(Content Warning: Abuse, Self-harm, Suicide) First time mom Emily sits with host Lina Forrestal and talks about life as a new mom and her struggles with postpartum depression. She talks about her journey into motherhood: her miscarriage, pregnancy, a misdiagnosis of a down syndrome test, and postpartum depression. Emily shares that her anxiety started at her 10-week ultrasound when the technician couldn't find a heartbeat. She shares that she has struggled with her depression and anxiety ever since she was young, since her beloved father passed away. She shares that it was hard to be happy during the newborn phase, even though it is a happy time and her son, Odin, was a wonderful baby.Lina and Emily also talk about drugs at birth, not having a birth plan, and their experiences with anxiety. Emily talks about holistic health and remedies for her postpartum depression and how her outlet is running.  If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, call or text 988. Learn more about the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline here. Your body and mind go through many changes during and after pregnancy. If you feel empty, emotionless, or sad all or most of the time for longer than 2 weeks during or after pregnancy, reach out for help. If you feel like you don't love or care for your baby, you might have postpartum depression. Treatment for depression, such as therapy or medicine, works and will help you and your baby be as healthy as possible in the future. Read more about postpartum depression here. Resources: Symptoms of Postpartum Depression ________________________________________________________________Connect with Lina on InstagramFollow the New Mamas Podcast on InstagramRead Lina's BlogSupport the Show: Buy Me a CoffeeEpisode edited by Chris Duffy: heyitschrisduffy@gmail.comSupport the showConnect with Lina on @linaforrestal on InstagramFollow the @newmamaspodcast on InstagramRead Lina's Blog: www.linaforrestal.comSupport the Show: Buy Me a Coffee (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/newmamaspodcast)