In a Garden Where Wildflower Grows a Promise God Made

By Wildflower Rain Basia

In a Garden with Wildflower synopsis, Wildflower embarked on the journey of a lifetime when God called her to divorce her white husband to marry the black man He chose for her-and to remain celibate until this man was revealed to her. Her family, resistant and often downright racist about this God-ordained journey at first, finally accepted Wild

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Table of Contents

Habakkuk 2:3

Dedication

Introduction

Chapter One: Unlock the Power of God’s Love

Chapter Two: Becoming a New Creature in Christ

Chapter Three: A Promise from God

Chapter Four: Faith Is the Key

Chapter five: We Learned How to Unlock a Spiritual Love Within

Chapter Six: It is Time to Spiritually Awaken

Chapter Seven: All We Need is Faith as a grain of a Mustard Seed

Chapter Eight: Wildflower Simply Recognized Something Needed to Change, For God, His Trinity, Her Man, Their Family, and Humanity

Chapter Nine: Wildflower Finds Her Mark to Make in this World

Chapter Ten: Dixie Road Is Wildflower’s River of Dreams

Chapter Eleven: Wildflower’s Destiny

Chapter Twelve: God Blessed Wildflower with her Barbie Dream home

Chapter Thirteen: Allowing God to Lead

Chapter Fourteen: Ready for True Love

Chapter Fifteen: The First Time Wildflower Felt His Fire and Desire

Chapter Sixteen: Wildflower Asks God If She Did Things Right

Chapter Seventeen: Wildflower Feels His Pain

Chapter Eighteen: Powerful and Transforming Prayer of Change

Chapter Nineteen: Prayer for Releasing the Spiritual Strongholds over All Our Children

Chapter Twenty: The Power of True Love

Chapter Twenty-One: In A Garden Where Wildflower Grows: Standing Firm on God Promises

Chapter Twenty-Two: Learning How to Heal

Chapter Twenty-Three: At the Right Time

Chapter Twenty-Four: Being Released from the First Man

Chapter Twenty-Five: Freedoms of Wildflower’s Mind

Chapter Twenty-Six: Wildflower’s Sweet Friend Willow

Chapter Twenty-Seven: God of Payback

Chapter Twenty-Eight: Spiritual Whippings

Chapter Twenty-Nine: Spiritual Warfare

Chapter Thirty: Biblical Woman

Chapter Thirty-One: Becoming the Change for Him

Chapter Thirty-Two: Their Eden with God

Chapter Thirty-Three: Understanding the Five Biblical Books of Moses

Chapter Thirty-Four: Her Love Is Actions on Fire

Chapter Thirty-Five: On My Way to You

Chapter Thirty-Six: A Strawberry Love Letter

Chapter Thirty-Seven: When God ’s dealing with you

Chapter Thirty-Eight: A Seven-Year Journey of Faith with God to Find My Real Bashert

Chapter Thirty-Nine: Everything Has a Time and Place under Heaven

Chapter Forty: The Big Picture

Chapter Forty-One: Completion

Chapter Forty-Two: My Seven Years, His Seven Years: Our Journey with God

Chapter Forty-Three: Finding Peace

Chapter Forty-Four: Soul-Searching Within

Chapter Forty-Five: She’s More Than What Meets The Eye

Chapter Forty-Six: Truth about Fornication

Chapter Forty-Seven: A New Journey of Love God Called Wildflower to

Chapter Forty-Eight: Meeting of their minds

Chapter Forty-Nine: Learning of a God Wink

Chapter Fifty: Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s Prayer for the Minds of Liberation

Chapter Fifty-One: The First Night with My Husband

Chapter Fifty-Two: The hangover from His Love

Chapter Fifty-Three: Wildflower’s a Freedom Fighter for the Equality of Life

Chapter Fifty-Four: Does This Make You Understand How Special You Are to God?

Chapter Fifty-Five: To My Husband’s Through Our Spiritual Connection

Chapter Fifty-Six: The Greatest Love Story of Them All

Chapter Fifty-Seven: Your Love Is Like...

Chapter Fifty-Eight: A Simple Woman Called into Celibacy

Chapter Fifty-Nine: Chastity Means to Let Love Rule

Chapter Sixty: True Love Always Finds a Way

Chapter Sixty-One: When God Opens the Door to a Forgotten Dream

Chapter Sixty-Two: Destiny

Biography

Index

Habakkuk 2:3

The vision will happen at the time I have appointed. It moves steadily toward its goal and will not be proven false. If it seems slow or delayed, just wait for it! It will certainly happen. It will not be late! Paraphrased by Rick Warren, Saddleback Church.

In A Garden Where Wildflower Grows: A Promise God Made

Dedication

In loving memory of Reverend Sparrow: I am thankful for the knowledge he is in the presence of Almighty God. I was blessed to have Reverend Sparrow as my evangelical teacher during the last three years of his life. During the time he was my mentor, he planted seeds that helped me grasp what the Good Lord was calling me to do so long ago. I am grateful God used Reverend Sparrow to give me the tools necessary to answer my calling.

I am blessed God allowed Pastor Sparrow to read the first six chapters of this manuscript before going home to our heavenly Father. His last words to me let me know that he was blessed by how I welcome the love of the Father. While most people fear Him and His power, all I did was simply embrace the Creator! His words were an echo of my first pastor’s words regarding having this connection to God. Reverend Sparrow told me he felt certain this book would be an answer to someone’s prayers. Our world will be blessed with the healing that we all need.

I am reminded of the last evangelism class with him, where he said he would no longer put any thought into how God intricately designed a woman after seeing what God was doing through me. It just warms my heart every time.

Pastor Sparrow always knew there was a ‘Love Revolution’ coming, and he felt honored God would bring it to his door. God put a dream in Pastor Sparrow’s heart for his congregation, and it took him ten years to see this dream fulfilled. When I was in the tenth year of my spiritual journey, Pastor Sparrow said when God puts a dream inside your heart, even if it feels like it’s taking forever to come true, continue having faith it will come to pass. This has been especially true for me.

I would like to dedicate this book to God, including His perfect Son, Jesus Christ. I embarked on this spiritual journey because I genuinely love God together with our Savior, Jesus Christ. It is my hope the prodigal children accept His gift of salvation before it is too late. The full gospel of Jesus Christ states, For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 6:23, Olive Tree NKJV).

I want to express my love and thanks to my dear mama. Even though she was only here for a season, Nicolette was my hero in the matter of blind faith. I thank her for teaching me to follow God’s calling without question since I was a child. My mother always believed in me and was there whenever I needed her. Her example of faith has been a constant source of encouragement.

To my gifts from heaven, Skylar and Reign Basia, I love you very much. I also want to thank my papa for being there for me for a season, even when he did not want to be. I never embarked on this journey to hurt him. I only hope he can see and understand, therefore. All the times he tried to teach me to hate another human only served to make me aware of racial injustice and the need for equality. My papa’s hate is the reason I am doing my part to make racial reconciliation happen. I have a vision for a better tomorrow, and I know it is possible because this is why Jesus Christ died; He gave His life so we could have the hope of eternal life.

I want to deeply thank my publishing team: Ms. Roxie, Reverend Dr. Sy Willis, my adoptive mother and best friend Gypsy Rose, and my oldest daughter Skylar. This book could not have become a reality without them.

To Pastor Hope, my first Baptist pastor: Thank you for being there during my darkest times and helping me discover God’s calling and will for my life. I am so honored you were able to read the first six chapters of my manuscript. You baptized me and watched me grow as a believer, and wherever life takes me, you will always hold a special place in my heart. To my readers, I hope you enjoy this book and are inspired to play your part in bridging the divide caused by racial injustice and inequality.

Only the love of Jesus Christ can change hearts to make this possible, but we must let Him work on our hearts. I find the words of Jesus in John 14:6 to be very inspiring: Jesus saith unto him, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me’ (John 14:6, KJV).

The actress Roxie Roker was born on Wednesday, August 28, 1929. She was one of the main characters on the 1975 television sitcom The Jeffersons. This amazing woman’s life ties symbolically into my story on multiple occasions. Roxie starred as Helen Willis, wife to Tom Willis (Franklin Cover). They played the first interracial married couple and shared the first kiss on primetime TV as husband and wife. Roxie broke barriers by being the first woman to represent love including unity as a featured character on primetime TV, thus opening the door for others. She also starred as Malizy in Alex Haley’s 1977 miniseries Roots.

This was the show my 7th grade teacher brought to school week of Monday, August 28, 1989, which caused me to begin consciously awakening to the need for change. The day Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. delivered his epic ‘I Have A Dream’ speech, August 28, 1963, also happened to be Ms. Roxie’s 34th birthday. I wanted to pay homage to Ms. Roxie’s bravery during an exceedingly difficult era, so I used her name and with the names of her TV and real-life husbands in this book. Let us stand up for truth as well as unity, knowing we are all created equal and loved by God. There will be names and places that have been changed to protect real identities and locations.

Introduction

1963 is not an end, but a beginning… We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline… Again, and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force… I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed… I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together… And when this happens, and when we allow freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God’s children, black and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual: ‘Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!’

-Excerpts from Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s I have A Dream speech, delivered on August 28, 1963 from the steps of the Lincoln Memorial during the March on Washington for Jobs and Freedom.

The voice of one crying in the wilderness: Prepare the way of the Lord; make straight in the desert a highway for our God."

-Isaiah 40:3 (NKJV)

Chapter One

Unlock the Power of God’s Love

Rain Wildflower Basia has been on her spiritual journey for 17 years. She wants to show us how God has blessed her with a deeper understanding of His love and how love should empower us to love one another while living in this sinful world. She knows from her own experience hate only brings suffering to the one who is doing the hating.

Her first day at Trotwood Madison Junior High School was both exciting and scary. She was going to be around kids much older than herself and did not know what to expect… She wondered if they would like her. Would she even like the other teens? Were all the horror stories about bullying in junior high school true? It did not take her long to find out.

Her first day of school was Monday, August 28, 1989. In one of her classes, she noticed Jamal Davidson’s big brown eyes, and curly black hair. He wore a box cut, which was a typical hairstyle for boys in the late ‘80s. He was a little thin for his age and was about four feet tall. He was one of the boys in her class who held more interest than curiosity for her. Not too long after, in front of their teacher and everyone else in the class, Jamal asked Wildflower to be his girlfriend. He said he liked her and thought she was beautiful! Meanwhile, Wildflower did not know any better than what she was taught at home. She was told never to date a boy outside her race because it would bring shame and dishonor to her family. She told Jamal she was sorry; even though she did like him, she was not allowed to be anything more than friends because if she were to date him, her family would no longer love her. She reassured Jamal she did not share her family’s feelings; she had no choice but to obey her parents. Jamal was heartbroken, as was she. Their seventh-grade teacher, Mrs. Helen, witnessed this scene and was just as heartbroken, with good reason.

Mrs. Helen was African American and so was awfully familiar with the prejudice a lot of Americans still are guilty of. Mrs. Helen saw Wildflower was a product of a broken system but through the love of God she was willing to change, so Mrs. Helen took her under her wing. She taught Wildflower the part of American history that was not taught in classrooms and thereby introduced the young lady to the work of civil rights icons like Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. and Rosa Parks. Wildflower also got to learn about Harriet Tubman and her heroic work as a freedom fighter.

God used this season to begin a change in Wildflower’s heart at the same time her family, especially her papa, was trying to teach her to treat people based on their skin color, not their character. She learned she was biracial, of Cherokee Indian and Irish heritage, from a childhood conversation with her mother.

Wildflower learned a vital lesson from all this. All human beings were created in God’s image; thus, all human beings—brown, black, yellow, white—have equal value and are precious to Him. Through this and other experiences that will be mentioned later on, Wildflower realized the world is desperately in need of God’s all-encompassing love. She hopes her own love journey will inspire everyone who reads it to embrace each other and walk in that love. This book is her little contribution to the change that is coming to America. Wildflower has decided the cycle of prejudice which has been a part of her family legacy ends with her. She is seen firsthand that hate is a prison that binds one to darkness in addition to an unfulfilled destiny.

Hate sucks all the joy out of life; only love can set us free. Wildflower met Morrie Daniels through a mutual friend in 1995. She was eighteen years old, and Morrie reminded her of an ex who wore his hair like male skaters from mid-90s, with long waves and a low fade. She was not over him at the time; she was still heartbroken. She believed that true love and happiness were not meant for her. She was lonely and wanted to feel loved, so she started dating Morrie. During their dating, even though she knew pre-marital sex was wrong, they had sex. She had been saving herself for the man God chose for her all these years, but life does not always go as planned.

It was a mistake she vowed never to make again. Morrie then asked Wildflower to marry him. Even though she knew he was the wrong man, she said yes. They were married on Saturday, October 5, 1996. Wildflower learned in this season that God can turn what the enemy meant for evil to our good. She may have married the wrong man, but the marriage yielded the greatest blessings of her life: her children. Wildflower had her first child with Morrie on Monday May 12, 1997. Morrie was always traveling for work, and when he was home, they would fight. Wildflower became disillusioned and upset at the direction her life was taking, especially because she knew that Morrie was unfaithful to her.

She wanted out of the loveless marriage but did not have the willpower to leave Morrie. There were days Wildflower would imagine that there was a man out there, her soulmate, who was yearning for her as much as she was yearning for him. She hoped it was true.

Morrie got a job with Meijer’s Distribution in Tipp City, Ohio and started making more money. He said they needed to move so that life would be better for them. He promised Wildflower things would be better, so they moved to West Carrollton, Ohio in 1998. However, instead of things getting better, they got worse; Morrie lost his job. Both their families helped them out during this difficult period of their life, and Wildflower will always be thankful to them. Morrie eventually got another job, but he was still away from home for long periods. Eventually, they lost their condo because her husband was spending all their money elsewhere.

In 1999 they separated; shortly afterward they reconciled. On Wednesday December 20, 2000 Wildflower and Morrie had their second child, Reign. Even though she had two bundles of joy, she was not happy. She and Morrie still fought all the time. She was delighted with her new baby, but she continued yearning for the true love was missing from her life. On top of all this, she kept having such vivid dreams about being murdered in their house. She knew she had to get out soon because she felt like she was dying little by little.

During her second pregnancy, she was asleep on a summer day when she dreamed of a woman who came to her house with a girl who looked like the woman’s daughter. In the dream, Wildflower opened the door and the woman blurted, Your husband has gotten my daughter pregnant, and I want to know what you intend to do about it. She was awakened by a loud knock on her door. She looked out her bedroom window and was shocked to see that it was the same woman from her dream. She had never seen this woman except in that dream, but she immediately knew why the woman was there. She refused to answer the door; she knew what would happen if she did. Her world was crushed, and she cried out in agony, No God, please say it isn’t so! Somehow make it not real!

When Morrie came home that night, she met him at the door. She pointed her finger at him and told him her dream about the woman who was at the door that morning. She told him she did not answer the door because she was not ready or strong enough to deal with that drama, but there would come a time when she would be strong enough and would leave him. It turned out he had a second family at the time, and they already had their first baby. She was not aware of the knowledge that came to her while she was pregnant with Reign. All the pain from this season of her life drove her deeper into the arms of our Savior, Jesus Christ, through divine orchestration.

She met with the pastor of the First Baptist Church in her old neighborhood and rededicated her life to Jesus Christ. She began to ask for the strength and wisdom to leave her abusive marriage. The New Year brought her the answers she had been praying for, as she started listening to God’s word, which helped her to grow closer to Him. Below are some of the scriptures that have encouraged her:

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the LORD of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it (Malachi 3:10).

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you (Matthew: 6:33).

Honor thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself (Matthew 19:19).

Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord (Romans 12:19).

Chapter Two

Becoming a New Creature in Christ

The clock struck midnight on Tuesday, January 1, 2002. Wildflower was waiting with their children on Morrie so they could watch the Disney animation Atlantis: The Lost Empire. She called her mom Nicolette to wish her a Happy New Year. Morrie put in the DVD and sat down.

In the movie, he saw a Native American woman married to African American man. Wildflower was talking with her mother on the phone while Morrie was hyperventilating, groaning to himself, Wildflower is an Indian woman! It is true! I am going to lose my beautiful wife to her perfect soulmate this year! He was trying to fight what God had said to him at their computer. She will begin her spiritual journey to find her real bashert (soulmate), he continued to exclaim. Her man has been praying to find her. I know I have taken her for granted. She has been crying out to God to avenge, to set her free from my abusive ways! She is a gift sent from Heaven, and I am blessed to have been with her.

Wildflower thought he was acting crazy, so she asked her mother whether she heard what he just said to her. Nicolette told her to get off the phone and attend to her crying husband. She hung up to try and comfort him, as he was still freaking out. He began to tell Wildflower about her calling. He said that two men would come into her life, but neither of them would be her real soulmate. They would only be sent to teach her how to love and understand her real man. Her real man’s greatest desire was to become a movie star, even though right now he knew he was deep in sin. Morrie said God was going to use her as an instrument to bring him to God, so he could trust God to become all that he was called to be. They were not yet ready for each other, and she would drive him away because she would be disgusted with his ways. They would have a lifetime of pain and heartache if they did not wait for God’s timing to bring them together as one. It would take seven years of her going on a spiritual journey with God to learn how to become his understanding wife. Because of her man’s history, she would fight God on His will for her life. It would take almost three years before she would finally trust that he was the right ‘one’ for her.

Chapter Three

A Promise from God

On Thursday March 21, 2002—the first day of spring—Morrie was excited. He was getting ready to leave town for work. While he was on the phone with his father, he told him that the part he loved the most about his job was that it took him away from his family. Hearing this broke Wildflower’s heart; he kept emotionally beating her down. She had low self-esteem and she was always lonely, sad, and crying, because he kept taking her for granted.

Wildflower told June, their next-door neighbor, who was a stay-at-home mom turned local school bus driver, what she had just heard Morrie tell his father. June told her it was time for her to give him the cold shoulder, since he was no longer interested in the marriage. She returned home after he had already left for his trip, sobbing, and petrified after what June said. Wildflower was only 25 years old and knew nothing about how to provide for herself or their children.

She fell to her knees in her bedroom crying, and between sobs she cried out to God for direction. All she ever wanted was real love with a man who would genuinely love her back. She asked God why she had not found her real soulmate yet, the kind of love she yearned for.

God told her she was not ready to accept this love yet because of how badly her family would treat him. They would hate him because he was not the same race as her.

She told God that she would accept him; he was all she ever wanted. God told her she needed to take a spiritual journey with Him before He would answer her prayers for her real soulmate—there were lessons He had to teach her: how to love her man most importantly, but she also had to learn to trust in God, so she could embrace the woman she was always meant to be.

God told Wildflower this was His will for her; everything had to be right. God asked her whether she was ready to stand up and fight for what was right, and whether she was strong enough to fight for this love she yearned for. Her man was African American, and she would have an exceptionally long, hard road ahead of her. God said her family would not understand this love, so she needed to be strong so her family could see that this was God’s will for her. God told Rain that when it was time for her and her man to be together, He would cause them all to see this, and that she was not to worry. God told her He was giving her three dreams that would be revealed over the next three nights. She would be allowed to see this man and his love for only her. After the third night God would again ask her the same questions, and she was to answer Him. Before she fell asleep, she wondered whether she was strong enough to fight for this love and what was right. She also wondered what this love would be like.

She fell asleep and as God promised her, she had the first dream of her love. They were driving away from Vandalia’s Dayton International Airport toward Huber Heights, Ohio for a joyride. On the way he looked at Wildflower, and she could tell he was so in love with her. Anyone could see his admiration for her! When Wildflower looked into his eyes, all she saw was his beautiful soul looking back at her. She was so deeply in love with this man.

During their ride, he was holding her little hand inside his and kept kissing it, adoring her, telling her he was just so happy to have finally found her. He had searched all his life for Rain, yearning to be loved just by her. He told his beautiful Wildflower that she was the woman of his dreams, and how he had always longed for her. Nobody could ever compare to her, his little Dreamweaver. He told her that he had never been so happy in his life; she was his dream come true. He made her feel as though he was everything she ever wanted in a man. When she woke up the next morning, she kept thinking about this man, and how incredible it felt to love him back.

The second night, she could not wait to return to her dreams of this amazing man with his incredible love for her. She was excited to see him again and wondered what this next dream would bring. In the second dream, they had just gotten married. He took her back to her townhouse in Vandalia, Ohio to make love to her for the very first time. When they made love, their souls became fused as one. The lovemaking was so intense and powerful, it was something she had never felt before. She fell deeper in love with her man, and now she was driven to find him—just like that, their fate was sealed!

The third night, she fell asleep anticipating the joy this next dream would bring her. This time, she was with her man at their townhouse. They were husband and wife. She had just given birth to their first child together. Her husband from God was so nurturing and loving to her and their family. He was constantly grateful to God for the gift of his beautiful wife Wildflower and their little family. They had more children together and he loved her other children as if they were his also. She loved his children, and their family became blended as one. Their home was full of love, trust, and admiration for God and each other.

The next night God came to her to ask how she felt about this man and his love for her. Rain told God she was head over heels in love with him. She asked God if she could please have him as her own. She did not care who would come after her; it would not change how much she loved her man, the ‘one’ she was made for. She told God she did not care if a Hollywood actor came and said all the right things to her, nothing would change her love for this man. God asked Wildflower again if she was ready to stand up to fight for this love. Rain cried out, YES! She would do whatever it took to have this man and his love. She would wait on God to bring her man to her, no matter how long it took or who came after her.

God’s spirit reminded Wildflower about what Morrie said to her on January 1, 2002. Two men would come into her life to teach her lessons. She asked God to let the first man come into her life to give her strength and courage to leave the broken home she was in, to make her the only perfect woman for her man. She wanted to learn the lessons before she had her man so she would know what to do for this love that yearned only for her. She knew deep within her spirit this love needed this from her. God’s spirit told her that her man could touch her spiritually. This would be how her man would know her as his woman; she would be the only one he could share this divine spiritual connection with.

Rain remembered Morrie saying that her man was a Hollywood movie star, but she thought he had made it up. She told God she didn’t care if a Hollywood actor came to her and said all the right things, she would just wait for God to bring her man to her and marry only him, to be right in God’s eyes. She wanted as well as needed God’s blessings; this was the only right way to do it. God told Wildflower it had to be this way only. There were two men who were supposed to touch her life to teach her. Then she could understand how to love her man the way he needed her to.

This way was better for her because so many people make the same mistakes. People come into their lives for a reason, but they can get so caught up on the wrong things in life instead of learning and growing; they choose to lie in their sin. God’s best for humanity is not to lie in their sin; this is the devil setting up mankind to fall and to keep creation down and separated from the Creator of all life. God created man and woman to live as husband and wife, as partners, to mirror the relationship between God and man. The only door to God is through His precious Son Jesus Christ. He is humanity’s only door to everlasting life. (Wildflower is just sharing with us what God has taught her in this very intimate spiritual journey with El-Shaddai—God Almighty.)

Back to Rain’s story: This was a love she had never felt before. It was a divine love, a Heaven-sent love she yearned for. He had always been what was missing from her life. She asked for El-Shaddai’s divine protection, for she knew her spirit was willing, but her flesh was weak and only God could keep her pure throughout her spiritual journey. There were times when she was weak, but El-Shaddai gave her strength through the riches of His Son Jesus Christ. El-Shaddai—God Almighty, your love is so true!

Wildflower remembered what Morrie said at the beginning of the year, about there being two men. She asked in Jesus’ name if it was God’s will to end her marriage, to please let her believe with all her heart the first man was the one, until she was ready to give him up to find her real man. She wanted only his love along with his touch; she knew she had this journey to go on. She asked God to make her the woman God wanted her to become: a better Christian, a better mother, a better daughter, a better woman, a better wife, a better lover, a better her. She asked God Almighty to make her a woman who could provide for her children, in addition to helping her become everything her man needed her to be.

She asked God to open the doors of the school of her dreams to her and people who were like her and dreamed of going to this school, but could not afford it.

The school was Dayton School of Medical Massage. Rain asked God for help with her breasts along with back surgery, as well as to have her teeth fixed, so she could have a perfect smile. She asked God to bless her and her children so they would have a home no man could take from them and so she could be a witness to everyone that God provides. She was not the same girl who began this spiritual journey over seventeen years ago. Rain asked God to allow her man to understand why she needed this time to be alone; so after he first found her blogs, she could later return to him and love him the way he dreamed of her doing.

Wildflower’s prayers: Asking El-Shaddai—God Almighty to allow her family to understand her love for her man and God’s ordained calling so they would know without a shadow of a doubt that this was God’s will for Rain and her life. Asking El-Shaddai—God Almighty to not let her family fight her on this love that was made for her. She asked God to please allow her to find her real man before He ended her spiritual journey, because it would be too painful to find him sooner. She wanted her real man to know the path and spiritual journey she had to travel to be made worthy to be called his wife. She asked God to allow this man to find her stories so that he would know her love was only for him. El-Shaddai saw the big picture when she could only see a part of it. She did not regret that her spiritual journey with God took so long. She was so honored to have had this incredible and unique spiritual calling with God, for He made her the woman she had become, a woman of profound faith. Let her story inspire us. She cried many tears and spent so many lonely nights yearning for a love like no other, waiting for this man to find her. In the meantime, she worked on each of her blessings for this book because she wanted the entire world to see the wonderful things God blessed her with. Knowing real love would be hers soon, she needed to get these things done.

She hoped her true stories proved to readers that God was real, Jesus Christ was our only Savior, and the Holy Spirit was our only Comforter. Seeing her wonderful blessings, and we know God longs to be good to us like He was to her. Now Wildflower took a leap of blind faith, for there is no man in sight, but her faith said he was out there looking only for her. It was just a matter of time before she had what she so deeply yearned for, which was real love.

Welcome to her love journey of blind faith with God