My Ugly: The Beginning of the Journey to My Beauty
By Flower
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Flower
Flower was born on November 22, 1974, in California, where she still resides today. One of multiple siblings living amid a complex array of parental oddities. Subsequently becoming a bit of a cast-aside child, bouncing between families and constantly changing schools. From a high school dropout, to a single teen mom, and then wife, and eventually a mother of five. Flower became an active volunteer at her children’s elementary school and a lively servant in various churches over the years, working with both preschoolers and adolescents. Special circumstances led to more than a decade-long homeschooling endeavor, where Flower became a lover of knowledge. These undertakings became her passion and joy, but underneath it all was an unsuspecting ploy.
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My Ugly - Flower
2016 Flower. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 02/23/2016
ISBN: 978-1-5049-8168-2 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-5049-8167-5 (e)
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Contents
Preface
Dedication
Chapter 1 Who’s Your Daddy?
Chapter 2 Debauchery
Chapter 3 It’s all Fun and Games Until Someone Gets Hurt…
Chapter 4 Hoping for a Friendly Face
Chapter 5 Waiting on a Savior
Chapter 6 Were You Born in a Barn?No, But I Was Raised in One.
Chapter 7 My Apologies…
Chapter 8 Vertigo
Chapter 9 Love and Hate
Chapter 10 Peace Break
Chapter 11 Surprise!
Chapter 12 Independence
Chapter 13 Back on the Ranch
Chapter 14 Ballistic
Chapter 15 All I Ever Wanted!
Chapter 16 Are You My Mother?
Preface
It’s the summer of 2014 and I just finished a Cry Fest while running on the treadmill and watching motivational videos on YouTube; Lilou Mace’s interview with Jack Canfield, Brian Johnson’s Philosopher’s Notes on Thresholds of the Mind by Bill Harris and finally, my favorite, a remarkable woman whom I met in person at a phenomenal, life changing communication seminar in San Diego. Her eyes marked my soul with a resounding, Get with it girl and lets run together!
her name, Lisa Nichols. Now, as I watch her at Awesomeness Fest, I cry. I cry because I know what I have to do and it’s going to hurt.
Do what? Share my ugly.
Why? Because, my ugly is what’s been holding me back from living my truest dreams of success and personal fulfillment; I’ve tried moving on
and getting over it
, but My Ugly is who I am and it’s holding me down like an iron ball and chain. So, I’m ready to change that. I’m ready to put my past to work for me AND EVEN make it bless my future. I encourage you to do the same. I’m convinced that if I don’t do this, then I’m thwarting your dreams as well, because without action on my part, I can’t influence you to move through your inner pain in search of freedom. For too long I’ve tried to pretend that this shit
doesn’t exist, but pretending isn’t serving me like a reality check would.
What is my ugly?
Warning: My Ugly is the raw, uncensored, true accounts of grotesque sexual abuse I’ve suffered and the horrific witness of intense violence to which I was exposed.
For the longest time I thought publishing my story would be to glorify evil, but then I realized how atrocities don’t generally appeal to others as a celebration and therefore neither would my story to you, and if it does, God help you.
So, now I lay my ugly in the pages before you in hopes that you‘ll receives impetus to release the ugly of your own past, unlock the truest beauty within and soar. Even if only one person is touched and rescued from despair by reading this, then baring all my shame is worth it, because you’re worth it. Read that again; YOU ARE WORTH IT; even if I’m the only one. That’s what makes me write.
Along my journey, I’ve encountered people with even more arduous battles to overcome than my own. And my hope in writing this is to shed light on the treasures I’ve uncovered, and am still uncovering, in the process of crawling my way to freedom. Every priceless trait I’ve found along the way, you also have within you, whether you know it or not. By design, each of us has a power source to tap; an innate ability to persevere, evolve, and be made better by every challenge that besets us. We also have access to an immense personal reservoir of peace. No one can take these things away from us, for they only exist because we do.
As we sojourn through the relics of my past and I dig up treasures, I’ll strive to put them to immediate and appropriate use. I hope you’ll glean and do the same. Together, we’ll build confidence, become more resilient and make a way where there seems to be no way. Let’s get this journey started!
Dedication
This book is dedicated first and foremost to my older sister, Azurdee. She endured much greater trauma than I, and she still did all