Sonder Jou/Desolation
By Holdstock
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Several aspects of the volume are of interest. The ability of the author to be in touch with and to express the various facets of his grief in simple language, in a cultural context where the expression of such emotions by men is frowned upon, is noteworthy. The poems also highlight the therapeutic self-help value of bibliotherapy. The poems of loss celebrate the mundane and relatively insignificant daily events that he shared with his wife. In being in touch with his grief and in concretising the accompanying pain he attempts to find meaning in the paradox between consciousness, highly developed as it is in humankind, and death. An answer is not evident, except perhaps that humankind is destined by gravity to be absorbed by the sixth dimension of dark matter. The bilingual aspect of the volume provides an additional aspect of interest.
Holdstock
Len Holdstock, PhD, has studied and worked in South Africa, the USA and the Netherlands. At the time of his retirement in 1999 he was professor of Clinical Psychology at the Vrije Universiteit in Amsterdam. He has published widely within and outside the field of psychology; presented papers and conducted workshops in archetypal psychology and Person- Centred therapy in various parts of the world. In psychology his major publications have been in the areas of brain and sleep research, personality and psychotherapy theory, as well as critical theory and cultural psychology.<\p> He has done extensive work with the indigenous healers of South Africa and endeavoured, not only to Africanise psychology in that country, but the educational system as well. Even in post-apartheid South Africa reconsideration and reshaping of existing curricula and teaching methodologies in terms of African values, are necessary. He believes that sub-Saharan Africa has a great deal to offer in establishing a humane new world order. His last book, Re-examining psychology: Critical perspectives and African insights, Routledge, 2000, addresses the role psychology needs to play in creating universal cultural awareness. Although he focuses primarily on the cultural unawareness in the Western world with respect to sub-Saharan Africa, recent conflicts have pointed out similar shortcomings in the West with respect to Islamic culture. Holdstock has also co-edited a book on Western and Buddhist psychology, Eburon, 1996. In addition to his publications in psychology he has published on art and education: Transpersonal Art (1986) and Education for a new nation (1987). The present poetry volume is his first experiential publication. It can best be described as his bibliotherapy in which he processes his grief during the first 20 months following the death of his wife, his love of 50 years.
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Sonder Jou/Desolation - Holdstock
SONDER JOU
DESOLATION
t.l. holdstock
© Copyright 2006 Dr. Thomas L. Holdstock.
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Contents
PROLOOG I JEUG
selfportret
adolossensie
menswees
bloekom teen die rant
voël in ‘n kou
die droom van God
werkstewels
vrou
nag in Johannesburg
Etosha
winter in Stellenbosch
atleet
PROLOGUE II SEASONS OF OUR LOVE
elebrating your 70th birthday, February 6, 2003, Kaysersburg, France
verlief word op jou
spring love
falling in love
awareness of you
lente verlange
ontwakende hartstog
ons eerste soen
somer herinneringe
early morning stroll at Hogsback, ode to Alida
Rough patches
(d) let me be
haar eerste kind
man-talk
Family
autumn love
SONDER JOU WITHOUT YOU
vir oulaas in Suid-Afrika
voorspel tot haar dood
het telefoongesprek
in coma, Kamer 134, Seksie H7, Academische Medische Center, Amsterdam
Saterdagmiddag, 1 Mei, 2004, deur die oë van ‘n kind
wat sou die beste wees
eerste weke
bij de noteman
grade van bewussyn
die glans is af
die rou periode
what not to say
troos verward geraak
gebreekte bekken
wandelende ironie
holding hands
engel woord
swart posbus
die pienk roos
the pink rose
Woensdagaand, 26 Mei 2004
sinkronisiteit
beelde in die brein
in my gedagtes by jou op weg na
die ultieme vraag
dit en dat
wens en werklikheid
the outer reaches
only one more wish
om van herinneringe vry te wees
wat van die toekoms
die kraaie kras
death’s reality
2.30 a.m.
swanger foto
limbic flashes
breathing
ontvlug met woorde?
na my dood
a brief interlude
battered by Atlantic waves
sonder haar
tulpe stengels
the new bench
en wat het dit gehelp
capital G
sy was my alles
waar is my liefie
verdriet akademies vertaal
20 Julie 2004
e-pos aan Philip en Estelle
beskermengel
ankerloos
op die snelweg
op die sypaadjie
gekondisioneerde reaksie
soleil du sol
verskietende ster
leë dae
swaartekrag
Verse
aan tafel
die droograk
27 Augustus 1960
hoop
vier maande al
vier maande gelede
aan die kinders
the mirror of who i am
the inevitable
wat is werklikheid
soos sy dit doen
vyf maande vandag
wat ons nie weet nie
terug
skeiding
haar dood is so anders as my dood
life blood
verdriet wals
hurricane force
Back in South Africa
hunkering
absurdity
angs
tuiskoms
sonder haar
fisika van verdriet
selfs ‘n velwond
die dag begin
die ander tafel
alles eindig
lente 2005
soveel om te bely
gebed
1 Mei 2005
sy en ek
dubbelglas stil
flat northern sky
music of the spheres
Mona Lisa beelde
sinusoidal grief
American dream
toe alles nog moontlik was
taferele
lugposbriewe
crossing borders
memories
Beloved, do not die. Do not dare die! I, the survivor, I wrap you in words so that the future inherits you. I snatch you from the death of forgetfulness. I tell your story, complete your ending-you who once whispered beside me in the dark.
Antjie Krog, Country of my skull, 1998
De werklijke catastrofes zijn we geneigd te omgeven met woorden, alsof we onszelf er zo tegen kunnen beschermen.
Aharon Appelfeld, Het verhaal van een leven, 2005
De ongedeelde herinnering sterft eenzaam.
J.J. Streefkerk, de Volkskrant, Aug. 23, 2005, p. 13
In memory of Alida
To all who loved her and those she loved, especially our sons, their families; the grandchildren who do not have the privilege of growing up knowing her
To friends who willingly read my tears, shared my grief, provided comments, proofreading: Estelle, Di, Chris, Joep, Bev, Bernie, Monika, Philip; Dorian for mentoring
Candy, Tiël and Louis, your creative input and technical support are imprinted on the cover and the inside pages. Thank-you for helping when I got stuck.
Jordan Reichert, author representative at Trafford, thank you for doing so in the way that you do.
PROLOOG I
JEUG
selfportret
met groot oop oë
het hy
aan die lewensbal geraak
tenger vingers tastend
was bang
om die kristal te kraak
swanger hart afwagtend
kon nie die ritme
van sy polslag vind
adolossensie
in ‘n sel
‘n klooster
van my eie
self gekluister
vasgevang deur
matelose onsekerheid
het die angs
van mens en
volwasse wees
die mure van
my sosiale wese
deur senuwee
en kliermetabolisme
al digter om
my heen gekring
menswees
aan hierdie stang
het God twee arms uitgehang
aan die hande het Hy
vingers vasgedraai
en die fabriek
waar elke bout en groef
met bloed geolie
in die