Panxiety
By Ron Keys
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After his first panic attack in his mid twenties the fabric of his reality started to fray. This is not a self-help book but a memoir of one man's battle to over come his inner demons that fuelled his anxiety disorder. Follow along as he confronts suicide and his apprehension with getting help. Now at the age of forty he shares with you his story on defeating this disorder. keymaster@shaw.ca
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Panxiety - Ron Keys
Panxiety
You’re not alone.
By: Ron Keys
Copyright © 2009 by Ron Keys
All rights reserved.
Cover design by Ron Keys
Smashwords Edition August 2009
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Special thanks to my wife and kids.
Without them I would never have had the strength to defeat this disorder.
Special thanks to author John Gribbin for allowing me to reference his name and his work in my book. It was a key point in my life that assisted me on the road to recovery.
Table of contents
Quotes and a poem
Dedication to all
Panic Disorder Definition (In short)
Important
Chapter One – Reasons why
Chapter Two – My understanding
Chapter Three – So it begins
Chapter Four – Changes
Chapter Five – Breaking point
Chapter Six – Getting Help
Chapter Seven – Release
Chapter Eight – Back in the chair
Chapter Nine – Mine alone
Chapter Ten – I can’t do it alone
Chapter Eleven – Round two in the chair
Chapter Twelve – Will alone
Chapter Thirteen – Out from the shadow
Chapter Fourteen – What is… is
Chapter Fifteen – Where to begin
Chapter Sixteen – The hidden track
Quotes and a poem
Three things are guaranteed to those of us who walk amongst the living. We are born, we breathe and we die. What we do while we are breathing is how we separate ourselves as individuals from the rest of the world's population, and how we make that separation is only driven by desire and/or need. Not everything is chance. Sometimes we unconsciously put ourselves in life's path.
Ron Keys - 2007
I am nothing without my love as I am nothing without my hate. Either to the extreme would only mire me in self righteousness, indignant to all or ignoring self. Happiness is never found in the extreme but only in the balance that is life.
Ron Keys - 2008
Panxiety
Touched by a moment that was accompanied by fear
Surround by emotion that holds me hear
I can’t trust what I see because I know what I feel
I lost all belief in what I know that is real
That moment that touched me turned into years
I was crushed by the weight of all those fears
Life became more than I could comprehend
I held out no hope that there would ever be an end
Anxiety washed over me wave after wave
I was unwilling to remain my anxiety’s slave
I searched for answers night and day
I had no other choice but to find a way
It was not easy to walk from the sea
But I found all the answers inside of me
Believe you can heal and put it on the shelf
But remember that belief begins in one’s self
Ron Keys - 2009
Dedication to all
A lot of books open up with thanks to
or I couldn’t have done this without
and it was my original intention to NOT follow that same format. I was only interested in expressing my anger with those people who only had me as a friend when it suited them. But I could not ignore the people who helped out my family even though I never asked them for that help. Nobody knew what I was going through and that help alleviated some stress that made some days easier to get through.
You will always know who your true friends are and which people truly care for you because they are the ones still around when you are at your lowest point in your life. It’s a remarkable thing when someone gives from their soul after having time to think about it. I can count on one hand the number of people that I would do almost anything for. As for everybody else in my life it would be out of obligation that I would even give them the time of day.
That last sentence in the previous paragraph is kind of cold and it’s going to hurt some people’s feelings as they will assume that I am talking about them or that I am putting them in that category. Well, if you’re assuming that I am talking about you then you’re self centered and there is a very good chance that I am talking about you. You can look to me for help but don’t look to me for sympathy. Because to be sympathetic requires that I love, and love is a commodity that I give sparingly and only to those who are deserving.
Truth of the matter is that it is no one's responsibility but my own to make sure that I get through this life one way or the other. That I understand. For those of you who were there when my family needed you the most… Thank you.
The Rest of you.
I was always told not to hate people but only hate the things that they do. I have realized that a person’s actions are a direct reflection of who they truly are. Hating a person along with their actions is not beneath me. To tell you anything different would only be lie. With that said, I can think of no one in my life that I truly hate anymore. I tolerate a lot of people but I don’t hate them. If you have given me a reason not to like you then that was all the reason I needed not to include you in my life. I refuse to put myself into situations and around people where I feel uncomfortable. I also do my best to keep my family out of those same situations. I’m not asking anyone to change just for me or my family. All I ask is for you to accept who I am and go on with your life as I will be doing the same.
Panic Disorder
Panic disorder is characterized by unexpected and repeated episodes of intense fear accompanied by physical symptoms that may include chest pain, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, dizziness, or abdominal distress. These sensations often mimic symptoms of a heart attack or other life-threatening medical conditions.
People with panic disorder have feelings of terror that strike suddenly and repeatedly with little or