Saving You Is Killing Me: Loving Someone with an Addiction
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"Don't let someone else's problem destroy the person you were meant to be. You have the right to live a peaceful and fulfilled life full of love! In the book Saving You Is Killing Me: Loving Someone with an Addiction, Andrea Seydel uses the scientific study of human flourishing and happiness to help you restore joy and teaches the reader how to struggle well through the challenges of addiction. You will learn the power of advocating for yourself and how your journey starts by taking back your power and shifting the focus onto you, not your addicted loved one. Seydel brings a wealth of support, lived experience, and her knowledge of positive psychology to help you prioritize your well-being and safeguard your mental health." -Louisa Jewell MAPP
Do you love someone with an addiction? Are you struggling?
There is no mistaking it; addiction is a worldwide epidemic. People who struggle with addiction are not the only ones who feel the impact. If you know someone caught in the grips of addiction, you are undoubtedly living your own nightmare. You are probably desperate to find answers, scrambling to figure out what to do next and losing yourself in the process. Feeling hurt, broken and exhausted.
Watching someone in active addiction is like mourning the loss of someone still alive. It is incredibly sad, confusing, and draining. The effects of addiction are rarely limited to the person with the addiction. Everyone around is affected in some way, and often it is family members or partners forced to pick up the broken pieces, make excuses, and potentially endure all types of abuse. The second-hand impact and havoc of addiction are often overlooked and underestimated.
Are you done with coming second to addiction? Are you trapped in the line of fire and tired of being on an emotional rollercoaster? Or have you lost sight of your own life in the drama of tending to someone else?
On the surface, Saving You Is Killing Me: Loving Someone with an Addiction is about navigating the path to freedom and a lifetime of healing, resilience, and happiness. But if you dig deeper, it is about creating a life you love, seeing your value, knowing your worth and being inspired to live a life that is better integrated with the person you are meant to be.
As a leading voice advancing the science of applied Positive Psychology and the art of well-being, Andrea Seydel is devoted to sharing the science of resilience and ways to enhance your life even through struggle. Trauma and challenges are a fact of life; navigating the turmoil of loving someone with an addiction can be extremely damaging; Seydel teaches the reader how to struggle well and build resilience. Saving You Is Killing Me: Loving Someone with an Addiction offers new hope for reclaiming your life. Seydel provides insights and learning opportunities for self-healing, recovery, and resilience that foster empowerment.
When you know it's time and are ready to prioritize your well-being and safeguard mental health despite someone else's addiction, Andrea Seydel's book, podcast, and community will support you on the journey back to you. Saving You Is Killing Me: Loving Someone with an Addiction is a helpful community to provide light to a dark path, so you don't feel alone through this challenge. You don't have to do this alone. Let's get started on the journey back to you.
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- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5Full transparency: I didn’t make it past the second chapter.
First, this book is full of grammatical errors and misspelled words. It was painstaking to try to untangle the grammar to comprehend the point the author was trying to make.
Second, this book is an unemotional, dry compilation of statements on addiction and self-care with no storyline or flow.
Third, there are endless blanket statements made about addicts and little regard is given to the fact that every situation is different and that we are all individuals which made the message of the book largely unrelatable.
Honestly you could Google facts about addiction and how it affects loved ones and benefit just as much as you would by reading the first two chapters.
I won’t speak for the rest of the book, hopefully it got better but I won’t be spending my limited free time on it.
Book preview
Saving You Is Killing Me - Andrea Seydel
Chapter One
It’s Not Supposed to Be This Way: Reclaim Your Power and Build Resilience
Ships don’t sink because of the water around them; ships sink because of the water that gets in them. Don’t let what is happening around you get inside you and weigh you down. — Adage
In this chapter, you will discover:
The realities of addiction.
Insights into what you Do have control over.
What is recovery, and who benefits from recovery?
What is resilience, and why is it essential to regain your well-being?
What the science of well-being is, and how human flourishing can help you.
What is the concept of struggling well?
What self-advocacy is and why you must advocate for yourself.
Let’s embark on a journey back to you, your joy, and your happiness while facing adversity so you can struggle well.
Facing The Adversity of Addiction
Adversity is a regular part of life, and no person is immune to challenges. Addiction brings darkness, confusion, and turmoil, to a new level. It is incredibly taxing and beyond painful to love someone with, or have lost someone to, addiction. I bet you feel taken down, depleted, and broken and think quite literally, Saving You Is Killing Me. Loving someone with addiction was one of the biggest struggles I have ever endured. There comes a time when you need to decide to save yourself. Facing adversity head-on while building my resilience became my lifeline. Since you can’t just bury your head in the sand and pretend things are okay, learning how to support yourself through this time of adversity becomes powerful.
Loving someone with an addiction is hard!
Sometimes, life is just hard. I can imagine you never anticipated being in a situation where you love someone with an addiction. No one ever really understands the adversity that comes with loving someone with addiction until they are in that situation themselves. Despite the sleepless nights, stress, and continual worry, I bet all too often, you wake up, face the world, and put on a brave face. I know I did. You might feel like you are going down the longest and most challenging road, and it might be getting to the point where being strong is the only option. But it’s getting harder and harder to stay strong. You might even catch yourself lying to others that all is well.
I’m here to tell you that feeling broken, traumatized, and exhausted from loving someone with an addiction does not mean you are weak! I bet you are bearing the weight and burden of more than you care to admit while holding back the heartache of continued disappointment and stress. I know how you feel. You might feel uncertainty, anxiety, and loneliness that are breaking you down or have already broken you down.
I am here to tell you that this vulnerability is not a weakness! Taking back your power is not only about being strong and getting through this challenge - it is about becoming more resilient and compassionate while taking good care of yourself. Loving someone with an addiction can be traumatic. And I want you to know it’s okay to admit this is one of the hardest things to navigate. It was for me too.
It is common to experience shame, anxiety, sleepless nights, and emotional pain that often stem from loving someone struggling with addiction. No matter what happens with your loved one, know that you can regain your power. You can prioritize your self-care and your healing. When addiction takes over a marriage or relationship, you may hardly recognize the person you once fell in love with. You may have lost yourself too. When addiction takes your child away, stress and worry can take over your life. Anyone married to, in a relationship with, or a parent of an addict knows that addiction is destructive. Addiction is damaging.
It’s not supposed to be this way.
Just like the elephant in the room would be large and distracting, you can’t wish it away, but you can say, I see it. I am suffering. And I care about myself.
If you are grieving or suffering, it is common to isolate yourself and push yourself through trying to be ‘strong.’ The bottom line is that it is devastating and damaging when you love someone with an addiction. My goal is that this book offers you an excellent source of loving support while you endure the pain that often comes when you love or have lost someone to addiction. You need to know that you are not alone and that there are many things you can do to build yourself back up. But let’s first look at the realities of addiction.
The Realities of Addiction
It is common to misunderstand why or how other people become addicted. It is widely assumed to think that those with addiction may lack willpower or moral decision-making and could stop simply by choosing to stop. In reality, addiction is a very complex and, some would say, disease. According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, Addiction changes the brain in ways that make quitting hard, even for those who want to. From the science, research, and professionals in their fields, the consensus is that some realities of addiction might offer you a degree of support.
When you are armed with these realities, advocating for yourself, healing, and regaining your power becomes possible. Many psychologists, counsellors and recovery groups suggest variations of the following truths of addiction:
You did not cause the addiction: You are not at fault. As a parent or a significant other of someone addicted, it is widespread to think that you have done something to cause the addiction. Not to mention, people addicted are very likely to blame others for their use. Still, it is merely an attempt to justify the addict’s actions. It is essential to recognize that it’s not about you. Knowing that you are not the cause of the addiction lifts any guilt, shame and blame that often is associated with addiction.
Truth: Nothing you do causes addiction in another person.
No one expects to become an addict: Although addictions start with a choice, many people who try a drug, for example, will not get hooked. There’s no easy way to understand what causes one person to become addicted compared to another. It’s essential to recognize that no one expects to become an addict. This awareness can compassionately help with understanding addiction.
Truth: No one expects addiction to take hold.
You cannot control their addiction: You can’t control an addict’s behaviour. No matter how much you try to control another’s behaviour, regardless of addiction, you do not have control over any other human. Many consider addiction a disease that starts with a choice and heavily affects brain chemistry. You are not able to control your loved one who is struggling with addiction. Addiction is more powerful than you.
Truth: You have no control over another human’s addiction.
You cannot cure their addiction: Unfortunately, there is no simple cure for addiction. You can do nothing to save or fix the addicted person. They have to want to seek help. They have to choose recovery. You cannot do this for another human. As much as you want and desire to help your loved one get better, nothing you do will help cure their addiction.
Truth: You cannot cure your loved one’s addiction.
You are powerless over their addiction: Powerlessness is often mistaken for weakness, but this is a vital realization. As a caring human, you might believe you need to take control, be proactive, fix problems, and help others, especially when they are struggling. Admitting powerlessness involves leaning into surrendering the things you can’t control. Addiction makes no exception. You may be powerless over an addiction but not over your mental health and prioritizing your well-being. I’ve never liked the expression: you are powerless; it sounds hopeless. Remember, you might be powerless when it comes to someone else’s addiction, but you are influential in your own life and well-being. The sad truth is that there isn’t much you can do for your addicted loved one. The great truth is you can save yourself, prioritize your well-being, and safeguard your mental health.
Truth: You are powerless over their addiction but powerful over yourself.
Knowing the realities of addiction helps you see what you can’t do and have no control over. This book is about regaining your power and building resilience so you can live life happier. Now, let’s look at what you do have control over and what you can do.
What You Do Have Control Over, And What You Can Do
Do you feel like no matter what you are doing isn’t working? If you love someone with an addiction, you no doubt feel overwhelmed and desperate to offer help, wishing they will come to their senses. It is expected for you to question why the addict loves their addiction more than they love you, and consequently, you are hoping the addict will see how much addiction is destroying their life.
It becomes essential to save yourself. It’s hard to love an addicted person and stay healthy. The idea that you cannot control, change, or fix
another person is disheartening. Still, you often keep trying while losing yourself in the process. You might notice no matter what you try, it isn’t working. I was there too. Going up against addiction is challenging and often a no-win situation or losing battle.
I remember thinking: If only you could love someone hard enough to make them stop doing drugs.
It is common to think: They do not love me enough to stop.
Addiction brings unrelenting heartache. The struggle that comes with loving someone with an addiction can be very damaging for those around it. That is why they say addiction is a family disease. It often leaves bystanders feeling helpless and in the line of fire.
Although this book is written non-denominational, there is great value in The Serenity Prayer. Please take or leave any part that resonates with you.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
The Serenity Prayer means letting go of situations beyond your control and taking action toward things within your control. In other words, letting go of trying to control addiction, focusing on yourself and your well-being, and safeguarding your mental health.
When armed with the realities of addiction and the message of the Serenity Prayer, you can start to advocate for yourself. Please don’t wait for your situation to get worse or for your addicted loved one to seek recovery. Choose yourself now. Regain your power. You are worthy of self-care, self-love, and self-compassion.
Taking care of yourself is not giving up on them.
Taking care of yourself is not giving up on them. It simply means you love yourself enough to take good care of yourself. I distinctly remember the turning point; I had an anxiety attack and a mental breakdown. I can’t express the hurt in my heart, the anger in my fists, and the confusion in my mind. I remember feeling broken. I had to surrender to the realities of addiction. I had to save myself. I had to stop fighting for the relationship we once had, the person he used to be, and make my life about healing and regaining my sparkle. I am here to help you do the same.
I know that it is so painful not being able to help when the person you love is destroying themselves. To watch someone you love go down such a dark path and become an empty vessel of a human is devastating. But you cannot allow them to pull you into their muck or quicksand. You will both struggle if you get pulled onto the roller coaster. You were not born to suffer. You deserve peace, joy, and a sense of safety. It is not supposed to be this way.
That’s the problem with putting addiction first: you’ve been coming in second! Self-care is critical when you feel empty and have nothing left to give. When enough is enough, and you are ready to put yourself first, or at least attempt to prioritize yourself, your healing will begin. You deserve a break. Self-care is not selfish. It is necessary! You make less space for the addiction when you fill up with self-care. It does not mean you are giving up on your addicted loved one. It means you are also not giving up on yourself. Caring for yourself never takes away from others. It is essential to learn to create inner calm and peace within yourself instead of focusing on