Healing Through Creative Therapy: Illustrations and Text from a Survivor
By Julee Kai
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Throughout this book experience how one feels so alone during periods of struggling with abandonment, neglect, denial, pain, shame, guilt, self-hatred, no sense of self, dissociation, suicide ideology, among others.
All types of abuse; verbal, physical, sexual, and psychological/emotional; through acts of bullying, ridicule, bias actions, violence, etc.; can bestow inadequate feelings onto the victim of any age, race, sexual preference, religion, or nationality.
These illustrations and text came out through my hands, at times even my left hand, and mostly throughout the night as I kept a pad and pencil on the floor next to my bed. It was during times of memories too painful to speak of that these were released from me. I would bring these with me to therapy, hand them to my therapist, and then we slowly spoke of them.
I assure you this was a tremendous, powerful tool that helped me to move through difficult issues.
Many times mental health treatment was and is unheard of or not available at all. People did what they had to do with the resources at hand. Often, this was/is denial and survival.
Please keep in mind that these illustrations and text are not to incriminate anyone. It is to help those abused connect to feelings they are presently experiencing.
Julee Kai
Throughout this book experience how one feels ssooo alone during periods of struggling with abandonment, neglect, pain, shame, guilt, self-hatred, no sense of self, among others. All types of abuse; emotional, sexual, verbal, and mental' through acts of aggression, bullying, ridicule, bias actions, crimes, etc.; can bestow feelings onto the victim of any age, race, sexual preference, or religion. The text and illustrations here came out through my hands, and at times even my left hand, and mostly throughout the night as I kept a pad and pencil on the floor next to my bead. It was during times of memories too painful to speak of that these were released from me. I would bring these with me to therapy and slowly spoke of them. I assure you this was a tremendous, powerful tool that helped me to move through difficult issues. Many times mental health treatment was and is unheard of or not available at all. People did what they had to do with the resources at hand. Often, this was denial and survival. Please keep in mind that these texts and illustrations are not to incriminate anyone. It is to help the abused connect to feelings they are presently experiencing.
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Healing Through Creative Therapy - Julee Kai
Copyright © 2011 Julee Kai
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Contents
Introduction
Disclosure
Bits and Pieces
I am Different
For Candy
Night Terror
The Coal Bin
Confusion
Mommy, Where Are You?
Vivid Flashback at the YMCA
Where are You?
Inner Child and Me
Who’s that Face?
Behind the Chair
Some More
Not Fair
Pre – Suicidal
Feeling Bad
You Turned Me Away …
Disappointments, Judgments, Validation
I’m Confused
What is Love?
What do I think of me?
Something Happened
Who am I?
Paralyzed by Fear
Defeated
Wrong Way Love
WHO? Me?
God, Why Did You Do This?
Livin’?
New Perspective
Out of My Hands
As I breathe, life passes me by …
She Failed You
Your Loss, Not Mine
No One Cries for Me
Who was that?
For Me?
Do You Love Me?
Imagine …
Losses:
Living Under the Influence of Abuse
Depression
I Want
I Learned
S U I C I D E …
Dear Abuse …
Meet Me
Need You
Self-Rescue
Therapy
Nurturing Independence
So Be It
Mine
My Own Footsteps
To Be …
Parents
Mommy - Daddy
My Quotations
This compilation of illustrations and text is to help others who have suffered abuse understand that they are not alone. Having been abused physically, verbally, mentally, and sexually plays a huge part in the development of the child. It affects their behavior for their entire life. I call it living under the influence of abuse.
It is through dedicated, hard work with a competent therapist that recovery is possible. This process can take years. Eventually, one is rewarded by becoming a ‘thriver.’
Missy 143
Introduction
As a child I always lived in fear of my father for he was an alcoholic and had periods of extreme rage; throwing things and belting me. I would hide behind a chair. Mother was subjected to his rage as well. Many a dinner would end up on the wall. Foul language and sexual gestures were daily happenings. This was the norm.
He’d also tickle torture and chew
or gnaw at my body, my chest and belly with his mouth bringing me to tears while tightly holding my arms so I couldn’t move.
Many nights I recall mother sitting upstairs with her parents. I was left with father. At times he’d just stand up, take his belt off, and hit me with it. No warning
words spoken. Then he’d call me a sonofabitch and a fuckin’ whore. I was young. Sometimes during the summer he would buy ice cream from the truck at night for both of us. I felt special.
Mother did not believe me when I told her uncle nate was touching my boobies. She disregarded it saying, You must be mistaken. He wouldn’t hurt you. He loves(?) you.
So, he continued until I decided not to go to the candy store anymore.
She also told me, You killed Grandpa. You hurt your knee. He worried about you. He had a heart attack and died.
I was ten.
Another uncle would grab my upper arms, bring my chest to his chest, and slide it back and forth. He’d sound an awful moan that resembled his eating his most delicious meal – ever.
My family constantly remarked about my body being top heavy. Brother always laughed.
However, it was only when Ms. Principal groped
my buttocks at the end of a local Board of Education meeting May 11, 1993, that I immediately began to have flashbacks of being molested. I didn’t say anything. I froze. I hoped the floor would open beneath me allowing me to fall through. I did report this the very next morning. I waited until Sunday to tell my husband. I didn’t think anyone would listen since no one had before. I began to lose weight. She touched me again during Field Day in June. I entered therapy. During the summer came the first official breakdown. She touched me a third time