The Secret Diary of Hidden Lusts and Desires
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I wrote this book from passion, it is what I feel I need
I wrote this book to inspire your many hidden desires
I wrote this book to give someone something to admire
I wrote this book on love and how I believe it should feel
I wrote this book about heartaches because they are so cruelly real
I wrote this book about being broken since it's how I feel every day
I put my emotions into words to help some pain and anger go away
I wrote this book about sex because it satisfies my hunger
It keeps my mind flowing wild and my heart growing younger
I wrote this book about hidden lusts to remind myself of the fire that I have been blessed with to eagerly share and inspire
I wrote this book for you, darling, I wrote this book for me
I wrote this book for the many others
Who are full of heartaches but still try to love
Darling, I wrote this book for the broken ones, just like you and me
JGG
Jennifer G. Giuliano
I'm just a simple girl trying to live a simple life, Reaching out to many others with similar pain and strife What I have experienced in my life, I would never take it back Although it hurts tremendously giving away everything And receiving not even a fraction of it back I am a hopeless romantic, I fear I fall into love too fast I guess I'm searching for something to fill The gaping void within me from my past I search for the same love in others that I can't find in myself I find for many endless nights, I am hurt, left empty, and without The relationships that I have encountered, they have changed the person I was born to be But I will forever wear my heart on my sleeve and forgive others because that’s me For those many times, I was wrapped up in someone else’s arms I feel they took a piece of me with them when they decided to leave and carry on But still I try to manage to keep loving just as hard as before In hope that someone will answer my call whenever I knock on their hearts’ door I have been writing for many years, I've just kept my memories in a diary It took a lot of strength and courage to share with you This secret diary of what's going on Inside the depths me. —JGG
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The Secret Diary of Hidden Lusts and Desires - Jennifer G. Giuliano
Copyright © 2015 by Jennifer. G. Giuliano.
ISBN: Softcover 978-1-5144-3230-3
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Contents
Motherly love
Free verse
Second language
Read you
Believe
I’ll be there
I dreamed of love
Love in the sand
Tell me
Sit with me
Cry for help
Existence of love
Emblem
Last meal
Last pose
Love with eez
Love sees no color
From above
The first love letter
I miss you…
The Second Love letter
Loving
In my mind
Gypsy
Entity of love
Souls Entwined.
Lethal Dose
Princess Diaries
Conquer and divide
The truth is
Take my hand
Tell me why
Hold me
I love you
When I close my eyes
To My Best Friend
Military love
What’s next?
What is love?
Romance
Ode to the lover
What are you waiting for?
You
You are
Angel of darkness
Vampiress
Weak
For you
Dreams
Perfect
Why I write
Endlessly
Collision
Promise
Just One
Seeds
Poetic Love
Evening thoughts
The One
Your Lover and your friend
Flawless Bond
To be in love
Can I Be The One
Poetically in love
Will you?
Plea to you
Surroundings
Fairy tales
Oceans of pain
Heartbreak
Consumed by fear.
Fading away
I lied
The Night
The Break Up
Last Goodbye
The best thing you had
I don’t know why
I know
Russian Roulette
Regret
Have you
First time
Frantic emotions
History Repeats
Last smile
At Last
Why
Her story
Emotions in a panic
Last rain
Last tattoo
Last dream…
Last dream part II
Last prayer
Last drink
Repainting
Secrets Out
Beautiful disaster
Destructive Story
The Switch
Vodka and Tears
Letter To Self
Betrayal
Repercussions
Not the first time
Forbidden Fruit
Don’t stay
Sitting here
Just me
Lover’s Cuffs
One day
Lonely Nights
Masquerade
Life of Cards
Love Magic
Love Spell
Your magic
What if we were?
My thoughts
Life decisions
Within
Realization
Trapped
Dying inside
Missing Piece
Leaves of all colors
Alone
Contract with the Devil
Mask
Hurt
A dream
Blood Debt For Depravity
Attention seeker
Caught up
Pain of your love
Replacement
Asylum of love
Awake
Do you know?
Speaking out
Nice and Slow
You reached out
Hypothesis
Killing me slowly
Hiding in the dark
Misled
Blank picture
Inked
Romance
Fading into a blur
Love is Unfair
Love affair
Pledge of love
Clean Slate
Illusion of love
The Truth Hurts
Confessions of a broken heart
Gone forever
Fresh start
Reflection
Never be the same
Remnants
One in the same
Hears to being you
Torn
Ode to you
Once Upon A Time
Black Hole
End Is Near
Rain
Choice
Gentle
Cracked Open
Orgasmic
Lovingly beat me
Possession.
Mommy Issues.
Ropes
Questions
Sweet pillow talk
Sir
Love slut
Encounters
Dominate leader
Desires to lust
Mine
Kitten
Raining
Intoxicating feeling
You belong to me
Mistress
She learned
Stained lips
Left on her lips
Asphyxiation
Last person
Erotica
Tantalizing feeling
Reverse cowgirl…
Erotic Three-way
Kinky
Noticing me
Erotic words
Sexy phone call
Lovemaking
Charmed
Playing house
Dirty thoughts
What’s your kink
Just how it goes
Kiss
Sin
Touching My Sex
In my mouth
Sexual surprise
Confession
My Lover My Master
Stripper Tales
Stripper tales 2
Dominance
Like I want to
Frisky Friday
Dirty thoughts
D.U.I
Rough sex
Desire
Forbidden
Pleasure
Taking the stage
Mind Blown
Craving
Then We Made Love
Tasting
Sex Pet
Awaiting
Erotic Memoirs
Ride
Heartbeat
Consumption
Blaze
Oxygen
Exploding light
Know the poet
Why
Untitled
Life to and end
Maybe
Empowerment
Scarab
One last smile
Demons play
Last thank you
Vanity
Last dance
Sparks
In love with a poet
Love is
I loved
Diamanté poem
The Demons
The storm
I’m sorry
Miss Karma
Dark voices
Suicide
Rebellious
Read you
Here’s to yoga!
This night
Special place
Broken
Catacombs
Toxic touch
Devils agreement
The Wind
Illuminate
Again
Last time
Lie
Na Pas Sta Tartara!!
Tranquillity
Her death in his strength
Façade
Ravish
Doomed
Hurt
Bones
Beast
Secrets
Last hello
Last compliment
Empty
Heartbeat
Last chance
Change
Hurricane
Writing To Set Myself Free
Voices in the Storm
Promise land
Reborn
New life
Let’s talk
Serenity
Absence
Let it be
Strength
Growing
Hell
Scarabs
Construction
Lessons
Reflection
What it seems
May love be fair
Lesson from love
Profession and Poison
Wreckage
Honoring stones
Overdramatic
Garden
Waiting
Pledge of love
You were
Stay
Metaphor of a broken heart
Parting
Travel
Leaving
Bare
Ramblings
Rise
Moon
Existence
Diminishing Love
She loved
What are you
Speed of love
From lifeless to life
The love and romance collection
41852.pngMotherly love
The happiest moment in my life was when they placed you in my arms,
I knew from that day I would sacrifice my life to keep you safe from harm.
Even in the hospital bed I wouldn’t put you down,
Nurses telling me that it wasn’t safe.
I was so tired I could drop you on the ground
That whole night I didn’t even sleep, I just stayed up and watched you breathe, and listened to your tiny heart beat
Few more hours past, I was able to take you home, into our first apartment that I called our very own.
Then even still I couldn’t put you in your bed.
You stayed up with me in mine, as I softly patted your little blonde head.
Months went on, you grew up so fast,
Before I knew it, you outgrew your baby blue bath.
Your eyes so big, and ever so wide
So heavenly bright blue, as when the ocean reflects from the sky.
Your ringlet curly hair, and your ever so perfect skin
That cutest little smile so bright, as you shined from within.
Before I knew it you were crawling around.
Laughing and cooing make all those precious baby sounds.
Your first word was mama, and I will always remember,
The joy that melted my heart like the beaming sun in December
Now look at you growing up, my lucky number seven
Every day I pray, thanking the lord in the high heavens
That I have you in my life, I will forever stay by your side
Walking with you as you grow, together we will conquer and divide.
Any obstacles that stand in your way, I will even sell my soul to banish them away
A beautiful thing it is, when I get to see you smile and hear you laugh
I know that no matter how bad I feel my life is going,
With you I am on the right path
I will walk along beside you as you continue to grow.
And I promise to never even go one day, not telling you my son.
How much I love you so
41854.png41861.pngFree verse
When I see you it makes me smile.
The sound of your voice serenades my ears.
I’m afraid I’m falling for you way too fast.
But it’s something I don’t have control over.
You told me to be me, to let go of all the hurt and pain.
Just be real and honest with you.
Is all you want, and we will be fine you said.
I used to be able to control this switch, with the ability to turn my emotions on and off.
But with you, it’s a tidal wave at full force,
The winds just keep it going.
I hope you are falling for me just the same,
And our storms will just collide
After it’s all said and done, you will be right there with me
Peacefully beautiful,
Like the subtle calm after the storm
41863.png41865.pngSecond language
Chi cello che cia
When he talks about my ass, he gets me flying high
Never in a million years,
I thought I could find my perfect guy.
What a way with words, he just brings me to my knees.
Not caring what he is saying, just begging for more, please.
Si per sempre amore…
His words make my panties hit the floor
Pure io con tutto il mio cuore…
My body is wanting to feel more and more
His lips on mine, so delicate and warm
Speaking these sweet words, and breathing softly on my skin
This feeling of euphoria arises deep within.
Heating my thighs, feeling the hair on my skin rise.
It’s something in the way his lips move in sync
When he speaks his second language, expressing to me what he thinks.
41873.png43495.pngRead you
Still I try to read you.
This story of your life.
But I’m stuck on chapter one,
with all your pain and strife.
I tried to skip some pages.
And for that I’m truly sorry.
I would rather take my time with you,
and be the happy ending to your heartfelt story…
41875.pngBelieve
I need to believe in something, that’s going to better myself.
I choose to believe in us, without any second doubt
I know it has been hard, and I know it’s been tough.
But all this love we share, it will be more than enough.
I know in this world of people, they will try and keep us apart.
Considering when we started, we were off to a rocky start.
There’s something about you, though.
When you hold me so near.
With just those few sweet moments of bliss, I can erase all my hurt and fear.
My deepest worry, though, can be my biggest mistake.
But if we hold onto who we are, we truly can be something great.
I know we have a lot of work, and I hope that you will stay.
But no matter what happens, in my heart you will forever stay.
For today and tomorrow, maybe the rest of my life
In the back of my mind, I’ll hold on, to the image of how it would be,
To be your perfect dream wife.
And I will stay strong, for what we can be.
Just open your mind and your heart,
choose forever, to stand beside me.
Through the ups and downs through thick and thins.
Don’t ever let go, of the love we share within.
41879.png41881.pngI’ll be there
When you think you are losing, and you just don’t care.
You can count on me, I will always be there.
To make you smile when you’re stuck with a frown.
When your worlds crumbling around you, and the walls are falling down.
Just call on me, your little glimmer of light.
Count on me to take you, from the darkness to light.
Take all your burdens, lay them across my tiny shoulders.
Give me all your hurt and failures which make you grow much colder.
I will lift them up higher, then the stars in the sky.
Because you my dear love, are the one for the rest of my life.
41883.pngI dreamed of love
Once upon a time I dreamed of love
That gooey, mushy, sappy kind of love
And then, as I experienced life, I find myself pondering over and over again
About this gooey, mushy, sappy, kind of love
Who wants that love anyway, because that kind of love wears off.
You get comfortable and it gets boring…
Then you’re stuck looking for that new excitement.
And that’s where things get crazy and people start to get hurt.
I want that passionate, lusting, craving, cold-hearted love.
That you are mine and I am yours, kind of love.
Then kind of love were your partner gets territorial when someone looks at you.
When you keep things interesting, always learning about the other…
What is their dirty little secrets, the things both don’t even want to admit to themselves
This new found love I ponder about over and over ...
Maybe that’s the real deal.
41885.png41889.pngLove in the sand
I wanted to write our names in the sand,
But my oceans of tears would wash it away.
Instead, I’ll write it in my heart,
Because inside there
I know you will forever stay.
41891.pngTell me
Tell me again how you want to see my last shards of clothing fall to the floor
And how my hurt and pain leaves you craving for more
Tell me why you choose me, to be your tarnished lucky token
And how my words full of expression and pain, leave you left unspoken
Tell me why you love me
41893.png41896.pngSit with me
Place your head on my shoulder.
Tell me about makes your beautiful soul so bothered
Oh won’t you, please
Share about you and your pain, comfort flows better when it goes both ways
It is always better when two beings, share something one in the same
Tell me why you’re broken
Why you want to make me your tarnished lucky token
How come you like to see me shy and pulling away
Thoughts of this answer plague my mind for days.
Speak to me more about my last shards of clothing
And how you want to see them fall to the floor
My wrists are bleeding, my heart is so sore.
41898.png41900.pngCry for help
Help me.
What causes this emptiness I feel
As I agonizingly kneel
This void is so deep
Let me be the one,
You always want to keep
I feel alone every day
And the worst thing
I pretend to smile
So people think I’m ok
I need to be one way in front of people.
Hiding how I really feel
But some days I can’t help it,
The emptiness is real.
Then I found you…
You unclipped my dark hair and it fell down around my face.
You took my arms around you, entangled and embraced
Tell my why you can never let me go
Tell me all this once again.
While you brush my hair from my face, and hold me so close.
41902.png41905.pngExistence of love
What is love beyond the word?
Is it the color of your lips?
Which grace your mouth that hides painful words you have spoken?
Is it your beautiful darkened honey brown eyes?
That have pierced me with hurt in so many deceitful ways
Is it your hands when they caress my body?
As you touched my face but got beneath my skin,
Close to my heart then ripped it out many times over again
With you this is the existence of the love I’ve known…
41907.pngEmblem
And with whatever pieces I have left even broken and small…
I will fit them together in one piece,
And adorn you with an emblem of my undying love
41909.png41911.pngLast meal
As a kneel before you a condemned prisoner of your love
Your hand takes mine, this will be the last time
For you left me for thoughts and feelings unknown…
I cry and think of a way to never have us be separated
An offering of two vials is all I have for you.
One for me, and one for you
Sweat from our first time
Tears from our first cry and the blood that’s once coursed our veins
All these emotions we both have felt I have used to fill them
And to seal the mixture a kiss of pain
For my last meal as a prisoner of your love
I wish to share these with you.
Agreed the lovers take the vials to their lips and drink together…
And they fall…
The vial’s