I Wrote This for You
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I wrote this for you.
You are a Phalaenopsis
sticking out of the wall
contrary to everything ordinary.
I don’t know what it is
but something about you makes me go amok,
a craving worse than smoking.
Something like beautiful.
Something haywire.
I know if I have you,
I would probably quit my secondhand habits
and walk into rehab without understanding why.
I would become a disciple and go to church every day.
Just for you.
Just to see your face.
Anything you love,
I will become.
Estina Ailoje
Estina Nayoka Ailoje is a model and an international butterfly, who loves to travel the world and write about the many emotions her journeys through life has taken her. Spending her early childhood in a war driven country before moving to a place that taught her about solitude, self-acceptance and love. Growing up in a big family, her shy and awkward personality drove her to confide in writing during difficult times. Soon a habit created as a defense mechanism became a hobby, she could not live without. After moving to the states in 2007, she decided to pursue an education in Arts & Fashion but was soon discouraged by some of her family members. In the end, she got a bachelor’s degree in Public Administration but along the way continued to attend literature sessions and read poetry from some of the best poet’s, including international writers. While working on research papers and projects in school, many of her professors took notice of her writing and encouraged her to work on a book but within that time frame, there was always an issue that would push her works. Although time did hold her back, she never gave up. “People feel but I feel so deeply sometimes it scares me. It is a ruff of everything that makes me wonder, my imagination is really just so wild and beautiful but yet ugly.” - Estina
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I Wrote This for You - Estina Ailoje
Copyright © 2020 by Estina Ailoje.
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Rev. date: 02/08/2021
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CONTENTS
In His Image
Emotions in The Closet
What do you think of our love?
The Beginning
To Fill The Void
To My Master
Dancing on Ice
Your last spring
The Day You Bloom
My Little Oyster
Lost
What If
Disappointment
My Girl
Shiny Things
Addiction
Underneath it All
Movies
Trauma
Denial
I Wrote This for You
When I First Met You
You
Gone Too Soon (for Breonna Taylor)
Fear & Faith
Bad Beautiful
My Kind of Love
Shadow Banned
Teach Me How to Love
Unrequited Love
Regret
Death Bed
A Prayer
Dirty Love
⁴th Of July
No Signal
Ordinary Boy
Notice Me
Memories
The Silent Treatment
Those We Have Lost
Love is Blind
The Becoming of My Enemy
With You
Selfish Lover
Pictures
The Boy Who Could Never Love
Damaged Goods
Colo(u)r
Kind-Hearted
The Broken
To Proof One’s Love
Healing
Guilt
Things That Remind Me of You
My Little Lady
The Call
When the sad bird cries
The After Effect
Forgiving Yesterday
In His Defense
Its okay not to be okay
Decisions
Sleeping with The Devil
Planting This Feelings
Bugs
Heavy
Love and Other Disasters
Words
Commitmentphobia
Sad Playlist
Especially on Sunday’s
For Valentine’s Day
I Did This for You
The Day We Broke Up
Space
Dear You
When The Boy I Loved, Never Changed (Peter Pan)
Candle Light
To My Soulmate
Strangers
Blood on Heavens Hands
Ease
Time
Suicide for Closure
The Stages of A Rose
Laundry
Sad Days
She
Chasing Miracles
Scars
Sacred
The Rain
The Moon
Wrong Timing
Lust
(Soul) Food
Diamond in The Ruff
Ghosts of My Past
Imperfections
Anxiety
Lethal Fairy
One
Gardening
This poem is for:
IN HIS IMAGE
You are the sun and the moon.
You are the earth and its roots.
The rain comes alive
to kiss you at your feet.
Though this dream we rise daily,
left us to doubt our whole existence.
Birthed through an extraordinary thread.
To exist means you are special.
To exist, means you in fact
are a part of God.
You are king and own your own crown.
Always walk like God and live like a God,
most of all, love others,
as kin to God.
EMOTIONS IN THE CLOSET
Some people
scar
in secret.
The rest of us
carry our wounds on our sleeves,
for the world to see.
.
I hope you find someone
who can hear you,
in silence and endurance.
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF OUR LOVE?
Do you think our love would weather the storm and be still,
or be brawled like the waves of the sea
to be hushed?
Does it make you shiver with how’s.
Anxious to love me as your one and only or
does it make you quiver and