Channel of Love
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This is an extraordinary true story about the power of divine love. There is no greater healing power than the power of love. It is my story written in love in honor of love, a love that never fails and never dies.
Susan Carroll
Author Susan Carroll began her career in 1986, writing historical romance and regencies, two of which were honored by Romance Writers of America with the RITA award. She has written twenty six novels to date. Her St. Leger series received much acclaim. The Bride Finder was honored with a RITA for Best Paranormal Romance in 1999 and also received the Reviewers Choice Award from Romantic Times magazine for Historical Romance of the year. Two sequels followed, The Night Drifter and Midnight Bride.Ms. Carroll launched a new series with the publication of The Dark Queen, The Courtesan, The Silver Rose, The Huntress and Twilight of a Queen all set during the turbulent days of the French Renaissance. A blend of history, romance and intrigue, these books relate the saga of the Cheney sisters, three women of extraordinary abilities who live in constant peril of being accused of witchcraft. The novels combine fictional characters with real events and personages such as the enigmatic Catherine de Medici , the lusty Henry of Navarre and the dynamic Elizabeth I of England. The sixth and final book in the series will be published in fall of 2012.Ms. Carroll was born in Latrobe, Pa. She spent much of her childhood in South Jersey where she graduated from Oakcrest High School in Mays Landing. She attended college at Indiana University of Pennsylvania, where shereceived a B.A. in English with a minor in history. She currently resides in Illinois.
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Channel of Love - Susan Carroll
Copyright © 2020 by Susan Carroll.
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To my spirit, who has waited patiently and lovingly all these years for our voice to be heard, for our story to be told.
CONTENTS
Preface
Chapter 1: The Beginning
Chapter 2: Freedom And Beyond
Chapter 3: Slipping Into Darkness
Chapter 4: Walking In Darkness
Chapter 5: A Way Opens
Chapter 6: The Conversation Begins
Chapter 7: The Conversation Continues
Chapter 8: Be Good To Yourself
Chapter 9: You Are Always With God
Chapter 10: I Feel What You Feel
Chapter 11: I Have Some Questions
Chapter 12: Take A Prayer
Chapter 13: Amazing Grace
Chapter 14: You Know My Heart
Chapter 15: I Surrender
Chapter 16: The Evil One Is All Around
Chapter 17: Rising Up
Chapter 18: Learning To Pray
Chapter 19: Learning To Honor My Body
Chapter 20: Renewing Of The Mind
Chapter 21: The Never-Ending Prayer
PREFACE
This story is the record of my encounter with divine love. It took place at a time in my life when nothing else but the love of God could see me through the darkness of alcoholism and depression. I always knew that, one day, I would write and publish this book, but it took nine years for me to find the courage to do so. I knew God wanted me to speak my truth and tell the story of my miraculous redemption and transformation. I understand that, for many readers, it will be an unbelievable story, one that simply could not have taken place and was, therefore, contrived and created in an unstable mind and spirit. For how can there be such a direct communion with God, guides, and departed loved ones?
I know what I have experienced and have recorded the events from memory and journals to the best of my ability. During the writing process, I also allowed my spirit to come forward and bring inspiration to the writing process, helping to choose words or remember important pieces of the story that I may have forgotten or failed to record. At times, my heart felt as if my spirit was telling the story and I was merely the scribe. What joyful writing that was!
In present time, I still receive written messages of love and support from my guides in heaven who love and watch over me, but I have no direct communication with God, Mother God, Erob, or my mother. I know in my heart that they are continuing to send their love, support and guidance, but in a different way now. When I pray for guidance or just sit quietly and listen with my heart, I hear the same message, Go with love. Always choose love.
The completion of this book is an assignment long overdue, but it’s never too late to speak the truth. As my spirit told me many years ago, You will tell the story and the truth shall set you free.
I am now, indeed, free. Thank you to all who have loved me, guided me, inspired me to tell this story of never ending love that has no boundaries and no end. Love never fails. Love wins.
CHAPTER ONE
THE BEGINNING
When we least expect it, a shift happens. We often do not see or feel it coming, but it is there, silently waiting to be recognized as the hand of God beginning to move in our lives. Once in place, this force is so powerful that it can rearrange an entire life in an instant and remain in place forever.
Before the shift, my life, spanning five decades, was just a story. When I was a child, I felt as if the story was being written for me by some invisible, all-powerful force that was responsible for writing all children’s life stories. I saw that some children had better stories than others, stories that were full of love and joy and secure in ways that I could only witness but never experience. In my innocent mind, I did not understand why I was given this story, but I intuitively knew that it was mine, my part to play as best I could. The seeds of insecurity, fear, anxiety, and the longing for unconditional love were all planted during this time and flourished well during my teenage and adult years.
My mother and father, as all parents do, did the best they knew how to create a safe and loving home for their children. In some ways, they were successful, but in other ways, they were not. Working as a physician, my father was able to provide a financially stable home, but together, they struggled to create a home that was emotionally stable and secure for their four children. My earliest memories of my life with my parents, my brothers, and my sister are filled with both great joy and great pain. Love and joy could be present one moment and then gone in an instant only to be replaced with anger, fear, or uncertainty.
In my story, my mother struggled with depression, as well as alcoholism. My father was much more stable, but due to his work schedule, he was often an absent character in my daily life. My mother’s struggles continued throughout my childhood and beyond. I have always had great compassion for her life story, even as it spilled pain into mine. When she was a young child, both her mother and father passed away. Tuberculosis and pneumonia stole the lives of her parents and left her abandoned in grief. Even though loving relatives adopted her and cared for her, this grief was with her always. She was unable to lay it down, so she learned to carry it with her, hidden from sight, but always present in her heart. Grief would silently direct the acts of her story. I believe that she never recovered from this loss of primary love. When her own children were born, she loved them fiercely but was never able to emotionally connect with or express her love freely. I know that she loved us deeply, but there were no hugs, kisses, or declarations of love in our home. Her disconnect was too great, a valley of grief that we, as her children, could not cross.
From outward appearances, my mother seemed to be a successful mother and wife. Behind the scenes was another story. She played her role well but was all the while disconnected from the love she so desperately wanted and needed.