A Letter to My Son

By Keyia Banner

I'm writing this book to remind myself and other mothers that loosing a child is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. I'm dedicating this book to his daughter Shamiya and every mother that is going to the suffering I'm going through. I love you Dymere and your always in my heart. This is a letter to my son.

• Language: English
• Publisher: iUniverse
• Release date: Jan 24, 2020
• ISBN: 9781532093630

Keyia Banner

Keyia Banner was born September 14th 1971 in West Philadelphia. She attended Walnut Elementary school. In 1990 Keyia graduated from Penn Wood High School, where she developed a passion for writing. In 2003 started Nursing School as a medical assistant. Raising 4 children on her own was a challenge, but she did it the best she could. Keyia moved around a lot to make a better life for them. That’s what gave her the strength, confidence and motivation. Keyia has many talents, she is one heck of a home decorator and a advocate for the homeless. Something that is very important to her, helping others in need.

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OPENING LETTER

Dymere: January 28, 1993–August 25, 2018

Dear Dymere:

Even when I was pregnant with you, I knew you were going to be someone special. Feeling you growing inside me even though I wasn’t with your father, I still wanted to have you.

I always wanted you from day one. I already had three children, but when I found out about you, I was overjoyed. I tried my best to be a good mom. I think I did a pretty good job.

When I gave birth to you, he wasn’t there. When you turned one, he wasn’t there. Even when a child needs his dad, in his teens, he wasn’t there. He would call, but all he wanted to know what was I doing instead of asking about you.

It hurt me so much when you would ask me, Where’s my dad? All I could say was that he wasn’t here. I really wanted to tell you the truth, but you were too young.

I tried to keep you busy so you wouldn’t ask me about him ’cause I didn’t want to talk about him, and I’m sorry for that.

I tried to make him love us, but I guess having a child doesn’t make a man stay.

Things got harder as the years passed and you grew into a man. I knew you needed your dad, but he wouldn’t communicate with me unless it was under his terms.

I decided to take matters into my own hands. I was so prepared to be a single mother. You thought you were a mistake, but you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I always told you that.

We always bumped heads. You always thought I had taken you away from him, but that wasn’t the case. I removed us from negativity and danger. He was involved in a lot of things, and I didn’t want you around all that mess. I was protecting you.

You and I bumped heads, and we had our differences, but you were my son and I was your mom no matter what we went through.

You were so outspoken and really never let anyone tell you anything. I never wanted to see you unhappy or upset. I tried to protect you through everything in life, but you, Dymere, weren’t going to let anyone stop you from doing what you wanted to do.

When I got the call that you were in the hospital, the first thing I thought was you had been hurt and I would have to take care of you.

The ride to the hospital was so long, and I kept looking at my phone. My heart started beating really fast.