion

So I Write………

The Day I Fell In Love with Scribe

Artistry

My Life for a Song, Sonnet, Word, Scripture

Scattered Thoughts

Articulate

Living Thoughts

Mirror, Mirror

Potential Meets Pinnacle

Organic Happiness

Moment of a Millionaire

Dancing Among the Weeds

Especially You

The Reader

When I Became Me……Again

There Will Never Be

Ode to the Poet

This book is dedicated to God, my family,

and all who have loved me along the way.

Foreword

A very wise man, Bishop Vernon Lamb of 1st Church of God in Bermuda, shared an observation that re-shaped my life as a minister forever. He stated, "there are some ministers that say what God says…and then there are other ministers that say what God means’. Clearly I resolved that I wanted to become a minister that declares what God means! It seems Theodore is similar. God has gifted him with the language of life and its unique and wonderful to see as you envelope the poems.

In keeping, as Theodore shared from his heart on so many arenas of life; I realized this was a perfect example of a ‘man capable of communicating the very essence and meaning of life intimately and globally without fear of censure or rejection’. There are times Theodore seems to walk us to a private locked door of life, slips us inside the room where both boldly and gently he discussed pain, joy, loss, gain, mishap and miracles!

How was he able to do so? Because he became available (all of him) to God and God’s plan for his life. And a part of his life involves the experience of going through to help others go through! Theodore is so young…in fact at times he seems too young to be so old. Yet his life has been hand-picked and designed by God to experience and then share his experience in a way that others would be helped when their turn in life comes. It’s amazing how many poems were birthed out of his physical illnesses from a child through early adulthood. And the joy is Theodore has been successful in turning the bad into good. When you read this book, you will see yourself in the poems, you will hear your voice in the poems, you will become challenged, stretched and pulled to understand that all things really do work together for the good…. You will know that the mess of your life can become a message.

-Just Wanda aka Dr. Wanda A. Davis- Turner

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

I would like to first thank God for giving me this extraordinary gift. I know that my talents and gifts only come from one source. I would like to thank my parents for their impeccable guidance and love throughout my 28 years of living. Thank you Mom for giving me a second chance at life as my kidney donor and thank you Dad for allowing me to carry such a great name and mantel. I truly love you both. I am forever indebted to you. I couldn’t ask for better parents. To my sister Tiarra and my brother Alex thank you for always being supportive and truly showing me what true friendship looks like.

To my step mom Vikki thank you for always being true to our family. Thank you for being there for me in the rough times and extending an ear to listen. Thank you for taking care of my dad.

To Nana thank you for being the matriarch of our family and showing us the true characteristics of what it means to be a woman. Pop-pop, Grand pop, and a Nana T your spirit lives in me, thank you for allowing me to hold in my heart the memories we shared together. To my aunts and uncles thank you for being like second parents to me.

To my Aunt Cheryl thank you for being my second mother and support.

To all my friends, whom I call my brothers and sisters, you all know who you are. I don’t know where I would be without your support and love through it all. You have all been a strong support system for me and helped me get through some rough times. I am grateful.

To my nephews, Zahir & Ronald, and my niece Leilani: You can do whatever you put your mind to. Don’t ever give up on your dreams and never let anyone tell you that you can’t do something. Thank you for being my inspiration. I am always here for you. I want you to know Uncle Teddy loves you.

To my future wife: I pray that whom ever God has purposed for me to spend the rest of my life with will be able to accept my expression of love in its’ natural form. I would like to thank you in advance for accepting me for who I am.

To my spiritual mentors: Thank you for your support and prayers. You have truly shown me what it looks like to be on the right path to destiny. Special thanks to Dr. Wanda Turner for always being there for me and taking time to write the foreword for this book.

I would like to thank my barber Uthman Hason at Yusef’s Barber Shop in Berlin, NJ

To the entire renal transplant staff at Thomas Jefferson University Hospital in Philadelphia, PA. Thank you for taking great care of my mother and I. You are all truly angels heaven sent.

To all of my failed relationships: I believe nothing happens without reason. I consider the past not a failure but only lessons learned.

To All Readers: Never give up hope and I thank you for joining me on this journey. I pray that you are encouraged by the words that have taken home to this book.

Preface

When I began to write it was my way of getting things off my mind. I wasn’t a very expressive kid growing up. Especially dealing with all my ailments, I didn’t want my family