My Inner Child Must Be Heard: From Despair to Dancing on the Clouds

By Corina Zalace

My Inner Child Must Be Heard is the story in poetry of Corina's life and the many challenges she has faced. Her poems show how God brought her through every situation, and brought healing into her life. Corina's hope is that those who read her poems will find the same kind of healing that she has found through her Lord Jesus Christ, the Healer, Joy and Strength filling her every day. Life has not been easy, living with a body disabled by polio. Yet Corina maintained a positive attitude through every situation. She has learned that she has the choice of becoming bitter or becoming better. She has chosen to become better and thoroughly enjoy life because of her love of people and the desire to see them healed as she has been healed over the years.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jun 27, 2014
• ISBN: 9781499039283

Corina Zalace

Corina is a poet and artist in various mediums, including being a published Scientific Illustrator, has written 2 children's books and has written numerous God-inspired songs. She had polio at age 2 and has been confined to a wheelchair since 1986. God is Corina’s strength and inspiration, and she gives all the credit for her life, gifts and talents to Him. She has undergone more than 90 total surgeries as a result of having had polio and breast cancer, and waged a successful battle with clinical depression. She also suffers from chronic pain, but does not let it limit her horizons. She was molested and raped as a child. And she overcame an eating disorder after she learned to accept and embrace her self-image. From the traumatic experiences in her life, Corina has been inspired to write and illustrate these books that have meaning for children and adults. She is currently putting together a CD of the songs God inspired her to write. Corina loves to minister to people, both young and old, and especially those who are hurting from deep emotional pain using her God given gift for empathy. She lives in Florida with her husband, and has three grown children, four grandchildren, and one great grandchild. You can contact Corina via email at [e-mail]

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Copyright © 2014 by Corina Zalace.

Library of Congress Control Number:   2014911208

ISBN:      Hardcover   978-1-4990-3929-0

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Rev. date: 06/24/2014

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Contents

Preface

Mom

Prologue

Polio

My Handicap

My Bulemia Struggle

Defenses

The Volcano

Denial

The Abyss

My Battle With Control

Pit Of Depression

Depression Deep

Owning My Feelings

My Many Faces

False Masks

Anger

My Wall Of Shame

The Games We Play

Part One: Preface

Part Two: The River

Part Three: My Handicap

Part Four: My Hiding Place

Part Five: The Secret

Part Six: The Silence

Part Seven: Who Am I?

Part Eight: My Left Over Pain

My Heart’s Cry

Pain And Purpose

My Purpose In Life

Old Messages—New Messages

From Down To Up!

Grace

Hospital Nights

My Gift

Letting Go

My Pain

Abba Father

My Vow

Will You Still Stand?

God Is Still There

God’s Incredible Joy

My Prayer—Psalm 63

Psalm 91:1

The Darkness

Choices

When You Feel …

If Only …

Habakkuk 3: 17 – 18

The Transformation

Healing From My Secret

Epilogue

Postscript

No Man Is An Island

Preface

Why my Mom?

I question everything. Why this, why that, why not? I have always had a real problem, because I analyze anything I’m told, wondering what was really meant by a statement. All this questioning and wondering has caused me many problems. One of my biggest struggles has to do with the fact that my mother is in a wheelchair, having had polio when she was two. Ever since I was a little girl, my mom has been different from other moms. She can’t run, she can’t dance, she can barely walk a dozen steps.

In my childhood innocence I believed it just wasn’t fair. How could God be so cruel to my mother? Why my mom? Sometimes I even prayed that we could switch places, and that I would wake up with her paralysis. That way, she could enjoy the simple pleasures in life such as taking a walk, strolling on the beach, or running through a meadow, which we all take for granted. I have always been taught that everything happens for a purpose. No matter how hard I tried, I could not see why my mom had to be handicapped. I couldn’t understand it. I prayed to God, asking Him to please heal my mommy, to please take away her pain, to please dry her unshed tears.

My mother, on the other hand, had no doubt that God was going to heal her, and still stands strong in that conviction. In the Bible, Hebrews 11, verse 1 says Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. She lives by this verse, knowing that her faith will prevail. She has accepted her handicap as a part of life and works to make the best of her situation. She leaves a lasting impression on the life of everyone she touches. How can you complain about how unfair or hard life is, faced with a woman who is confined to a wheelchair, yet who takes everything in stride? My mom has a smile for everyone, and although in constant pain, she is rarely down. In fact, she lifts all those around her up. This is a cold slap of humility for me everytime I start to complain, because at that moment she always seems to enter the room with her contented smile.

All of this had never stopped my questioning: Why my mom? What purpose does her handicap serve? Then, slowly, God began to reveal it to me through other people. My mother is a witness for the Lord. It means so much to hear my mom talk about her faith and love for God. Anyone can proclaim their faith, but here is a vibrant woman, confined to a wheelchair, who is content with her life and thanks God every day for her many blessings. This touches others as