Nineteen
By Grace Huo
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Nineteen - Grace Huo
Copyright © 2019 by Grace Huo.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019919602
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-7960-0693-3
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Rev. date: 12/16/2019
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CONTENTS
Part I
Loving and Losing
Lovers Are Gone
Myself and I
Love Knocks on Your Door
Radio
Happy Tears
In a Month
Elope
Repeat
Pain Makes Art
Night Stroll
Sleepless Nights
Heal
In Between
Break Me Free
Worthiness
Part II
Hurting and Healing
Ten-Word Story
Note to You
Eat
You Forgot to Breathe
Loose
Wide Awake
I Lied
This Time ’Round
Raw
Stuffed Toy
You and I
Part III
Sinking and Searching
Free
Loner
Fractions
Free Falling
Young, Attractive, Insecure
Sunk Costs
Last Train
Try to Love
Big Eyes, Sad Life
Free Fall
My World
My Dear
Tell Me What I Am
How to Feel
Search for Freedom
Myself
C’est la Vie
Home
Don’t Dream It’s Over
Ink
Soul
MAGA
Travelled
Pride—Love Is Love
Panic Attack
Confession
Writers Are Fighters
Give Yourself Credit
Infinity and Beyond
Dreams Wait
Winter
Paces
Walk the Walk
Wide Awake
Shake
The Big Questions
Sublime
Another Drink or Two
Too Young to Die
Ghosts
Sleep
Runaway
Pillows
Keep Sinking
Afraid
Attempted Poetry
Bet
PART I
Loving and Losing
part%201.jpgLovers Are Gone
Fuck you,
I said to my feelings
Fuck you,
they said back
Back and forth, so on and on repeat
What a grumpy mess you are
I had to ask if they accept cheques
My happiness has been cashed out; I’m deeply in debt
Where did you think you’re going
Running away without hugging me goodbye?
At least look at me and see the love in my eyes
My mornings are disappearing in order
Gone before I could catch them like a four-leaf clover
Lovers are gone; they only stay for so long
Myself and I
The tears dried on my face. Everything exploded in screaming colours, the ugliest you could imagine: grey, brown, dark green. I jumped out of my skin for a second and felt liberated. But then I awoke, and it was just a dream. The most beautiful of dreams are always those where I stop being myself, where I am someone else … I am finally free! But it’s a nightmare I’ll never wake up from; it is the haunting sadness of life. Everything was grey again, and then dark, then darker, then darker than that. Everything died, and my heart, it died a long time ago.
I stopped crying, I turned around, and my life haunted me.
A false skin on my face, false fingers on my hands. Who controls me? Why am I so happy? Hello, I’m fine. How are you? But I’m not. I’m dragging the pieces along with me, trying not to make any noises so I don’t wake up the ones long gone. But I wish they could hear me. I wish I was one of them. My compulsive brain won’t stop. Who controls me, God? There is no God. There is the angel of darkness. May I speak to her? But she is me. I am me, I am controlled, and I control me. But the bits and pieces, they are roaming free. Goodbye, because I will never see them again. Goodbye, that wholeness of me, torn up already from my very beginning.