Loud Thoughts of Emotional Silence

By Xlibris US

To some people this may just be another poetry book, but to me this is an actual glimpse into my life. My trials, tribulations, and personal issues that I have endured in my life while battling with Bi-Polar disorder. My disorder and personal issues have been used as my inspiration ever since publishing my last book The Evolution of Love on February 23, 2012. This book was put together to speak on behalf of those who cannot, the people who have personal issues and are scared to talk about them. The people who are apprehensive to vent their true feelings because of how they may be outcast by society. This book is not intended to glorify or condone dark actions to or for any of my readers. I just want to serve as a vessel for my readers so they know no matter how hard things may be there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel no matter how far away it may seem. A wise poet once told me Poetry is beautiful. It has no beginning or end. It is abstract and serves as intellectual documentation for raw emotions. I agree with this 100% because poetry is not just therapeutic, it is an art form that does not discriminate by race, religion, size or geographic location. Thanks to poetry I have found ways to creatively stimulate my mind by channeling raw emotions to paper and also feeding information to my brain by studying those poets whom I have the pleasure to work with and those greats that have come before me. Thankfully I have a very strong support system in my corner like my mother, sister, and wife. I also want to thank my biggest supports who are my daughters Eyana, Nevaeh, Savina, and the newest addition to the family my son Adrian A.J Alexander.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jul 15, 2014
• ISBN: 9781499046984

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Copyright © 2014 by H. Jerome Alexander.

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Rev. date: 07/16/2014

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Contents

Acknowledgements

Karma

Today

Lost

Alone

Depression

Alter Ego

Dear Heart

Play Ground

The Trade

The Mirror

Random Thoughts

Eyes of Mines

Fighting With All of My Heart

A Sinners Plea

Art In Motion

Left Alone

Cave of Darkness

I’m Sorry

Good ~Vs~ Evil

Empty Thoughts

Veil of Obscurity

Falling

Brain Storm

Can you see?

Behind The Cloak and Dagger

State of Mind

My Reality

Pray for me

Will I Be Remembered?

Dark Feelings

Free Fall

Existence

My Other Home

Spiritual Confinement

Evil Temptation

Hidden Tears

Miscommunication

Lost Mind

The Answer

Dark Place

The Feeling

Two Faces

Realization

Riddled Mind

Abstract Views

Sleep

The Strangeness of Normality

Through My Eyes

Final Breath

Lost Reflection

Alone

Untold Story

The Puppet Boy

Morbid Hopes

My Enigma

Grandma

Thank You

Forgive me God

Acknowledgements

First I would like to give thanks and praises to God for allowing me to have such a strong support system behind me and proving to me time and time again when I am in my darkest place in life I am not alone and if I believe in him he will light the way for me. Second, I would like to thank my Mother Karen J. Alexander, I live day in and day out to hopefully live to be HALF of the person that you are. Your countless conversations, and leadership by example is more than any son could ever ask for thank you mom…I Love you with all of my heart from the bottom of my heart. To my baby sister Lynasia M. Alexander baby before I learned how to be a man, before I learned how to be a husband or a father I was a big brother thank you for your love and support I love you.

Third I would like to thank my beautiful wife Ashley A. Alexander. Ashley I can honestly say with you in my life I can now say that I have experienced happiness and true joy. Your love, dedication, respect and loyalty towards me and our children is something that is un parallel. You really are my ying and I’m your yang, thank you for balancing me out and keeping me focused when I felt the need to quit or give up it was you that kept me determined and focused thank you so much for dealing and putting up with me and my non-sense. I Love you to the Moon and back. The next person I would like to thank is a fellow Poet, Gentlemen, Friend and little brother; Michael E. Burnside. Mike we seemed to have