Affliction: Living Through Poetry

By Channel Mendoza

Affliction was written based on trauma, pain, and heartache in the form of poetry. I took my life’s struggles and made poems. I have been doing that my whole life. Whenever I was sad, mad, happy, or even confused, a man who became a father figure to me and a mentor would tell me to put it in a notebook. With his encouragement, that’s where it began. For the past thirty years, I battled so many demons. The title Affliction is defined as pain and suffering. I want my pages to speak my truth but also connect with my readers. I feel the hurt you’re feeling. Mentally and physically, I have been through a lot in this life. You’re not alone. I am diabetic, and at times I battle fear and so many emotions while dealing with injections. I have been a type 1 diabetic since the age of six. But through all my afflictions, I am here, I am a survivor. Without those afflictions, I wouldn’t be the mother . . . wife . . . sister . . . best friend . . . daughter . . . granddaughter . . . college graduate . . . career-driven woman that I am today. I can say, “Yes, I made it!” I made it through all that pain, and even despite being sabotaged at times throughout my career. Every day, as the sun sets and I open my eyes, I am working on being a better me. I want my readers to know that no matter the race, ethnicity, or sex, when you’re battling so much and can’t fathom the thought of existing or want to give up, I want you to know that I see you, you will get through this, and I love you.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Aug 24, 2020
• ISBN: 9781664124677

Channel Mendoza

Channel Mendoza was born in Brooklyn, New York. Before she started writing full-time poetry. She has been a Teacher Assistant, Probation Officer Screener for Juveniles, Child Protective Investigator, and Foster Licensing Specialist. She has been writing poetry for friends and family all her life, to include having her poem “my eyes are closed” published in Queens borough's Community College newspaper during her time completing her A.A degree in Liberal arts. Channel then graduated from saint Leo university with her b.s in human services, and is currently completing her m.s in human services family intervention with Walden university. Her now first completed poetry book “Affliction” with poems based on trauma, pain, and heartache, it will soon be available. She plans to make it a new York times best seller. She’s a sucker for good poetry and blushes at romance poems. Her husband doesn’t seem to complain. However when she is not reading and writing poetry she’s cooking, baking, watching an HBO series insecure, games of thrones, and singing all Mary j.blige and AL green tunes. She and her husband share their home in central Florida with their two extraordinary Children ruckus 1 and 2 and a lifetime collection of poetry books. Channel is also the founder of Project emilani, a description of the corporation can not be explained due to privacy reasons. You can connect with Channel on Instagram or email

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Rev. date: 08/24/2020

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WITH DARKNESS HAS TO COME THE LIGHT

I’VE LOVED, LOST AND GAINED

DEDICATED TO THOSE WHO TOLD ME TO KEEP WRITING

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

CONTENTS

Yearning

Mirror

If These Walls Could Talk

Let it go

Promise

Grief

Do you love me?

Sadness and the disease

Red Lines

Darkness

Covered Eyes

Cold

Opaque

Peace, never stood still

Galaxy

Damaged

Lust

Grace

Bittersweet

Does he know

The Storm

Broken

Silver Spoon

Puppet

Home

The End

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That beautiful smell of your aroma and lavender smelled sheets that nice caress from your hands to my feet, those soft lips that taste of happiness along with dancing fairies in my head. That longing to touch you and see you again is where we were once again

Those soft cheeks upon your face and that charming smile, kept me close and naïve to all the pain and the cries that trickled down my face. The anger and aggression kept me thrilled and yearning for more.

Who is this man? what does he stand for? the power in his voice can clear a room. His silence was deadly, with one shot of his look made you quiver, and think of darkness. But I was always yearning, yearning longing for