When War Calls

By Nicole

This book is inspired by real-life events in Nicoles life, struggling to get through it with God as she was going through life trail and tribulations. During her down times, God inspired her to write the book. When War Calls is a self-written book by Nicole. This book is about how she dealt with abuse, addictions, mental health, life-threatening disease, the loss of her mother, and depression. It is about a mothers fight to war for her life and her children. Nicole had to learn fast that she had to fight hard for her family through prayer, fasting, trusting God, and moving on the commands of the Word of God through learning how to obey the voice of the Lord.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 26, 2017
• ISBN: 9781543417562

Nicole

Nicole is a 39-year-old widowed woman according to most but to her, shes always going to be a wife to Sabian and will see him in another dimension. She was born in a small town in Greeneville, Tennessee, which she now resides at. She has moved to different cities and states since she was 19 years old. She resided in Hollywood, California 15 years and for five, she lived in Des Moines, Iowa with her hubby Sabian whom she wrote about for 5 years. Nicole writes poetry, is a singer-songwriter and is part of the Nashville Songwriters Association. She also does certified Reiki healings. Shes a medicine woman, shaman, a twin flame with her hubby and takes care of people. She has done psychic medium duties, modeling and extra work as an actress like cameos and prop modeling. She enjoys making arts & crafts such as dream catchers, soaps, and candles. Life has been very difficult for her since Sabian passed but miracles have happened.

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Contents

Thanks & Acknowledgements

Chapter 1 Let there be light

Chapter2 Allergic Reaction

Chapter 3 When All Hell breaks Out

Chapter 4 Holding on to Baggage

Chapter 5 Wounded Warriors

Chapter 6 Repositioning Your Thoughts

Chapter 7 Hiding Secrets, Secret Battles, Sweet Honey, Wrong Place Right Time

Chapter 8 Two of A Kind

Chapter 9 When waiting Can Be Frustrating but Can Be Transforming

Chapter 10 The Battle Isn’t Mines It Belongs to The Lord

Chapter 11 Love Relationship’s

Chapter 12 Waging War in The Mind

Chapter 13 You have The Key Now Open the Door

Chapter 14 Let God Groom You for Greatness

Chapter 15 At the Cross

Chapter 16 Giving too Much too Soon

Chapter 17 Bait

Chapter 18 Casting Your Nets to The right

Chapter 19 Storms Come to Test Your Foundation

Chapter 20 Built To Last

Chapter 21 Bridging The Gap To Your Purpose

Chapter 22 Trigger Happy Moments

Chapter 23 Trigger Happy Moments

Chapter 24 When God is More Than Enough

Chapter 25 When Trusting God And Doubt Steps In

Chapter 26 Don’t Let Life Detour You

Chapter 27 Staying on the Road of Success

Chapter 28 The Pursuit of Happiness

Chapter 29 Submit your Vision to God

Chapter 30 There is Power in the Word

Chapter 31 Can you Stand to Be Pressed

Chapter 32 War

Chapter 33 War War C

Chapter 34 built To Last

Chapter 35 Winning Circle

Thanks & Acknowledgements

I want to give my lord and savior all the praise and the glory for all he has done for me without God I couldn’t have done this with all the tears and hard work sweat pain the strength that God gave to me I am truly thankful to God to even get to this by him choosing me to be his child I am truly grateful. Thanks to everything you done for me and my family teaching me through prayer and fasting and giving that I can do anything that I can put my heart to without you guiding me every step of the way.

Secondly, I want to thank my other half of me for being there for me when I would call you and cry you were there for me during the time written this book you listen to most of all my chapters to see if you liked it for always being there for me even when I wasn’t so in a good mood thanks for everything that for all the advice you gave to me.

I want to thank my three children for being patient with me at the times they wanted my attention thanks for being the boys I always wanted even when I have been through so much we all stuck it out we stood as a family. To my oldest for stepping in and helping me with your brothers. For cooking when I got tired for also being the strength that I wouldn’t change you for the world for being strong for yourself when I couldn’t you rock son and I love you with all my heart. To my middle child thank you for always having a voice to everything thank you for being my strong-willed child you have found strength even in your tough times we have come a long way. But we always made it work out I’m very proud of you all you have showed me how to be a better mother I have learned a lot from you all. To my last born my baby boy I want to thank you for never giving me a dual day with all the energy you have always keep me grounded always telling me about your needs as a special child having all your needs meet. Thanks for being the autistic child that you are you’re not different you’re the child that God gave to me because I really feel like God choose Me to be your mother and you my child.

Thanks for placing all my pens and pencils in a straight line with me almost tripping on them thanks for showing me how to raise your thanks for bringing so much joy to my life thanks to you all love you boys to pieces.

Thanks to my sister the mother of the family because you took on the responsibility of being there for all of us I am truly thankful for the times you helped me thru college and hair school thank you for always showing the things that I didn’t know how to do. and being patient with me for being there for me and my children even when you had your own family to deal with Thank you and I love you.

Thanks to you Grandma for raising me in a Christian home base always teaching me about God teaching me that prayer works for never putting me down always lifting me up. Thanks for always having my back no matter what. Thanks for your hedge of protection over me and my children for always being understanding when I called when others let me down just for being that listening ear granny for getting me out of bends when I really needing it. I love you because you showed me what a true woman of God looks like.

Thanks to my older sister for being the oldest of us girls for showing me that I can always do things with God thanks for letting me sit in to watch you do peoples hair I learned from the best thanks for being who you are even though we don’t see each other as much but your always and will be loved by me love you much.

Thanks to my dad for coming back into my life I think it’s great that were building on new things thanks for who you are because you help me see that if I work hard at what I want I can do anything I put my mind to. Thanks Dad I love you.

And to my best friend thanks for listening to all my ups and downs and for always having that smile that would make any one’s day. Thanks for always having my back being there for me when I lost my mother. Thanks for always been there and you’re probably the only one that still calls me blue Jay lol and for always believing in me when I didn’t believe in myself. Thanks for crying with me and taking me where I needed go. Thanks for showing me what a family truly looks like you set a good example.

Mom even when you’re no longer on this earth I want to thank you for being that mother that knew how to do and fix everything. For teaching me how to do what I need to do even without the help of a man you are being a single mom you always provided for all four of your girls and that never went unseen thanks for speaking your mind even when I didn’t want to hear it you said it anyway. Thanks for not bringing all types of men around your girl’s thanks for your protection. I love you so much even in yours absents mom thank you. Sorry you won’t be here when I walk down the ally of marriage. And for all the things I have accomplished in my life but I know you would be proud of me.

Thanks to my other half of me my fiancé, my best friend, my lover, my friend, thanks for always pushing me to be the best that I can be. Thanks for your over flow of support always having my back my ride or die my heart giving more than enough love that I always needed from a man. Thanks for coming to get me. Thanks for pushing me to the point even when I didn’t want to be push. Thanks for being that God-fearing man thanks for letting me be who am never wanting me to change. Loving me for who I am thanks for fasting with me hanging in there with me for praying with me and praying for me and boys for loving my boys as your own. For stepping in when they needed that male figure. Thank you, babe, looking forward to being your wife. Love you much,

To all my nieces and nephews, you guys will all have a special place in my heart. Each one of you have touched me in your own way. I love you all.

Chapter 1

Let there be light

There is always something that makes you have a light bulb moment and somethings clicks in your mind where you open your eyes when the light turns on. The first thing we do is cover our eyes, our eyes get dilated because the light is so bright. There is always that point in your life were the light will help you see straight in front of you. The light will guide you a little better to where you need to go. Its better then walking and feeling your way through life in the dark. Isn’t it clear that trying to feel your way through life in the darkness isn’t fun like when I wanted to write this book. I was trying to figure out how, what, and where, who was going to help me. Now when God told me to write the book I must admit I was a little afraid I was like God I don’t have a clue what to do or where to start. I wasn’t a writer I love to write but I didn’t Know first thing about written a book before and who was I my name wasn’t great. You sure lord little old me I started to question where God was taking me and surly God answered my question he said why not you. Your life will help others its many women and Men out there in this world waiting to hear your story, God used all my tragedies. My strongholds my fears my struggles. My good my bad. To help me write this book God said write the book he used ever chapter in my life so I can help others get through their storms. And how God gave me just enough light for the path that he was taking me on. All he wanted from me was an okay lord let’s do this God so my eyes became opened to the things that I thought was. Impossible he showed me that it was possible when I follow his lead. In a world that tells you that it can’t be done. Or the what ifs that’s when God spoke to me and he told me not to worry that he will take care of all the impossible. You just write the book and I will give you every chapter in your book from the beginning to the end I just need you to start. And I will give you just enough light that you need. So, I started looking at the things much better do to the light when God gives you a path he will provide everything that you need to even get there including all the tools needed to get there. Just like in the first chapter of the bible in genesis chapter 1 reads that in the beginning God made from nothing the heavens and the earth. 2. the earth was empty waste and darkness was over the deep waters. And the spirit of God was moving over the top of the waters. 3. Then God said let there be light," and there was light. God saw that the light was good. 4. God saw that the light was good. He divided the light from the darkness 5. Then God called the light day, and he called the darkness night. There was evening and there was morning, one day. Now I’m not trying to be funny but God did all this in one day now let’s stop right there. I’m not a rocket scientist, but God knew that the darkness couldn’t last by its self it had to divide the two days. Calling one from the other darkness couldn’t be the only thing to this place called earth. It needed some light to see what was around us, we couldn’t see without the light that God provided for us. The light was turned on our God is a great God of what is and what’s to come. God knew that these two days needed to be so he divided into days, so he called the light day and the darkness was called night. So in my life half of my days were spent in darkness due to me wanting to go my own way thinking that I knew what was best for me. As a single mother that’s never been married I based all my decision making on my emotions and you know that’s never good for anyone. It landed me in a life full of emotional trauma, hurt, depression, anxiety, unhealthy relationships. Which landed me in a darkness that was very hard for me to get free from. The very thing that I was trying to walk alone without any light it was like feeling my way through the darkness without enough light my chances of survival were slim to none. Oh but god is such a great god that even in my darkest hours of my life he still gave me just enough to help me out. It was my decision that I was making in my life that was making me weak. Bitter, anger, hatful, lustful, women. And unforgiveness was up rooting inside me with all the hurt that stuck inside me. It started as early as a child my early years in life when I started noticing that I was messing a void in my life and it started with me wanting a father the missing point in my life I really needed my father to feel that void in my life. My heavenly father was always their but there is something about having your earthly father I saw most of my friends have their fathers in their life and I wanted that so bad. I really did he was the