Journey Through My Heart

By Sandra McMurphy

Journey Through My Heart is a book of unconventional poetry written during dark times from 1995 to 2005. The poems are singsong nursery rhymes different than traditional type poems The atmosphere is somewhat negative, and emotions are rampant. I am sure there are multitudes that experience bliss, happiness, and success, but heartache seems to be more prevalent for most. Even if only felt for a moment in time, emotions are a significant part of our lives. They shape who we are and give life substance. Besides, not all of us experience true happiness, but who escapes heartache, anger, or sadness?

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Feb 19, 2015
• ISBN: 9781503529304

Sandra McMurphy

Sandra McMurphy is a freelance writer and poet. She began writing poetry as a way to cope with the daily stresses in life and eventually ended up with a collection large enough for a book. She also enjoys writing song lyrics and self-help manuals. You can listen to song demos by visiting: Collector of Hearts – Lyrics by Sandra McMurphy, Music by Nashville Song Service: http://yourlisten.com/Sheart/01-track-1-collector-of-hearts Tell Him How You Feel - Lyrics by Sandra McMurphy, Music by Nashville Song Service. http://yourlisten.com/Sheart/01-track-1-tell-him-how-you-feel For a copy of the CD please send an email with your request to [e-mail]

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Copyright © 2015 by Sandra McMurphy.

Library of Congress Control Number:   2014922669

ISBN:      Hardcover    978-1-5035-2928-1

                Softcover      978-1-5035-2929-8

                eBook           978-1-5035-2930-4

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CONTENTS

Introduction

Chapter 1 - Heartache

Chapter 2 - Love

Chapter 3 - Haunted Memories

Chapter 4 - Suicidal Thoughts

Chapter 5 - Family Ties

Chapter 6 - Philosophical Nest

Chapter 7 - Songs

I dedicate this book to

my children and to

Randy

my one true love

who stays by my side

no matter what

you

are my strength and

my courage

you

believe in

me.

INTRODUCTION

There is a fine line between madness and obsession. Obsession is a compulsive preoccupation with an object or person, usually accompanied by anxiety. Insanity is a range of abnormal behaviours or patterns. Some folks hide their emotions and stuff them down so deep that they can turn ugly and unrecognizable. Suppressed emotions will wreak havoc on any sane person and cause them to behave in an irrational way, like spewing anger upon everything and anyone they come in contact with.

I’m not angry! she yells as she slams the doors.

When physical actions do not match up with verbal response you know there is more going on than what is being communicated. It is our non-verbal communication that shows us the truth behind our words. This is why it is so important to get those feelings out, but in a positive way. It’s not the emotion that gets us in trouble it is what we do with it that may not give a desirable outcome. Writing is an excellent way to expunge those horrible feelings of anger and despair.

That is why I took a ….

Journey Through My Heart…

Where you will find turbulent human emotion expressed through poetry. Come with me on my journey through heartache, depression, suicidal thoughts, healing, and anything else when one inherits when childhood abuse is not dealt with and grows into adulthood.

Do you dare take a ride on my roller coaster of emotional turbulence?

Take a chance and see for yourself.

Come with me and discover what lies deep within.

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JOURNEY THROUGH MY HEART

Falling in love, getting married and raising a family is what most women strive for from the time we can play house until our last dying breath. We hunt for it like animals. It’s what we desire most in life, to fall in love and raise a family. We play house and watch movies and soak it all in. We were born to be fruitful and multiply. Even the bible tells us to do so. To reproduce is instinct and the human emotion is strong.

The drawing illustrated on the previous page is a symbolic representation of womanhood. The breast shaped hearts with the chains represent the loss of innocence and the boundaries of romantic love. Real love has no chains.

Sometimes we are so high on love that the world looks divinely sunny and exciting. Life has meaning. But alas, it never lasts. Eventually our insecurities and hang-ups cause conflicts and the romance fades being replaced with heartache. The heart represents womanhood and the chains that bind us.

The tiniest heart is the baby. She is sweet and innocent and gives her heart with joy. She has no chains yet. If only we could