It Will Take Love to Heal These Broken Wings

By Natasha Harris

Natasha Harris came up in a hard part of North Philadelphia called "The Badlands" which led her to become compassionate, loving, generous, and humbled by her experience as a Foster child in the Foster care system. This book was meant to inspire anyone who has been waiting on the love and affection of another person to come knocking on their door. It doesn't always happen. Sometimes you have to find the love that you need in your spirituality and down inside of you. In this book, walk with Natasha Harris from Homelessness to Hopefulness, Foster Care to Freedom and from Sadness to Success.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BK Royston Publishing
• Release date: Sep 27, 2018
• ISBN: 9781386308867

Natasha Harris

Natasha Harris has been a viable minister in the Body of Christ since 2006. She is a Visionary and Leadership Developer, both in Ministry and in Business. She has been referred to as a Prophetic Midwife when it relates to Leaders who are advancing in the Kingdom of Righteousness through Business Ownership and Ministry Leadership.

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It Will Take Love to Heal These Broken Wings

Natasha Harris

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Edited by:  Kaylee Overbey

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BK Royston Publishing, LLC

Jeffersonville, IN

BK Royston Publishing

P. O. Box 4321

Jeffersonville, IN  47131

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All Rights Reserved.  No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author. 

Cover Design:  Bill Lacy

Cover Photo:  Gregory Maxx II

ISBN-13:  978-0692691816

ISBN-10: 0692691812 

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Printed in the USA

Dedication

As I think about unconditional love and compassion I think of the women God put in my life to steer me into in the right direction.  I’m grateful for my mother and father who gave me a special set of skills that I will use throughout my lifetime. I dedicate this to my siblings Ayanna, Rasheeda, and Khalil and God brother Dauwd, who I always took great pride in helping to raise and be a role model for them to look up to. They gave me that extra push I needed to succeed by just looking at their faces. Having younger siblings forced me to grow up faster than I had anticipated.  They felt like my first set of children before I had my own. They allowed me to practice my nurturing and protective skills on them. They were my sunshine on rainy days. Thinking about the love I have for all four of them is indescribable.

My grandmother Anna shared everything she had to make me a better person. I thank her personally for always being the rock of our family and standing tall through all the adversities we may have experienced. She set a high standard in our family, to achieve education and use it as a weapon that no one can take away from you in the future. Her style and fashion was always impeccable and will never be duplicated. Many would try to imitate her, but she is the original Queen while others are simply a knock off copy.

I’m thankful for all of my aunts and uncles who were there in the struggle with me. Thank you for never giving up on me and always making a way for me to be a part of greatness. You showed me what real love was all about and you went over above and beyond because of the love you have for my mother.

Shout out to all my cousins that I grew up with and you made me feel special every time we were together. You shared your parents and your personal space with me and I thank you for it. We grew up like we were siblings more than cousins. Our bond is unbreakable and nothing can get in the way of our love that we had since conception. You guys were my heroes and just when you thought I wasn’t paying attention to you I was watching you the whole time.

To my God mother Joyce Burton and my Aunt Hilda Robinson I thank you so much for believing in me when things looked bleak. You were there through thick and thin. Anytime I need some money, food, or cloths, you guys stepped up and made sure I had what I needed. I thank you for allowing me to crash at your houses as often as possible (laughing). I never wanted to leave and always wanted to spend the night. You gave me unconditional love and the grace of God. You accepted me with my flaws and you still loved me at a time I felt useless and abandoned. You’ve planted some good seeds in my garden and I thank you for the rest of my life for the sacrifices you guys made.

To my foster mothers Gwendolyn Green and Madelyn Robertson, you guys were the first black foster family I had in foster care system. You heard God’s voice when he asked you to deliver me out of the belly of the beast. I can never repay you guys for your unconditional love. I felt like giving up and throwing in the towel and you two saved my life from a burning a hell. You taught me how to be a Queen and never allowed anyone to dull my shine. You taught me how to be a lady and conduct myself in the streets or the boardroom.  You were the light at the end of a dark tunnel. I hope you guys are proud of what you helped to create.

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Introduction

One day I woke up and I felt like I wasn’t be true to myself by hiding all the deep dark secrets I’ve kept to myself for so many years. As I felt the pain and the disappointments that life had dealt me, I decided to own who I was and except my flaws and all to be able to stand tall. Accepting my flaws would mean I would have to go back into my past and dig deep to see why I felt the need to hide who I truly was inside. A bag lady that has so many bags to carry around and pretend it doesn’t bother her, wasn’t something I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I wanted to be free to be myself without explanations.  As I peeled off the ugly layers in my life such as: homelessness, low self-esteem, low self-worth, foster care, abused, rejected, neglected, outcast, at risk youth, suicidal, depressed, violent outburst, high school dropout, teen mother, and poverty.  The notion of looking at the ugly parts of my life wasn’t easy and it was very challenging. I took the time off to allow the process of taking your mask off to work in my favor by admitting my faults and taking the opportunity to work on them day by day.

Each time I discovered something new about myself that I didn’t like was the result of my upbringing and lack of affection my parents didn’t choose to invest in me.  With no affection from my parents, it clearly left me unsure of whom I was as a person and female. I felt like if your parents didn’t invest in my upbringing and welfare then I wasn’t worth anything at all. The feeling of nothing was left in the pit of my stomach for so long, and it caused me to have bad relationships with other people who clearly loved and adored me.  I couldn’t determine if their love was real or not because I didn’t get it from my parents first. I was always defensive and hostile with a cold heart. Walking around without the love of my parents left me without a seal of approval to be successful or great as a person, I thought growing up.

Most of the parents I saw were their children’s biggest cheerleaders and they took pride in being a great parent. The rejection and pain was so unbearable that I didn’t easily accept love in my life. It was my extended family like my great grandmother Estelle Houston and grandmother Anna Harris that showed me two forms of love in different ways. I got the love and affection from Estelle and Anna made sure all of my basic needs were met. My aunts, uncles, God mothers, and cousins showed me another type of love which was loyalty and faithfulness.  Building relationships was a part of life that I enjoyed the most. I am a lover of people and to have my extended family support and love me was everything to me.

Most people may believe when love comes knocking on their door they will open it so readily. I was always waiting on my parents love to come knocking on my door and it seemed like I would be waiting for eternity for it to come. There wasn’t a book or a manual to explain how to live without your parents love or affection out at the time when I was growing up. This book was meant to inspire anyone who has been waiting on the love and affection of another person to come knocking on their door. Let’s do a test run and see how long you should sit around and wait for any person