How God Breathed Life Into Me
By Leah Beth
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The little girl was so scared. She stared into space, wondering what future she could possibly have in her ugly, unhappy mind. Hiding on the bench that was pushed under the table, afraid to face Mama's wrath because once again, this dear little girl, only six years old, broke a stack of glass dishes that came crashing down, hitting the floor while she was doing what mama asked, set the table for the family to sit down and eat together. Never a kind word spoken, all ugly snarls and accusation after accusation hurled into this young girl's heart and the beatings that followed later.
This story is written as my story. My journey of how a heart can grow ugly and bitter in a home where the mother is not using her words to bless her children and how tragically this can cause the whole household to fall in a place completely out of line of God's order and how God used this ugliness to set this bitter, angry woman free.
This story is written by a plain woman in an Amish Mennonite setting, being careful not to point any fingers at anyone but to use my story to bring honor and glory to God, that everyone who reads its pages can realize how valuable they are in God's sight regardless of what ugly life has dished out to them. I love butterflies because they remind me that it's never too late to transform ourselves.
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How God Breathed Life Into Me - Leah Beth
How God Breathed Life Into Me
Leah Beth
ISBN 979-8-88540-149-4 (paperback)
ISBN 979-8-88540-150-0 (digital)
Copyright © 2022 by Leah Beth
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Table of Contents
Preface
Suffering in Silence
Baby Sister
Mom and My Oldest Brother
Weight
My Grandmother
Church
Darkness
My Dad and I
The Big Move
About the Author
I believe in miracles because I am ONE. And there's no doubt in my mind that the only reason I've made it this far is because God made a way for ME.
Preface
Idedicate this book, my life story, to all my readers. I desire that the words could come forth as healing oil poured right on each heart that is hurting and/or searching deeply for love and answers to the whys in your lives. And the blessings from God will come pouring down on each wounded heart and soul as the words of my story are being pondered over.
Many individuals were sent into my life as ministering angels, unaware of what they were doing. Now I want to be that ministering angel in your life through my story.
The excitement for me is that one day I will know that my childhood story, though bitter it was, has become the sweetest savor for thousands of people, for you to know that you are not alone. You will get through your hardest trials, and God is sending you butterflies to let you know how loved and valued you are.
Chapter 1
Suffering in Silence
When I was a young girl, I felt totally trapped. I was miserable, unhappy—ugly attitudes. I looked ugly because of the way I felt about myself. No one ever told me I was pretty. I honestly don't ever even remember hearing that word.
I feel led from God to share a few things from my home life. My growing-up years had been so clouded over and filled with bitterness and hatred that I myself even find it hard to fathom. I have read many books, heard many testimonies of people who were in brutal situations and how God brought them out of their horrible mess and changed their lives forever, mostly in troubled divorced homes.
I am now wanting to share from my heart about how things can be in a so-called looking-happy Christian home with both parents present, but yet someone like me—suffering in such silence that nothing is ever observed or recognized of the misery going on in a child's heart.
I want to be a true blessing for others. I assume there are many people suffering in silence like I did and yet have no idea or just that there has to be something terrible wrong with them. I want you to know that you are not alone. If God could take someone as ugly and hateful as me and change my whole life, my whole being, and transform me into a totally new person who now has hope, where there was ugliness, now peace, love, and joy. Where my heart was hard as a rock, now soft tissue has formed, where I actually have feelings. Wow! You probably say, Yes, that is right.
It is wow! over and over and over again.
I wanted nobody to touch me. I would get very angry if anyone tried to give me a hug. I have a beautiful aunt who would try hugging me every time she came over. She was the only person I recall ever actually getting a loving hug from. The other hugs were just a casual hug when family members or relatives would go traveling. I did not appreciate those hugs; to me, they represented all the ugliness and hatred inside of me that I wanted no one to know about.
Because I was not getting love nor did I feel cherished, I only felt duty bound, and it brought heaps of oppression pouring into my life. My dear mother had no idea how to love. I felt totally despised by her. I felt like I was her worst enemy. I made sure I stayed as far away from her as I could. I recall folding laundry and making neat piles for everyone on the bed or table and carefully putting as many piles in between her